I knew that my complexion must be like a bleak moon at this moment, so I turned my head away from his gaze. My heart was beating so violently that it seemed to burst out of my chest, and I looked into the distance as if nothing had happened, with a little emptiness and fear in my eyes.

"No!"

It was at this moment that I heard a crisp female voice in the distance, and I was shocked. When I turned around, I saw Xiaoyue in a scarlet skirt, standing in the rain with some anger. She may have secretly followed Chengying here, so she was not well-dressed and did not hold an umbrella. However, her young and delicate facial features are soaked in the spring rain, but they are like a natural scene, and she is even more beautiful.

Seeing her like this, Chengying frowned slightly, so he hit the umbrella above her head without thinking about it, and let me get drenched in the rain.

Xiaoyue pushed his arm away, with a pair of eyes full of indignation and a hint of trepidation. She looked up at the man, but she refused to cast a glance at me, and as soon as she opened her mouth, she was full of resentment: "Brother Chengying, you don't really want to go with an unidentified person, do you?" Seeing that Chengying didn't answer, she became more and more stubborn and wanted to take his hand and leave. It's just that Chengying's footsteps only moved slightly, and I already spoke: "Childe likes to drink sparrow tea." ”

He froze in place, and finally turned back and looked at me coldly.

"Who the hell are you!" Xiaoyue was angry and anxious, turned around and stopped in front of him and reprimanded me: "I kindly led you to see him, but why did you snatch Brother Chengying as soon as you came, he ......"

"Dawn Moon." Chengying gently pushed her away, with a different kind of care in her eyes, "I'm just leaving for a while, and I'll come back." ”

Seeing that he had already made up his mind, I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief and gesture to him. It's just that I didn't have the courage to apologize to the woman, after all, this is the first time I've stolen something from someone's heart, not to mention that Xiaoyue is a delicate girl who is harmless to me.

"What's the use of you coming back. At that time, Xiaoyue has gone, and the next thing Brother Chengying will see is only the deserted Wanfu compound. Her voice was a little astringent, and the faint sunlight cast on her neck, which hung down deeply, and made her complexion as translucent as white porcelain. She was caught off guard and hugged Chengying tightly from behind. "I don't want to marry in the palace, I don't want to never see you. Brother Chengying, the person you are looking for can accompany you to find Xiaoyue, isn't that enough. ”

I looked at her hands around Chengying's waist, and my heart sank to the bottom of the sea. Whether it's sadness, jealousy, or envy, even I can't tell. It's just that she was rendered by her sad atmosphere, and I also felt unusually bitter in my mouth.

Chengying gently put down her hands, and the palms suddenly covered the top of her head, and said gently: "You are still too young, you should not be ruined by someone like Chengying who has no clear origins." Even if you enter the palace, I will remember that you are Wan Xiaoyue, who has accompanied Chengying for many years. ”

Seeing that he withdrew without hesitation, the girl finally burst into tears, and shouted with all her might: "Even if you find that person, what can you do, after so many years, she may have forgotten you!" Chengying, how many decades in a life can make people wait! ”

However, he did not stop in the end, and just whispered in a hoarse accent as he passed me, "Let's go." ”

I fled with him and disappeared into the rain until I could no longer hear the girl's cry. It was only when I came back to my senses that I realized that I had already burst into tears.

The rain continued for a long time, and it was not until the day we left Suzhou that the sky cleared slightly. Since Fubi and I were both women, Chengying hired a Upong carriage. He was in charge of the road while we sat in the car. In this way, even if they walk together, there is no opportunity for verbal fellowship. While I was glad that he could go with me, I was also apprehensive, so I just stared at him for a long time through the plain white curtains, as if I could feel some peace of mind just by seeing his broad back.

Unlike me, Fubi often talked to him because of the long and boring journey. It's just that Chengying seems to be reluctant to speak, and often only nods his head in response. Fubi has not been with me for long, he was by my side when he was twenty-three years old. At that time, Yongxi had just gone, I was so grief-stricken that I washed my face with tears all day long, and the first emperor was afraid that I would be sad to see the old man, so he sent her to me. Because of this, she didn't know about me and Chengying, and only guessed that we had been friends for many years.

Although he sat in a carriage, the body was as simple as the shoulders in the palace. Coupled with the shortage of people along the way, the bumps were abnormal, and I was exhausted at the end of the day, like a broken shelf. Finally, I saw that there was a post station in the wilderness, probably close to Luoyang, but it was also vaguely populated. When I saw that the inn was simple, there was a place to rest for the night, so I mustered up the courage to open the curtain and said to him, "Why don't you stay here for one night and then go on your way." ”

At first, I thought that Cheng Ying had not heard it, but when I hesitated, I saw that he had raised his whip, and the horse neighed and stopped steadily. Chengying turned around and held out his hand to me without saying a word. At that moment, my heart beat faster, and I only lowered my head and handed out the corner of the cuff. However, even through a layer of plain silk cloth, I could still clearly feel the temperature from his palm.

"Have your hands been so cold all the time?"

I almost suspected that I had misheard, and I looked up, but he had already turned around and asked the store to arrange a guest room. Seeing that I was stunned in place, Fubi called me softly: "What's the matter, lady, but you have never seen the scenery here?" ”

Hearing her say this, I hurriedly looked up to see that the surrounding Yuan Ye was endless, and after a spring rain, it showed a thriving scene. The pale green velvet grass mixed with unknown flower bones, like a vast sea of flowers under the warm orange sunset, makes people feel refreshed for no reason.

I was only fifteen years old when I entered the palace, and all I saw after that was gray tiles and red walls. The narrow blue sky on the palace road was enough for me to stop for a long time, how could I have seen such a vast world. I didn't think I had seen it, but seeing me like this, Chengying didn't open his mouth to urge, and it wasn't until the light flowed that I realized that a long time had passed. When I turned around, he leaned against the bolt and watched me quietly.

Maybe the sunset is too warm, and in the light and shadow, I seem to see that his expression is no longer cold.

We had only a hasty dinner downstairs, and we were still silent with each other. When I went back to the wings, I became more and more restless. It's been the third day of being with him, but I still don't see any intimacy with Chengying. There's not much time left, so how do I get him to remember what he had?

The moonlight was raging, and the lonely desert made me feel even more lonely. Fubi was tired all day, and I fell asleep as soon as I touched the pillow, but I couldn't calm down no matter what. I used to be so frightened in the middle of the night. But then it was because he wasn't there, but now it's because he's here.

I got up and put on my clothes and pushed open the door by myself. It was just the sight that caught my eye, but it surprised me.

When it was near, such a sparsely populated inn even the shopkeepers were already asleep behind the abacus, but Chengying sat alone in front of the wooden machine, looking at the dark night, drinking a cup of herbal tea alone. Such a lonely back, as if I saw off the emperor from my room many years ago, and accidentally caught a glimpse of him leaning back against the gardenia tree, looking up at the moon. I never seemed able to drive away such loneliness for him, perhaps because I was already miserable in my heart. I sometimes can't help but wonder if my sister would have been better off if she had never taken it upon herself to send him to protect me.

Sensing my presence, Chengying cast a faint glance upstairs.

I bowed my head to him, walked down the wooden steps in small steps, and said calmly, "Childe hasn't rested yet?" ”

He only nodded slightly, and looked up at me: "The girl is not resting either." His tone was so thin and cold that he couldn't even make out whether it was a response or a question. I sat down on the other side of the wooden table and whispered, "When you get here, you always have something on your mind. ”

His gaze wandered into the vast night, leaving me with only a side face carved by a sword and axe: "It's down there." ”

I realized that he was holding the little sachet in his hand, and my heart suddenly warmed, and I almost laughed out loud. After a moment of calm, Fang said tentatively: "Regarding this sachet, Childe really can't remember anything?" ”

It was only after I talked about it that he took a serious look at me for the first time. Those eagle-like eyes, unconsciously, there was a little more profoundness. Chengying is also at such an age, even if he is still handsome, but he is no longer as elegant as he was then, but he has a little more taste accumulated over the years than before.

"I can't remember anything under it. That girl is also a member of the palace? ”

How can I tell him that the man served a man he didn't love and gave birth to a child for him? How can I tell him that just three years ago she was at the peak of her lust for power, selling her soul day and night. I wanted him to remember everything, but I was afraid that he would see my unbearable, and that this struggle was painful and futile.

"Her name is Yu Xin, and like me, she is a palace maid of the Textile Bureau." I lowered my eyes slightly, and finally chose to lie to deceive each other, "It's just that after leaving the palace, because the Queen Mother appreciated her craftsmanship, she continued to stay in the palace." ”

Chengying didn't show any doubt about what I said, but nodded thoughtfully: "I will inform you that this is the case, she must be a woman with a blue heart." ”

The heartbeat seemed to skip a beat, and the air was filled with the sweet smell of night cherry blossoms. I only felt that my face burned like a cloud, and I hurriedly stood up and faced the night. "How dare Childe assert that."

I heard the sound of the tea cup empty, but there was a long silence behind it. It was so quiet, but I didn't feel any fear in an unfamiliar environment. Looking back, he was by my side, even if he couldn't remember me, but Chengying was back after all.

"That's what I just think. I've kept this sachet for a long time because I feel it means a lot to me. Chengying led the way, the mountains and rivers are all the way, thousands of miles away, although I don't know if it makes sense to do this, but I just want to see her. ”

Tears soaked my clothes little by little down my cheeks, I raised my sleeves to wipe my face, and looked up to the sky and said, "Childe will definitely be able to get his wish." ”

When I returned to my room that night, I still couldn't calm down. I sat across from Xuan, staring at the distant moon, thinking back to the first half of my confused life, until the morning light was faint, and I suddenly realized that I had not closed my eyes all night.

When I was still in the palace, although I admired Chengying, I never knew what he thought of me. It's just that there are often small details that make me realize that Chengying is not a ruthless person. However, he was too loyal to the Emperor, and even if he knew better than anyone else about the cruelty and ruthlessness of the Emperor, he would never allow himself to betray him.

For example, when Emperor Jin sought power and usurped the throne, he must have known early on that the first emperor would not keep him after the dust settled, but he still pursued it to the end without hesitation. I remember that on the night of the palace change, he knocked on my door, looked at me for the first time, and said softly, "I'm leaving." "At that time, I felt bad, but I knew I couldn't stop him.

Therefore, as long as the first emperor survives in the world, he will not reveal his inner feelings for a day.

I almost forgot that it was me who persuaded the first emperor to take the elixir. It was Fang Haishan who personally saw me offer this plan, and I don't know if my sister is also involved. But now, none of that matters. I have exhausted my youth, lost an innocent and kind sister, and a loyal and filial child, and I have paid off all that I owe.

In the early morning, when the rooster crowed, Fubi rubbed his eyes from the bed, and when he saw me, he was surprised and said, "The lady hasn't slept all night? ”

I was looking in the mirror to make up, and when I heard this, I turned around and smiled, "Why, I just got up early." ”

"It's been a long time since I've seen a lady dress up like this, and sure enough, people are in good spirits on happy occasions."

Dress up?

Listening to Fubi say this, I took a closer look in the mirror - the long eyebrows that were delicately drawn into the sideburns, and the cheeks were already unconsciously covered with a faint peach blossom makeup. I really didn't dress up when I was in the palace, even if I was named Ning Guifei later, I was as plain as ever. The first emperor often praised me for the graceful beauty of clear water out of hibiscus, but he didn't know that I just had no intention of applying powder to him.

"The lady's complexion has not actually decayed, so at this glance, it seems that she is still younger than before." Fubi looked at me with a smile on her cheeks, "Unlike the Queen Mother, I couldn't recognize it that day - the ruthlessness and vicissitudes on her face, I didn't dare to ask me to look up." ”

"My sister worries about political affairs day and night, maybe she is a little older, but she has a beautiful temperament." As soon as I finished saying this, I heard a knock at the door, and the tall figure of Chengying stood outside the door, and my cheeks turned crimson at the first glance. Fubi jumped off the bed and said in surprise: "Why is Childe so early." ”

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