356 bitterness knows itself

There are some feelings that only the heart knows, and there are some silences that only oneself knows the helplessness and bitterness.

Ximen Yonghao returned to the Ximen General's Mansion with a very depressed mood, and when he returned to his study, he locked himself up, unspeakably so depressed, facing Leng Rujin, facing his fiancée Chen Yingying, and his favorite girl Ping'er, he really didn't deserve what to do, he should come back and listen to the maid Dongqing say that Chen Yingying had come to find him just now, thinking of Chen Yingying, but he couldn't say so irritable, he was obviously not interested in her at all, but now she has become his fiancée, I will marry her in March next year, which means that I have to live with this woman who I am not interested in at all in my next province, which is really a pain, but for the benefit of the family, I can only endure this pain, it is because of this marriage contract that I have no choice but to live up to the marriage contract with Leng Rujin, and violate the promise of not abandoning and leaving that day, although my feelings for Rujin are not called love, but I promised her to take care of her for a lifetime, How could a person she was so proud of be willing to be her own concubine? But now there is no way to change it, and I still deeply hurt the girl who is the most attentive to herself.

Ximen Yonghao took out the golden unicorn from the drawer and looked at it blankly, recalling the morning and twilight when he was with Leng Rujin, that sense of guilt was like silk, and he was deeply surrounded by himself, and he couldn't forget Rujin's complaining eyes today, and he couldn't forget the disappointed back when she left, but he was really powerless, powerless.

"Brother; Where did this unicorn come from? Why haven't I seen it before? Ximen Xiaoman, who suddenly got up, snatched the golden unicorn held in Ximen Yonghao's hand, "You give it back to me, give it back to me." Ximen Yonghao shouted angrily, and then snatched the unicorn over, and almost knocked Xiao Man down with too much force. For the first time, Ximen Xiaoman saw her brother being so rude to herself, and she complained a little angrily; "Isn't it just a unicorn, are you doing this to me?"

"Why didn't you knock when you came in?" Ximen Yonghao looked at his sister with an aggrieved face with a cold face.

Ximen Xiaoman looked at his brother's indignant expression, and was puzzled, what happened to his brother who was usually kind and pleasant, "You have to knock on the door when you enter your brother's room, brother; What's wrong with you today? Why do you put on a stinky face, as if someone owes you two hundred taels of silver? ”

"You don't have to worry about my affairs, do you have anything to do with me?" Ximen Yonghao was so irritable, he didn't want to see anyone now.

Seeing that her brother was so impatient, Ximen Xiaoman became impatient too, "Brother; What's wrong with you today? From the moment I entered the door, you put on a stinky face, I didn't offend you, you don't need to be angry with me, no, you really think I want to come to see this stinky face, today Sister Yingying came to you, and you didn't come back after waiting for you for a long time, she was quite disappointed when she left, you find a chance to explain to her another day, and you don't say a word when you go out, really. "Ximen Yonghao knew that his sister came to talk about this matter, so he became even more impatient;" I am the dignified young master of the Ximen family, do I have to ask others for instructions when I go out, you don't care about me and Chen Yingying, you just take care of yourself, don't cultivate yourself well, how can I compete with those young ladies for the position of the crown princess next year. Ximen Yonghao lowered his head after saying that, still holding the golden unicorn in his hand.

Simon Xiaoman saw that his brother was in such a bad mood, but he simply didn't want to be here to talk about himself, the relationship between brother and sister is usually in the past, mainly because of the differences in the game between the two personalities, Yonghao is so quiet, and Xiaoman is active, so they will make some small unpleasantness together, but it will be fine immediately after, such things have long become commonplace, and they don't care about each other.

"Okay, okay, I won't bother you, you can go yourself, I'm leaving." After saying that, Simon Xiaoman turned around and walked towards the door.

The door slammed shut, and the room was once again quiet at first.

Ximen Yonghao casually flipped through the yellow calendar and knew that it was Zi Yan's birthday in five days, he thought that he had given Zi Yan's birthday for the first time in ten years, and he would definitely go that day, since Chen Yingying came to find herself today and she was not there, she must be very disappointed, so it is better to take the opportunity of Zi Yan's birthday to explain, although Ximen Yonghao has no interest in Chen Yingying, but the other party is his fiancée after all, and he can only please Chen Yingying, Then Shen Yongkang's heart can be pulled to the side of the Ximen family little by little.

Ximen Yonghao picked up the pen and wrote a note with a pen in his hand, the content of which was nothing more than some words of apology, and told Sù Yingying that five days later was Princess Ziyan's birthday, and she made an appointment to meet at the princess's mansion.

Ximen Yonghao finished writing the note and put it into a small envelope, "Holly; You come in for a moment. ”

Holly, who was outside the door, heard the young master calling herself, and she hurriedly pushed the door and walked in; "Young Master; You come to me. ”

Simon Yonghao pointed to the small envelope on the table and said; "Holly, you send this letter to Miss Chen Yingying."

"Young Master, is this letter all? What else is there to say? ”

Simon Yonghao shook his head; "Just send this letter back, you don't need to say anything."

Holly nodded; "Okay, young master, I'll go right away." Holly picked up the envelope and said goodbye to Simon, Yonghao strode out the door.