209. Chapter 044: Why Should Such a Man Exist?
This feeling can be recalled, but at that time, he was already confused, and he still failed this infatuation after all, so that feeling, that kind of love can only hide it carefully, and can only be regarded as a memory, a memory that only has pain but no happiness.
After getting into Xiao Yuandong's car, Tong Mo curled up in the back seat, holding herself weakly and shivering, Xu is heart that had been hard for too long suddenly hurt and was a little disobedient, so the pain in her abdomen was completely covered, the rain outside was still falling, slapping on the window and crackling, it was really like hail slapping the window indiscriminately and powerfully, and also beating on her heart, the fierce rain sounded like a sad song, but what are they venting? What kind of emotions are you venting?
A trace of cold hit, Tong Mo's body trembled slightly, and hugged herself tightly, but the car that had been driving in the rain stopped at this moment, because Xiao Yuandong knew that she didn't want to go home at all, she just wanted to leave that man, just wanted to get rid of the pain of meeting.
In that case, she has gotten rid of that man at the moment, so what does it matter where she goes now?
Xiao Yuandong took off his coat and handed it to her, Tong Mo took it, and said lightly: "Xie Luxie." ”
Tong Mo put on Xiao Yuandong's coat, and the wetness on the clothes quickly penetrated his clothes, and the warmth on this dress also entered her skin at the same time, but it only reached the skin, and the heart was still as warm as ice and rain, without any temperature.
"Mo, is that man so important to you?" After staying quietly with Tong Mo for a while, Xiao Yuandong asked this sentence softly, although he had just come into contact with Tong Mo for a short time, he had really understood her for two years, from her experience, from her singing, the traces of that man were everywhere, even if she never mentioned it, she couldn't lie.
And just now Xiao Yuandong only called her the word 'Mo', it was the first time someone called herself like this when she grew so big, Tong Mo felt a little awkward and a little strange.
Mo, foam of foam, the name she took at the beginning was to tell herself that everything had passed, just like a bubble, existed, but could not leave any traces, and she also wanted to erase the painful memories of the past, foam, indifference, indifference, but also to tell herself that the past was like a bubble, and then she had to keep this heart and be indifferent and reborn.
Only, did she really do it?
And what kind of mood was she when the man in front of her suddenly asked this, Tong Mo sighed secretly, raised her head, her eyes were sprinkled with indifference, and replied decisively: "No, that man is just my ex-husband, that's all." ”
Hearing this, Xiao Yuandong just smiled faintly, naturally he didn't believe it, paused again, and then continued: "Mo, don't answer this question so firmly, the more firm you are, the more weak your heart is, you emphasize again and again, you are telling others, and you are also reminding yourself, otherwise you will be afraid that the heart that is hard for him will soften again without being reminded, the more you are like this, the more it can explain the position of that man in your heart." ”
"No, it's not like that!" Hearing Xiao Yuandong say this, Tong Mo suddenly became nervous, and hurriedly said, "He has passed, I can't let him appear after me again, absolutely impossible!" ”
Seeing Tong Mo so nervous, Xiao Yuandong smiled again and explained: "Mo, I believe what you say, and I will also believe that you may never accept him again, but not accepting and forgetting are two completely different concepts, you don't accept it because you have hatred in your heart, because he hurt you too deeply, and where do these scars come from?" How can you hate if you don't love deeply? And in the three years you have escaped, you have never mentioned it to him, how have you forgotten? ”
If you haven't mentioned it, how can you forget it?
One sentence completely stripped away all her disguises, all her thoughts were exposed, Tong Mo was speechless, and the indifference in her eyes was instantly washed away by a warm liquid, she could disguise everyone seamlessly, why did she reveal all her heart just because of this man's words?
"In a short life, there is such a person who has always made you happy, sad, heartbroken, and desperate, occupying you for eighteen years, how can you forget? Isn't that song you sing over and over to him? There are also songs you wrote yourself, which contains hatred for him, love for him, grievances, and despair of love, you refuse to admit it, but you can't deny all the habits he has imperceptibly formed in your heart. ”
After Xiao Yuandong finished speaking, Tong Mo was already in tears, she had never cried like this for three years, but at this moment, she couldn't help listening to Xiao Yuandong's words, she looked at the man in front of her in a daze, the man in front of her who was not familiar with her, her heart hurt uncontrollably.
For what? Why does this man understand these emotions of hers, but Lu Zhannan never understands? Why did you have to tell her so clearly, tell her that the man still existed in her heart, how cruel this is, how cruel!
She really hated, really hated!
Why can't she pretend to be confused, why does this man know her so well? Why did she have such a person to make all her thoughts nowhere to hide?
"Mo, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that." Seeing that Tong Mo made Xiao Yuandong cry, he hurriedly apologized, but Tong Mo didn't speak, lowered his head, no longer looked at his face, and didn't dare to look at his eyes that understood him so well, after seeing those eyes, she was afraid that she would expose all her heart weakness.
"Mo, life is short, don't wronged yourself, if you still love him, if you ...... If you can't let go of him after all, try to give him a chance, and give yourself a chance, and if you decide to let go, then you can choose another way, another way out of your own......" Xiao Yuandong said with deep meaning.
To choose another path? A way out for her?
Tong Mo was a little dazed, this man seemed to be used to saying half and hiding half when he spoke, and after hearing this sentence, Tong Mo suddenly remembered what he said, the words of hope from the sunrise in the east are not the same as this sentence?
Tong Mo let out a long sigh, she really couldn't think about his words, closed her eyes and leaned back on the chair weakly, she wasn't sure, she was really not sure, knowing Lu Zhannan, did she really have any other way out?