Chapter 155: My Selfishness
Night, silent.
Tuoba Weijun in his sleep, entangled in nightmares, with a little sweat on his forehead.
The flickering candle light shadow, you can vaguely see the pain on the handsome face.
One got up, Tuoba Weijun panted, wiped the fine sweat on his forehead, sweat, already wet his clothes, only to see Tuoba Weijun get out of bed, change his clothes, and walk quickly to the desk not far away, light the candle, purse his lips and paint.
In the careful sketching, the portrait of a little girl jumps on the paper.
The girl's portrait is nine points similar to Zhu Yanxi in childhood.
Tuoba Weijun stared at the portrait painted with this nightmare, his eyes deepened a lot, and he looked at the painting for a while, and then raised the corners of his mouth mockingly.
These days, I have been dreaming the same dreams over and over again, no, or should I say, repeat over and over again, the memories that have been forgotten by me.
Fingers, caress the painting, I see!
Between the two, the origin originated when they were young, but unfortunately, they forgot about it, and Yan Xi also forgot it.
The memory is asleep, but the heart is still close to the warmth of this face.
It turns out that when he is obsessed with choosing military power, he chooses Yan Xi, which is actually not the easiest path, after all, there is a marriage contract, and he has no intention of being a person, he must spend a lot of his own effort, at that time, there are also many young ladies of the general's family, and even belong to themselves, but they are completely ignored, because of this.
Tuoba Weijun reluctantly withdrew his hand from the portrait, one turned around, the other forgot, he had missed it, and he was unable to turn back.
Looking at the painting, Tuoba Weijun said to himself, "If there is a day, between you and me, I'm afraid that we won't even be friends, right?" Or, everything is already predestined, I am destined to have no fate with you for the rest of my life, and I will always miss each other. ”
Tuoba Weijun closed his eyes, unable to hide his exhaustion.
When I opened my eyes again, the tiredness in my eyes was dispelled, and my eyes were bright and resolute.
Imperial Palace Inner Garden
Emperor Tuoba Minghan's body is getting worse and worse, and the brightly lit imperial study, the figure of the review and folding, is reflected in the window.
The night wind blew, and after a few coughs, he suddenly collapsed.
The emperor fell ill, and the imperial doctor entered the palace overnight, but he couldn't find out why, as the prince, the crown prince, Tuoba Yuanqiong and Tuoba Weijun naturally accompanied him.
At this moment, Tuoba Yuanqiong raised his eyebrows slightly, no matter how much he hated and resented Tuoba Minghan, he had to admit that he actually still cared, after all, how could this flesh and blood relatives really not matter?
It's just that I'm used to such cynicism, and I don't know how to face it.
As for Tuobasi, he has never received a single love from the emperor, and at this moment, he is just indifferently playing the role of this son on the side, nothing more.
However, Tuoba Weijun, with a serious face, but in his heart, he was constantly pulling and tangling, this medicine was given by himself, but this is just to ask his father, without this energy to deal with national affairs, it will not endanger his life, but, as far as he understands, he will inevitably re-plan for the throne, and what he gambles on is that when Tuoba Yuanqiong is unwilling, his own son who is also very favored, has the status in his heart!
"Yuan Qiong~" The weak voice sounded faintly.
"Father, are you awake?" Three voices rang out at the same time.
But...
"You're all here?" Tuoba Minghan looked at his three sons, and after just saying such an understatement, "I don't have anything to do, you all go down first, I have something to say, ask Yuan Qiong." ”
"Yes!"
Tuoba Weijun stepped back and glanced at the emperor again, this glance was intricate, no one noticed that the corners of Tuoba Weijun's mouth were a touch of self-mockery.
Tuoba Yuanqiong's thick eyebrows frowned, and then he sat down beside Tuoba Minghan.
"Yuan Qiong~ I'm old, I want to have a good talk with you."
"Father, if you have anything to say, when you are well, it will not be too late to say."
"No~ I'm afraid that when the time comes, you won't be able to listen to my ramblings calmly, not to mention, if it weren't for today's events, I wouldn't have realized that this person might suddenly die away." Tuoba Minghan shook his head.
Hearing this, Tuoba Yuanqiong's brows furrowed even deeper.
"Just let me, be selfish again~" Tuoba Minghan is weak and a lot older at this moment, without the majesty of the throne, with a sick face, it is difficult to hide his tiredness, just like an old father, telling his most beloved son.
"I know the way, you are very disgusted with my selfishness, and you also know the way, many things, but I know the way, but I can only pretend not to know the way." Tuoba Minghan's eyes were a little helpless and stinging.
"In this life, the only lucky thing for me is to meet Yun'er, how difficult it is to find the person you love and love yourself in your life, especially, people born in the emperor's family, under the scenery, how many are not easy, they are the same as getting, are you right?"
Tuoba Yuanqiong was strange about the emperor's abnormality, but he was also patient and nodded.
"Hehe~ Actually, at that time, it was the happiest day in my life. Travel hand in hand with the people you love, sing poems against each other, and laugh at life. Because of this, when I lose, my pain will be so deep. I know that the queen has always hated me, in fact, she is Yun'er's most beloved sister, if she can, why don't I want to fulfill it? Tuoba Minghan sighed helplessly.
"Or maybe I'm really selfish. At that time, she and Long Qingchen fell in love, Long Qingchen didn't mind that mistake, he could have taken her away, but once the power of Nafu was derived from Chunju Kingdom, then the turmoil in this Guizhu Country was inevitable. ”
Tuoba Yuanqiong lowered his eyes, it turned out that his father knew the Dao, and he had always known the ambition of Nafu! Then, after years of quietness, he deliberately elevated the Duke of Heiguo and Yu Xiangguo, just because he wanted to restrain this Nafu!
Tuoba Minghan continued, "Therefore, I can't, but I am also selfish, because once the queen goes to the Chunju country, then, once Nafu rebels, Yun'er must be the most painful person, as the king of a country, I will inevitably have to deal with the nine clans of Nafu, these accidents, I can't allow, must be stifled." ”
Tuoba Yuanqiong naturally understands that all this is true, but I am afraid that no one will notice this matter whether it is Yan Xi or the queen, after all, the old man Na is very deep.
"So, you spread rumors and forcibly married the queen!"
"Yes, if I have to sacrifice something, then it must be to achieve the stability of this noble bamboo country and the stability of Yun'er." Tuoba Mingham did not deny it.
Tuoba Yuanqiong was silent, waiting for his father's next words, and at this moment, he realized that many things, he was still blinded by hatred and resentment, and some things that he should have discovered.
Tuoba Minghan saw that Yuan Qiong was listening patiently, so he continued: "I understand the queen's debt very well, so it was she who carried me behind her back and gave birth to Tuoba Si, who did not belong to the royal family, and I also set up a prince and treated him coldly. ”
Actually!
Fathers and emperors all know the Tao!
This fact shocked Tuoba Yuanqiong.
In Tuoba Minghan's narration, Tuoba Yuanqiong realized that the reason why his father knew so well that he would only go to Weiyang Palace to visit the queen in the future, and deliberately pretended to be incense, was just because he was indebted!
Therefore, he knows all this.
"I have loved, so I know the way of love, the hatred and taste of love that can't stay together." Tuoba Minghan continued, "Even for your mother, I owe it. I have never denied it, it is because of her figure, like a cloud, that I used the means to keep her, but there is another reason, there is a disturbance from the land of Tianlan Country and Guizhu Country. ”
"What doesn't belong in the first place, people want to take it back, and my father can keep it for a while, can he keep it for a lifetime?" It's just that, after saying this, Tuoba Yuanqiong realized something! Isn't that right?
In disbelief, he looked at Tuoba Minghan.
"Hehe~ Yes, if you can keep it for a while, you may not be able to keep it for a lifetime." Tuoba Minghan smiled, "Therefore, the most noble princess of the Motai royal family, the child born to the child, can keep the bond of this life, although this noble bamboo country is not glorious, but in my hands, it is necessary for me to protect it." ”
Tuoba Yuanqiong's eyes were shining, if this is the case, then all this is an accident, but it is also intentional. Coincidentally, the mother happened to resemble her mother-in-law, which made the queen suspicious.
"However, I am also gradually attracted to Lan'er, perhaps, it is the pride and intelligence of the princess of a country, after Lan'er entered the palace, she showed an incredible perfect solution to many things in the palace." Tuoba Minghan sighed, "I have never seen such a woman, and at that time, I also told myself that Yun'er was in the past, so it was better to cherish the person in front of me." ”
Under Tuoba Yuanqiong's inquiring gaze, Tuoba Minghan sighed, "It's a pity, this person can't be lucky all his life, Lan'er has long been where he belongs, and he tends to marry into Guizhu Country helplessly, and he can only accept his fate, but there is also a period of time, frequent night meetings, I know Lu Dao, but I also understand Lan'er's character." ”
Mentioning this, Tuoba Yuanqiong's tone was also a little cold and hard, "Really? ”
"I know Lu Dao, at that time, what was your feeling about dripping blood and recognizing your relatives, but, as the emperor, I can't take this risk, that day, you said that you want to support the crown prince to ascend to the throne, I just want to know Lu Dao, what you said, is it true or false?" In Tuoba Minghan's eyes, there was worry.
For this son, what he owes is also the favorite, after all, it is Lan'er and his own child, but if he really chooses this, it is Weijun who is on the throne, and the same country is not peaceful.
"Father should understand that his sons and daughters never joke!"
"I understand that even if Weijun is on the throne, he can't tolerate you, and the two of you have long been on the same page, but why do you want to do it, just because you hate me, so you rejected this succession?" Tuoba Minghan also coughed several times in succession because of his excitement.
"Yuan Qiong, do you know Lu Dao, if your mother concubine is alive, she will also want to see such a result? I'm afraid, and the Motai royal family also hopes that this is the result. Tuoba Minghan pointed out directly.
"Father, what do you insist on wanting your sons to inherit the unification?"
"When I married Lan'er, I did want to protect your bamboo country, but slowly, I was also influenced by Lan'er, and I knew that she also had the idea of wanting you to succeed to the throne. I am not so mediocre, Weijun's temperament is too forbearant and extreme, he is not the most suitable person, and Tuobas, just in the matter of blood, it is no longer possible, but Yuan Qiong, you seem to be arrogant, but in your heart, you have the heart of an emperor. Tuoba Minghan's face was proud.
"If you weren't more suitable than Weijun, I wouldn't insist on asking you to do these things. I know the revenge of Empress Ludao, my prince, there are far more than three..."
It turned out that every year, the emperor went out on patrol for those few princes who were raised in other courtyards!
This secret is really airtight.
"So?" Tuoba Yuanqiong raised his eyebrows.
"I know very well in my heart that the person who cares about the world is none other than Yuanqiong."
"Even if this prince is on the throne, the sons will not let go!" Tuoba Yuanqiong looked at Tuoba Minghan.
"For what!" Tuoba Minghan was a little incomprehensible.
"The sons have their own ideas and plans, if the father really thinks that the sons are feasible, he should believe that the sons are!"
Tuoba Minghan looked at Tuoba Yuanqiong, and finally nodded, "I believe in you." ”
"Father, have a good rest~" Tuoba Yuanqiong got up, but was stopped by Tuoba Minghan.
"Yuan Qiong!"
"A lot of things, not three days and two ends can be relieved, the son has resentment and hatred, but it does not mean that the son has no love and no respect. The retainers retired. Tuoba Yuanqiong dropped such a sentence and strode away.
Looking at the sound of his son leaving, Tuoba Minghan kept chewing these words, and his eyes gradually became smiling, in fact, Yuan Qiong still has a heart of respect for himself.
Shen Shen closed his eyes, Tuoba Minghan's heart suddenly felt a little relaxed, what had been pressed in his heart all these years, now he said it, really, very comfortable!
And Chunju in China, Long Qingchen, who returned to China with Na Xin'er, also had his own rhetoric, persuaded the emperor, the regent's wedding, given by the emperor, everyone only knew the way, Princess Nianxi, who was accepted by the emperor as a righteous sister, saved the regent, and the two also had feelings for each other, and the emperor also liked Princess Nianxi very much, so he issued a decree to fulfill the two.
All of a sudden, the gossip about the regent came to an end with this big wedding.
It's just that this Chunju country doesn't know what to do, and a bloody storm will sweep in.
------Off topic------
The hand cripple has not healed, and it is gradually getting better, looking at the girls who have fallen silent again, sad~
Spoilers what, it's all floating clouds~