I don't know how long it took for the emperor's slightly tired voice to come: "No matter what, Ah Shao, what I said today, you should think about it." As if he was about to leave the house, Jiang Ruan hurriedly avoided the room with Steward Lin to the side. After seeing the emperor leave, Steward Lin looked at Jiang Ruan, hesitated for a moment, and said, "If the young lady wants to know what Lu Dao wants, you might as well go to the young master now and ask, the young master will not hide anything from you." ”

Jiang Ruan bowed, thought about it, and then Shi Shiran entered the study. In the study, Xiao Shao sat at the table, and he didn't know what to think, and he was not surprised to see her, but said, "Did you hear it?" ”

Jiang Ruan nodded. Xiao Shao is a person with martial arts, and this martial arts is not weak in the end, just now she and Steward Lin stayed outside The sound of breathing The emperor couldn't hear it, but Xiao Shao may not be able to hear it, I'm afraid that she was deliberately let hear it. She sat down beside Xiao Shao, and the black background of Xiao Shao's neckline inlaid with unicorn patterns showed a deep golden luster, glowing with cold light, which made his expression very cold.

"Ah Ruan, I have something to tell you." Xiao Shao said.

"That's right," Jiang Ruan smiled slightly, "I also have something to tell you." ”

Xiao Shao was slightly stunned and looked at Jiang Ruan with some doubts. Jiang Ruan looked at the thick booklet on the table, which was neat and neat, as if to show how often this master read them on weekdays. Xiao Shao is careful and cautious, and if he doesn't say many things, it doesn't mean that he doesn't know the way. The husband and wife each have their own secrets, Jiang Ruan has always wanted to confess, but now that Xiao Shao mentioned it first, she felt that it was better to tell it by herself.

"Do you remember that I said something to you when I came back from Mount Canaan," Jiang Ruan said with a smile, "I said I had something to tell you." ”

Xiao Shao said: "Remember." ”

"That's what I'm going to tell you now." Jiang Ruan sighed, and his eyes showed a trace of melancholy: "In fact, I don't know how you will look at me after listening to it, maybe you will stay away from me, or maybe nothing will happen." But no matter what, I'll go on. I think we should be honest with each other. Her tone was frank, and even if there was a hint of uncertain hesitation, she continued after a brief pause.

"You probably also ordered Jinyiwei to check on me, the matter of the general's mansion disaster relief grain, the matter of my eldest brother being ambushed in the forest, the matter of Master Huijue, you must have many questions, and even sometimes think that I am an unpredictable prophet. You must not know that I did something to the Xia family because of Xia Yan's harm to my mother, but I am still blocking Xuanli. Including Li Dong's whole mansion at the beginning. ”

Xiao Shao stared at her deeply, it was true that all the things she said were what he had doubted at the beginning, and Jin Yiwei still couldn't find out what he was capable of, and the only possibility seemed too ridiculous.

"You must still be surprised, why His Royal Highness Thirteen has a great relationship with me, and Taifu Liu seems to want to help me, I can always know how much movement there is in the court. Xiao Shao, this is not a coincidence. Jiang Ruan looked at him and suddenly smiled: "Because I already know what will happen to Lu Dao, I have personally experienced these things, I died once, Xiao Shao." ”

"Nguyen." Xiao Shao suddenly spoke, and he frowned: "You don't have to tell me. ”

Even a few casual words are shocking enough, and every sentence in this sentence is not acceptable to normal people. And Jiang Ruan herself didn't notice that even if she tried hard to cover it up, when she said these words, her eyes still revealed a strange madness.

"You don't believe me?" Jiang Ruan asked rhetorically.

"No, I believe you." Xiao Shao said: "I just think that if what you want to say makes you miserable, you can not say it, I don't have to know the Tao." I don't care what happened in the past, as long as it's you who is by my side now. You will always be my princess. ”

His tone was flat, his expression was cold and unwavering, but a trace of imperceptible indulgence flashed in his eyes. The comfort in these words was heartwarming, Jiang Ruan looked at him, and suddenly smiled: "But I am willing to tell you that some things have been held in my heart for a long time, and if you can share some with me, I will be much easier." At least it makes me feel that I am not alone in this life. ”

Xiao Shao was slightly stunned and didn't speak for a while. Jiang Ruan paused, and said slowly: "The me you see now shouldn't be like this. When I was five years old, my mother died, and Xia Yan became my mother-in-law, she treated me very kindly on the surface, and Jiang Susu was also very amiable, but her subordinates always bullied me. I didn't understand at the time, I only felt that there were many slaves in the house, and it wasn't until later that I understood that if there was no master's order, how could the slaves and maids dare to bully the concubines in the house like this. But no matter what, I was finally sent to Zhuangzi, and the eldest brother was privately hinted by Xia Yan, thinking that as long as he left them, he would not treat me badly, so he left home at a young age, and our brother and sister were separated. ”

"Later, I lived in Zhuangzi, and the life in Zhuangzi was very bad, and everyone forgot that I was actually the concubine of Shangshufu, and many times I was not as good as my subordinates. Zhang Lan and her daughter took all my belongings and treated me as a slave. Their son-in-law even wanted to do something with me. Jiang Ruan noticed Xiao Shao's frowning brows, and said with a smile: "I want to come to Jinyiwei to tell you these things." You know the way. ”

"I didn't meet the king and the royal history that year, and I was not rehabilitated because of this. I stayed in Zhuangzi for eight years, and I learned that my eldest brother had died on the battlefield, and I thought that life was hopeless. The Shangshu Mansion in the capital seems to have left me behind, and I have written many letters to my family, but I have never received a reply. I thought that my life was to live such a hard life in Zhuangzi until I died, but in the eighth year, someone came from Beijing to take me back to Shangshufu, and I was very happy, thinking that my father finally remembered me. ”

What she said was clueless, if it were an ordinary person, she would not understand what she was saying, but Xiao Shao just stared at her quietly, and there seemed to be complex emotions in her eyes, and her hand wearing a bracer was clenched into a fist, trying her best to suppress the consternation in her heart, and try to look at her calmly.

"I was taken back to Shangshu Mansion, just in front of the door of Shangshu Mansion, under the attention of all the onlookers, I was in tatters, completely devoid of rules and etiquette, and accepted Xia Yan and Jiang Susu's affectionate greetings like a flower child. The more pure and good she was like a fairy, the more I seemed dirty, and at that moment, I felt deeply ashamed. She said these words in a flat tone, but her nails were sinking deeper and deeper: "Not long after returning to Beijing, it was the annual Lantern Festival, Linglong Fang, that time, you didn't come, the noble children in Beijing were all there." Jiang Susu asked me to dance a dance, so that I would not lose the face of Shangshufu, she told me that as long as I danced the ordinary Zhuangzi banquet to help the fun of the song and dance, that day I fell from the Linglong boat, wet and was fished up, became the laughing stock of the whole capital. ”

She unconsciously pinched her nails deeper and deeper, and even the blood marks appeared without realizing it, there are many injuries in the world that will not fade with the passage of time, and it will not hurt if you don't want to get up, and whenever you think about it, every memory is painful and unwilling. At this moment, a slender and slightly cool hand reached over and gently pulled away the fingers that she had pinched deeply into the palm, afraid that she would pinch herself again, so he wrapped her little hand in his slender palm.

Jiang Ruan watched his movements a little blankly, until he felt the warmth of his palms and understood. She took a deep breath, and her expression gradually calmed down: "Later, Jiang Susu and I attended various gatherings together in the name of the concubine of Shangshu Mansion, Xia Yan invited a husband for me, but he never taught me the ability to read and write or take charge of the middle feed, only said that women don't have to learn that, just let me learn the sound of singing and dancing." I don't know anything, when I go out with Jiang Susu every day, outsiders will only praise her for her beauty and art, but I am a vulgar straw bag beauty. ”

"Later, the name of the straw bale beauty was gone, and there were rumors in Beijing at some point, and the matter of Chen Zhao bullying me in Zhuangzi was also taken out, only saying that I didn't know self-love when I was young, and I knew how to seduce men, which was really a loss of virtue. I was on the verge of death, and my reputation was in shambles. ”

Xiao Shao slowly grabbed her shoulders, straightened half of her body and leaned against her arms, only to realize that Jiang Ruan's body was stiff like a piece of wood, and her whole body was tense, as if she was extremely nervous. Xiao Shao patted her on the back, reassuring the child's gentleness that made her relax, Jiang Ruan continued: "When my reputation is so bad, there is only one person who treats me as kindly as ever, and that is Xuanli. ”

Xiao Shao was stunned, and Jiang Ruan's tone flashed a trace of sadness: "On the day I made a fool of myself in Linglongfang, it was he who ignored everyone's eyes to comfort me, and I thought that he was kind and gentle in his bones." Later, he often came to Shangshufu to talk to Jiang Quan, and he would also bring me some small gifts. He never called me a straw bag beauty like others, nor did he look at me strangely, and when I and Jiang Susu appeared at the same time, he would not only look at Jiang Susu and ignore me. At that time, I was truly happy. ”

"In the year I was in the palace, His Majesty was going to summon a new batch of show girls into the palace, but all the concubines of the officials' families could also enter the palace. But at that time, the Jiang and Xia families were rising one after another, which had already made the emperor jealous, and it was called the draft, or it was a hostage thrown in the palace to warn Shangshufu. It doesn't matter that Jiang Li and Jiang Dan are just concubines, and the emperor will not be satisfied, Jiang Quan stopped Jiang Susu's portrait and reported my portrait. ”

Xiao Shao stroked her hair, even now, there was a deep self-deprecation in her tone when she talked about it. Perhaps one thing Jiang Ruan never understood in her previous life and this life is why Jiang Quan treated her like this. As a biological father and daughter, no matter how indifferent she is, it will not be like this, as if it is better to treat an outsider than her. Tiger poison still doesn't eat children, Jiang Quan and her, maybe it is a feud formed in the previous life, and in this life they have to pay it back in the name of father and daughter.

"I don't want to enter the palace, I don't want to live with a man I have never met, and I don't want to intrigue with a group of women in the deep palace. But Jiang Quan said that if I don't go, the entire Shangshu Mansion will be buried for my willfulness. Xuanli also persuaded me at that time, he said that he could always protect me in the palace, and one day, he would make me his rightful wife. ”

Xiao Shao raised his eyebrows quietly, probably thinking that what Xuan Li said was too arrogant. Now Xuanli's wife is not Jiang Ruan, and the competition between men has never been based on big words, but on real skills.

"I didn't know the warmth and coldness of the people, so I also believed it. Volunteered to replace Jiang Susu into the palace as a concubine. Jiang Ruan paused, and his ears seemed to ring again with the clothes or loving or grateful faces of those people in the Shangshu Mansion in front of the palace, every sentence was disgusting. If she knew that she would later die for such a group of jackals who ate people and did not spit out bones, she would die, and she would also pull the entire Shangshu Mansion to make amends for the crime of bullying the king.

"The days in the palace were the darkest days of my life. was ridiculed by the concubine, bullied by the palace maid, everyone knows that I am not favored, and sometimes I will even be regarded as a dancing girl who is the favorite concubine of His Majesty, even if there is a grade, I will not be looked at at at all. I don't have a family to rely on, and the Shangshu Mansion will not interfere in the affairs of the harem in order to show their loyalty, and will never give me any support. They even wished I was dead, perhaps to draw a hint of regret from the Emperor. She didn't know what she thought, and smiled slightly: "Later, the emperor gave Pei'er to me and raised him under my name." Pei'er is also a disfavored prince in the palace, we are neglected people, I am grateful, maybe he is a gift from God to me in my previous life, knowing that I must not be able to last alone, so I was given such a child. ”

Xiao Shao's eyes moved slightly, and he suddenly understood why Xuan Pei was very attached to Jiang Ruan's expression, just as Guan Lianghan said unintentionally, Pei'er was attached to Jiang Ruan like a fledgling to her mother, if it was a mother and son in the previous life, it was indeed the same in this life, but in this way, it is difficult for Pei'er to have memories of her previous life. And until now, Xiao Shao heard that Jiang Ruan's past was also very tragic, and he couldn't understand what happened to Jiang Ruan. I can't imagine that this powerful woman in front of her, who doesn't care about everything, has also had a time when she was helpless and desperate.

"Xuanli has his great business to complete, he wants me to be an obedient chess piece in the palace, and some things that are inconvenient for him can be completed with my hands. And then he did it, and that day, they killed the emperor, but they put all the blame on me. said that I poisoned His Majesty, and said that I was a demon girl who calamated the country. Her palms gradually oozed sweat, but her body was a little cold: "They pushed me down the nine-story steps, and my father personally ordered someone to arrest me, and he didn't protect me like he said." All he wanted was a stone to pave the way, and when the road was paved, the stone would be useless. ”

"Ah Ruan......" Xiao Shao couldn't help but hug her tightly, shocked and distressed by her words, but he couldn't do anything, only the meager comfort at the moment, but only he knew that the comfort at this moment was useless to Jiang Ruan at that time.

"Xiao Shao, do you think this is the end?" Jiang Ruan shook his head and smiled: "My hell has just begun. I was thrown into a prison, a death row cell, and someone rescued me. I thought that escaping was the beginning of the torture. Jiang Susu told me that more than 100 lives in the general's mansion were all beheaded in the name of traitors after Xuan Li ascended the throne, and she told me that her eldest brother was killed by someone, and her mother was also killed by someone. The culprits were what I thought my sisters and relatives. She said that she had been displeased with me for a long time in the name of my daughter-in-law, and on that day she blinded me, cut off my nose, plucked out my tongue, cut off my limbs, and made me a man. , Xiao Shao, you have been the master of Jinyi Wei for so many years, you know what a Taoist person is, I am like a monster, and it makes people feel disgusting to look at it more. ”

"Ah Ruan!" Xiao Shao couldn't help but shout, he took a deep breath, he always knew that the strong heart of the Dao must come from a very deep torture, Jiang Quan's strength was different from ordinary people, and he must have suffered a lot of pain that ordinary people had never experienced. But all the speculation can't withstand the pain of hearing Jiang Ruan's own narration at this moment, at this moment, he empathizes with it and deeply understands Jiang Ruan's pain and despair. He understood why Jiang Ruan had always hated the Xia family and Jiang Quan so much, if it was him, the hatred would not be less than Jiang Ruan's. Xiao Shao, who had always been indifferent and unmoved by any foreign objects, actually felt a trace of panic. What would happen if Jiang Ruan was lost?

Jiang Ruan didn't move, let him hug him tightly, and said slowly: "......." Later, she asked someone to hand me over to Li Dong, and in the Prime Minister's Mansion, in front of my eyes, let me see Pei'er being ...... by Li Dong. She finally couldn't speak, and her tone was already choked: "I can endure anything, and I admit what is against me, but they don't even let go of their children, and I will never forgive them in this life!" I will always remember the pain they brought me, and in this life, I am here for revenge! She looked at Xiao Shao and said slowly: "In the eighteenth year of Xuande, Jiang Susu was the queen, Jiang Quanguan worshipped a product, the Xia family chicken dog ascended to heaven, and I died." ”

"I died under the chaos of the Prime Minister's Mansion, and as soon as I opened my eyes, I found myself back in the moment of Zhuangzi. I am very glad that this is another opportunity given to me by God, I worked hard to climb up, met the king of Yushi, saved my eldest brother, and took the general's mansion to avoid the disaster. Everything I did was to prevent everything that happened in my previous life from happening again, and everything I did was just to come back and ask for a blood debt. She looked at Xiao Shao, and tears gradually welled up in her eyes: "I'm a dead man, Xiao Shao, do you understand?" ”

These words are so frightening, but Xiao Shao looked at her, and suddenly pulled her into his arms again, he hugged her tightly, and she in his arms was weaker like a newborn beast, which would be broken by someone gently. He gritted his teeth, his beautiful face looked reserved, and he tried his best to grit his teeth, and his eyes were a little red. However, his tone was flat, and he still said with the undoubted expression on weekdays: "I understand, but I don't care." ”

"You are my wife, you are from the Xiao family. I don't hate you for it, and I don't feel like you're an outlier. I just regret it, I regret that I didn't meet you earlier in my previous life," he took a hard breath before continuing: "I regret that I missed it in my previous life and made you suffer so much. ”

Jiang Ruan was stunned, slowly reached back to hug his waist, and said with a half smile and half a sigh: "Fool, what does this have to do with you." ”

The master of Jinyiwei, who has always been cold-blooded and invincible, is not unhappy at all when he is said to be a fool, Xiao Shao just wants to protect the person in front of him forever at this moment. As long as he thought that he had lost the person in front of him in a life where he didn't know the way, his heart ached and he couldn't breathe. And every sentence in Jiang Ruan's words that underplays the pain he has suffered in the past is a Ling Chi of his present life. He never knew that his wife had so many secrets, that she had come with secrets and lived for hatred in this life, and that no one knew how lonely and lonely she had lived in those years. He didn't dare to think about it.

Jiang Ruan slowly let go of his hand and looked up at him, the young man leaned over slightly, his dark eyes were full of indifferent gentleness as before, and a glance made people feel reassured. There was not a trace of evasion and disgust in his eyes, he was so sincere, Jiang Ruan suddenly reached out and blindfolded his eyes, his long eyelashes crossed Jiang Ruan's palm, there was an itchy touch, Jiang Ruan slowly closed his eyes and kissed it.

"Fortunately, you didn't miss it in this life, and neither did I."

……

Steward Lin fidgeted outside for a long time, and finally thought about it to see what was going on inside, standing cautiously at the door of the study, taking a needle to open a small hole in the flower window and looking in, he was stunned for a moment, jumped far in one breath, and retreated straight to the courtyard.

Jin Si looked at him curiously: "Lao Lin, did the young master and the young lady quarrel?" What are you hiding? ”

Steward Lin didn't hear her words, he only frowned and thought hard, why did he kiss him while talking? The things that the young master said should be very serious, and he shouldn't deviate from this. It's just that why does the young lady have to blindfold the young master, is it...... Lao Lin's eyes lit up, and the booklet that he ordered someone to hide under the mattress in Xiao Shao's bedroom was shown by the young lady? The young lady is really a heroine among women, good at learning and applying, and the blindfold is very fresh, but it will not be too bold in the study. But that's fine, if you learn the future little master of Jinying Wangfu early, it will be even better. You just can't be discovered.

Steward Lin's face changed, and he said to Jin Si Zhengse: "The young lady and the young master are talking about very important things in the study, don't disturb them." If it's the emperor...... Those guards came to make trouble again, and all of them beat me out with sticks, not everyone can spread wild in the palace. After that, he walked towards the kitchen: "I have to tell the cook to make something to make up for his body, and the young lady is afraid that it will be hard now." ”

Jin Si shrugged his shoulders, Jin San came out from behind, touched his head and said, "Why do I think Lao Lin is the one who deviated?" ”