In the Xuan Pavilion, Ning Xi and Rujin lay side by side on the bed. The night was quiet, so quiet that you could hear the sound of breathing. Rujin couldn't sleep, she turned to her side and asked softly, "Did you sleep, Xi'er?" ”

"No," Ning Xi replied, "I can't sleep." ”

Rujin asked softly, "What, are you still angry with him?" ”

"There's nothing to be angry about," Ning Xi turned around, "It's me who didn't do things well, and I don't blame him entirely." ”

"He must have been looking for you by now, right?" Rujin guessed.

"It's okay to look for it, or not to look for it," Ning Xi said indifferently, "Anyway, I just don't want to see him tonight." Just let me be willful for once, and don't go back. ”

It's the same sentence again. Rujin couldn't help but fall into deep thought. In the evening, she was watching the sunset in the yard. At this time, the door opened, and I saw Ning Xi sweating profusely, his flag head was messy, his clothes were stained with some leaves of dead grass, and his shoes were full of mud.

Rujin hurriedly walked over and asked, "Xi'er, what's wrong with you?" ”

I only heard Ning Xi say in a daze: "Sister-in-law, take me in for one night, let me be willful like this once, just once." ”

Rujin hurriedly brought her into the house and prepared a meal for her. Rujin asked her what happened, and Ning Xi just said lightly that she and Yu Rui had a quarrel.

After dinner, Ning Xi didn't mention the quarrel at all, but talked about the embroidery patterns with a smile on his face as usual, and even took the needle and thread demonstration to Rujin with great interest. Rujin was a little worried, but he didn't know how to persuade Lu Dao. Maybe it's a good idea to divert your attention, right?

"Sister-in-law," seeing that Rujin hadn't spoken for a long time, Ning Xi said, "You said that tomorrow, will everything be different?" ”

"Xi'er," Rujin said, "don't call me sister-in-law, call me Sister Jin'er in the future." As for tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and today, for me, there is no difference. ”

"Big ...... Sister Jin'er ......, "Ningxi is a little unclear.

"I don't like this title, this sister-in-law is just a vain name." She paused, "The courtyard is a little deeper, the willows are piled up with smoke, and the curtains are not repeated. Yule carved saddle tour smelter, the height of the building does not see Zhangtai Road. The rain and wind are wild in March twilight, the door is covered at dusk, and there is no plan to stay in spring. ”

"Tearful eyes asked Huahua silently, and the red flew over the swing." Ning Xi continued, "I see, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought this up. ”

"It's not your fault," Rujin said, "if you can think of it, any bit of relevant clues can be connected." I've never seen the eldest young master they call him, and I heard that he left on the day of his marriage, and he climbed over the wall without even wearing the groom's clothes. I worshipped the church alone with his clothes, and I didn't remove my makeup or take off my phoenix crown that night, so I sat in this room all night. ”

"Sister Jin'er......" Ning Xi called her, but she didn't know what to say.

"It's the same day for me, watching the sun rise and go down, it's dark, lights out and sleeping, it's a day. Endless repetition, but no end, this is probably my life in this life. ”

"Won't the eldest young master come back?" Ning Xi asked.

"I don't think he's coming back," Rujin said, "he's going abroad, far, far away." After so long, his children should be able to run all over the ground, right? ”

Ning Xi sighed and said, "Then you haven't thought of any way to change all this?" Running away, or remarrying, if there is any difficulty, I can help you! ”

Rujin shook her head: "Women are three from four virtues, if they escape, they will have to bear a lifetime of shame." Besides, where can I escape, do I have to find another man? ”

"Yes," Ning Xi sighed, "The traditional morality is customized for us women, crushing us to death, and there is nowhere to escape." Even if I have a strong family support, I can't help myself, and even if I follow the wrong groom, I have to accept my fate. ”

"I heard," Rujin said, "I didn't go that day, but I heard that you pleaded with you Ama in public, and at that time, you also chose to accept your fate." That's the truth, you have to choose this way, if you don't accept your fate, although you Ama has the ability to let you remarry, but after the prince leaves, what will everyone say about you, can you bear these saliva? ”

"I just don't understand," Ning Xi said, "I work so hard to be a good wife, and he doesn't believe me like that?" Would you rather tell a slave about your grievances than tell me? ”

"As long as you exist, there will definitely be people who are dissatisfied with you," Rujin said, "Like me, staying here every day and barely going out, doesn't that Yan Fujin still look at me unpleasantly?" There is also the mother of the third young master, you should know this way, in addition to giving birth to the third young master, what else has she done? Chang Fujin didn't go to Meixiangyuan twice in three days to find trouble. ”

"Now in this world, I can only accept my fate." Ning Xi said, "Maybe the troubled times also have their benefits, at least the big disaster is at the head, and the rules and the like are not worth mentioning." ”

"I don't know much about things outside," Rujin said, "all I want is the safety of the people around me." Having said that, the so-called battlefield, fighting is a matter for men, and for women, the open and secret battles up and down in this house are also a kind of battlefield. ”

"Battlefield ......" Ning Xi read these two words. Living in the palace since childhood, E-Niang can make the entire palace have only one son, and there are also means. She has seen the dark side of E-Niang, and she has never understood it, but as she grows older, she gradually understands E-Niang's painstaking efforts. If you are in a fixed position, you have to fight, even if not for yourself, you have to think about your child's future. Before getting married, her mother told her that no matter how many concubines her husband had, she must firmly guard her position.

"Even if I don't know the return date of my husband, even if I can't see him for the rest of my life, I still have to wait, because I married into the Xilin Jueluo family, and I am the person of this family. As long as I have the title of Great Fortune, I will have a place. A woman who can get a name is much better than a woman who has no name and no place all her life. Rujin's voice came again.

"Tomorrow, I'll go back." Ning Xi said quietly.

"It's good to figure it out, go to bed early." Such as Jindao.

Early the next morning, after Ning Xi washed up, as soon as he went out, he saw Yu Rui waiting at the door. Ning Xi seemed to have forgotten last night's decision, stopped at the door and didn't move. Rujin, who was following behind, gently nudged her and nodded to her. Yu Rui walked over and blessed Rujin and said, "Say hello to my sister-in-law." I caused trouble to my sister-in-law last night. ”

"What are you talking about," Rujin took Ning Xi's hand and stepped forward, "It's all my own family, Xi'er married alone, and I am not familiar with the life here, so I, as a sister-in-law, naturally have to take care of it more." With that, she handed Ning Xi's hand to Rui.

Ning Xi was a little awkward, and she retracted her hand. Seeing Rujin smiling at her encouragingly, Ning Xi reluctantly let Yu Rui hold her hand.