This night, I didn't find a note of the woman's contact information, and finally sent Le Yao back to CC's residence in desperation, and told her to figure out how to take care of the drunk person, so I let her get on the elevator, but I suddenly didn't want to go anywhere, so I sat on a stone chair downstairs, watching the lights in CC's room turn on and off, go out and on, and I knew that she was vomiting in pain again.

I seem to have seen CC's trauma in love at this moment, and saw her wolf bèi appearance when she vomited, and I became more and more of an indescribable fear of love, but this fear does not completely stem from CC, her failure in love is just the trigger that makes me afraid, and the real reason is that I remember how I gave up on myself a few years ago, when I wasted my emotions, wasted my youth, and wasted my career that should have taken advantage of my youth to work hard

It was half past eight in the evening, half past seven in the morning New York time, I knew that Mi Cai had not gotten up at this time, but for the first time in my life, I didn't care about her work and rest, and made a call to her on the other side of the ocean, but what I got was a reply that the phone had been turned off, and I hung up the phone, and then I felt the unevenness of this night, the lights were rotating, the cold wind blowing to the west was flat, the road was uneven, the beer was cold, the heating pipe was hot, and people's feelings seemed to be lonely and longing, The qiē is so irregular, but it is coldly pinched together by the world, so that the whole scene in sight is so distorted and tilted

I took off the black leather gloves I wore on my hands, went to the convenience store and bought a cup of hot soy milk and two slices of bread, and the night was taken care of by myself with the food and clothing that I had earned by loneliness and luck

At half past nine in the evening, I drove to the moat, not expecting to meet Janeway, but only as a kind of dependence and sustenance when I was lonely, and in fact, this place did give me a lot of comfort with deep memories.

I lit a cigarette as usual, and watched the moonlight shine through the withered branches and refracted above the river, so that the world crossed by the moat, sometimes real, sometimes trance, I was in it all the time, and I couldn't find a way out.

The familiar smell of perfume wafted into my nostrils with the cold wind, and when I turned around, she was already standing beside me, brushing her hair hanging down her shoulders and saying to me, "I have a strong feeling that you will be here tonight, and you are indeed here." ”

I rubbed my nose, which was a little difficult to breathe, and said to her, "In such a big city, there is always a feeling that I can't find a way out, so I want to come here to see it." ”

Janeway smiled: "Here, have you found that way out?" ”

"No, I only saw this moat stretching into the distance, and the ghosts knew if the end of the flow was the way out I wanted!"

Jian Wei didn't respond to my words again, and after a silence, she changed the topic and said to me: "By the way, this Christmas event, Zhuomei needs to use the advertising resources, our Simei advertising has been prepared, and some have been put into use, I have to say that Fang Yuan is really a very capable man, the advertising resources planned by him, all used on the blade, judging from the current feedback, the effect of advertising communication is very good!" ”

"He's always been capable!"

Jian Wei looked at me and said for a while: "So I always think that what he wants to pursue is a stage that is too big to have no bounds, and he is an ambitious man!" ”

"Shouldn't all men be ambitious?"

"There is also a difference between ambition, some men can control their ambitions, and some men are dominated by ambitions, I think you are the former, so you dare to design that majestic literary and artistic road, but you are cautious in every step, so that the people around you can't feel your ambition!"

I smiled and didn't say anything, just looked at the moat, which was both true and false, and found my way out in its flow.

Jian Wei asked me unexpectedly, "Zhaoyang, after so many years, do you think you really know Xiang Chen and Fang Yuan?" ”

"Why do you ask?"

"I just want to know what these two brothers you value the most look like in your eyes."

I replied, "Did you know that time can be split by a qiē?" I feel that I have become estranged from Xiang Chen, since you went to the United States, we have been even more estranged, we will not even contact each other for a year, we are indeed like brothers in college, and now we have basically lost the intersection, so there is no need to evaluate it, even if it is a brother, it was the past! Although I don't want to admit it many times, our attention to each other is completely incompatible with the word brother. ”

Jian Wei seemed to agree with the statement that the brotherhood between me and Xiang Chen had been severed by time, nodded and asked again, "What about Fang Yuan?" ”

"I'm so familiar with him, so familiar that I don't know how to evaluate it, but I've always envied him, envy him for having such a partner as Yan Yan who can be loved for the rest of my life"

This time, the answer I gave didn't seem to be the answer that Jian Wei wanted, but she didn't ask any more questions, just silent in the face of the wind blowing from the river, I looked down at the cigarette that I had caught between my fingers but ignored, and after taking a puff, I hurriedly took a puff and said to her: "I'm looking forward to this Zhuomei activity at Christmas, this is the first collaboration between me and Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen in the real sense since we separated from university, do you remember?" When I was in college, the three of us used to form a team and won a lot of marketing awards from schools and social organizations, and the days were really high! ”

Jian Wei looked at me with a complicated expression, and said for a long time: "Although you and Xiang Chen, and even Fang Yuan have been estranged for a certain time, in your heart, you have always longed to repair the relationship with them, but you have no chance, right?" ”

"Maybe, but it's like a broken glass bottle, even if you go to repair it, the crack is still there, I don't expect that there will be the kind of friendship between us in the past, especially Xiang Chen, I believe he thinks so too."

Janeway ignored my remarks, took the topic to another level, and said: "Zhaoyang, I want you to remember that when facing interests, sincerity is a very luxurious thing, and don't expect everyone to look at interests and deal with feelings with the purest attitude, because this is a world that is dirty by desire!" ”

Before I could comprehend Janeway's words, the phone rang in my pocket, it was Mi Cai, and at this moment, she finally woke up in the early morning in New York, presumably seeing the text message of the missed call I had made to her.