Quicksand between the fingers, flowers falling in the wind.

Ah Chu, I'm afraid you'll let it go......

I'm afraid, because you let go, that is, when there is no love in life and no hope in life, will you disappear like quicksand and flowers......

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The name of the hundred miles of the beginning of Ze, Ze is the world, fortunately the common people. The name of Yuanze is the meaning of Hatsuze.

And the beginning of a hundred miles is the name you gave yourself. Ah Chu, you don't have a name at all.

Ah Chu, you don't know who you are, you only know that you are not Chu Ze, nor Yuan Ze. The place where he was born, hell on earth.

Ten years of life as a non-human, non-demon, and walking dead have made you have a deep and powerless denial of the idea of whether you are still human. Yuan Ze can sleep and escape, and if you escape again, the mind will disappear, the soul will perish, that is, death. You choose to rise up, you choose to survive inhumanely. In your eyes, nothing is more important than being alive. After ten long years of silent darkness, you will finally have time to resent the so-called people who gave you such a fate. Those so-called people who give you the fate that you can't resist and can't change, and let normal people rout and escape, are fake beasts, real demons. In the end, in the long and desperate darkness, you with independent thinking have become the current Baili Chu - the world's most powerful, glamorous, and absurd princess in the eyes of the world, and the cruel and cruel and absolutely powerful His Royal Highness in the eyes of Autumn Leaves.

Originally, the cold snowfields would never bloom, and the creatures in the darkness would never have color. Fate makes the beginning of a hundred miles and the autumn leaves white. Don't ask the reason, don't probe the past. If there is no gathering point, how can we know each other. If there is no fate, how can you be entangled. In the dark, there is a providence. Providence will eventually dye each other's lifelong lovesickness and provoke each other's lifelong sorrow for this fateful encounter......

Your Royal Highness, in your eyes, Xiaobai karma has become your antidote, and then it has become an interesting plaything for the first time in your boring life, and finally in your heart, Xiaobai has taken root and become your lover, although you only say that you like it, you don't like it more deeply. But it is undeniable that when you use the body you care about the most to block the fire and thunder for Xiaobai, you already regard Xiaobai as more important than your own "life". So from what moment did your pallor turn into heat?

I know.

"Xiaolou listened to the spring rain overnight, and sold apricot blossoms in the Ming Dynasty in the deep alley." On the streets of Huainan, you and Xiaobai are like an ordinary couple shopping, and Xiaobai called your name for the first time - A Chu. In your heart, she calls you by name as an affirmation of you as a "person". Regardless of identity, power, return to the most essential human attributes, you have always longed to be a normal person. Those real memories that cannot be forgotten, like abscesses and carbuncles that cannot be healed, always hurt into the bone marrow, reminding you of your inhuman past.

An abscess wounds a carbuncle and needs to be cut open to drain pus and remove the carrion in order to heal. So, it was also on the streets of Huainan that you began to tell your story for the first time. It's obviously a memory that you don't want to touch, but you've been in pain for too long, stuffy for too long, in fact, you don't want someone to share your pain, and you can't share the pain that has passed, you just have a trace of hope, hoping that the person in front of you, who has been in front of you with a protective attitude, can understand your past and still accept you, and you hope to have more entanglements with the person in front of you, and even never be separated or give up. The end of the world is too far, life is too long, this is the first time you want to end your boring life.

Flowers must fall, and the feast must be goodbye. At the end of the strange road, Huainan Ferry. No one can keep what should go, and no one can stop what should come. At the moment of separation, Ah Chu and Xiaobai's departure made you find for the first time that your dark heart gently walked into a touch of color.

Ah Chu, you can despise Yuan Ze's stupidity and innocence, but you can't stop Xiao Bai from putting Yuan Ze in her heart. Kind and beautiful Aze, who doesn't love it. You start to get scared, afraid that Xiaobai will fall in love with someone else, afraid that your life will lose its unique color, so you design Xiaobai to get her body.

You said that you are not afraid and don't care that Xiaobai hates you. But by the lake of the celebrant eunuch, Xiaobai will not even give you hatred. Although she doesn't know who she likes yet, as a normal girl, she is disappointed in Yuan Ze's deception and angry at your design.

But you were still worried, so you didn't hesitate to let Xiaobai beat you to death...... You said that you and Xiaobai have survived in different bad circumstances to this day, and they are the same cruel to yourself. You are more ruthless to yourself in exchange for Xiaobai's slight distress. After that, he used his body to block the fire and thunder in exchange for Xiaobai's guilt and pity. However, distress and guilt are not inseparable love.

The barren plum garden of the Qiu family, at this time, the lovesickness is like snow, and the body is still full. In Xiaobai's heart, there is still no answer.

Xiaobai, do you still remember what you said to Yuan Ze after you were cleared by Ah Chu's calculations: "Let Baili Chu stay away from me, I don't want to see him again......" Yuan Ze replied: "Stay away from this is the dust of the little white donor, cherish and be good, the poor monk will do everything, and will not let Ah Chu appear in front of the donor again." ”

Xiaobai, if your answer is to like pure and beautiful Aze, then will Ah Chu, who has just walked out of the endless desolation and lonely darkness, be more desperate? The tribulation has been so long, life has been so short, and it is more painful to have gained warmth and then lost than to have never received it! At that time, Ah Chu, all over the world, where do you want to go? Nine secluded and ten places, how can they parasitize souls?

Xiaobai, Xiaobai...... If you want to forget about the rivers and lakes with Ah Chuxiang, you will walk an unknown number of roads, walk an unknown number of bridges, and drink an unknown amount of wine in the rest of your life...... Will your heart stay at the age of eighteen, to miss someone you have unconsciously liked deeply?

This has gone through the years, the flowers have been years old, and the river has been every year, but it should be, and the beautiful scenery of the good day is no longer available.

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It's really well written, very good, touched, thank you Qiushui