Chapter 82: Reluctance
When it was dark, Lord Sun Guan knocked on the door of the Taiping Temple.
"Lord, you're here again so early." The boy who opened the door said.
"What's the name again!" Sun Guan said.
"I just left." The boy muttered.
Lord Sun Guan ignored her and walked forward.
"Ready for breakfast? The lady's food is very exquisite, you can do your best, and the movements are lighter, don't make a noise about the lady's sleep. She said, smiling and looking inside.
"The lady has already gotten up and just gone out." Xiao Tong said.
Sun Guan was stunned.
"So early!"
The winter mountain is even more gloomy and cold, and the sound of small footsteps echoes in the mountain, waving layers of mountain fog.
Cheng Jianniang walked in the forefront, holding a branch in her hand, sweeping away the dead branches that fell on the road from time to time, and followed behind with small steps, her face was red and fluttering when she didn't know whether it was cold or walking, and a cloud of white gas came out of her mouth.
"Lady, did you and Sister Banqin often walk on the mountains like this at that time?" She asked.
"yes." Cheng Jianniang said.
"Where did you meet Mrs. Zhang?" Banqin asked curiously.
Cheng Jianniang looked up left and right, her footsteps did not stop.
"It's over there." She raised her hand and pointed in one direction with a branch.
Banqin tiptoed up and imagined the scene at that time.
"That's wonderful," she couldn't help but sigh.
"Each has its own good, different roads have different scenery, don't regret it." Cheng Jianniang said, striding forward.
Banqin nodded, smiled and followed.
Cheng Jianniang stopped and looked back at Banqin.
"What don't you want to ask me?" She asked.
Banqin was stunned for a moment.
"Lady, what do you ask?" She asked.
Cheng Jianniang smiled.
"I used to be in this small view." She stretched out her hand and pointed to the peaceful view where she had come from. "I drove two children away. Banqin, she still feels a little pitiful......"
"Lady." Banqin interrupted her. With a bit of grievance, "The lady is pitiful, why do you have to pity others, why don't others pity you, do you owe them?" Do you deserve them? If they are sad and sad, should you also be sad and sad with them? Or are you hard-hearted? If they are sick and sick, should you have to be cured? If you can't cure it, it's your sin, lady? Why doesn't anyone pity you, why do you pity others? Just because you don't say it? Is it just because you don't cry? Are you supposed to? ”
She hid her face and cried.
Cheng Jianniang looked stunned. It seems a little awkward.
"Hey, hey, I just said it casually...", she smiled, thought about it, stepped back, and reached out to pat Banqin's head.
Banqin sobbed.
"Lady, I'm fine, I'm just crying, let's go on, don't waste time." She cried.
Cheng Jianniang looked at her and smiled, didn't say anything more, turned around and strode away.
After walking a short distance, there was a sudden shout in front of me.
"What people!"
Banqin stood still in fright. I couldn't care about sobbing anymore, and looked over with some nervousness in my teary eyes.
Although the lady said it was okay. But Steward Cao and others were still vigilant, Cheng Jianniang came out for a walk, they scattered around first, and suddenly warned at this time, did they find any danger?
Cheng Jianniang's footsteps still didn't stop, strode away, and soon turned a corner, and saw a person sitting on the stone on the side of the mountain.
"It's you!" Banqin said in surprise.
The man sitting in the morning mist lifted his hood, revealing the face of a young man.
"It's me." "What a coincidence," he said. ”
What a coincidence?
How did you come back again? Still unwilling? Banqin turned her head to look at Cheng Jianniang.
"I was thinking about waiting until dawn to see you again, but I didn't expect you to come to the mountain too." King Jin'an continued.
Cheng Jianniang walked over with her feet raised, and the entourage retreated without commanding.
The King of Jin'an looked at her.
"Look." He said, pointing to the retreating retinue, "You don't even have to speak, they all believe you and listen to you." ”
Cheng Jianniang looked at him and seemed to not understand his words.
"And you've told me so much, but I still don't believe it." King Jin'an said.
"How can this compare." Cheng Jianniang shook her head and said.
"I'm sorry." King Jin'an stood up, looked at her and took a deep breath and said, "I shouldn't lose my temper at you, he didn't cause the accident, he couldn't cure it, and it wasn't because of you, everything has nothing to do with you, but I complained about you, I didn't dare to complain about the person who should complain, but I picked you up and complained, bullying the soft and afraid of the hard." ”
Oh my God, Banqin couldn't help but reach out to cover her mouth, and tears flowed down again.
"I'm not angry." Cheng Jianniang said.
"I know." King Jin'an said, "This is my self-comfort, not so much to apologize to you, but to relieve myself." ”
Cheng Jianniang looked at him and smiled slightly.
"It's okay." She said, reaching out and gently patting his arm twice.
Don't be upset.
The King of Jin'an looked at her and smiled.
But she won't say it, because how can she not be sad, what she can't do, she never says.
He reached out and handed over a wooden box.
"This is my New Year's gift for you." He said, smiling, "Originally, I wanted to have someone send it over, but then something happened, so I didn't care about it, and I happened to come here in person this time, and I forgot to send it to you today yesterday, so it was not in vain......
Gifts?
Banqin's eyes couldn't help but fall on the lady's head, and there was only a silver comb on the temples that were pulled up.
Cheng Jianniang stretched out her hand to take it, and Banqin hurriedly stepped forward, but Cheng Jianniang did not hand it to her, but opened it directly.
Banqin couldn't help but lean over and see that there was a hairpin in the wooden box, neither gold nor silver, and no jewelry embellishment, it was just a carved wooden hairpin, and it looked like it was some years old.
"This was given to me by my mother when I was a child." King Jin'an said, smiling again as he spoke, "Actually, it wasn't given by my mother, it was naughtily plucked from my mother's head." ”
Mother, Mother, don't go. Don't go....
The little child looked worried. Desperately grabbing the sleeve of the gorgeous woman.
Don't leave me behind. Don't leave me behind...
Cong Lang, good.
The woman soothed the little child, picked her up, and carried her into the arms of the woman who followed her.
Mother, mother.
Despite some reluctance, the woman reached out and broke the child's hand.
Mother, mother.
The child screamed and reached out to grab the woman's hairpin ring. The sideburns were scattered, but that didn't stop the woman's footsteps.
Holding the hairpin in his hand, he looked at the woman who was getting farther and farther away and finally disappeared from sight.
"I think that giving gifts to others is naturally to give yourself the most precious and favorites." King Jin'an said with a slight smile.
Banqin's gaze couldn't help but fall on Cheng Jianniang's head again.
Cheng Jianniang raised her hand and took out the hairpin and inserted it, and handed the box to Banqin.
"It's not pretty." King Jin'an said with a smile, looking at the woman's dark sideburns, it turned out that she could look good without hair accessories.
"As long as it's easy to use." Cheng Jianniang said, bending down to salute.
The king of Jin'an returned the courtesy.
There was a silence between the two, and when the king of Jin'an was about to say goodbye, Cheng Jianniang spoke first.
"I'm going to take a walk." She said. "Do you want to come with me?"
Just take a walk?
The king of Jin'an was stunned, maybe she wanted to say something to herself. He immediately nodded.
Cheng Jianniang raised her feet and walked forward, and the king of Jin'an followed.
There were more footsteps on the silent mountain road, and the king of Jin'an looked at the woman in front of him, walking like flying, his cloak rolling, and he waved a branch in his hand to sweep the road from time to time.
He had been walking for a while, and he didn't speak as he expected, but really walked in silence.
"Do you go often?" He asked as he broke the silence.
"I used to be in poor health, so I walked more to recover faster." Cheng Jianniang said.
In the past, she was a fool, and it was inconvenient to speak and act, but now that she is getting better, it turns out that she has practiced by herself like this.
King Jin'an nodded.
"Lately." Cheng Jianniang said, pausing at this point, "I'm not in a good mood, I will feel better if I walk like this." ”
If you're in a bad mood, you can feel better for a walk? So is that why she called herself together?
Will she also be comforting? King Jin'an couldn't help but smile when he looked at the back of the woman in front of him, and raised his feet to follow.
No one spoke on the mountain road, only the sound of footsteps, and the chirping of birds and beasts from the mountains.
Sixth Brother will not be cured, in fact, he knew it before he came, but people are always unwilling to give up easily, always want to grasp a life-saving straw, and don't want to believe that the straw is just hanging in the air.
Wake up, wake up.
The pace of the King of Jin'an County is getting faster and faster.
Banqin raised her hand to wipe the fine sweat on her forehead, gasping a little, looking at the two people who were getting farther and farther in front of her, she didn't mean to fall behind, but they were walking too fast and couldn't keep up.
It's really going faster and faster, originally the lady was in front, but now the young man Langjun seems to be in a trance, forgetting to avoid, but crossing the lady forward, the lady seems to be not far behind, speeding up the pace, so you chase me, in parallel on the narrow mountain road from time to time.
Banqin is not worried about any danger, the entourage is in front, but others are here, she can't lag behind, she took a few breaths and continued to speed up her pace to catch up.
Xuanmiao Mountain is not too high, when the two people climbed to the top of the mountain, the morning light was already bright, the bright sunlight projected on the mountain, dispelled the fog, the villages and fields under the mountain were clearly presented in front of them, and the Jiangzhou City in the distance could also be seen, and the people on the road were dotted with horses and donkeys, and the people on foot with carts were dotted, like moving black dots, which looked small, but made the whole sight vivid.
King Jin'an couldn't help but take a deep breath and spit it out heavily, I don't know if it was because he had been walking for so long or because of the fresh air in the mountains, and the depression in his heart had dissipated a lot.
"Approximately, when the son comes to the mountain, he will also sigh with the emotion of the deceased." Cheng Jianniang said suddenly.
King Jin'an couldn't help but laugh and turned his head to look at the woman beside him.
Because of the climbing, her fair face was bloody, and her big eyes became brighter and brighter.
"Cheng Fang." He couldn't help but call.
Cheng Jianniang turned her head to look at him.
"I'm sorry." King Jin'an said.
Cheng Jianniang looked at him, her eyebrows raised slightly, although it was a small action that was almost unchecked, it also made her face vivid.
"I shouldn't have said you were ugly before." King Jin'an smiled, "You didn't have anything before, anyway, you look good now." ”
Cheng Jianniang smiled, revealing her fine white teeth, making her whole face gorgeous.
The king of Jin'an County also laughed.
"Do you feel bad?" Cheng Jianniang said suddenly.
The smile of the King of Jin'an County froze slightly.
"I feel sad too." Cheng Jianniang stopped looking at him, turned her head to look at the bottom of the mountain, and said slowly.
These simple six words, which seemed to carry endless sadness, felt a pain in the ears of the king of Jin'an County.
It's sad, it's really sad, it's really sad that it's this unspeakable pain.
"But, you have to be sad, otherwise what else?" Cheng Jianniang continued, "Are you crying? Is it noisy? Did it work? After crying, it's over, isn't it still over, the deceased is like Sifu, the transformation of heaven and earth, the past passes, the coming continues, there is no stop without a breath, it is the nature of the Taoist body, we can't change, we can only obey, if you don't follow, it's simple, that's death, dead and dead a hundred, but, are you willing? ”
Forget it, it's good to forget.
Yes, it's good to forget, but how can you forget, how willingly!
Unwilling! Unwilling!
The king of Jin'an County also turned his gaze and looked at the bottom of the mountain, silent.
"But why is it so hard?" He muttered.
"I don't know." Cheng Jianniang said, "It's about fate." ”
Hell.
Neither of them spoke again, they both looked down the mountain, the sun was getting brighter and brighter, there were more and more pedestrians on the road, and a new day began again.
No matter whether it is sad or happy, no matter whether it is difficult or smooth, day after day is reluctant day and night. (To be continued......)