Chapter 102 The heart is tossed and turned

Feng Feng carried the diamond-shaped lantern and walked slowly, and the footsteps when returning were as heavy as the steps when leaving. It's just that when I went, it was mixed with excitement and apprehension, but when I returned, it was the weight of this heart, and this body was a little out of breath!

Feng Feng's mind and thoughts are very confused, on the one hand, the concept she has been instilled by her parents since she was a child, and the only persistence in almost all her life; On the other hand, Wan Jinyu ......

Why is it so entangled? She thought, it must be a deliberate trick by the sky! She shouldn't have love and affection, because everything she does in this world has to consider the consequences of bearing, does a person like her Fengfeng really have the ability to bear the consequences? This love affair is really a mistake, a mistake made unintentionally...... But even if it is a fault, since there has been one, then there is, how can it be understated as if there is nothing? How can you say that you can put it down?

As long as you are disturbed by love, even if you escape into the mountains and practice in the world, you still can't escape a dusty suffering! This is really the first thing that can be sighed in the five turbid evil worlds!

Feng Feng was in a gloomy mood, and she sensed a bright pulse in a trance. She walked with her head down, and when she looked up, she saw that she had turned the corridor and walked to the entrance where she came, and from a distance she saw Jinyu walking slowly and leaning over to look this way.

She was a little settled, and she remembered that Jinyu was still waiting for her here! She just restrained the chaos and didn't dare to show too much on her face, and quietly quickened her steps and walked towards him with the starlight.

After passing through the corridor, the field of vision outside is much wider than the inside, and the stars are shining so that Feng Feng is a little uncomfortable, she has a feeling as if she has returned to the world from hell, and everything she has just experienced, the face to face with the eldest lady, and the memories of the past, etc., are just a dream she had when she took a deep rest......

Jin Yu was anxiously looking for Fengfeng, and when she saw her, she was relieved! Hurriedly greeted him: "Did you find it?" Zhan Yan asked anxiously, looking up and down for any traces of mud on her body, he was worried about whether she had fallen for so long.

Feng Feng's heart rushed, found the lie he had told before, and shook his head silently.

Jin Yu saw that Feng Feng's current look was wrong, and he was sad that she didn't find the handkerchief left by her mother. He half-hugged her in his arms, sighed, and then comforted her gently: "In fact, you don't have to be obsessed with the outside, you think of your parents so reverently, they must be able to perceive your filial piety...... It can be perceived no matter how far away it is. They must be pleased. ”

Feng Feng obediently let him hang her in his arms, this man body snuggled in his arms, only his arms, his breath can make her feel at ease. At this moment, Jinyu's meticulous care, his kindness, suddenly infinitely expanded the guilt in Feng Feng's heart towards him, she felt sorry for the eldest young master, because she deceived him and used him.

"It's okay." With his mind moving, Feng Feng sighed, "If you lose the handkerchief, you will lose it!" How can we find what has gone far away...... It's that I'm too persistent. She didn't know what kind of thoughts came to her mind, and her voice was dim and decadent.

Jinyu felt the trembling of the delicate body in her arms, and felt more pity for her in her heart, so she tightened her arms and hugged her tightly: "The old won't go, but the new will come...... Like me. There was a bay of water in these words, infinite tenderness, and he kissed her lightly in the ear, and the slight sorrow between the words melted.

This kiss was a bit confusing Fengfeng's square inches, and the skin on her face was itching, but her heart was settled.

With a clear vein, Feng Feng looked at Jinyu's face under the moonlight, it was really as beautiful as Jinyu...... Such a handsome and outstanding, both in appearance and temperament, is so bright than the bright moon, coupled with his noble background and noble bloodline, and with a warm and jade-like temperament and a bright state of mind, such a man really makes people can't take their eyes off it for a moment! He fell into his arms and died, and his soul must have been reluctant to leave him alone in addition to how perfect his soul was!

Feng Feng sighed intoxicated in her heart, but she suddenly remembered what Mrs. Fang Cai had said...... Most of the old things have been calmed down when the eldest lady mentions the old things, but there is only one point that is infinitely sad and unsettled. That is, when Master Wan was a young master, he also had a good time with the eldest wife who only loved each other and was unswerving. But what happened next is really needless to say; Just looking at the current situation in the backyard of Wanfu, the situation of the eldest lady is really the best manifestation of the world!

The scene described by the eldest lady in her words made Feng Feng suddenly feel how similar she and Jinyu were at the moment! Something that may be too good is not real after all, and it can't be kept for a long time, Feng Feng suddenly has a sense of sadness and fate that predicts her future ending.

But Jinyu didn't know how she was feeling at the moment. He felt that she in his heart gradually settled down, but when he looked at her, he saw that her face had changed, and he was in a hurry: "What's wrong?" "It's really concerning," what's uncomfortable, is it because the night wind is too strong and the wind chill is infected? Do you have a headache? As he spoke, he raised his hand to test the temperature between Fengfeng's foreheads.

Feng Feng shook his head and avoided Jinyu.

Jinyu was determined, frowned and said, "I'll send you back......"

"No need!" Feng Feng interrupted solemnly, and her voice suddenly became sharp.

Jin Yu was stunned.

Feng Feng suddenly felt that her reaction was too intense, she concealed the turbulent and disordered emotions inside, narrowed her eyes, and softened her tone again: "It's inconvenient to be seen." ”

The emotional contrast between the left and the right is too great! Jin Yu had to be surprised, he guessed if Feng Feng was still worried about the handkerchief, and he was quite sad when he looked calm on the outside?

At this time, Feng Feng didn't wait for the eldest young master to speak, and escaped from his arms, eased his eyes, turned around and left.

Jinyu was inconvenient to stay, so she had to go all the way ahead.

His heart was empty, and this taste was the same as Feng Feng's current behavior, which made him very inexplicable! But this woman he has no way to control it at all, he really prides himself on being among thousands of flowers, but how can he be worthy of this unrequited love of this flower that made him plant his head and ruin his "merry" reputation for a lifetime?

Jinyu's heart sank, and he realized that he unconsciously raised his eyebrows. He suddenly showed his face again, sighed and smiled bitterly, with a touch of self-deprecation in his heart, and only said that from now on, it should really be "only open his eyes all night long, and repay his life for not raising his eyebrows"! .

When Feng Feng returned to Lian Yatang, it was already late.

She summoned the little maid over, knowing that the master was here again without exception. Afraid of disturbing the old man and the fifth wife, he carefully returned to his room with light steps and sounds, and did not dare to light the lamp to attract attention, so he simply washed up by the moonlight and lay down on the couch.

But Feng Feng had things in her heart, and she couldn't sleep after tossing and turning. She suppressed her longing for Jinyu, reached out and took out the page of the eldest lady's letterhead from her sleeve, and looked at it repeatedly in front of her eyes. However, this mind has long since wandered......

Feng Feng thought about her already deep-rooted fate, whether it was due to the compulsion of her parents, or the persistence of the kind of belief that she had heard and seen since she was a child, she had no reason to give up. Besides, she had already met the eldest lady just now, she felt the bleakness of the eldest lady's situation, and had some inexplicable intimacy with the eldest lady who had never met before, and she felt even more that she could no longer leave the eldest lady aside and ignore it!

However, when she thought about it, Fengfeng thought again, she was also a person, not a ruthless and ignorant object. Even if the relationship with the eldest young master may not last long, even if it is to help the eldest wife, in order not to disobey the thoughts of his parents and his own persistence, but is it necessary to follow Master Wan like this, and betray the eldest young master who has already been cloudy and rainy?

And, what about Mrs. Five......

Feng Feng's heart ached! Fu thought of Shen Lin.

Yes, she had to think about Shen Lin, if she fulfilled the eldest wife's plan, wouldn't it mean that she would endanger the fifth wife at the same time? Even if she didn't think about the future, the fifth lady saved her in the days when she was in danger and let her live a stable and happy life in the mercy hall; Now that the eldest girl next to Mrs. Fifth has just gotten married, she is going to go with Mrs. II again, this is ......

Feng Feng has a splitting headache, there are too many things to worry about in this matter, piles and piles, inextricable links, and he must not make a decision right away!

After going around like this again, Feng Feng sighed slowly, and felt that it was better to think about it in the long run.

She turned over and got down gently, and after hesitating, she lit the candlestick and carefully burned the letterhead that the eldest lady had written to her.

Feng Feng's face was reflected in the faint light, I don't know if it was the impact of her mind or Xiao Xiao of light and shadow, her face was a little pale, but the expression precipitated between her eyebrows was determined.

This calm and calm, determined to do things inside, if the eldest lady sees it, it will definitely be amazed again! Because of this kind of appearance, and a certain kind of appearance she made at some moments, it is not Xiao like, it is exactly the same! .

Master Wan was hugging Shen Lin to admire the moon, sniffing the fragrant hair of the beautiful woman in his arms, and he felt very complete in his heart.

He played with a little heart, smiled and sighed and said to her: "This person, the older he gets, the less he feels!" Look, the night was already so thick, but I was full of energy and didn't feel the slightest bit sleepy. He kissed her on the earlobe, "It's hard for you, so that you can't be at peace with me, an old man!" ”

Shen Lin followed his playful tone and deliberately frowned and smiled: "Phew, I'm only in my fifties, where can I be embarrassed to say that I am old?" "Kissed back on the old man's face, a peck of dragonfly water is sometimes the most sultry, her delicate voice seems to be floating incense, "It's clear that the moonlight is like water, who is tired?" I'm also the same as Youye, I'm getting drunk by this good moonlight! ”

These five wives are really very means, and she can keep the master's heart not only because of her beauty and temperament......

The old man ate her like this, looked at her lovingly, and his eyes appeared cunning: "Really? He deliberately raised his eyebrows, and then pressed his lips close to her cheek, "But no matter how beautiful this moonlight is, it is far less delicate and lovely than the round of Haoyue around me." ”

Clear and tactful love words, Shen Lin pursed her lips softly. The two are immersed in such an atmosphere, and they are very useful to each other before and under the moon.

At this moment, the dark courtyard suddenly lit up, and although the sudden fire was faint, it was especially conspicuous in such a situation! Zheng Ran was shocked by the atmosphere of the full moon, which caused the old man and the fifth wife to be surprised.