When the word elopement was repeatedly mentioned in Jian Wei's mouth, my perception was once again pulled into the whirlpool of memories, and I remembered every detail of Jian Wei's life in Suzhou when she followed me to Suzhou, although this is already an old and unbearable past, but those expressions that she had been satisfied, sad, happy, and crying in this past still ignited my feelings in an instant, so that I could not go back to the house to face her again

I finally heard Mo Zishi respond to her: "I said elopement just to show my determination to you, objectively there is no zài, if you can bravely accompany me to face it, we will not be so bad that we want to elope!" ”

Jian Wei's tone became more and more painful, and she kept repeating the word "elopement" in her mouth, Mo Zishi instructed and realized that these two words touched the deepest secret in Jian Wei's heart, and he comforted Jian Wei softly, saying that it was his own slip of the tongue and asked her to calm down.

In order not to further irritate Jian Wei, Mo Zishi left the room, leaving only Yan Yan and Qin Yan to appease Jian Wei, and I, as the man who eloped with her at the beginning, didn't have the courage to face her, so I just stood outside this deserted room, a little stunned!

Mo Zishi came to my side, he asked me for a cigarette, sandwiched between my fingers, as if using a borrowed flame, hastily lit, hastily inhaled, and then coughed violently in this incident that I was not good at, and I also lit a cigarette, textbook-like smoke extended from my mouth and spit out, and then merged with the light of a lamp, and then dissipated

The room finally fell silent, and after a long time, I heard Jian Wei's voice full of grievances: "Yan Yan, you sue me, why do I always feel that I have experienced some things, but I can't remember anything, this feeling seems to hollow out my whole person, I really can't bear it anymore!" ”

"Weiwei, if you can't think of it, don't force yourself to think about it, forgetting some things is a relief, you really don't have to be so embarrassed about yourself! I'm begging you, okay? ”

There was a silence in the room that was almost suffocating, and I saw Jian Wei's expression almost collapsed through the window, and she finally whispered to Yan Yan: "You guys go back first, I'm tired, I want to be alone and quiet." ”

Originally, this pleasant night became a little heavy because of Mo Zishi's unexpected arrival, but this is definitely not Mo Zishi's unilateral responsibility, but the historical problems left by me and Jian Wei have affected him innocently, if there is such a possibility, he had the opportunity to meet Jian Wei in the early days of Jian Wei and I broke up, and many things would not be as regretful and difficult to solve as now.

Leaving the sanatorium, I drove Mo Zishi to a nearby hotel, on the way we inevitably chatted about Jian Wei, he smiled bitterly, and said, "Zhaoyang, do you think fate is a very wonderful thing?" At first, I just promised Xiaocai to do her best to heal Jian Wei, but now it has become a fateful entanglement, and the most incredible thing is that you are her first boyfriend who has always been in her subconscious, and we still have to talk about her past and the life she may experience in the future in this way! ”

"There are many things that happen in life that we really can't control, so we often use absurdity and bizarre to describe the world."

Mo Zishi was silent

I slowed down a bit and asked him again: "I have a general understanding of your concept of love, because you talked to me before, so I am curious now, you can have countless women to choose from, why is it that in the end it is Janeway, a woman whose life is full of shortcomings, that makes your heart move?" ”

Mo Zishi looked at me, and he asked with a reasonable expression: "Then you sue me, Xiaocai has countless golden men to choose from, but why is she desperately following you, she has done so much for you, has paid so much, even regardless of her own life, she has no regrets!" Excuse me, what is the truth of this? ”

"What do you mean by risking your own life?"

Mo Zishi was in a trance and replied: "I'm just exaggerating to describe it, what I want to express is: love is not a thing that needs reason and truth, sometimes it happens in that inadvertent moment, and many men and women tie their lives together because of this moment, do you understand?" ”

"I know I'm questioning because I'm worried about your unreliable feelings for Janeway just on a whim! Now she has almost nothing, only the face that can make all men happy, if you just covet her beauty, then you are a man full of danger to her, this is my concern! ”

"I don't want to explain, because it's not something that can be explained, but I must admit that my relationship with Janeway is not strong enough, what I'm most worried about is her memory, if one day she recovers her memories and still can't let go of her unforgettable feelings for you, is it fair to me Mo Zishi? At that point, where do I go from here? For me, family resistance can be overcome, but I don't have the confidence to deal with it! Can you understand my concerns? ”

I was silent for a long time before I replied, "I understand, that's why you didn't take her to the United States before, but she mistakenly thought that she was not worthy of you, which caused you a lot of pressure from your family!" ”

"So why is it that she can remember a lot of things from the past, but she doesn't have any signals of you as a person in her brain? From the perspective of brain science, this is exactly a kind of expression that is extremely unbearable, so I will take advantage of this accident to activate the protective mechanism of the brain and selectively forget you as a person! ”

I knocked over the five-flavor bottle in my heart, but I was speechless.

Mo Zishi sighed lightly, and said: "I don't want to worry so much about it now, who made me like her so much!" I want to bring her to live in the United States, and her parents don't want her to do the same? ”

"I don't deny that it was a good ending for her"

Mo Zishi continued what I didn't finish and said, "However, she is not willing to give me this chance now!" ”

"Wait patiently, time will surely give you an answer!"

"Yes, there will be answers, good or bad!"

Back in the old house, I couldn't sleep, so I wiped the coffee table that Mi Cai used to like to lie on top of the office over and over again, and then looked at the almost transparent glass surface, and lost my mind for a long time, until the mobile phone rang, and I came back to my senses

I answered the phone, and Le Yao's familiar voice came from inside: "Zhaoyang, are you free now?" Accompany me to the movies. ”

"Are you in Suzhou?"

"Well, I participated in the recording of a variety show in Shanghai this afternoon, and went back to Suzhou in the evening to have dinner with Robben Xiaowu."

"Oh."

Le Yao's tone was a little impatient, and she said again: "Don't ask me about these irrelevant things, quickly answer if I'm free." ”

"You have to explain what movie you watch first, I don't like to watch it as an urban emotional type!"

"So, if you are free, you are waiting at the gate of your community, and I will drive to pick you up now, and I will be there in about a quarter of an hour." After Le Yao said this, she hung up the phone in a hurry, which made me feel helpless again, God knows where she jumped out of her desire to watch a movie in the middle of the winter night.

It was really cold late at night, I deliberately put on a thick down jacket, tied a scarf and stood by the platform opposite the community waiting for her, after a while, sure enough, there was a very rare pink Land Rover driving towards me, and then I saw Le Yao in the car, she seemed to have become a pink girl on this night, even the scarf and knitted hat were pink.

She motioned for me to get in the car through the window, and I immediately opened the passenger door and sat in, asking suspiciously, "Are we going to the cinema?" Recently, your film has just been released, and its popularity has soared so much, if you are recognized by an enthusiastic audience in the cinema, it will be a big trouble, and I will not be able to take care of you at that time, and I will definitely run away without righteousness! ”

"Don't talk, you'll find out later."

Le Yao drove to the edge of the city, the feeling of emptiness made me uncomfortable, and finally I couldn't hold back and said to her: "It's a little crazy in the empty here, can there still be a movie theater?" Can we stop making it look like a thriller, my heart hasn't been good lately, really! ”

"Don't be hypocritical, don't complain, please be a bloody man!"

When Le Yao finished saying this, a lonely railroad track appeared in our sight after she turned a sharp corner, she drove forward for a while, and finally stopped the car, I once again felt uncomfortable for this kind of uninhabited emptiness, until I saw the abandoned white wall diagonally opposite, I felt that there may have been someone here to build, but only the railroad track and this abandoned wall, not even a little man-made garbage and planted flowers and trees.

Le Yao glanced at the angle between the car and the wall, she got into the car again, and hit the direction twice, the rear of the car was facing the white wall, and then she opened the trunk door, and then walked down from the car, I looked at her blankly, and I didn't know what kind of medicine she was selling in this gourd!

At this time, a blue-purple light in the trunk was projected on the somewhat abrupt and lonely wall, and I immediately saw the movie that Le Yao invested in again, it turned out that the trunk contained a projector, as well as two small speakers, when the picture and sound were received by the senses, the whole world seemed to be completely occupied by me and Le Yao! I never thought that there would be only Le Yao left in my world like this, a car, a railroad track, a wall, and a movie that I had already seen.

Le Yao pulled me to sit next to the projector and speaker in the trunk, and I said to her: "Why bother watching movies in this way, and I've already watched them once!" ”

Le Yao stared at me with tears in her eyes, as if she knew that I hadn't been very focused on watching this movie before.

Indeed, on the day the movie was released, after I took the company's senior management into the cinema, I kept chatting with Chen Jingming next to me about the company's affairs, and then fell asleep in fatigue, until the movie ended, Chen Jingming next to me woke me up, and I realized that I couldn't even see the last shot of my cameo in this movie.

At this time, this scene, I can't help but focus, twenty minutes later, I finally watched this movie into my heart, I regret the mistakes and misses of the hero and heroine again and again, and my heart hurts, I lit a cigarette, watching the camera concentrate intensively on the bar and the wet street, sometimes fast, sometimes slow, which makes me feel like I am living in this movie, because too many scenes I have experienced that I have some difficulty breathing!

It wasn't until the heroine packed her bags, left the crowded and fast-paced city, and saw the first wide expanse of the sea, that I felt relieved, and my palms were already moist

At the end of the movie, the heroine dies in a shipwreck with the hero's child and sleeps forever in the sea, and her wealthy father buys her a small island that she loved in her life and places her tombstone on that island

It wasn't until the third year after the heroine's death that the male protagonist learned the truth, but he didn't dare to go to the island where the heroine slept because of guilt, and only dared to stand on the opposite island and look at it from afar, so there was a back of my cameo, and the appearance of this back was not the last shot of the whole movie, I saw a translucent picture with a blue sailboat in the picture, and there was only a seabird resting on the sailboat, and the wind blowing the sails slowly

"The ends of the earth are floating, floating into wounds, where is my hometown tonight, I once had a home, called talking to myself, I once had a room, which was full of her sorrows"

Robben's song "The End of the World" became the ending song of this movie, singing countless sorrows and separations, and finally in Robben's song full of vicissitudes, I felt that I was fucking abused and had internal injuries, I swallowed my saliva in pain, and held back the tears that were about to fall.

At the end of the movie, there was only some scattered moonlight left, Le Yao's hair was blown by a cold wind, she skillfully pinned it behind her ear, and whispered to me: "In the movie, I died for love, but I lived forever in the reality of that man's heart?" Hehe, I'm alive and well, but in that man's heart, it's just a brilliant meteor for a few seconds, but what does this mean? It shows that life is life and art is art, so we all continue to compromise in life and pursue those alternative pleasures that arise because of sadness in art! ”

"I agree with you because we're all like that."

"Huh!" Le Yao smiled, laughed and she finally stopped laughing, she cried and then said to me with a smile: "Zhaoyang, I have decided to have a child with Jinfei, we must also have a child, although it has not been made yet, but Jinfei's parents and my father are waiting for the birth of this child!" ”

"Hmm"

"You remember, this woman who is by your side at this moment, there will be no more islands in my heart in the future, and there will be no longer extended railroad tracks, I want to thank you for creating a place for me and Jinfei in the game called Xiaoyao Pond and Jinfei Valley, which will become the place I desire the most in my heart"

"Hmm"

"And remember: keep the island and tombstone I left behind, even if it's just an inconspicuous place, but you must remember to put it."

"Hmm"

Le Yao held my face with both hands, with tears in her eyes, but said with a smile: "Then I'll go first, although the road is a little off and a little difficult for you to walk back by yourself, you will definitely walk back to that old house, because you have an indelible belief in your heart." ”

"Yes."

"Good! Shrewd! I'm gone! ”