This night, for me and Mi Cai, was indulgent and beautiful, we talked about the future after the joy of bed, and the stars outside the window reflected the whole world as if only the two of us were left, so our chat also turned into a whisper under the starry sky.

The night was darker, but we didn't feel a little sleepy, and our conversation turned to the hukou book that we couldn't get, and she asked me, "Zhaoyang, if we really can't get the hukou book, what are you going to do?" ”

"Even if I get a fake household registration book, I will marry you!"

Mi Cai leaned against me and said softly: "I am very touched by your resoluteness, but this is not good." ”

"And what do you think should be done?"

Mi Cai thought for a while and replied: "We can hold a wedding first, let them see our determination, and then they will fulfill us in their own way, and they will also give us a frank marriage!" ”

I looked at Mi Cai, moved by her determination to marry me, subconsciously hugged her tighter, but also saw that we deal with a matter in a completely different way, she has rules, there are steps, and I am a bit nonsense, but it is also a way to last resort, if we hold a wedding, they are still unwilling to recognize our marriage, I am willing to go to a fake household registration, but also to get a marriage certificate with Mi Cai, because this is the respect for marriage, and I must give Mi Cai.

Chatting, chatting, we fell into a short silence, together through the window, looking at the ginkgo tree in the distance that had lost its leaves, but we can all remember its leafy appearance in the summer, if possible, I hope to come back next summer to live for a few days, to see the green leaves here, creepers overgrown on the walls Maybe at that time, Mi Cai and I, have completely stabilized our lives, so as to have the confidence to have a child I really hope that she can be under this building full of creepers, Tell me, I'm going to be a father Suddenly, as if I really saw the picture I envisioned, I couldn't help but smile at the corners of my mouth, and then opened the window a little and lit a cigarette

"Zhaoyang, what are you laughing at? Can you share it with me? ”

I couldn't tell her what she was thinking, because there would be no mystery left, so I shifted my mind and remembered an old question that had been sealed between us for a long time, and I finally took a deep breath of my cigarette and asked her, "You once told me that on the day we got married, you would tell me why you bought this old house in the first place, and now it's time to make good on this promise, right?" ”

Mi Cai subconsciously looked at every object in the room, although the room only relied on starlight to bring some light, I still saw the complexity in her expression, and she said to me after a long time: "Actually, you should be able to guess why I bought this room." ”

I did guess, so I asked, "This house carries your childhood, right?" ”

Mi Cai nodded and said: "Well, this not only carries my childhood, but also the room where Mi Lan lives now, it is the room between me and Mi Lan more than 20 years ago, my room is my father and mother's, uncle and aunt They live in a partition room separated by the living room This house was assigned to her by my aunt's unit at that time, and it is also a testament to family affection. ”

Speaking of this deeply buried past, Mi Cai's love is a little low, this room is a kind of bearing and verification for her, but it is more of a regret, because now everything has changed, leaving only the emptiness of time and things and people.

I took her words and said, "But your mother is an accident, and she has broken this harmony, hasn't she?" ”

"Well, this matter starts with my grandfather and grandmother, they used to be state cadres, but in a political movement, they endured injustice, my grandfather couldn't bear it, and finally chose to end his life by throwing himself into the river, and my grandmother also died soon after because of physical and mental torture, which caused a great psychological shadow to my mother, so she has not been very sympathetic to the domestic environment!"

"I can understand that behind every political campaign, there will be a lot of people injured."

"Actually, she married my father, more because my grandfather was also a victim of this political movement, so they fell in love with each other in college and took care of each other After graduating from college, my mother followed my father to Suzhou and lived a poor life, and then I had me, and the next year my uncle and aunt had Mi Lan, and our family lived in this old house for many years!"

Speaking of this, Mi Cai had already begun to choke, because behind the harmony, there was also a period of coming pain, and she finally said to me: "Later, my uncle in the United States won a chance for my mother to go abroad, and she was moved but couldn't take me and my father away!" So she discussed with her father, hoping that after she settled down in the United States, she would also bring me and my father to live there in a few years, and my father did not agree to her request, because at that time, the lonely grandmother was reluctant to let my father take me away, and my father and his uncle had already founded the current Zhuomei, no, it was not called Zhuomei at first, it was changed before she left, Dad wanted to sue her, how important she was in her heart, But none of these could impress her, she still resolutely left, since she left, her father was depressed all day long, grandma felt that she had broken up the family, and had been living with guilt, and she was not able to enjoy a happy old age, and she died of illness in self-blame in the second year after her mother went abroad."

This past makes my heart heavier and heavier!!

Tears were already on Mi Cai's face, and after she calmed down for a long time, she said: "When my grandmother died, my father had no bonds, and he wanted to take me to the United States to find her, because my father missed her so much, but she didn't keep her promise at all, and she was married in the United States!" She married an American, and with the help of that American, she made her career bigger and bigger, but later, for some reason, she divorced the American, and has been living alone until now"

"Didn't she and that American have any more children?"

Mi Cai shook her head: "No, because after she gave birth to me, she was infertile, maybe that's why the American divorced her, Zhaoyang, do you think I should hate her?" Why, can't she stay in the country and run Zhuomei with her father? Running our family? Why do I really feel sorry for my father, since she left, my father has not remarried for so many years, until he had a car accident, he still thought about being able to remarry her, but God did not give my father this chance again! ”

I sighed heavily, and tears fell from my eyes, and this night became extremely sad because of this painful past that was told!

What I heard was not only the secret of the old house, but also the pain buried deep in Mi Cai's heart! And the pain comes from choice, but I do know that in that social background, there are really many people who choose to abandon their families and children to seek opportunities abroad, and Mi Cai's family is not alone!

(Third update) This month is over, and the monthly ticket list has been decided, but unfortunately everyone worked hard for a month, and in the end they couldn't keep the top ten. In the last few hours, it was suddenly reversed, and I don't think it's a failure, because we've all tried.

Next month, I will continue to work hard with all of you! Our goal is not just tenth.