It was a rainy evening, the cold wind swept the fallen leaves and ravaged the city, Le Yao and I stood at the door of the Municipal Women's and Children's Hospital with umbrellas, and she looked at me with a little pale face in the crowd.

"Zhaoyang, I'm pregnant."

I was stunned for a moment, then glared and said, "Look for someone who made you pregnant, what are you calling me to come out for?" ”

"I've slept with a man of yours this year, who am I not looking for you?"

"I said I slept with you a woman this year, do you believe it?"

"Zhaoyang, are you a man?"

"Everyone is out to play, don't rely on me for this kind of thing, you want me to be responsible, just take something practical out, don't play with me without evidence, who wants to be a father in a daze?"

Le Yao was silent for a while and said to me: "The child has been removed, where is there any evidence." ”

I was a little angry: "Do you think I look like Kaizi?" Your child took it off, and then ......" I raised my hand and said speechlessly: "Then, tell me again that the child is my Zhaoyang's, are you naïve or am I really stupid?" …… Le Yao, we are all adults, can we do something decent? ”

Le Yao bit her lip and looked at me, and said for a while: "You don't want to be responsible, right, I'll go to your company tomorrow ......"

"I'm ...... What about you! I said angrily.

Le Yao bit her lip tightly and looked at me, but I thought she was a good actor, I met her in a bar, and then I had a relationship, a woman who often clubbed, said that she had a relationship with a man in a year, and if I want to believe her, I will be a fool.

I didn't want to entangle with her anymore, so I took out my wallet, pulled out all the 100 yuan bills in it and handed it to her: "Don't you just want money, take it, don't bother me in the future!" ”

Le Yao didn't say anything and didn't entangle me anymore, nodded and turned around and walked towards the hospital with an umbrella, as if there was still something owed to pay the bill.......

Looking at her lonely back in the rain, I suddenly had an indescribable love in my heart, although I didn't believe that the child in her belly was mine, although I was very tired of her, but I felt that her life must not be easy now, otherwise she would not have been so deceitful to me.

I was silent for a long time and finally called out to her: "Wait......."

Le Yao looked back at me.

I took out a bank card from my wallet and handed it to her: "This card can overdraw some money, you just had surgery, buy something for yourself." ”

Le Yao didn't answer: "...... No need, seeing that you are willing to be responsible, is my purpose, looking for you because I don't want to be slept with in a daze, and I am pregnant in a daze! ”

……

In the bar, I drank a lot of wine while waiting for Fang Yuan, the only friend and colleague I had made in the city.

From the first day I came to this bar, I have seen too many lonely women and empty men drinking all kinds of alcohol here, or silent, or their eyes full of lust looking for something called "drunken life and dreaming of death".

In fact, when we abandon our bodies during the day and let our souls get lost in this glamour, we are already drunk and asleep.

I don't forget the night when I think of this place as a place to settle down, I like the women who twist their waists, the flickering lights, the drinks of all colors, the perfume mixed with the smell of tobacco, the drunken dreams here, and then in the drunken dreams, the messy past is carved into a tombstone.

Light a cigarette, smoke off the film on the cigarette case, cover it in front of my eyes, look at the swaying light, my body is also swaying, in the light refracted by the film, I seem to see a kind of erosion that can be passed! I can't help but be a little fascinated!

……

Fang Yuan pulled the film out of my hand, and my world suddenly became clear again.

"What's the matter with you yelling at me in such a hurry?" Fang Yuan put down the briefcase in his hand and took out a cigarette from my cigarette case to light it for himself.

"Borrow some money, I'm being blackmailed!"

"Got the girl's belly bigger again?" Fang Yuan said in surprise.

"Uncle again! This time it's really fake......."

"Who slandered you this time?"

"What are you doing with so much nonsense?"

"I borrow thousands, thousands of dollars from you every time, and you at least let me know that my money is being robbed by someone, right?"

"Le Yao." I lit a cigarette in anger and said.

"The graphic model?"

"Isn't it just her, your circle is chaotic, she said that she slept with a man in a year, do you believe it? Fang Yuan, this matter is going to be put on you, do you believe it? I crackled with my fingers.

"This kind of thing can't happen to me, and besides, she won't cheat you for thousands of dollars, she took all the promotional posters in our department store last month, and the remuneration alone is more than 10,000 ......."

I sneered and interrupted Fang Yuan and said, "Don't you look at what kind of consumption she usually has, can more than 10,000 yuan last her for a month, at this time, she has an accident with others, and she has no money to deal with the aftermath, and she thinks of me again...... I'm so cheap, I shouldn't have been kind enough to introduce her to our company in the first place, I didn't make less money for her, and now she is still cheating me, do you still have a bit of conscience in the industry! ”

Fang Yuan ignored my anger and asked me in a low voice, "Did you bring that thing with you when you slept with her?" ”

I thought about it for a long time, but I remembered that I was about to break off when I was drunk, and I really couldn't remember whether I had a condom or not, so I said, "I brought it...... Can't you say you've been cheated! ”

Fang Yuan glanced at me suspiciously, and then sighed and said to me after a long time: "Zhaoyang, we have been friends for almost ten years, sometimes I really want to persuade you, I know that Jian Wei broke up with you, and it hit you hard, but it's been two years, you really don't need to practice yourself like this...... Youth waits for no one, find a girlfriend and settle down, okay? ”

When the name Jian Wei was mentioned again, I was subconsciously stunned before saying, "Don't fuck my idleness, buddy is doing well!" ”

"No shortage of worries! Right? ”

……

Fang Yuan enlightened me for a long time, I coped with it impatiently for a long time, and finally after he left a sentence "The mud can't support the wall", he left with dissatisfaction and brushed his sleeves, but forgot about me borrowing money from him.

Fortunately, I have been in the bar for two years, and I often bring some friends to the bar to consume, and I am quite familiar with the bar owner, so the consumption of this drink is temporarily recorded in the account.

Walking out of the bar, walking in the rain-soaked streets with an umbrella, I really realized what it means to be alone, I struggled in this city for two years, but what I gained was endless emptiness and loneliness, in order to get rid of this poisonous emptiness and loneliness, I had to wear a mask to hide shame and live, with this mask, I can live in laissez-faire with peace of mind.

But no matter how much I struggled on the brink of pain, she would never come back!

……

Alone in the amazement of walking several stops of the road before returning to their own community, this is an old community, the old not even a property, the first year to come, listen to the aunts in the community said, this community was built in the early 90s of the last century, under the erosion of the long years, every building in the community looks so decadent, but one next to the other, for fear of being lonely, so it seems that each building has life again, which makes me think: in the dead of night, they will also say a few whispers, Drain decades of loneliness.

With a cigarette in my mouth and a key out of my pocket, I walked towards the building where I lived, this building was the only one in the community with creepers, and every summer, the south-facing walls would be very green, and if these buildings were gendered, then this building was undoubtedly a woman, an indifferent woman.

It often makes people feel sad for her!

……

What surprised me was that there was a red Audi Q7 parked downstairs in this dilapidated building, and in my image, I lived here for two years, and there didn't seem to be a car with more than 500,000 yuan in this community.

I didn't think much about it, I whistled, walked along the corridor to the house where I lived, and when I reached the top floor, I was surprised to find that the door of the house was hidden, I remember that the door was locked when I left, and I subconsciously thought that there was a thief at home, and I remembered that I hadn't paid rent to the landlord Lao Li for two months, and most of it was Lao Li who came to urge rent.

Pushing open the door, the landlord Lao Li and a strange woman sat on the sofa, and there was a string of Audi Q7 car keys on the coffee table, and there was no doubt that the Q7 parked downstairs belonged to this strange girl.

Then a question flashed in my mind: What kind of magic power is Lao Li, a public in the market? I was puzzled to be brought to such a noble and inviolable girl as white as a lily in this humble room! ……――

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