"Haha." Tong Xiaoxin looked proudly at someone whose movements suddenly stopped.

"Still laughing?" Ning Xiuji's face instantly turned bad.

"People can't help but laugh." Tong Xiaoxin's body trembled with laughter, and the corners of her eyes and eyebrows were full of smiles that had succeeded in her little tricks.

"You're deliberately angry with me, aren't you?" Ning Xiuji slapped Tong Xiaoxin twice on the waist, making a crisp sound, this woman's aunt is here, and she deliberately let him come to the fire, how can she get on fire now!

"It hurts!" Tong Xiaoxin frowned unhappily and kicked Ning Xiuji, "Who called you monkey anxious, I haven't had time to explain yet!" ”

"Didn't have time?" Ning Xiuji raised his eyebrows, "It's been so long since you've been back all the way, why haven't you explained?" ”

"Oops, I forgot about it!" Tong Xiaoxin will not admit that she did it on purpose.

"What now?" Ning Xiuji took Tong Xiaoxin's hand and put it on his key part.

"You ......" Tong Xiaoxin wanted to withdraw her hand, but she was pulled by Ning Xiuji, she dragged hard, and the hot temperature on his thing came from the palm of her hand, so embarrassing, "You go take a cold shower." ”

"It's not that there are no women. If you touch it, you can solve it directly by hand. Ning Xiuji took Tong Xiaoxin's hand and began to move.

"Hey! You...... Do you want to be shameless? Tong Xiaoxin hadn't used her hands to solve Ning Xiuji's physiological needs, and now this is really unacceptable to her, she closed her eyes tightly, kicked her legs around, and just refused to obey.

"When I do this in the future, don't ask me shameless questions. Now I'd rather be shameless than have you. Ning Xiuji smiled proudly, she still wanted to tease him, but the little thing was a little tender.

"You're so shameless!" Tong Xiaoxin almost roared, I've seen a thick-skinned person, but I've never seen someone thicker than Ning Xiuji!

"Shamelessness is also for you. Don't you really like that I'm shameless with you? Ning Xiuji held Tong Xiaoxin's beauty, gnawed on it, and said vaguely.

"Who likes it. You don't talk nonsense. Tong Xiaoxin's face was red, her head tilted, and she was reluctant to open her eyes.

"It's not like I've never seen it, what are you doing with your eyes closed. Open your eyes and be obedient. Ning Xiuji insisted that Tong Xiaoxin open his eyes.

Tong Xiaoxin didn't agree, his hand reached into her key part, and she screamed in fright, immediately opened her eyes and grabbed his hand.

"Don't you ...... I'm still here! She looked at him dissatisfied, "I don't even remember my girlfriend's menstrual period, your boyfriend is really incompetent!" ”

"What my wife said is that I will remember it in the future." Ning Xiuji admitted that he didn't remember Tong Xiaoxin's menstrual period, so he accepted her 'criticism' with a good attitude.

After a long time, Tong Xiaoxin's hands were sore, and she felt a stream of hot liquid spraying on her hands.

She looked at her hand and looked at Ning Xiuji with disgust.

"You actually dislike me for being dirty?" Ning Xiuji's eyes fell dangerously on Tong Xiaoxin's face.

"It's not." Tong Xiaoxin pretended to smile stupidly, but she was thinking in her heart, is it really dirty!

"If you can't lie, don't tell." Ning Xiuji didn't mind, and wiped Tong Xiaoxin's hands clean with a tissue, "Go wash it." ”

Tong Xiaoxin rushed to the bathroom and washed her hands well.

"Wait for me to take a shower and go out to eat, and the table is booked." Ning Xiuji walked into the bathroom without wearing anything and kissed Tong Xiaoxin on the cheek.

Tong Xiaoxin pushed her, went out first without speaking, and secretly said in her heart, how can this person be so not ashamed, can he die wearing a piece of clothing? Even if you don't wear it, at least put a bath towel around it somewhere!

The two packed up, drove out, and went to the reserved restaurant for dinner.

Zhong Jing came out of a bar, holding a wooden box in her hand, and walked along the street, as if she was in a fugue, her face was expressionless, her body was dangling, and Ning Xiuji didn't stop when she parked the car beside her.

Ning Xiuji shook his head, he stopped the car when he saw her.

"I'll get out of the car and take a look." He said to Tong Xiaoxin, then opened the door and got out of the car and called Zhong Jing, "Confectionery." ”

Zhong Jing's footsteps stopped, stunned, and then slowly looked back at Ning Xiuji.

Ning Xiuji was puzzled, Zhong Jing's eyes were very strange, as if she was a little lost, did she think that the person who called her was Gu Dongning?

He was shocked in his heart, her current appearance was the same as when she pestered Gu Dongning before, which made him suddenly feel a little flustered. Isn't she with David anymore? Didn't she say that she would take David back to see Master Gu in a few days to confirm the wedding date? Why did she ...... Could it be that she still loves Gu Dongning in her heart?

Tong Xiaoxin also got out of the car, walked up to Ning Xiuji, and after looking back and forth between him and Zhong Jing a few times, she smiled at Zhong Jing, and touched Ning Xiuji with her arm, "Why don't you speak?" What are the two of them doing standing stupidly? ”

Ning Xiuji hooked the corners of his mouth and touched the top of Tong Xiaoxin's head, "Go back and talk about it." ”

Tong Xiaoxin nodded and asked Zhong Jing: "Confectionery, what are you holding?" The wooden box, some years old, was very few now, and she wondered how she could walk down the street with it in her arms.

"It's just a little thing." Zhong Jing seemed to have just come back to his senses for a long time, and replied to Tong Xiaoxin with a faint smile.

"Something from your childhood?" Ning Xiuji walked over to get the wooden box, but Zhong Jing dodged him, and he didn't touch the box.

"When I was a child, I was naïve, I left some useless things, and now I plan to give them away. Second brother, Xiaoxin, I'll go first. ”

"You've been drinking?" Ning Xiuji was very worried about Zhong Jing, in his impression, Zhong Jing rarely drank, and the few times he did go, it was because of Gu Dongning.

"Hmm. A friend had a treat and had a small drink. Zhong Jing waved his hand, turned around and continued walking.

Tong Xiaoxin stood beside Ning Xiuji, looking at Zhong Jing's back as she gradually walked away, and couldn't help but be a little worried.

"Xiu Ji, there won't be anything going on with the confectionery, right?"

"It should be fine." Ning Xiuji shook his head, trying to convince himself that Zhong Jing was like this now because of David, not Gu Dongning.

Zhong Jing hugged the wooden box and walked a long way, but his feet hurt when he walked, so he simply took off his shoes and walked barefoot on the street.

It's already late autumn, and the evening sky should be dark and dark, dark and gloomy, although there is no wind, but the temperature is not high, and it is cold.

Many passers-by saluted Zhong Jing as if they were looking at the monster.

Zhong Jing didn't notice it, carried his shoes, dropped one, and didn't care, turned into a small forest at the intersection of a boulevard, walked over, walked to the river and sat down.

There were many lights on the other side of the river, and the lights flashed on the water, and they were very beautiful, but they were broken into pieces with the flowing water.

Zhong Jing took advantage of the dim sky and the light cast from the opposite side, opened the wooden box, took out the puppet that he showed to Master Gu that day, and threw it into the river without hesitation.

If it's not hers, it will never be hers.

I opened the diary and the date was December 25, 2003.

"Yesterday was Christmas Eve, what a happy day, I didn't see Lukas all day, in fact, I didn't need to look, I knew that he was accompanying Deng Weina for the holiday.

I thought I wouldn't see him until Christmas, but I saw him two hours before the clock struck midnight.

He took Deng Weina's hand and walked through the crowd, stopping in front of every stall she liked.

He bought her all the things she had taken a fancy to on Christmas Eve.

She had too many things in her hands, so he called the driver of the house and helped her carry the bag.

I stupidly followed them, obviously sad, but I still couldn't help but look at him.

With him, can you treat him as if he is by my side and accompanies me for the holidays?

'What are you doing here?' He finally saw me, and the look in his eyes that greeted me changed from surprise to wariness for a moment.

'I'm going home.' I lied and ran away.

As the clock struck midnight, I lay down on the cold sheets, and drank the bottle of poison that had been prepared long ago.

It's not the first time I've wanted to die, so I'm not scared at all.

But why am I still in good shape today, reopen my eyes, and lie in the hospital?

Who saved me? Why save me?

I really don't want to live, every time I see LUKAS, I feel so sad that I suffocate, that feeling like death is approaching, no one can understand.

I hated the feeling of imminent death, and I wanted to close my eyes and never wake up again. ”

How many times he died for Gu Dongning, Zhong Jing himself didn't know.

In fact, as long as she looked through the diary page by page, she could clearly count it, but she didn't want to relive her scars.

Flip through and browse casually, some memories do not need to be revisited, and they will be engraved in your heart.

After flipping through for a while, he stopped at a certain page, I don't know which day's diary, the date is no longer important, the important thing is that Zhong Jing remembers it himself.

"Lukas finally got married, with a girl he had met a few times, very young and beautiful.

The important thing is that he doesn't hate her, and the aunt doesn't hate her.

She was lucky. ”

A few lines, staying on the night when Gu Dongning and Bai Yiru received their marriage certificate, Zhong Jing reached out and wiped the tears on her face, that night she was drunk, alcoholized, and almost died, but she still didn't die.

Look again.

"There is a girl named Tong Xiaoxin by the side of the second brother, and the aunt likes it very much, but the second brother doesn't think so.

In fact, I can see that the second brother treats that girl differently than others.

They are rejoicing enemies.

I hope that the second brother will go out quickly and not be stupid like me.

Second brother, did I say to you thank you for being kind to me over the years?

Forgive me for not being able to respond ......"

Several diaries looked over, and only the last one was left in the box, a new floral cloth wrapped in cover, and the color of the paper was dark yellow, which the diary seller said was good for eyesight.

"It's good for eyesight, what's the use, it's not dazzling to make people cry when I see it now." Zhong Jing touched the cover, sniffed, and couldn't stop the tears.

This is this year's diary, and she still remembers most of the contents on it, and she doesn't need to look through it at all, but she still opens it.

"I agreed to David's agreement, anyway, it's only one year, and when my sister-in-law gets better, I won't be able to die, so I won't feel aggrieved."

Page.

"Curious what David would be angry about if I sought death.

I thought he was because of that agreement, but I didn't want his answer to be that he liked me.

What's good for me? Is it worth it for him to do that?

He asked me to try to accept him, and I casually agreed, but I asked myself, can I really do it? ”

Turn it over again, and it's almost the end.

"I refused to take the pills, and David forced me with self-harm, and I was not only surprised, but also moved.

If David had appeared beside me when I was a teenager and just became sensible, wouldn't it be different now?

He stared at me taking medicine and injections, a little ...... Lovely ......"

On the last page, there is only one sentence.

"David doesn't see me anymore, and the relief comes a little suddenly."

How many years, how many days and nights, how many encounters, how many reminiscences...... In the blink of an eye, it's just a few diaries that are not thin or thick.

Put the diary aside, in the wooden box, and some gadgets.

Issuing. Red. On her eleventh birthday, Gu Dongning bought it for her.

A pair of thin bracelets. During the summer vacation of twelve-year-olds, I traveled to Nepal and bought it by Gu Dongning.

A blue and white porcelain vase, said to be a real antique. When he was thirteen years old, Gu Dongning was auctioned at BJ's auction.

……

Before the age of eleven, Gu Dongning bought a lot of things for Zhong Jing, but she always lost them and didn't care about them.

After she was thirteen years old, when Gu Dongning had bought very few things for her, she regretted countless times why she didn't keep everything he gave her in the first place.

When did Gu Dongning stop being willing to buy her things?

It seems that he started after he knew she liked him.

Zhong Jing held the lighter, pressed the button without hesitation, and a flame rushed up, igniting the diary in his other hand.

The flames were everywhere, the yellowed diary, the gas blue and purple glow.

A few diaries, some miscellaneous items, burned completely behind him.

Zhong Jing walked back slowly, no longer looking at the firelight.

********

Bai Yiru delivered lunch to Gu Dongning, and the two were eating in his office when her phone rang.

After connecting, it was the organizer of the competition, saying that Bai Yiru had won the award, the first place, and the award ceremony was held in Frankfurt on Saturday.

"When are I going to claim my prize?" Gu Dongning waited until she hung up the phone before asking, she was so happy, she didn't need to ask to know that she had won the award.

"Saturday." Bai Yiru excitedly hugged Gu Dongning and kissed him on the cheek, "This time it's the first." ”

"I know my wife is the best." Gu Dongning hugged Bai Yiru with his backhand, "We have to celebrate and celebrate." ”

"Uh-huh." Bai Yiru nodded like pounding garlic, "How to celebrate?" ”

"Eat meat." Gu Dongning kissed Bai Yiru's lips as he spoke, in fact, it wasn't because he wanted to do it because he won the award, but he thought about it just now, but he was just disturbed by this phone call, and now he is just going to continue. He missed Lucas's office and the warmth he felt with her.