"She didn't take it," he continued, his fingers wrapped around hers, "and I was a little embarrassed to let the tears run wild on my face, and I didn't know what to say.

What can I say, I don't know anything, I don't know what she cries for. ”

There was some helplessness in his voice.

She hated his helplessness.

"Sissy, you can feel it too, she is a person who is difficult for people to approach.

We just stood like that.

The midday sun was scorching, and the sweat on my forehead flowed into my eyes, and my stinging eyes hurt, and I didn't dare to wipe them off, for fear that this small movement would break the silence.

Hu Meiyin's face couldn't tell whether it was sweat or tears.

We were both embarrassed by that scene. Gu Ao smiled slightly.

Wang Xixi thought that she could feel that kind of scene, she herself was a person who was not resistant to heat, every summer, she was sweating all over, often sweating her hair, sticky and greasy on her forehead and neck, very embarrassed and uncomfortable.

"She was the one who opened her mouth first, and she asked me, where is the handkerchief?"

I hurriedly handed it over. ”

Wang Xixi was a little unhappy in her heart, she hated that the boy she liked was so doggy in front of other girls, even if she used to.

She looked at the side of his face in his memories now, and didn't interrupt him.

"She said, let's go for a walk."

After speaking, Gu Ao pointed to the barren grassland between the hillside and the village, looked at Wang Xixi and said, "This barren grassland, in summer, is full of that kind of lush grass, green, as if it has been abandoned. But it's beautiful. ”

"Abandoned beauty?" Wang Xixi asked Gu Ao.

"Yes."

"Isn't it like the wasteland next to Lakeside Park where you took me?" She finally found the common ground in their memories.

"Yes, but it's bigger than there, so it's even more beautiful."

This sentence seemed to imply that the memory was better than hers, and she inadvertently wrote all the frustration on her face.

He reached out and gently stroked her hair.

"In the summer, if you want to come, we can still come." It's strange that he can always see through her thoughts so easily.

He used us, these two words warmed her heart, yes, they can slowly create their own memories in the future.

"And then?" She thought something must have happened between the two of them.

"And then we got there." His eyes looked at the now withered grass.

She didn't say anything, and wiped her tears and sweat with her handkerchief. It was a blue checkered handkerchief, which soon became hideous in her hand, and she said, I will wash it and return it to you, which school are you in.

I said I was in one.

Her eyes flashed and she said, I also have a friend in No. 1 Middle School. ”

Wang Xixi was shocked, could it be Jia Xiaoliang? But she didn't say it.

"I said that's good, you can go to us for help if you have something.

I think there must have been some reason why she didn't go to the city No. 1 middle school, because her grandfather, the old man, seemed to be very rich.

It was my grandfather, and she turned to me and said to me, and I saw the indifference in her eyes, and I was surprised how a little girl could have such indifferent eyes.

A gust of wind blew, the heat was relieved, and the clothes stuck to the body were not so uncomfortable.

Her body trembled, and I thought it must have been because she had just finished crying, and her hot body was suddenly exposed to the cool breeze and was a little uncomfortable.

I don't know what to do.

That's when she suddenly hugged me. I don't know what to do. ”

Gu Ao looked at Wang Xixi, his eyes were entangled, he had some guilt, some confusion, and some relief.

Wang Xixi's heart seemed to suddenly lose weight and fell heavily, and she seemed to be able to see the abyss of that bottomless black hole. She knew that he was not to blame, but she still couldn't do it without minding.

"Did you hug her, then?" Her voice trembled a little.

Gu Ao hugged her hard into his arms. She smelled the familiar faint smell of soap, which was warm and had a hint of the wild, which made him seem a little sloppy.

"I don't have a choice." His DJ-like voice on the radio sounded.

"I felt that she was very thin, even though she usually looked like a strong plant. I could only hug her slightly trembling body. ”

She tried to restrain her tears, and kept telling herself that it was okay, it didn't matter, didn't she just hug it, and she didn't do anything else.

"We didn't hug for long," he reassured her, "but I think our hug warmed more than we felt." ”

"Heating?" Wang Xixi was surprised.

"yes. I think we're all so lonely, so I'd like to find someone to warm ourselves up, for the time being. Gu Ao added two words temporarily at the end of the reluctance.

"Don't make excuses for your depravity." Wang Xixi doesn't understand, what kind of warmth, hug it, why make excuses for yourself.

Summer in the south is always rainy, the sky never seems to clear, I sit in front of the big floor-to-ceiling windows of the library all day and read Duras's "Lover", she was young with a man from the north with crazy sex/sex to fill the emptiness, they use the strong collision and friction of the body to fill in the missing love, the broken love. I think I was wrong at the time, you and Hu Meiyin are both people who need warmth, and lonely people always need to find some way to get rid of the cold, otherwise they will be lonely and freeze to death. However, you are too similar to be together. You can't tell if it's selfishness or love.

——Wang Xixi June 2010 Gu Ao shook his head helplessly, so he had to follow her, "Okay, good, I'm degenerate, I'm sorry for you." Don't be angry. ”

He shook her from her lying in his arms. Wang Xixi didn't speak, he just kept shaking.

"Okay, okay, you can go on." Wang Xixi was dizzy by him, she said casually to send him away, but she didn't want to forgive him for the time being.

Gu Ao's expression became serious. He thought earnestly.

"I think our relationship has gotten one step closer since then.

Because I finally met her in the city.

In autumn, the sky is very blue and high, and there are always a lot of geese flying south, just like in elementary school textbooks, and the golden leaves are always spread all over the ground just after the sanitation workers have just finished sweeping. It's a season that makes people feel good.

She was standing across the road just outside the school gate.

There were a lot of people at the end of school, but I recognized her in the crowd at a glance.

She wore a loose black sweater. She didn't seem to like to tie her hair, and her black hair was scattered over her shoulders, melting into an indistinguishable black with her sweater.

I walked over to her.

I know that there will be a lot of people pointing fingers behind me, but I don't know what's wrong with Lu Dao himself, as if he has fallen into an evil spirit.

She watched me walk towards her little by little. ”