217. VIP146: The Affair of Gu San (17)
Time is quiet, and you talk.
The water flows through the years, and you are the same.
The prosperity is gone, and the old man is old.
For sixteen-year-old Gu San, happiness is to move a chair and sit in the yard, the wind is sweet, the sky is blue, and the sound of birds frolicking in the trees, the sun is sporadically sprinkled through the leaves, just like all the years spent with Xi Chengjun in the past sixteen years, quiet and beautiful.
The two can lean together, hold hands, look at the passers-by in a hurry in front of the door, and recall the past when we met, knew each other, loved each other and cherished each other, as if it happened yesterday, but now you and I have been separated forever.
Gu San hugged Xi Chengjun and said all kinds of beautiful fantasies, but the so-called future never began.
"I will work hard to earn money, study hard, graduate quickly, marry you when I turn twenty-two, and then take you around the world, have a child, and travel with him. I will personally build you a delicate high-end RV, we have a home wherever we go, with you, with children, the most complete and happiest family. When the children grow up and we come back, I will buy all the land in the hot spring mountain resort and build a castle for you...... Chengjun, don't sleep, Chengjun, you accompany me again, I still have a lot of words to say to you, I love you, I love you...... Chengjun, Chengjun, better than opening your eyes and looking at me, okay? ”
Holding his hand, unable to hang down, Xi Chengjun closed his eyes and stopped breathing, the two of them will never have a future, and those most ordinary and simple days for others have become extravagant hopes.
When Gu Shengxi hurried back, holding the red marriage certificate in his hand, his eyes were only Gu San, who was breaking down and crying.
"Let go of Chengjun, she's already gone ......"
Gu San hugged Xi Chengjun tightly, not wanting her to gradually lose her body temperature, this is his wife, his lover, who can accept this kind of life and death lightly.
"No, no, Chengjun is just asleep, just asleep!" Gu San hugged Xi Chengjun like crazy, not letting anyone get close, and in desperation, Gu Shengxi and Gu Shengxiao could only use brute force to pull him away.
"San'er is Xi's mother, I'm sorry for you, you shouldn't start, you and Xi Chengjun were wrong from the beginning."
Xi's mother, who couldn't cry, hugged Gu San, for the family, the most uncomfortable thing was the loss of a loved one, and the second person who hurt the most was Gu San, who regarded his daughter as a dream.
Gu San, who was weak, finally collapsed to the ground, watching Xi Chengjun, who was finally examined by the doctor and announced the time of death, gradually covered with a white cloth, isolating this troubled world, leaving only all the sorrow for Gu San to bear.
"Wrong? Our love, there's nothing wrong, I only hate myself for being born six years late, six years, if I can come to this world early, I can accompany Chengjun for six more years, more than two thousand years of companionship, but we missed the ......"
He never blamed Xi Chengjun, because of this relationship, his life was lit up.
Supporting the ground with his hands, Gu San almost crawled to the front of the hospital bed, he gently held Xi Chengjun's hand and gave him a final kiss.
"Chengjun, we are husband and wife, you walk slowly on the Huangquan Road, wait for me, I will live well, you must not drink Meng Po soup, don't forget me, wait for me...... Wait for me, it won't be long before ......"
In the end, Gu San fainted in front of the window, and three days later, Xi Chengjun went out of the funeral, and Gu San was held by his two brothers throughout the whole process to the end. Xi Chengjun's ashes were handed over to Gu San according to his last wishes, and he secretly left them, the so-called grave was just a well-dressed mound, and the Xi family didn't say anything, and acquiesced in these things.
Legend has it that Gu San loved a woman, and no one has ever seen it, it's just a legend. That year, Gu San disappeared from school and never appeared again, and went directly to the army for a year before skipping a grade and graduating, entering the medical department and starting to go to college.
After that, Gu San's time began to stop:
He was 16 and she was 22.
Gu San said that he would become a doctor in the future, cure her heart disease, and operate on her own, that year Gu San would smile and tell the beauty and dreams of the future, and that year Gu San lost his favorite person and lost his smile.
He was 17 and she was 22.
Gu San went to the army to join the army, but there was a way to disappear at a fixed time every day after training, visit a person from afar, take a white rose, walk all the way, and then come back crying.
He was 18 years old and she was 22 years old.
Gu San wants to study abroad, he is already a top student in the medical department, he left silently, the only luggage is a jar of ashes, without Xi Chengjun, the world has lost its color, only black and white.
He was 19 and she was 22.
Gu San went on an expedition and lost more than a dozen pounds in the harsh environment of the desert, but in the end he burned all the photos, because that was Xi Chengjun's dream, he would take a vacation every year to travel, go to the North Pole to shoot the aurora, and cross the desert.
He was 20 years old and she was 22 years old.
Gu San went to the hospital for an internship, as long as he stood on the operating table, it was like a different person, life was precious, and there was no room for loss. After an operation, looking at the love in the ward and thanking him together, Gu San stood in place and suddenly cried silently, he had been with others for a long time, but he could never save himself, some love was engraved in his heart, and it hurt into the bone marrow.
He was 21 years old and she was 22 years old.
Gu San resolutely chose to become a war doctor, the Gu family was in chaos, and in the end, the two elder brothers turned the tide and sent him away. There is no difference between life and death for Gu San now, but he promised his wife that he could not commit suicide, he would live, and other things didn't matter.
That time abroad, Gu San was shot near the heart, and when he opened his eyes, he only showed a wry smile, distressed, very painful.
He was 22 years old and she was 22 years old.
On Gu San's birthday, he chartered the entire KTV, drank until he was drunk, went crazy alone, sang and danced, and finally hid in the corner and muttered: "I, who is six years younger than you, is finally the same age as you today." ”
Then, one person raised his glass, one poured wine, and one wailed......
Gu San loved a woman deeply and died of a heart attack at the age of 22, when he was 16.
Gu San loved a woman deeply, the paranoia of love, the madness of love, and the collapse of love!
Ten years have passed like this, Gu San is still the same Gu San, gradually learning to disguise, at home he is a living treasure, in the hospital he is a surgeon of the hand of God, in his heart he is just a man who has lost love, he got married at the age of sixteen, married the person he loved most in his life, and personally sent her away on the same day.
"It's been ten years, Xi Chengjun, it turns out that you are still young, but I am old."
With trembling hands, Gu San thought that he would no longer have heartache, but every time he remembered the past, it turned out that Xi Chengjun was still the same as in the story, and his smile was so clear that he would never get tired of seeing it.
"Chengjun, I miss you so much......"
The wind blew away the last mutter, and Gu San's tears were forever hidden in his heart.