Chengying picked up the reins, looked at the sky and said, "There are less than three days to arrive, so let's continue on our way." ”

In three days, everything will fall into place. He will always learn the truth, no matter how desperately I try to hide it. These three days may be the last time I spend time with him. If that were the case, the joy of my life would end there.

In fact, I understand that there will never be a big turn between me and Seung-ying. As soon as the imperial capital was farewell, he wanted to turn around and hide in the rivers and lakes. And with a body like me, I can't follow him to the ends of the earth at all. It is precisely because of this that day Xiaoyue's sentence "I will go with you wherever I am" will make me so envious.

I had made up my mind, and after parting with him, I went to Nanzen Monastery to give the rosary to the master's deceased, and begged him to let me stay. If I can serve the Buddha with all my heart, maybe my sins in this life will be lighter, and I will no longer have to be trapped by love. Before that, I will also find a good family for Fubi, so that she will not be delayed by me for nothing.

I didn't look at Fubi, but I saw that she was looking out the window and meditating. I had never seen her so serious, so I smiled and said, "What is so fascinating." ”

Fubi shook his head slightly, and the beaded flower on his bun trembled slightly: "The slave maid is thinking, Chengying Gongzi is really a good person." ”

I was stunned at first, then nodded.

"But Childe, he's too pitiful." Fubi suddenly raised her head, looked at me and said, "Today's places are only preliminary draft girls, and it will take a few days to send them to the palace." If the lady is willing to talk to the Queen Mother, presumably the Queen Mother will also promise you to return Miss Xiaoyue to the son for the sake of the old days. ”

I was immediately stunned, a little frightened in my heart, and tried to hide it with a smile.

It's no wonder that Fubi, she never knew about everything between me and Chengying, and she never imagined that Concubine Ning, who was so luxurious in the past, would have another man in her heart. Therefore, she said this wholeheartedly for the good of Chengying. It's just that I can't help but think that even in the eyes of a girl like Fubi, he and Xiaoyue are a match made in heaven, so maybe I'm really too selfish.

"I'll try to tell my sister about it."

Years from now, will I ever regret this decision, as I did that night when I watched him leave.

But in any case, as long as Chengying can be well, that's enough.

In the last few days, Chengying was blindly depressed.

If it weren't for Fubi speaking first, he would have been silent almost all day. And I don't have the courage to persuade him to be happy anymore - Xiaoyue will be sent to the palace in a few days, and it is inevitable that he will be depressed. What's more, I myself was also immersed in the pain of separation, and the closer I got to the imperial capital, the more the heaviness of the past came to my heart like a maggot on the tarsal bones.

I will never forget that my sister and my children were buried in those high walls, along with my dark life.

The next time I saw the towering vermilion walls, it was in the afternoon three days later. Bright and warm light slipped obliquely against the gray wall tiles into the majestic imperial city, and disappeared without a trace. The magnificent palace is obviously a place where jade, gold and silver shine, but it invisibly exudes an erosive atmosphere. It is a cage for the living, a giant tomb for the dead. What is buried there is not only the power, but also the lives of countless women.

When I met Chengying, it was as if I had come to life. It's just that looking back now, it's like a world away.

This day happened to be the first day of the palace election, so the passages connecting the imperial city were blocked by horse-drawn carriages. The surrounding guards are extremely tight, and there are often women dressed in beautiful clothes crying and being helped into the car. Seeing this scene, I hurriedly took the opportunity to persuade: "I'm afraid it's impossible to enter the palace today, so it's better to make it clear to the people guarding the city early tomorrow morning, and then invite the old people to meet." ”

There was silence outside the curtain for a while, and then Chengying's low and cool voice came: "It's okay." ”

The imperial capital is hard to find, and we walked through many inns to find two small rooms. On the last day, I wanted to know how Chengying was recovering from his injury, but he went straight to his room as if he didn't want to talk to me. I saw that the shadow of the sun was setting in the west, so I had to give up.

In another hour, the palace election will be over, and the palace people will return to the palace separately. I had in my hand the gold medal that Yongyi had given me privately before leaving the palace, and he swore to me at that time: "If my mother is in trouble in the future, you can see me with this." "Because this thing is so valuable, even my sister doesn't know about it. I have always cherished it with care and never showed it to anyone. For a long time, I regarded it as an eternal filial piety, and I thought that I would not need it in the future, but I never expected that today, I would use it to fulfill the happiness of Chengying and others.

However, the holy decree is difficult to disobey, and even my sister can't stop it.

After settling into Fubi, I borrowed a good horse from the shopkeeper and went straight to the palace. At that time, at the beginning of the night, I was wearing a pomegranate green head-covered robe, covered with green veil, so that people could not recognize my face. When I reined in front of the Xuanwu Gate, there were guards who wanted to step forward to stop me. I held the gold medal in my hand and looked at the person coldly: "I have something important to meet the saint, step down." ”

The guards were frightened, and hurriedly leaned back, not daring to look at me again. In this way, no one would have expected that I would be the Empress Dowager Zhuang De Rongren, who died of illness three years ago.

The palace in the night is like a giant beast lurking with bated breath, the palace group rises and falls, the lights are hanging high, and the halo is continuous, not like the human world. I rode my horse on a narrow road to the palace, and the vermilion walls whistled past me on both sides, as if to trap me in them. The dome is cloudless, only the night wind wantonly rolls down the flying flowers, spreading incense for thousands of miles.

I saw that there was no one around, and I just wanted to speed up, but suddenly I felt a tightness on my waist, and I was actually picked up from the air. Immediately, one palm covered my lips, and I had no time to shout before I got out of my horse. The horse neighed, and in an instant the footsteps of the guards rang out in all directions. However, I could not call for help, so it was only half a pillar of incense, and I had been taken to the woods in the suburbs.

Feeling the strength on my waist loosen, I hurriedly turned around and tried to break free. Unexpectedly, the man didn't mean to stop me, but his eyes were as cold as frost and snow when he was exposed outside the mask. I only felt that the outline of that face was so familiar, and my heart sank suddenly, and I reached out to remove the veil without thinking about it.

At this moment, my whole body seemed to have fallen into a pool of bones, and I couldn't stop shivering. I was about to speak, but someone grabbed me by the throat and couldn't make a sound.

"The palace maid of the embroidery room actually holds the royal gold medal, the girl is really good."

Chengying just stared at me unabashedly, his eyes were as cold as a sword, and I had nowhere to hide. I involuntarily took a step back and tried to pretend to be calm, "I'm just ......"

"In Lin'an, you deliberately untied the reins and let the horses go." He didn't give me a chance to explain, but just said word by word, "Those Koreans are also here for you." You are not the palace maid of the Textile Bureau at all, who are you. ”

It turned out that he had known it a long time ago, but he just pretended not to know what I really wanted to do. It's ridiculous that I thought such a little trick would not be revealed, and boasted that he was opening up to me day by day. But it turns out that everything is just a play!

How could I have forgotten that Chengying was originally a killer, and even if he lost his memory, that kind of caution and suspicion was always in his bones. I was nothing more than a stranger to him, so he must have hated me for deceiving him, for breaking him up with Xiaoyue. He waited until today, until the day when he could demolish me without mercy.

"yes, I'm not a red tassel." I smiled blankly, but the moment I looked up, my palms were shaking. "I am the first emperor's Ning Guifei, the Empress Dowager Zhuang De Rongren who passed away three years ago."

His eyes were almost drawn into a thin line, glowing with a cold cold light, but he didn't say a word.

"The old man I am talking about does not exist at all, because I deceived you in the first place. But that, that's just because I admire you......" I gradually choked up, and when the voice of my heart that had been hidden for many years suddenly came to my mouth, it was such a dripping feeling, "I fell in love with you when you were in the palace, and I did not hesitate to look for you after learning that you had amnesia." The reason why I made up such a clumsy lie is only because I want you to remember me slowly. I let the horses go so that I could stay with you longer. ”

The corners of Chengying's mouth squirmed slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't open his mouth in the end.

"I know you don't remember me, but that's okay. For so many days, only you have a little bit, a little bit like me. I've tried so hard to please you, but you're still indifferent...... "I put my hands over my face and struggled for a long time, but I smiled abruptly. "I entered the palace tonight, determined to do my best to persuade the Queen Mother to allow Xiaoyue to leave the palace to reunite with you. This bet, I lost, lost completely, so I will withdraw. But in the end, I don't want you to hate me anyway. ”

I've never had a smile like this, and I know it's going to be the ugliest smile I've ever had. I stumbled to my feet, no longer daring to look at his cold gaze, nor daring to listen to his rebuke. I thought that such a parting was enough—I no longer owed him, nor did I leave him with any reason to hate me.

I hurriedly turned around, only to feel that the light robe on my chest was already soaked. With him, I seem to be very weak, but in just a few months, I have shed tears in the palace for decades. The cold moon is light and white, and even in the middle of summer, the night is still as cool as water. It's almost time to get the key down in the palace, and I'm thinking about hurrying, hurrying.

"The year I met you, it was the eighteenth year of Chenhe."

I stopped, and my mind went blank.

"You fell down the rockery, recklessly, and your face turned red at the sight of me. At that time, I just thought you were an ordinary woman. The voice paused slightly, and then said, "In the nineteenth year of Chenhe, you were named a good ceremony, and all the women in the palace were envious, but you were depressed for a few days. You don't want utilitarianism, you are obsessed with escapism, but in that intriguing world, you are willing to treat others as sisters. I was just curious about you at first, but I didn't want to get caught up in it.

When I learned that you were pregnant, I was filled with joy and sorrow. Protecting you is also my personal request to the concubines of the past. The sachet you gave me has always been a treasure to me. You like to drink tea, and I remember it in my heart. On the night of the palace change, I knew that I would never return, but at that time, I was most concerned about the safety of you and the eldest prince. It's a pity that I couldn't protect you in the end, so you lost Yongxi. On that day on the ship, I saw that you would not be dependent on anyone else, and I knew that you must have suffered all these years.

Three years ago, I heard the news of the death of my adoptive mother. I didn't remember you at the time, but when Yu Sheng told me about it, I couldn't stop crying. You know, I've never been afraid in my life. When I was a child, I followed the birth and death of the first emperor, and after reading the life and death of the world, I never felt that I would be afraid of anything. But when I recognized you, I was afraid that you would eventually leave.

If you want to spend more time with me, why don't I. It's just that I thought that you were the concubine, and you would still return to the palace, how could you spend the rest of your life with me. I just can't remember, and if there is no hope, there will be no disappointment. ”

When I heard Chengying's words, I burst into tears. When he turned around, he saw that he also had tears in his eyes. Chengying, who has always regarded life and death as floating clouds, actually shed tears for me.

I couldn't restrain myself any longer and threw myself into his arms. He gently grabbed my waist, and his shoulders were slightly undulating. Chengying's embrace was so warm, as if it could soothe all my sorrows in an instant. His breath is the same as before, like a breeze sweeping by the lotus pond in early summer, and like a warm sun sprinkled on the gardenia after autumn. I was almost addicted to it, and I couldn't help myself.

"The first emperor's Ning Guifei is long gone. The Queen Mother allowed me to leave the palace and allowed me to stay with you. ”

He was suddenly shocked and hugged me harder: "The Queen Mother promised me to let you get your wish, and she really didn't break her word." ”

I rubbed his shoulder lightly, tears welling up in my eyes: "When did you remember me?" ”

"When I saw you for the first time, I was amazed that there was such a beautiful smile in the world." He stroked my long hair, and his voice was like a spring rain, "But the time I really remember it was that night when I saw you clumsily untie the reins of your horse." ”

My face was slightly red, and I said with some reluctance: "Then you still treat me coldly, I am clearly ......"

"It's that I don't dare to open my heart," there was a sudden sadness in his eyes, "I'm afraid I'll lose you again." ”

I just thought I was dreaming and laughed out loud with happiness. However, there were still tears lying on my face, and the silver light of the moon illuminated me brightly, and I didn't want him to see me crying and laughing, so I blindly lowered my head to avoid his gaze. Unexpectedly, Chengying pulled my face with one hand and leaned over to print my lips.

That kiss is cool and lingering, without a trace of **. I only felt as if my face was about to burn, but I was reluctant to break free from such a long kiss.

In the endless night, we have been together for a long time. The long shadows reflected on the tree poles seem to be a gentle and charming pair. I know that this time I won't lose him again, never.

Although Fubi is very puzzled by this earth-shattering development, he still faithfully wishes us for a long time. I passed the book of Feige to Yu Sheng about the private marriage with Chengying, and told him that this reunion with Chengying was all due to this string of prayer beads. Therefore, I decided to go with him to Nanchan Temple to burn incense and worship the Buddha, and to give the prayer beads to the master's deceased.

Unexpectedly, Yu Sheng quickly replied to the book, this relationship was tortuous but wonderful, he was very surprised when he saw it, so he asked us if we could visit Nanchan Temple together, which was also regarded as a blessing for the two of us to finally become married. After discussing with Chengying, I decided to meet Yu Sheng in Lin'an first and worship the temple together.

When we met again, it was winter.

It snowed heavily that day, and the sky and the earth were vast. Yu Sheng arrived many times before us, and I saw him in a pale green robe from a distance, as if he had been waiting for a long time. I haven't seen him for almost a year, but I feel that he is very different from before. I heard that Yu Sheng visited many places for the emperor and queen mother this year. He has passed the age of standing, and he seems to be the mainstay of the court.

Chengying had settled in his camp for many years, so he was naturally very familiar with him, so he didn't say much after meeting, and went straight to Nanchan Temple on the top of the mountain after exchanging a few words about the recent situation. It's just that on the way, he once heard from Chengying whether he was willing to return to the DPRK to serve the country. At that time, Chengying was silent for a long time.

Of course, he knew why he had lost his memory.

Since he was five years old, he has followed the first emperor, killing and plundering countless people, just to purge the unsubordinate. However, he was loyal to the emperor, but he was betrayed by the Lord. His heart was sad, but his disappointment was greater than resentment. After Chengying met me, the memories of the past gradually woke up, and it was then that he suddenly realized that the era name had been changed, Yuhao had gone, and his heart was depressed.

But Chengying didn't know why the first emperor died, and he would never know. I have always been frank with him, but if I say that I have something to hide, this is all I have to say.

Moreover, he was not unaware of what the first emperor did to Concubine Jing in the past. Now the Queen Mother hates the first emperor to the core, even if the Queen Mother has been kind to him, he must not want to go back - every grass and tree there is sentimental.

Fortunately, Yu Sheng did not force it, but said that he would make it clear to the Queen Mother. But I suddenly remembered something, and without thinking about it, I said: "Is there news about the abolition of the prince Yongtai now?" ”

Yu Sheng glanced at me, as if there were thousands of emotions in his eyes, but in the end, he just said lightly: "It's dead." A few years ago, he wanted to commit a rebellion, and was ordered to be killed by the Queen Mother. ”

I was almost planted down the mountain, and after being caught by Chengying, I still couldn't calm my heart for a long time - the simplicity of the past, the tranquility of the years, and finally I can't go back.

Along the way, everyone had their own thoughts, and they didn't say much. It's just that I don't want to enjoy the snow along the way anymore, and I just want to burn a stick of incense for the deceased after I get to the temple.

After entering the temple to make our intentions clear, a monk welcomed us into the side room for a short rest. I didn't want to have a cup of tea, but the abbot master came to greet him personally. Because I was entrusted by the master, I didn't dare to fake others, even in the face of the host, I had a little worry, so I said euphemistically: "The little girl doesn't dare to bother the host master, and the little girl and Huiyin are old people, if it's convenient, please introduce it to us." ”

Unexpectedly, the host said: "Old man? The poor monks don't look like the monks of Woyun Temple, so they are from the palace. ”

I was suspicious in my heart, and when I saw that there was a warning look in Chengying's eyes, I suppressed my ups and downs and said, "This matter is inconvenient to publicize. ”

"If that's the case, then I'm really out of luck." The host smiled slightly, and his bright eyes seemed to hide Huigen, "Because the Hui Yin donor does not belong to the monks of this temple, he has to travel around every few days since he came here. The next time I come back, I'm afraid it will be a few days away. ”

Chengying and I glanced at each other, both of which looked helpless. Since we got married, we have decided to live in Dali, Yunnan Province forever, where the four seasons are like spring, which is the most suitable for us to spend the rest of our lives. Because this departure back to Suzhou has been delayed for a long time, I am afraid that it will have to wait until after the beginning of spring.

"Dare to ask the abbot why she is here."

I didn't expect Yu Sheng to ask a sudden question, and I couldn't help but be surprised. But when I heard that Hui Yin was also from the palace, I was also a little curious about why she came here.

The abbot looked at him silently, his gaze calm and gentle. The house is lit with red sandalwood, which makes people feel much calmer for no reason. "The benefactor of Huiyin originally lived in the Woyun Temple of the National Temple, and suddenly came here thirteen years ago, and the way is to find people. When the poor monk saw that she was alone, he promised her to stay in the monastery. ”

When Yu Sheng heard this, he just bowed his head and said nothing. I thought he had nothing to say, but when he raised his head again, his eyes flickered a little: "Does the master know when she left the palace?" ”

"The poor monk has heard of it, but he can't remember it clearly, probably many years ago."

The abbot's words carried a hint of sighing, as if lamenting the passage of time and the passage of time. I casually looked out the window, and I didn't know when the heavy snow had stopped, and several towering ancient trees in the courtyard were dressed in silver. The snow on the ground reflects the sunlight and makes it dazzling.

Yu Sheng suddenly turned his head to look at me: "I am determined to stay here and wait, and the rosary will be handed over to me." ”

I was stunned for a moment, I don't know why he was suddenly like this, and I was about to speak, but Chengying had already patted me on the shoulder and said softly: "Let him go." ”

When we left, the abbot and Yu Sheng sent us to the mountainside. I knew that I might not have the opportunity to meet again this time, and I was a little reluctant to give up. But it was the abbot who turned the Buddha beads in his hand, nodded and said: "Destiny is destined by heaven, and people who are destined will meet each other." ”

I felt that this was talking about me for a while, and I felt that I was talking about Yu Sheng, and there was a deep meaning in it, so I responded with a smile. When I came down the mountain, I was surprised to see wildflowers growing in the snow. However, when I think about it, it is now February, and after this snow, it must be spring flowers.

The whole book ends

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