The car drove quickly from the city to the suburbs, at this time I seemed to be squeezed by two invisible forces, I could even feel my own consciousness in the overwhelmed, gradually deformed, I was extremely eager to liberate, even if it was very short.

I came to the familiar moat again, and as soon as I had stopped the car, I ran down the embankment as if I were fleeing, and then roared at the river, and I was disgusted by this choice, until I was exhausted, and then sat back on the lawn with a residual reluctance and anger.

I gasped, then lay flat, looking at the blue sky in a daze, as if I saw two pictures, one was the joy of my marriage to Mi Cai, and the other was the loss of Jumei's soul after Mi Cai's loss So, I was even more tormented, torturing myself whether I should continue to be selfish, and whether a self who kept asking Mi Cai could really be comparable to Zhuomei's status in her heart?

Time passed little by little in my agony, and finally I took out my phone from my pocket and dialed CC, I wanted her to bring some beer, it was noon, and I was really hungry.

Soon, CC found me by the moat, but unfortunately she didn't bring much beer, just two cans, and a lot of food.

I picked up one of the cans of beer, tore it open and took a sip, then complained to her, "Why did you bring two cans?" ”

"Didn't you say you were hungry? Of course I brought the Chinese food for you, two cans of beer are appetizing, what are you doing with so much drinking? ”

I drank one of the cans of beer and lay flat on the grass, unable to open my eyes from the midday sun, and never dared to look at the blue sky again.

CC patted me on the shoulder and asked with concern, "What's wrong with you?" A man ran to the moat. ”

"It's fine."

"What's okay! Every time I come to the moat, I look like I'm dead, think about how many times I've been here to pick you up after you broke up with Janeway a few years ago, and you're getting better when you're drunk, and you know to call me before you drink. ”

I sat up nervously and suddenly sat up from the ground, and then stared at CC, who subconsciously leaned back and asked, "Why are you looking at me like that?" ”

"Would you be surprised if Mi Cai and I were no longer together one day?"

CC didn't answer me, but asked, "Don't you think you're weird?" What the hell is wrong with you? ”

If I tell sùCC the truth, she will inevitably tell Mi Cai, and now I haven't figured this thing out, and of course I don't want Mi Cai to know that Wei Ran has approached me, because I am afraid that if I don't think through enough, I will cause a profound mistake to say it.

So I gritted my teeth and said to CC, "Then I don't ask." ”

CC didn't intend to let me go, and asked, "You called me all over, can't you tell me something?" ”

"I'm calling you because I want to have some wine, and don't you think the scenery by the river in late spring is beautiful, and I don't want to be alone."

"If you don't want to say it, forget it, anyway, you will always talk a lot of nonsense, serious things, but you always hold back in your heart and think about it over and over again, and in the end you often can't figure it out!"

Without words, I tore open another beer, but this time I didn't drink it all, but took small sips, and then as CC said, I thought about this thing that must be held in my heart for the time being

After drinking two cans of beer, I finished the lunch brought by CC and lay down and rested for a while, still reluctant to leave the moat that I once regarded as a safe haven until my phone rang

I rolled over and took out my phone from my pocket, but I was surprised to find that it was Robben calling, I answered the phone and asked, "I haven't been in touch for some days, how are you living in the mountains?" ”

"We're going to Xitang soon, you hurry up to the station to pick it up."

"What, to Xitang? Also us? ”

"Well, two people, of course it's us!"

I wasn't sure, so I asked tentatively, "And Wei Manwen?" ”

Robben only replied me with a "hmm", but it caused me an unprecedented impact, I think about it, it took us more than three weeks to solve Zhuomei's public relations crisis, and the day agreed between Wei Manwen and Robben has arrived, at this time he brought back Wei Manwen, what does it mean? In confusion, he couldn't help but lower his voice and asked, "Are you back together?" ”

Robben replied to me in another way: "She is not married to Zhou Hang. ”

I looked at CC, who still didn't know anything about it, and my mood suddenly became complicated, and I said to Robben for a long time: "I'm in Suzhou now, you can come to Suzhou." ”

"Okay, then let's transfer directly from Xitang to Suzhou, you will pick us up at the station in about an hour, you have to accompany me to drink high today!"

After finishing the conversation with Robben, I looked at CC again, not knowing how to speak for a long time

CC smiled at me and asked, "Is it Robben's phone call to you?" ”

"Did you hear it all?"

"Did he get back together with Wei Manwen?"

I was silent for a long time before I nodded to her, and then I couldn't bear to look at her expression.

CC laughed with tears: "It's good, how good!" It's what he's always dreamed of! As friends for so many years, we should all be happy for him and Wei Manwen, and the lovers have finally become married! ”

I don't know what to say, but I understand that the more CC talks at this time, the more it hurts, and I just want to cover it up and make myself look stronger.

CC said again: "You are drinking, don't pick them up later, I'll drive to pick them up." ”

"It's okay to let them fight, you can sit here with me for an afternoon, dusk is coming, the scenery here is better!"

CC has already gotten up, but there are no tears in his eyes, and said with a smile: "Actually, I'm not sad, I'm really happy for him, I'll go to the station now, send them my blessings as soon as possible, I think what Robben needs most is also my blessing and relief!" ”

CC was almost on the bank of the river, and I finally sat up, and then shouted to her, "After picking up Robben later, let him come to the moat for me, and we have made an appointment to drink together." ”

"Got it"

CC's voice faded as she faded away, but I saw something called selflessness in her back, compared to her, my love for Mi Cai seems to be a little selfish, knowing that she cares about Zhuo Mei the most, but still refuses to let go, maybe one day she will really hate me! But at this time, I don't seem to have the courage to make her make a choice, because the result may be the one I don't want to bear the most!

I lay alone by the moat from afternoon to dusk, but Robben, who was late, did not disappoint me, carrying a woven bag full of filled beer.

Robben sat down beside me, placed the woven bag between the two of them, took out a can of beer and threw it to me, tore it open himself, touched me and said, "Have fun!" ”

I nodded, drank half a can of beer in one go, and then asked him, "What about Wei Manwen?" ”

"CC is accompanying her to the mall, ready to buy some clothes, you know, she's been in the mountains for too long!"

"But have you ever thought about what kind of mood she would be in when CC helped Wei Manwen pick out clothes? Sue you, there is no more painful smile in this world than a forced smile! ”

Robben was silent for a long time before saying: "Of course I know her feelings, but she doesn't avoid it, just to make herself feel better, because she will be in pain when she puts herself in it, and when the pain is enough, she will be numb, and in the end, for her, all the pain is just a scattered fragment!" ”

"You're sorry CC, you shouldn't have started blindly!"

Robben got up, picked up a stone chip from the ground, and threw it into the river, the stone chip jumped on the surface of the river and ran to the opposite bank, but after all, he still failed to go ashore and disappeared into the moat. ”

"Do you regret it?"

"It's useless to regret it, after all, Manwen has been wronged for 3 years, if it wasn't for that wrong choice at the beginning, there wouldn't be CC today's pain We are all this fucking choice, fuck. Over and over again! ”

I sat up from the lawn and threw another can of beer to Robben, touched one, and said, "Now I'm being chosen to. But I'm not sure I'll be able to choose the right answer."

"Then you're . Exercise. It's set! ”

"yes, I see that you were once . Exercise. It's so miserable, I don't know how to choose! ”

Robben looked at me, and finally said, "Tell me, what is the problem that made you choose?" ”

Robben's relationship with Mi Cai is not close, he will not talk to Mi Cai, so I told him about the meeting with Wei Ran this morning, and then waited for him to use the experience of the past to show me a clear way.

After being silent for a long time, Robben finally said to me: "If it's just that you think that what she values most is Zhuomei, and you choose to give up, then it's the same nature as when I chose to give up Manwen, and then I misunderstood each other for 3 years, and even hurt the original innocent CC, so in order to avoid a stupid choice similar to mine, you should have an open and honest chat with Mi Cai, if she thinks that Zhuomei is irreplaceable, you can still have a great and open-minded reputation if you choose to give up at that time; On the contrary, if Mi Cai cares most about your relationship, and you give up on your own, then you don't owe it as much as I did before. ? ”

"So?"

"So you have to find a chance to talk to Mi Cai, find out what she really thinks, and don't make mistakes too deeply!"

I exhaled deeply, I really should have talked to Mi Cai in the light of Robben's previous experience, and this is the basis for my choice, but will she really value our relationship more than Zhuomei?

Except for her, who knows!