Mi Cai did not say anything about Yan Zhuomei's words from the moral high ground, her expression was solemn and silent, this silence finally became my burden, I know that these words have some effect on her, otherwise she will not have such a change I dare not imagine, when Yan Zhuomei talks about my absurd past, will she still have the will to fight, and will she be angry with me again?

Over the years,What I have experienced most is the unpredictability of human nature,There is no one in this world who is immutable and unshakable,I can see the long-standing hidden danger between myself and Mi Cai,Although this hidden danger is gradually diluted in the deeper and deeper feelings,But it has not been eradicated,Once it is catalyzed,The consequences are unimaginable

So, worried alone, alone gloomy, I didn't say anything, so in silence drove the car to Suzhou City, I parked the car in front of the city's most upscale hotel, and after the car stopped, Mi Cai said to Yan Zhuomei: "Mr. Yan, we won't participate in today's luncheon, I think the communication has already been communicated, so in the afternoon I plan to go back to Xuzhou with Zhaoyang, we are waiting for you to come back, delayed a lot of the work at hand, I hope Mr. Yan will not bother us again, I will take responsibility for my choice today! ”

I thought Yan Zhuomei would refuse, but I didn't want her to just smile and replied: "It's no problem for you to go back to Xuzhou, but I want to have a meal with you alone tonight, and it's not too late for you to go back tomorrow." ”

Mi Cai and I didn't know what her idea was for a while, no one answered, she said: "It's decided that we will have a meal together in the evening, if you can't even agree to this request, I think in the afternoon, I will go to Xuzhou with you, by the way, see the old friends in Xuzhou!" ”

Mi Cai looked at Yan Zhuomei with a cloudy expression, but she had nothing to do and finally said: "Okay, since you want to eat with us in the evening, then we will entertain you in the old house, I don't know if Mr. Yan you understand, this old house has been bought back when I just returned to China, you are welcome to come and be a guest, Zhaoyang and I will prepare a meal and wait for you." ”

Yan Zhuomei's unfazed face finally had a fluctuation in expression, her eyes dodged for a moment, and after a period of silence, she replied with a complicated voice: "Okay, then we will see you at night." She opened the car door and walked towards Mi Zhongde and the others who were waiting in the rain, I subconsciously looked at the hotel standing in the rain, and then stepped on the accelerator and drove away from this place that did not belong to us

Back to the old house, Mi Cai and I just had some lunch, no one spoke in the middle, it seems that from the moment we met Yan Zhuomei, we were bound by an unknown force, we couldn't talk and laugh as usual, and the rain outside the window that refused to stop was just like our mood now, and we were little by little pierced by its "ticking" sound

After eating, I washed the dishes and chopsticks in the kitchen, and Mi Cai stood on the balcony, arranging the bonsai that we didn't have to take with us, and then squatted there and watched until I finished washing the dishes and chopsticks, and she still stopped there, and I came behind her out of curiosity, only to find that she had done nothing but look at a withered flower stem

I finally asked her, "Are you enlightened?" I've been squatting here for a long time! ”

Mi Cai pulled me, asked me to squat down with her, and asked me, "Zhaoyang, will this pot of flowers still sprout and bloom?" ”

"Of course it will, withering in winter and sprouting in spring, this is an eternal law, unless its roots are broken and dead"

Mi Cai looked up at me and asked, "Is it that as long as the roots are not broken, there is still hope for growth?" ”

"Of course, after a winter's suffering, when next spring comes, as long as you remember to water it, it will bloom more brilliantly than before."

"Well, if our love also has roots, will you let this root wither away like the appearance?"

I finally know what Mi Cai meant, and I know what she has been thinking about since just now, this winter is really too bad for us, it seems to use its cold to wither the qiē around us, this withering makes us feel powerless and hesitant, so what we have been doing is to try to protect the integrity of the roots, although it is struggling to support and suffer, but spring is also coming, as long as we keep this last breath, we can wait for the day of regrowth

I finally said to Mi Cai: "Our roots will not wither, because we have been working very hard to protect it, let it be buried deep in the soil, as long as we endure and do not expose, the axe wielded by others will never cut its lifeline, so we must not fall short at the end of winter, okay?" ”

Mi Cai may have squatted for too long, her legs were a little numb, so she sat directly on the ground, beating her legs, and said to me: "You have to remember how much hope you gave me today, if I were a flower, I would only want to plant it in your pot in this life." ”

I raised my head and exhaled heavily, so the stone in my heart finally fell to the ground, I was really afraid that Mi Cai would be shaken, afraid that she would not be able to resist Yan Zhuomei's repeated pressure!

If she really went to the United States with Yan Zhuomei, my life would definitely turn gray, because, as long as I think of her living with other men, starting a family, and having children, I have a feeling of suffocation, and she has subtly become the oxygen for me to live!

In the afternoon, the rain was still falling, Mi Cai and I went to the nearby supermarket to buy some ingredients for entertaining Yan Zhuomei in the evening, and when we got home, the two of us washed the dishes together and put them in the refrigerator, and then sat on the sofa, waiting for the night to fall, waiting for the moment when the door was knocked.

Mi Cai lay on her back on the sofa, she habitually put her legs on my body, I was afraid that her feet would be cold, so I put it in my sweater, and turned up the temperature of the air conditioner, so that the room and the outside contrast, as if a small paradise full of warmth, the rain that can't stop, has nothing to do with us at all, because when the night is about to come, the light that lights up is our sun

I lit a cigarette, took a puff, spit it out heavily, and finally said to Mi Cai, "I think I should make some changes!" ”

"Huh? How to change? ”

I took another puff of cigarette and replied: "Actually, I have always known that I have those defects, perhaps, because the environment in which I have lived since I was a child is too loose and too rebellious, I have never felt the malice and oppression of this world until I left school, only to find that people like me are completely out of place in the trend of society, but I have not actively sought change, this kind of bigotry has brought me a lot of bad consequences, I should try to integrate into this world, Because I can't become an artist like Robben and Xia Fanye, maverick, resistance and rejection will not bring anything to me as an ordinary person, I should really struggle, first make a career in Xuzhou, and seek greater development, I want to be a man who can make you raise your head and face anyone, those worldly ridicule must not happen to us again! And that's the security I want to give you! ”

Mi Cai looked at me and finally replied, "It's hard for you!" ”

"Tell me, why do you think so?"

"Because you don't have the genes of struggle, some thoughts have been ingrained in your perception of the world!"

I nodded: "You're right, I don't have such genes, but I'm willing to change for you, as well as our future family, I don't want our children to lose at the starting line, I hope in his eyes, his father is a person who can be worshipped, this is also the motivation I have to struggle, I won't do worse than anyone else, I have already thought about it, after returning to Xuzhou this time, I began to set up my own team, and then seriously choose a project with room for development to operate!" ”

"Is it still as idealistic as Luku?"

I shook my head and replied: "Of course not, in fact, I have always understood that if Luku is not supported by strong resources behind it, there is basically no room for survival, and if these resources are used in other projects, the benefits may be much higher than that of Luku!" Now I have no conditions to let the market cater to my entrepreneurial dream with idealism! ”

A woman's thinking is really elusive, and after Mi Cai was silent for a long time, she completely detached herself from the original topic and asked, "Will you feel very uncomfortable after Jian Wei has done so much for you, and in the end it ends like this and you are trapped by my side and can't do anything for her?" ”

Even Mi Cai recognized Jian Wei's dedication to me, my heart trembled in pain, I can't forget jì, on the day Lu Ku was established, Jian Wei held a wine glass and spoke proudly in front of everyone, at that time, she was so confident, so invincible and now, she can only watch her painstaking business slowly collapse, but no one can save her, she can only grit her teeth and sink on the edge of pain

I finally said to Mi Cai, "Can I tell the truth?" ”

"Whether you say it or not, I know that sometimes, I also wonder, what are the traits in you that make us so unable to let go? It's a contradiction, what makes me unable to let go is your affection, but what can't give me a sense of security is also your affection Zhaoyang, I really hope that you can use your affection in the most correct place, then our future will be smooth sailing, you know? If a man can't grasp the scale of affection, it will be abusive, and at the same time, it will release a lot of ambiguous signals to women I think: If I were Le Yao at the beginning, when you chose to give up Xuzhou and go back to Suzhou to help her run a bar that was on the verge of collapse, and help her repay the debts that were not within my ability, I would also want to tie my life to you, and then there would be so many seemingly ambiguous and ambiguous mistakes! ”

"In your opinion, it was a mistake for me to return to Suzhou from Xuzhou for Le Yao?"

"It's a mistake, but it's crooked, and it binds our lives together!"

When the matter of leaving Xuzhou was talked about again, I was completely dumbfounded, I saw the power of choice again, if I hadn't returned to Suzhou, my current wife would be Li Xiaoyun, Fang Yuan would not have had the opportunity to meet Mi Lan, Mi Cai may already be Wei Ran's wife, help Wei Ran run the family industry well, and work together to firmly control Zhuo Mei, and once I get married, there will be no Jian Wei's disputes, and she will probably be Xiang Chen's woman with peace of mind

But did I make this choice, was it fate, or was it an accident? Whether it is the former or the latter, it makes me infinitely embarrassed at this time, my heart seems to be aging a little bit, and I am afraid of having a similar choice in my life! And Mi Cai seems to be using her wisdom to make me look back, and then look up and see beyond!

This is a nearly 4,000-word chapter, two chapters written in one chapter.