Chapter 57: Self-reproach from the depths of the soul
"Look at what you've done! Recall for yourself, doesn't your conscience hurt when you look at your incomparably resentful eyes when the girl leaves?" Zhang Tianci said excitedly, and he couldn't help beating his chest with his hand.
Huang Tianhui suddenly felt as if the sky had fallen. For a while, the world was spinning, the head was clouded, the eyes were glazed, and the trigeminal nerve launched a "nerve" again.
I never thought that on such a special occasion, I would be forced to recall this dirty past that was buried in my heart and never wanted to be remembered again.
No matter how you think about it, you feel like you're not as good as a beast.
Each of us has our own secrets, the kind of past that is buried in the bottom of our hearts and we don't want to share it with others. Carefully buried in the deepest part of memory, hanging countless "locks" of "no one should approach", for fear of being "accidentally" uncovered the pain of the past. I always fantasize that I will never think of it again in my lifetime, and after the burning bath of our flesh in peace, it will turn into ordinary clouds and mud and dust and smoke together, and disappear in the long river of history.
Because it is full of regrets, guilt, sadness, regret, shame, and even hatred in life.
It constitutes a memory that is unbearable to look back on and never want to mention.
A scar that hurts the soul and doesn't want to admit it, but it is still bleeding and difficult to heal.
In fact, like our faces, our personalities, he is full of unique attributes that make up us and our spirit and body, which are difficult to separate. Whether you accept it or not, we can't choose.
How many times have I told myself that I have forgotten the unbearable past, but life is such a joke, what you think you have forgotten is actually just a very pitiful, self-deceptive perfunctory.
The more he wanted to forget, the more he couldn't.
Because what is unforgettable is not that you can't forget, but because of the "care" that is close to "obsession".
Huang Tianhui's scalp was numb, and his back was already soaked.
The coercion that was infinitely seen through was like a powerful wave, shattering his psychological defense. Having lost all his dignity, he suddenly found himself so filthy. Trembling like a sieve, the cherished cigar inadvertently slipped from the epileptic fingers, and tears and snot flowed uncontrollably like the tide that opened the floodgates. Whimpering like a child, his legs were weak, he knelt at Zhang Tianci's feet, his forehead pressed against the ground, and shouted loudly:
"Help me..."
"O Master, please save me!"
It was a cry from the depths of the soul, from the bottom of the heart. Contained in the infinite desire to survive and the helplessness of exhaustion after being tortured. It is a sincere reflection, deep self-reproach and painful repentance.
Someone once said that in this world, who can understand the suffering in the world, understand the difficulties of life, and understand the injustice of society.
Not a monk, not a philosopher, but a born-again.
And life in reality is like an infinitely deep chasm that can never be avoided.
He was harsh, cold, and ruthless. Equally, fair and just at the macro level. In the details, there are iron walls and strict hierarchies, which can't help but make people sigh in vain.
God created human beings, but He also endowed them with ignorance and ignorance. Human beings use their lives to summarize and love life, and when everything is summed up, life is also handed over to the Creator.
Is this the fate of mankind?
Helpless, helpless, pleading, heart-rending cries.
At this moment, he is no longer a high-ranking Brother Hui, but a very ordinary, helpless, and weak ant. He begged Zhang Tianci, who stood there like a god, to give him a new life and save him from the dire situation.
What about the so-called dignity, status, and honor?
Huang Tianhui has abandoned everything, and he has seen everything thoroughly. Lying on the ground sincerely, "knock knock knock" on the ground, and kept kowtowing to Zhang Tianci.
He cried loudly and choked up, "Master, please save me..."
The earth-shattering shout directly stunned the whole room.
What's going on?
What tragic incident happened that could make such a vicious underworld boss make such an unbearable move?
One by one, they were at a loss. It's not going to come forward, it's not going to be forward. Looking at Zhang Tianci's eyes, he was even more filled with infinite horror and fear. Together with Qin Haiyang and Zhang Siyu, they all looked at the scene in front of them in disbelief, just like these men in black, they were speechless in surprise.
"Save you, but... This price..." Zhang Tianci looked extremely embarrassed.
"How much money, how much? Master Zhang, just speak!"
Huang Tianhui was like a man who had fallen into the water and suddenly caught a life-saving straw, looking at Zhang Tianci with starry eyes. Seeing that he wanted to speak and stopped, he looked very embarrassed. His mind turned quickly in an instant, he knelt up straight, and said to Zhang Tianci very seriously: "As long as the master is willing to come to the rescue, this loan will be written off." As for the cost of treatment, you can make a price, and I will send someone to you immediately!"
Zhang Tianci smiled slightly, didn't say much, and beckoned Qin Haiyang and Zhang Siyu to come over. Arrange for Qin Haiyang to find two benches, side by side, in a north-south direction, and place them in the middle of the courtyard. Then he asked Zhang Siyu to bring eleven large quilts, sewing needles and a candle.
Zhang Siyu wanted to stay and see what Zhang Tianci was doing. I always felt that this little brother had woken up for less than a day, and he had already brought her too many surprises, surprises and fright.
With wide eyes, I looked at him with a curious baby look. It felt like saying, "Little brother, are you the devil or a show..."
Zhang Tianci waved his hand and asked Zhang Siyu to go back to the boudoir, leaving Qin Haiyang to help him. Zhang Siyu didn't want to leave at all, but he couldn't bear Qin Haiyang's kind words and persuasion, so he could only throw Zhang Tianci an angry face and return to his boudoir stupidly.
"Hmph, it's mysterious, I don't want to look at it!"
Muttering and sitting on the edge of the bed. As soon as he stretched out his hand, he touched Zhang Tianci's clothes folded on the pillow, and was about to grit his teeth and commit violence against him, but he really couldn't resist the temptation of the unknown, and tiptoed to the window, lying on the edge, watching from afar through the glass.
Zhang Tianci asked "Brother Hui" to remove his shirt, untie his belt, and lower the waist of his trousers, like a fat pig waiting to be slaughtered, with his head south and feet north, facing down, lying flat on two benches, his hands naturally hanging low.
This scene is very familiar to Qin Haiyang. In the countryside, when they slaughter their own pigs, they are like this. Set up two benches, tied with hemp rope and connected. Then, a group of people pulled their ears and pulled their tails, and very skillfully carried the pig to be slaughtered to the stool, and worked together to control the screaming pig. Finally, the main knife touched the neck close to the pig's heart, spit on the knife, gritted his teeth, and the white knife went in, and the red knife came out. It's just that the difference is that the pig was carried up by someone, while Huang Tianhui took the initiative to climb up by himself, and Qin Haiyang laughed in his heart when he saw it.
Zhang Tianci called out to Qin Haiyang, who was a little distracted, and told him to light the candle. I pinched the large needle used to sew the quilt and put it on the fire to roast slowly. After it was baked red, it was quickly inserted into the back of "Brother Hui" with lightning speed.
While inserting the pin, he changed his pace and position very quickly. Sometimes he crosses and waves his hands, posing for an extremely strange POSS, and sometimes bends down to pop out steel needles, like a roc spreading its wings, like a white butterfly flying among flowers, or like a swan dancing in a lake.
The movements are coherent, the dancing is graceful, and the speed is extremely fast. I only saw a white robe, fluttering with the dancing figure. The long flowing hair like splashing ink is constantly swaying with fantastical dancing.
At this time, Zhang Tianci was ** and solemn, grotesque and bizarre, completely a mysterious dancer on an ancient altar.
However, looking at its methods, it is like being accustomed to the rivers and lakes, and the Taoist priests are extremely unprofessional and unreliable. Although he kept chanting crappy "mantras" that he didn't understand at all.
In this way, no one saw the slightest flaw.
The eleven red-hot large sewing needles were just randomly and casually pierced on Huang Tianhui's back.
Poor Huang Tianhui has become a living "humanoid hedgehog" at this moment.
Huang Tianhui is a good man. The large, red-hot sewing needle pierced the skin of the back and penetrated deep into the muscles, making a "zi•zi•" sound, and a puff of blue-white smoke came out.
The intense burning sensation stirred the rich neural networks of his spine, and the burnt flesh emitted a stench that irritated his nose, forming a tidal wave of pressure, desperately rushing straight to the sensory center of his brain, and the stimulated central sensory system of the brain was like a "sheep epilepsy". It constantly emits a "disordered" electrical signal, stimulating the muscles of the whole body to twitch and spasm as if they have been electrocuted. Live like a dying fish in a frying pan.