At this moment, Xiang Nan was really shocked, the girl called Tongxin, he watched her grow from five years old to twenty-one years old, and then he was married to her for two years, he thought he knew everything about her, he thought he knew everything about her better than anyone else, and these facts were undoubtedly a fatal blow to his self-confidence.

It turned out that he knew so little about the person next to him, he didn't know that she had left sequelae after that miscarriage, he didn't know that Lu Dao's pregnancy was such a luxury for her, and he didn't know that Lu Dao's life and Ru Xi's lives were hanging by a thread, it turned out that he was even more hateful than he imagined, it turned out that Tong Xin had been suffering from what he didn't know, and now that he thought about it, no wonder Tong Mo would be so uncomfortable when he came back from the police station on a rainy day, and blamed him for knowing all this now.

"How have you ever known this? Three years after divorcing you, do you know how she came over? What you see is just the glamour of her current international superstar, and how do you know the sadness behind it? I see all these in my eyes, I pity my heartache, I want to give everything to help her but she refuses, in her heart except you Lu Zhannan can no longer tolerate any man, however, that is, this man abandoned her when she needed it, and left a scar on her heart that can never heal, if you will forgive you at the end of the day, and Ru Xi is willing to call you Daddy, then I will think that this world is really ridiculous! ”

Yan Jinmin's words are indisputable, and the meaning covered is naturally self-evident, if he usually went south, he would definitely fight back with the sharpest words, but at this moment he has nothing to say, he is not a child, not a woman, he can only feel the hatred superficially, but he has never been able to truly understand the true meaning of that hate.

He secretly clenched his fists, and there was a very strong impulse, that impulse was not to others but to himself, those eyes, those unfathomable eyes seemed to be pierced with tens of millions of needles, even with his heart, dripping with blood and pain.

Yan Jinmin lowered her head slightly and snorted coldly, with a thick self-deprecating sarcasm in her sneer, and said: "The love and hatred in this world are really unreasonable and messy, there are not so many big truths, and there are no clearly stipulated rights and wrongs, and a person's heart is really elusive.

I am willing to do everything for her and Ru Xi, but I can't get her heart after all, even if there is no Cheng Cheng's incident, I don't have the slightest chance, even if you hurt her so deeply, she still loves you in her heart, she shouldn't forgive you, she should hate you all her life, Ru Xi shouldn't recognize you, and you should be condemned by your conscience for the rest of your life, and you will die alone for the rest of your life, but ...... But what if that ending is going to be unacceptable and too cruel? ”

Now Yan Jinmin has to admit that he is contradictory, he hopes to get Tong Mo and make Ru Xi call him Dad, but he knows that this is impossible, it will never be possible, so since he can't do it, what hope does he have for Tong Mo? Is it true that only with Xiang Nan can she really get the happiness she wants? If so, wouldn't it be too cheap to head south? Is he worthy?

Xiang Nan understands Yan Jinmin's ambivalence, he understands it completely, and she can't care about anything now, suddenly hearing these makes him unable to accept it, that heart has reached the verge of shattering, as if it is about to burst in the next second, it will be shattered, it will cease to exist, if it really bursts, it won't hurt so much, but it is struggling to the edge of death, life is better than death.

At this moment, Yan Jinmin let out a long sigh and looked at Ru Xi, now she is smiling so happily, without any troubles, and without understanding any hatred, there is only truth, goodness and beauty in her world, and all she can see is those beauty, what a happy thing.

Looking at Ru Xi and looking at Yan Jinmin, she smiled very happily, and said: "You see how beautiful Ru Xi is now, how popular she is, who will know what Lu Dao said about her past?" I dreamed of being her father, dreaming of marrying a childlike heart, but I know better than anyone that this is impossible, never possible. No matter how much Ru Xi likes me, no matter how much he wants me to be his father, it won't help......"

Speaking of this, he let out a long sigh helplessly, who can not bow his head in the face of fate? Thinking about it, Yan Jinmin is also a poor person, just for Tong Mo and Ru Xi, no one has paid more than him, it's a pity......

"Lu Zhannan." Both of them were silent for a long time before Yan Jinmin opened her mouth again, her tone was much calmer than just now, "We have all done wrong things, you are not a good person, and neither am I, in fact, neither of us is qualified to say anyone, the mistakes we have made are reasonable if we are not forgiven, and it is their tolerance to be forgiven." ”

Speaking of this, the expression on Yan Jinmin's face became solemn, and his brows couldn't be locked, and he said very painfully: "The two of us are really sinners, I have been in love three times in my life, and the first time I was hurt, it was as if the whole world owed me, and then I began to ignore the feelings of those girls, and this time I came back and really changed too much."

Tommy is dead, she used to be my girlfriend whether she has feelings for her or not, that is something I can never forgive myself, I am glad that Cheng Cheng has found happiness that belongs to her, I am very glad for this, I am glad that the happiness she wants is not just pinned on me alone, but for childlike innocence, if ...... If letting go will leave her happy for the rest of her life, then I hope you can still hold her tight. ”

Hearing this sentence couldn't help but shake Xiang Nan's heart, he didn't expect Yan Jinmin to say this, he would think like this, he naturally had his unwillingness, but more of his helplessness and submission to fate.

"Ru Xi." Before Xiang Nan could react, Yan Jinmin shouted to Ru Xi, after jumping on the trampoline for so long, Ru Xi was already sweating profusely, she stopped when she heard Yan Jinmin call her, and walked out of it, Yan Jinmin hurriedly wiped her sweat, Ru Xi was having a good time just now, and said to Yan Jinmin with a smile: "Uncle Yan, did you see it just now?" Ru Xi jumped so high, didn't he? ”

"Yes, Ru Xi is the best!" Yan Jinmin praised Ru Xi, and kissed her little face when the words fell.

"Uncle Yan, Ru Xi is so hungry, let's go eat together, shall we?" Saying that, Ru Xi touched his little belly, and he was active just now, and Ru Xi's stomach was rumbling with hunger at this moment.

Hearing Ru Xi's words, Yan Jinmin smiled apologetically and said, "I'm really sorry, Ru Xi, Uncle Yan can't eat with Ru Xi tonight." ”

"Really?" Hearing this, Ru Xi pouted in frustration.

"Yes, let your Uncle Lu take you there, okay?" Yan Jinmin's words couldn't help but startle Xiang Nan, he didn't expect that Yan Jinmin would choose 'fulfillment' in such a situation.

"Okay, Uncle Yan will be free in the future, but you must take Ru Xi out to play again." Ru Xi said this with anticipation.

"yes, definitely." Yan Jinmin smiled at her, Ru Xi also smiled, stepped forward and stretched out his little hand to wrap his arms around Yan Jinmin's waist, and said very simply: "Uncle Yan, Ru Xi loves you." ”

Hearing this, Yan Jinmin's eyes were wet, she really didn't hurt this little girl in vain, there was such a sentence that made him more excited than hearing him call his father.

"Uncle Yan loves you too." Yan Jinmin smiled knowingly, replied to Ru Xi, and then said to Ru Xi, "Okay, come with your Uncle Lu, remember to be obedient." ”

"Well, I've learned it, Uncle Yan will see you again." After hearing this, Ru Xi was very sensible and waved at him.

"Thank you." At this moment, Xiang Nan didn't know what to say to Yan Jinmin, he naturally knew that Yan Dao Yan Jinmin had tens of thousands of reluctance in his heart, and tens of thousands hated him for Tong Mo, but no matter what, Xiang Nan could only say Xie Lu Xie for this move.

Yan Jinmin smiled tightly and didn't respond, bowed down to the south and hugged Ru Xi, and said, "Okay, Ru Xi, uncle will take you to dinner, what do you want to eat?" ”

"Hmm...... Ru Xi has to think about this problem......" Ru Xi's eyes couldn't help but light up when he heard that he was eating, and his mind was thinking about something quickly.

Yan Jinmin stood in place and watched Xiang Nan carry Ru Xi away, watched him carry her into the car, and watched Xiang Nan's car leave his sight, he closed his eyes slightly and let out a long breath, there is a saying that is still very right, what is yours is yours, you can't run away, no matter how vain you fight, it won't be yours after all, Tong Mo and Ru Xi are extravagant hopes that he can never get, so, it is destined not to get it, it is better to let go in a chic way.

Since Xiang Nan listened to Yan Jinmin's words, he felt more and more that he was damned, and felt more and more sorry for Tong Mo and Ru Xi, after holding Ru Xi into the car, he did not start the car immediately, but looked at Ru Xi with solemn eyes, full of thoughts.

"Uncle Shuai, what's wrong with you?" Seeing that Xiang Nan didn't seem to look right, Ru Xi asked so.

"It's fine." Xiang Nan didn't explain anything to Ru Xi about this, and then smiled at her, "Since Ru Xi can't think of what to eat, then uncle will take Ru Xi to a good place to ensure that Ru Xi likes it." "Really? Yes, yes. Ru Xi was very excited to hear this.

At this moment, Xiang Nan just felt warm in his heart, and he secretly swore that he would never disappoint anyone again in this life, and he would definitely not! ——

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