Chapter 196: Contradictions
The autumn wind is a little cool, there are fewer and fewer pedestrians on the streets, the fallen leaves on the ground are scattered and swept up by the breeze, and the black shadows under the street lamps also drift like ghosts.
Wang Xixi couldn't help but shudder, her nose seemed to be clenched tightly with an earthworm, and she raised her head and wanted to sneeze for a long time but it didn't come out, so she had to rub her nose.
"Cold, huh?" Song Senran took off his coat and draped it over her shoulders, "I said a long time ago that you should remember to bring a coat and a coat when you go out, you won't listen, now it's okay." ”
Wang Xixi's body and mind were occupied by Hu Meiyin's affairs, and Song Senran's voice was like the sound of a monk knocking on a wooden fish to her, coming one after another, and she couldn't help but be a little irritable: "Enough, can you not always be such a mother-in-law!" ”
Song Senran froze, his hands slid down from her shoulders, his head lowered, and his whole face was buried in the shadow of his hair. The long shadow dragged under the streetlight was lonely and helpless.
Wang Xixi stared at the shadow and suddenly realized something. She tugged at Song Senran's sleeve and apologized to him in as soft a voice as possible, "I'm sorry." ”
He forcefully withdrew his arm, conveying to her a strong desire not to be touched by her.
He was angry.
Wang Xixi thought of the chatter just now, and simply gave up apologizing and did not accept to be pulled down.
He accompanied her all the way downstairs to her unit, silent.
"I'm on duty at the hospital." Song Senran told her sullenly.
"Oh." Wang Xixi answered and was about to go upstairs.
"Xixi," Song Senran called out to her behind her back, and I don't know when Lu Dao began, his voice lost the crisp indifference of his youth, and became as warm and rough as his palm. Wang Xixi seems to have fallen into the memories again.
"What are you doing all the time?" His voice sounded like an accusatory.
Wang Xixi turned her head, she stood in the dim place inside the unit door, staring at Song Senran under the street lamp outside the unit door, his eyebrows were still inserted into his sideburns like a sword, and his eyes flashed brighter than the stars. It made her a little dazed, as if he had been like this for all these years.
She replied to him lightly: "What's wrong with me?" ”
Song Senran is like a negative child, his mouth is slightly tilted to the side, he always likes to pout when he is angry, this expression reminds Wang Xixi of the pouting in QQ's expression, she suddenly wanted to laugh, but now she can't laugh.
She was silent, the most common trick she used to deal with her helplessness.
"Including the silence now, you are always like this, you don't say anything to me, suddenly you get angry, suddenly you are silent, do you know that I am very worried, every time you are like this, I always feel that you don't care about me at all!"
He stepped forward and hugged her, tough, whether she liked it or not.
People are always like this, when they are psychologically weak, they want to have the upper hand in action, but the more you have the upper hand in action, the more empty and uncontrollable the hole in your heart will seem.
Say you care about me, Sissy, say you care about me. Song Senran hugged Wang Xixi's body, and his heart trembled incessantly. You don't say anything, you don't say anything!
She's going to drive him crazy.
He crossed the line between light and dark and rushed over to hug her, but she was at his mercy like a rag doll, listening to him but not giving him any reply, she didn't say she cared about him, she didn't reach out to hug him.
It was only after a long time that she said, "Song Senran, you almost strangled my bones." ”
While Song Senran let go of her, he resolutely turned around and left, without looking at her again.
"Do we have to do this?" Wang Xixi said behind his back, her voice was a little hoarse Song Senran walked out of the footsteps and turned back, he stretched out his hand in the dark and groped her face, it was hot and humid as far as he could reach, "Why are you crying again?" ”
"I really can't help you." As long as she cries, he can't bear to continue to be indifferent to her, and he can't continue to fight with her anymore, his heart is like a flood that has burst the embankment, an ocean.
He wanted to hug her again, but she held his body with her hands, preventing him from approaching, shaking off his hand and going upstairs.
The sound of empty footsteps suddenly sounded on the stairs, and the voice-activated lights turned on in response, and he saw her back, her ponytail flicking behind her head, lonely and lonely.
Does she like herself? This is a problem that he has not figured out until now.
Song Senran kept listening to the sound of her going up the stairs and disappeared on the second floor, and then there was the sound of the door opening and closing, and then left. What should he do with her, she is like a lonely hedgehog, people want to protect, but once she gets close, she will stab you all over with thorns. Couldn't she remove the thorns from his body for him?
Since the beginning of autumn, the starry sky has become clearer, but the moon has become more and more white. The street lamps dragged the shadows of the buildings for a long time, reflecting them on the walls on either side of the street, and on that wall was a large red circle with a word split written on it. The shadow of the building lay beneath the lettering, angular and angular.
Song Senran watched his shadow suddenly break into the wall, and the soft curvature of the figure added the geometric beauty of light and shadow to the wall.
When this wall goes to the end, you can get a taxi, and he is on night duty tonight.
He had just graduated a year ago, and the hospital was originally a place where everyone had sharpened their heads and wanted to squeeze in, and his family was worried about his work at that time, but he didn't expect everything to go unexpectedly smoothly because of the popularity of the Beijing university.
All this is for Wang Xixi, who insisted on coming back. If you stay in Beijing, you will have a better development.
He still didn't understand why she was so stubborn about wanting to come back. But none of that matters anymore. In a few days, they will get married, and like their parents, they will live in the city for the rest of their lives.
That's not a bad thing.
At the corner of the wall, the bright light that flickered and flickered like a star falling into the shadows, Song Senran was really startled, he didn't expect that there would be someone here, just when he calmed down the violent fluctuations of his heart and was about to take a detour, the figure flashed out of the hidden darkness.
Beautiful peach blossom eyes, thin and cold face. Song Senran couldn't believe his eyes. "You, why did you come back?"
Gu Ao spit out the last puff of green smoke, the smoke danced enchantingly under the dim and yellowish light, and the deep peach blossom eyes were less clean when they were young, but more introverted.
His black coat was spotless, his white shirt was ironed neatly, and he looked very clean like him back then, but he wore a pair of jeans and canvas shoes. However, it made Song Senran look uncomfortable, he was not used to this kind of him.