Wu Xiaojun couldn't help but recall the past along the way, and his mind was full of the women he had loved vigorously, Qin Meixiang, who was strong, resolute, lively and cheerful, Luo Xiao, who calmly and steadily endured the hardships of the world, Feng Weiwei, who was beautiful and charming and had low self-esteem, and Shao Yingying, who was as cold as ice, came one after another like a shadow, and appeared in his mind one after another. It is their appearance, full of energetic passion, fiery desire, that ignites the fire of their dusty youth, which is irresistibly burning and giving dazzling colors to their campus life.

They are full of infinite infatuation, with youthful dreams, a beautiful vision for the future, silently pouring selfless love, flying and galloping freely in their own world. However, romantic feelings, beautiful longings and yearnings, accepting the five flavors of life, tasting the unique taste, slowly maturing at the same time, pregnant with the arrival of crises and nightmares. The splendor of youth instantly turned into a blank sheet of paper, and he watched disappear from vision but could not do anything about it, allowing himself to fall into the agony of losing his beloved countless times.

Happiness is gone, sweetness is not there, and many days of sorrow and dullness have overwhelmed Wu Xiaojun. The obstacles of geography and work are like a pair of invincible clutches, ruthlessly pushing Bai Lingyan, who is close to him day and night, to the other side of the galaxy, gradually drifting away, a desolation wells up in his heart, and the pain of loss and loneliness permeates his heart again, and he falls into helplessness and confusion again. He only felt that his difficult family background, years of cruel life experience, and happy time of revenge had never made him grow up, and he was simply having a nightmare. Returning to Pingxi today means the complete end of five years of passionate and unforgettable campus life, the end of the beautiful love that the two have built with great difficulty, and the failure of their good vision.

After a night of bumps, the bus saw off the night and ushered in the dawn, and the new day began with a gloomy sky and rumbling thunder. Wu Xiaojun didn't dare to imagine what kind of situation he would meet Bai Lingyan again, how painful it would be when he said "break up and see you again", and he didn't dare to imagine what the days would be like without Bai Lingyan from now on.

At noon, Wu Xiaojun dragged his tired body to Qiao Yulin's house in the school, which was also the only place he could stay in Pingxi and one of the destinations he had to reach.

Wu Xiaojun watched Qiao Yulin and her daughter eating lunch with laughter and laughter, and intuitively the world was spinning, hungry, and then he remembered that he hadn't eaten a bite of food for a day and a night. Qiao Yulin's enthusiasm made him feel particularly cordial, and he had a full meal without humility.

Qiao Yulin said with a little regret, "Some people say that college love is just a short-term impulse and a filling of loneliness. It's like walking into a fast food restaurant, and the feelings that should be slow-fire micro-cultivation are programmed and standardized and served on the table. Make it fast, eat it fast, and disperse it quickly. Although I don't agree with this view, the reality is that there are many people who fall in love, and there are few who make it. The vast majority of those student lovers who enter in pairs are reluctant to break up, and in the end they can really walk together and become lifelong partners. There should be almost fifteen or sixteen people in our class who are in love, and at present, judging from the place of dispatch, except for Lu Jianmin, Liu Youcai, Li Mengyao and others who are still hesitating, almost everyone else has returned to their hometowns, even if a few people will be reassigned because of love in the future, there are very few ironclad people. This is the gap between the ideal and the reality, and it is also the reason why who is with whom, who is separated from whom, who chases whom, who dumps whom, will no longer cause everyone to be amazed. ”

Wu Xiaojun said faintly, "Bai Lingyan made me fall in love again, and I have known and respected each other all the way to today, completely because of the same age, like-mindedness, the same understanding of life and the future, happy and happy together, I thought that as long as the two of them sincerely love each other wholeheartedly and are loyal to each other, no matter how big the difficulties are, they can overcome them, and no matter how many ups and downs they have, they can get through." Now that I think about it, we were still in an idealistic state, too different from the actual reality, and we were both too naïve and naïve. ”

Qiao Yulin said very regretfully, "The law of human nature is easy to get, and it is easy to give up." Anything that is obtained through guò's hard work, whether it is feelings or objects, will make people feel cherished for a lifetime. Although I wasn't optimistic about you and Bai Lingyan before, I didn't expect such a painful ending for the two of you. Life is always up and down, don't complain about anything, no matter how happy you are, you will also have worries; Even if you are unlucky, you will be lucky. Don't focus too much on the results, but see this love as an important process, where gains and losses, successes and failures, struggles and pleasures, every experience is precious. You don't need to blame yourself too much and feel uncomfortable, you should let go of it, you must pick yourself up and start a new life. ”

Wu Xiaojun diverted the topic and asked, "Teacher Qiao, are all the students in our class finished?" ”

Qiao Yulin said, "Most of them went back, the day before yesterday I saw Jianmin and Xiang Meimei, they were still the same as before, as if they were nothing." I don't know what Jianmin thinks, whether he plans to go back, but it's not a matter if he doesn't go back and spend time here! ”

Wu Xiaojun said lightly, "I'll ask Xiang Meili where Jianmin is later, go and see him!" ”

Qiao Yulin suddenly said a little jokingly, "Xiaojun, I didn't say you, you shouldn't have fallen in love with Bai Lingyan in the first place, how good Shao Yingying is, she has a quiet and steady personality, she is studious and loves to study, and she has a strong complementary effect with you, not to mention that the relationship between you and her family has always been very good, if you two can come together, the family must be warm and harmonious, and the career is thriving." I used to be very optimistic about you, but I never understood why you two didn't fall in love at that time? Looking back now, her mother is really open-minded and reasonable compared to Bai Lingyan's mother, and she didn't hesitate to drive her from Pingxi to your hometown in Pingdong. At that time, if the two of you got along, it would definitely be a good match, and there would not be so much confusion and trouble, let alone the ridiculous result now. ”

Wu Xiaojun said relatively, "The fate is all wrong, everything has passed, and the regret medicine is sold without land!" ”

Qiao Yulin laughed.

As the graduation date gradually fades away, the love between Lu Jianmin and Xiang Meimei has never been recognized by Xiang Jia. Lu Jianmin held an attitude of guilt and lifelong responsibility for Xiang Meimei, as well as the hope that one day he would be able to have a place in Pingxi, so he resolutely stayed and rented a village house in the city near the school, looking for suitable opportunities and suitable units, while working to earn some money to make ends meet.

Wu Xiaojun followed the address Xiang Meili said, and soon came to Lu Jianmin's residence. This is a small courtyard built by the villagers, with a total of more than 20 rooms on three floors, except for two rooms on the first floor where the landlord lives, the other rooms are all rented to outsiders. Lu Jianmin's rented house is located on the third floor, with an area of less than ten square meters, a bed and table are equipped by the landlord, a new curtain seems to be newly bought, the stove is an alcohol stove, a small new aluminum pot, and the others are books, bedding and daily necessities from school, which are very simple.

Lu Jianmin was squatting on the ground with relish and eating freshly cooked noodles with a bowl, when he saw Wu Xiaojun coming, he stood up in surprise.

Wu Xiaojun smiled bitterly and said, "Jianmin, you have settled down here so soon, your spirit is commendable and admirable." ”

"Xiaojun, why are you here?"

"I'm here to get the graduation certificate and dispatch certificate, I heard that Mr. Qiao said that you haven't left yet, so I'll stop by and take a look, what are your plans?"

"As long as there are people, there will be hope, first stay and then talk, one step at a time."

"Haven't you considered going back to your hometown?"

"It's the same when I go back to my hometown as here, no one at home can help me, even so, for the sake of beauty, I can't irresponsibly pat my ass and leave, I have to stay."

"What is the attitude of her family? Did they ask them to think of a way? ”

"I didn't expect them to put me in touch with a place to work, as long as I was here, they would naturally accept our relationship. Bai Lingyan won't go to you, what are you going to do? ”

"Things have come to this point, what else can I do, my family won't let me wander here, I can only transfer the file back and report home with my dispatch card."

"Xiaojun, I don't think you should be in a hurry to transfer the file back, and don't rush home to report, maybe you and Bai Ling still have a chance to turn around, once you transfer back, it will be troublesome!"

"Her father is an honest man, and there is little contact between relatives, and her mother is a crazy and unreasonable person, you say that these are fantastical and impossible things, and there will be no hope at all. Besides, I was disheartened and didn't want to deal with her family anymore, so I didn't need to bother anymore. ”

"It's a pity, it's a pity. When are you going back? ”

"I plan to borrow a night with you tonight, and go to Bai Lingyan's house tomorrow to see her for the last time, make a complete conclusion, and draw an end to the love between the two of us, and never go our separate ways again."

"I advise you to be more cautious, don't do things to death, and hope that the two of us will have a chance to cooperate in the future."

"The past is unbearable, being able to make good friends, old buddies and iron buddies like you is the most meaningful harvest I have gained in Pingxi for so many years, but unfortunately there will be no more opportunities to work together."

Wu Xiaojun and Lu Jianmin, two brothers who shared weal and pain, talked about everything and talked all night.

At dawn, the two reluctantly parted, and Wu Xiaojun rushed to Siyuanpo in Beimeng.

Bai Yijia and Sun Huiying were about to go down to the ground to pull weeds, and when they saw Wu Xiaojun coming over, they were shocked to each other, although their faces were ugly, they were not angry, but let Wu Xiaojun into the house.

Wu Xiaojun thought that the overall situation had been decided, and then complaining, scolding, quarrelling, and saying some sad and relieving words would not help, so that they could get together and disperse, and they would not get acquainted in vain, seeing that Bai Yijia and Sun Huiying were not powerful, and there was no excessive hostility, he asked lightly, "I came this time mainly to go through the relevant graduation procedures, and by the way, I said goodbye to Yanzi, please tell me where is she now?" ”

Bai Yijia said, "A few days after Yanzi came back, she went to the second sister Lingwan. In today's situation, I know that you are both reluctant to give up on each other, but there is no way to have to. Your aunt's incoherent words hurt you, please don't take it to heart. ”

Wu Xiaojun smiled slightly bitterly, "It's okay, since she's not there, there's no need for me to stay any longer, I'll go." He turned around as he spoke.

Sun Huiying suddenly said, "Slow! ”