Xu Xuan's breathing was suffocating, his mouth was dry, he shook his head involuntarily, and nodded again. She is not as glamorous as Chu Qinghong, nor as beautiful as Bai Suzhen, not as charming as Xiaoqing, and not as charming as Li Shaowei...... But I don't know why, but it is as dazzling as a night pearl, which makes it difficult to force people to see. Even if all these peerless beauties are side by side, I am afraid that they will be eclipsed in an instant.

Master Li smiled, shook his head and said: "But at that time, I was just a thin and small yellow-haired girl, and compared with that 'Master Li, I was even more ashamed of myself, so ashamed that I didn't even dare to raise my head." secretly thought, it turned out that Grandma Li didn't buy me to accompany the guests, but to serve her. There are mixed tastes in my heart, and I don't know whether to be happy or sad.

"Although I have suffered all kinds of torture since I was a child, I have gritted my teeth and never envied others. But at that moment, looking at the 'Master Li, standing under the green gauze curtain with radiance, looking at the man in Tsing Yi and smiling, for the first time, he gushed out such a strong inferiority complex and desire, how much he wanted to be like her one day.

So from then on, I couldn't help but imitate her every move, smile, imitate the sound of her speech, imitate the way she played the piano, secretly read and write, read every book she read, and play every song she played...... Even her frowning brows when she was sick and her mouth when she was angry felt so beautiful

"Unconsciously, I have been her maidservant for three months, and I have gradually figured out her temperament. She was moody, hot and cold, gentle and amiable when she was happy, even if she accidentally broke her most beloved cup and soiled her favorite calligraphy and painting, she smiled and groaned with disapproval; But when he was angry, he was fierce and cold, beating and scolding, as if he had suddenly become another person.

"Later, I learned that the reason why Grandma Li bought me was because the previous maid was beaten to death by her, and they quietly buried her under the willow tree by the pond in Zhangtai Garden. The remaining two maidservants were afraid of her like a tiger, and as soon as her face changed, they were so frightened that they avoided her. It's just me, it's only me who has been used to beating and scolding since I was a child, whether she speaks harshly, whips and slaps, all of them endure silently without complaint.

Perhaps because of this, she treated me better and better, and no longer let me do heavy work, and often rewarded me with clothes and silver taels, let me play chess and piano with me, study ink and sweep flowers, and even eat and sleep, let me be by her side. When he was happy, he would teach me to read and write, play the piano and paint, and even put my ear close to me and quietly teach me how to charm men.

"The two maids were jealous and hateful, and sneered that I must be her lost sister, and changed my name to 'Li Shishi,' . When it came to her ears, instead of being angry, she laughed loudly, so that everyone would call me 'Li Shishi,' from now on. So since then, there have been two large and small 'Master Li' in the alum building,

At that time, she was crowned with a beautiful crown, and there were many visitors who wanted to enter the curtain every day. People in the capital say that she has an arrogant temperament, her eyes are above the top, only my heart is like a mirror, she is just infatuated with Zhou Meicheng and does not want to bear him. ”

Master Li's cheeks were red, his eyes suddenly became gentle and misty, and he said in a low voice: "When I first arrived in Zhangtai Garden, the man in Tsing Yi I met was her sweetheart, Zhou Meicheng, who was known as the world's first word person. Many of the songs I have heard are written and composed by him. 'Master Li, the moody and strange temper is all because of him.

At that time, Meicheng was an official in other places, and he could only return to Beijing once after a long time. When she received his letters, she would rejoice for days; Knowing that he was about to return to Beijing, he was so happy that he couldn't sleep for several nights. After he left, he was always sad and angry, his thoughts became ill, and when he didn't go well, he immediately became angry.

"Sometimes she didn't get out of bed for days, and she would ask me to read his letters over and over again. I can recite every sentence and word of those letters. When I read it to her, I couldn't help but feel heartache, envy and sadness. If there is a person in the world who misses me and misses me like this, writes me such sweet love words, and fills in such touching words, I will be happy even if I die immediately.

"Sometimes I often wonder if I fell in love with Meicheng because of envy; Or is it because I like Meicheng that I am jealous? Maybe it's a bit of both. The only thing I know for sure is that every time I read a beautiful letter, I became obsessed with it, and those words were like wedges nailed into my heart, breaking my heart and sinking without knowing it.

"But in Meicheng's eyes, I'm still just a shy and timid little girl. Every time he returned to Zhangtai Garden, he always smiled at me, and before he could even say a word, he hurried to see her. But even for a short moment, I was too nervous to breathe.

"At that time, I always bit my lip and waited outside the house like pins and needles, hoping to call me and afraid that she would really call me. They glued together like glue, and they were reluctant to step out of the building, either leaning on painting, writing, or playing the piano and singing together.

I held my breath and poured tea and wine for them on the side, grinding ink and adjusting the kite, and my heart was beating suddenly, and I didn't dare to look at him. Occasionally, when his eyes met, he smiled at me, and I couldn't help but be red-faced, hot-eared, and flustered, either knocking over the inkstone or breaking the teacup. The trial was in a good mood at this time, so naturally he would not be punished. He was gentle and generous, and he would not be scolded, but would make fun of me and say some witticisms to solve the siege.

"The man I saw since I was a child was either a turtle slave or a nurse, who beat and scolded me at every turn, how could he ever be so gentle and considerate? I was grateful and touched in my heart, and tears almost welled up. Except for my father and brother, the best man in the world for me is the most familiar stranger in front of me.

"He was personable and witty, and the longer we got along, the more joyful and obsessive I became. As I got acquainted with me, he said more and more jokes, and I was surprised to know that I could play the piano, calligraphy and painting, and praised it very much, and I was very interested in ordering it myself.

"When he first took my hand and sketched it on the rice paper, my mind went blank, my whole body trembled, my ears and cheeks burned, and my heart seemed to pop out of my throat at any moment. The judge looked at us with a smile and a strange expression. She must have seen my mind a long time ago, but she didn't break it.

"Well, in her eyes, I must have been ridiculous. But how could she have expected that one day, Meicheng would empathize and fall in love with me, a poor and ridiculous yellow-haired girl?

"The days passed like this, and in a blink of an eye, I stayed in the 'Zhangtai Garden, for three years. Those three years were the most peaceful and happiest years of my life. Although I am a slave and maid, I can't go anywhere except Alum Tower, but for me, as long as I can see Meicheng from time to time, as long as I can read the letters he wrote every day, this small world is a vast and boundless universe.

That night, many high-ranking officials and nobles came to Alum Tower, but they couldn't resist Grandma Li's repeated dispatches, and took the two maids to sing songs and accompany the wine. I was left alone in the 'Zhangtai Garden,'. Outside the window, the willow branches were thick and green, the moon was bright and round, and it had not been two months since Misei had heard from me, and I thought of him, and my mind was confused, and I held the lamp in my hand, and picked up the pen, and wrote his name on the paper over and over again.

"The root of my ears suddenly became hot, and someone sighed at me, and whispered: 'Fang's face is even red, and my eyebrows are skillfully painted with palace makeup...... my fingers trembled, and the brush fell off immediately. The man hugged me tightly from behind, kissed my earlobe gently, and continued to whisper: "The flow of heaven and spirit are all in Jiaobo's eyes, and I have long been used to it. Xiang Zun forward, frequently look around. I want to see it a few times, and I don't see it. ,

That voice is no longer familiar, it is the beauty that has been thinking about it for months. I was paralyzed and tried to struggle, but I didn't even have the strength to breathe. It turned out that he wanted to surprise the judge, but without sending a message, he traveled day and night and rushed back to the capital. I held my back to him, my body was similar to that of the judge, and I was wearing the dress she had given me, and for a moment I mistook it for her.

"I thought about this verse, but my heart was beating so violently that I couldn't open my mouth. I felt his lips slowly move behind my earlobe, and kissed my neck and shoulder socket a little bit...... I was getting hotter and hotter, and goosebumps were all over me. Finally, he jerked my face and kissed me the lips......

Above, the volcanic clouds were full of electric light, roaring and rolling. Xu Xuan's ears were beating warmly when he heard it, Master Li's cheeks were red as if he was drunk, and his eyes seemed to melt, and he paused for a while before he whispered again: "At that time, my brain was like thunder, and I couldn't hear or see anything. But it was not long before I heard him whisper: 'It's you, I woke up like a dream, ashamed and embarrassed, and hurriedly broke free and covered the hem of my clothes.'

He looked at me in surprise, and then at the paper with his name written on the table, and suddenly a smile appeared, and said: "Poetry, poetry, I haven't seen you for a few months, it turns out that you have grown into a big girl." I became more and more embarrassed, and hurriedly crumpled the paper into a ball and threw it into the bamboo basket.

"He was holding the lamp and staring at me with burning eyes, and I thought he was going to come up and hug me again, expectant and scared. But he smiled, picked up the pen, and while writing, he read: The candle shadow is red, and the night is short. At that time, who would sing Yangguan was far from hating the world. Fight for the clouds to collect the rain and disperse. Relying on the east wind is full of tears. After the begonias bloom, when the swallows come, dusk deep courtyard. ,

As soon as the words fell, a sneer suddenly came from the left: "The night is short." I was taken aback and turned around to look, "Master Li, standing outside the door, looking at me with resentment and coldness. ”