Chapter 19: Love but Can't
It is said that Bai Lang and Jing Ning successfully exchanged identities, so Bai Lang went to marry him, and Jing Ning and Xilin Jinchun should also leave with the band. However, the sky did not fulfill people's wishes, and the band that had already walked to the border of Danxiang Country was called back by the owner of Sizhai in Miao Village.
It turned out that the eighth day of the first month is the safflower festival of Miao Village, and just in time for Wu Zhuguo to send the three princes to Danxiang to inspect, the eldest prince in order to enrich the content of Danxiang's song and dance, Shengsheng is to ask people to find Miao Village, saying that it is necessary to do a good job in the safflower festival, and the song and dance of the safflower festival will be sung to Danxiang, and the three princes must be called to see and applaud.
Hearing the news, Jing Ning sighed helplessly: "This bastard, when can't you come?" Just in time for this! It's just that I can't get out, and it also affects the master......"
When Xilin Jinchun heard Jing Ning's words, he couldn't help but smile and said, "You are really afraid of affecting me, why did you leave the Lotus Valley so decisively when you left the Lotus Valley?" ”
"I ......" Jing Ning didn't know that Xilin Jinchun was behind him, he suddenly heard him speak, turned his head and saw him, and didn't know what to say for a while: Although Xilin Jinchun was born in Danxiang Country and grew up in Danxiang Country, no matter what, he is also half of Wuzhu. Angelica is Xilin Jinchun's senior brother, their relationship is extraordinary, if you tell the truth, I'm afraid that Xilin Jinchun will not necessarily be biased towards him.
"What's wrong with you? When did talking to me become so stumbling? Xilin Jinchun looked at Jing Ning, although it was only his back, but he still saw from Jing Ning's hesitant and evasive gaze that Jing Ning was hiding his heart.
"I don't know how to do it, maybe I've been in the lotus valley for too long, so I have no reason to think of the life in the Danxiang Palace, my father and mother are the same as you, I say anything, but I can't go out. You know, I don't like to be imprisoned, I want to see the outside world, so I ......"
Jing Ning turned his head and looked at Xilin Jinchun, with an inexplicable sourness in his melancholy tone, and an unspeakable heart hidden in his slightly frowning brows, those eyes were focused on Xilin Jinchun, and there was hesitation in the exploration, which made Xilin Jinchun feel distressed.
"So, you're just sick again, and you just want to come out and have fun, and you'll be back soon, right?" Xilin Jinchun suddenly panicked when Jing Ning saw it, so he deliberately made a relaxed appearance and said with a smile.
When Jing Ning heard Xilin Jinchun say this, he pulled his lips hard, revealing a stiff smile, and then turned his head again. As for yes or no, Jing Ning didn't give a clear answer, perhaps, at this time, in her heart, even she didn't know if she would go back.
"Ning'er, don't be like this, okay? You've never kept things in your mind, and one day, you suddenly start not wanting to tell me anything, and I'll feel like you're leaving me......"
Xilin Jinchun was silent for a long time, but he still couldn't help but speak, he was afraid that if he didn't say it now, in the future, Jing Ning would have more things that he didn't want to tell him, and when the time came, his heart was already far away, and no matter how he said it, it would be useless.
When Jing Ning heard Xilin Jinchun's words, he turned his head suddenly, staring at him in fear like a frightened deer: "Are you ......" Jing Ning blinked, avoiding Xilin Jinchun's sincere eyes, and said in a low voice: "I...... I won't......"
Jing Ning's voice was like a gust of wind, gently blowing through Xilin Jinchun's ears, it was originally a promise, but it made people feel that they couldn't grasp it at all.
"That'...... Will the master take you away? From then on, the north and south of the river, let us play......" However, such words made Xilin Jinchun grasp a life-saving straw, and finally mustered up the courage to say what he had always wanted to say.
"Not good!" Jing Ning replied quickly and resolutely, as if he hadn't gone through his brain at all, but it was the truest answer in his heart.
"For what?" Xilin Jinchun's heart was extremely painful, he knew that he shouldn't ask again, but he still couldn't help but ask.
"The north and south of the river, let us travel...... This kind of life is beautiful, but for me, it is just a gorgeous dream, but it is a dream that I dare not do. I have family hatred and national hatred on my body, even if this moment is safe, my side is also full of dangers. I don't know when I will fall, I am alone, it is not a pity to die, but you are different, you have parents, a younger brother, and the Jianjia in Pennsylvania and the Xilin family in Wuzhu, how can I be so selfish, in order to pursue that dream that is destined to be unfulfilled, I have harmed myself and you? ”
Jing Ning kept looking at Xilin Jinchun's face, the person who was close at the moment might be the end of the world in the blink of an eye, and she was so reluctant, but she really couldn't watch him take risks because of herself.
Listening to Jing Ning's words, Xilin Jinchun should have been relieved, because of Jing Ning's cherishment, and because of her refusal. However, at this moment, Xilin Jinchun didn't know what Lu Dao was about, listening to Jing Ning's words like a confession and an explanation, he couldn't be happy at all, and the pain in his heart seemed to be getting stronger and stronger because of this confession, and it couldn't be dissolved.
Family hatred and country hatred, what a heavy word! Originally, Xilin Jinchun had always been glad for Jing Ning's heartlessness, but today Jing Ning said such a thing, clearly telling him that her heart was clear, and she was always thinking about it, and she never forgot it.
She pretended to forget, she pretended to be happy, and the pain in her heart was all wrapped up and buried in her heart. Xilin Jinchun couldn't understand how much courage it takes to be so forbearing, how much mind it takes to be so cautious, and how much effort it takes to pretend to be so hard......
Suddenly, when Xilin Jinchun looked at Jing Ning, he felt that Jing Ning had already grown up, and he was far away and strange, and he, who had been by her side, didn't even notice it at all. For a moment, he felt remorse for his unrealization, and he was also ridiculous for his so-called sincerity. It turns out that this is what I have always loved!
"Ning'er, I'm sorry! I always thought that you had forgotten everything, which is why you said something like that, which made you sad. Perhaps, it is really a dream, but, believe me, it is not as unattainable as you think, you wait for me, I will always take you to make this dream come true. ”
After regretting it, Xilin Jinchun plucked up confidence again, originally he didn't understand, but now that he understood, he was glad that it was not too late for him to understand, at least, Jing Ning was still by his side. He believes that with his own ability, he can give Jingning a happiness of letting me roam the whole country......