I fell into contemplation, and then Li Xiaoyun's meticulousness and gentleness and touching made a fragment of it came to my mind, and I understood: I am attached to her, but is that love?

I remembered CC's previous evaluation of me, she said: I am not as thorough as Robben in terms of ideals, and I am not as good as Shang Yuan and Xiang Chen in terms of reality.

At this moment, it seems how pertinent this evaluation is, if I have Robben's persistence in ideals, I will abandon a distracting thought and insist on pursuing the woman with long hair and hanging shoulders, if I have Fang Yuan's cognition and compromise of reality, I will choose Li Xiaoyun and live a down-to-earth life.

But if you can't rely on both sides, you are destined to be so erratic in the face of feelings......

Finally, I said to my mother, who had been waiting for a reply: "Mom, you don't have to worry about the matter between me and Xiaoyun, even if we are barely together, we can't make a package ticket, so we will get married smoothly. ”

"You're just a bastard, after all, you still don't have feelings for Xiao Yun between boyfriend and girlfriend, otherwise you can't hurt her like this."

I don't speak, in fact, my mother is right, not all right, but I don't know how to explain it to her.

"Zhaoyang, I said everything that should be said, and I told you what I shouldn't say, I hope that the day you regret it in the future, don't resent me, a parent, for not reminding you."

"Mom, don't say that, okay? It makes you feel like you're going to give up on my son......"

"Don't talk about it, Zhaoyang...... Otherwise, you can find a more reliable girlfriend than Xiaoyun and bring it back for me to see, otherwise you can do it yourself! ”

"Mom, don't be in a hurry to hang up the phone, I still want to talk to you......"

Before the voice fell, my mother's phone had hung up, and I was stunned for a long time, and then I sent her a message: "Mom...... Do you want me to go back for the New Year? ”

"Wait until you find a more reliable girl than Xiao Yun and come back."

I smiled helplessly, held the phone with my red hand for a long time, and then looked up at the dazzling sun, I didn't even know what I should think about at the moment, so I lay on the bench, covered the sun with one hand, and the wind with the other, and wanted to sleep until the evening.

……

I don't know how long I slept, I felt that someone was pushing me, I woke up vaguely, only to find that it was the little fat man Wei Xiao.

He said to me in a joyful tone: "Big brother, I have been waiting for you in the square for several days, and I finally waited for you!" ”

"You're looking for me?" I said, picking up a cigarette and lighting it.

Wei Xiao nodded emphatically.

"Didn't I leave you a phone number?"

"Lost it."

I took out a pen and paper from my bag and wrote my number to him, and then asked, "Tell me, what's the matter with me?" ”

Wei smiled, smiled and took out two hundred yuan from his pocket and said to me: "Yesterday, a sister gave grandpa a lot of money, saying that it was exchanged for a basket made by grandpa, and then grandpa gave me money and asked me to invite you and the referee's sister to eat KFC!" ”

I understand that the sister who sent the money in Wei Xiao's mouth should be Zhuomei's staff, but she is a little sad, and Mi Cai is already getting farther and farther away from us above the sky at this time.

I smiled and said to Wei Xiao, "Your referee sister is gone, and she doesn't like to play with us anymore." ”

Wei Xiao immediately lowered his head, and said after a while: "But I really want to invite her to eat KFC, or big brother, you can call her, you all have phones." ”

I took a heavy puff of cigarette, looked at the sky in the sun, and then pointed to the sky and said to Wei Xiao: "She is on the plane, and the phone can't reach her." ”

Wei Xiao was about to cry, I patted him on the shoulder and comforted, and said, "She doesn't like to play with us, let's not play with her, just the two of us eat, so that we can eat well and eat enough!" ”

"Alright then, just the two of us can eat, we can eat a lot!"

Wei Xiao is a child's heart in the end, so Mi Cai's departure will not touch him too much after all, but what about me? is so unconcerned on the lips, most of the time in the bottom of my heart.

But he still nodded and smiled: "You are right, one more of her is too much, and one less of her is a lot, let's KFC, let's go." ”

Wei Xiao jumped high, and then tiptoed to walk towards KFC with me in an extremely funny posture.

……

In KFC, Wei Xiao and I asked for a family bucket, very boring than who ate it first, but I lost my appetite, and I was defeated by Wei Xiao, as compensation for losing, I bought a family bucket and gave it to him, he said that this family bucket was brought back to his grandfather to eat...... And then we separated.

Looking at the speed at which Wei Xiao left with the whole family in his arms, I couldn't help but think: What is happiness?

For Wei Xiao, it may be to eat KFC once, and then let his grandfather eat it again.

Call...... What a simple, beautiful happiness this is, but why can't I make it happiness? Maybe I'm asking for too much, maybe I've lost my childhood, maybe I'm not old enough......

After leaving KFC, I went to the bar again, and at this time the company in Suzhou had begun to take annual leave, so the bar that had only been open for a few days ushered in a low ebb of business, and the attendance rate tonight was also 50%, which is much better than before the renovation.

I found a corner, took out my tablet and browsed the Weibo posts that customers had retweeted for the bar, and then evaluated the effectiveness of the Weibo retweet campaign.

After a while, CC came to me and sat down next to me, and asked me with great concern, "Zhaoyang, where are you going to spend the Chinese New Year this year?" ”

I subconsciously remembered that my mother asked me to find a girl who was more reliable than Li Xiaoyun to go home for the New Year, and I was stunned for a moment before replying: "I haven't thought about it yet?" ”

"Why don't we go to Beijing together to find a big name and Robben!"

I immediately choked CC: "My parents didn't go to Hong Kong for the New Year." ”

CC grabbed the flesh around my waist and said angrily, "Are you damaged? This is also going to be taken out to tease me, as if your parents are so precious to you! ”

"Hey, don't say it, my parents are baby me, and the dumplings and buns with big meat fillings have already been prepared for me."

CC glanced at me and said, "Okay, since your parents are so precious to you, I won't persuade you to go to Beijing together." ”

I forced a smile and nodded, in fact, where to go for the New Year, I really don't have a score in my heart, of course, I can go home with a cheeky face, but if my mother is really angry with me, isn't it the New Year also blocking her! So wait, maybe the board daddy will call me to go back for the New Year, and it will be much easier to have the board daddy cover at that time.

CC said to me again: "I'm on the plane tomorrow morning, you can close the bar tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, and go back early to accompany your parents." ”

I shook my head and said, "There is still more than a week before the Chinese New Year, and it is too early to close, and besides, the bartenders and several waiters in our bar are from other provinces, and they have not bought tickets to go home yet, and the bar is open for them to have a place to settle down and earn money." ”

"Well, then you should work hard these days."

I nodded to indicate that it was okay, and then said to CC, "Your plane tomorrow morning, go back early today to rest." ”

CC tapped me on the shoulder, said "see you next year", picked up his handbag, and left the bar.

I looked at the time, it was ten o'clock in the evening, and I could almost go, because the bar had specially hired managers, and I didn't need to stay at the bar during business hours.

I want to go and sit by the moat, after the friends around me have left, I feel more or less lonely, and that moat is the place to relieve loneliness, where I smoke a cigarette and look at the flowing river, I will forget a lot of things......