She didn't feel bad, she just felt ashamed of him, ashamed of the care she had always taken care of, ashamed of his affection for herself, ashamed - she couldn't repay any love from him at all.

She doesn't love him, how can she drag him down? The more he was kind to himself, the more ashamed she felt!

But with these four words, the light in Bai Yucheng's eyes suddenly dimmed.

"Why?"

"I'm sorry Bai Yucheng, I can't accept you." She took a slight step back, tears streaming down her face.

"Why not? If you find it too stressful to propose, then I can take it back. Bai Yucheng immediately stood up, "We can try to date first, and then we will get married when you feel suitable." Or, if you want to keep looking at me, you can too. I just want to be with you! ”

"But I don't love you! I don't love you, you know? She was not hoarse, but seemed to be pouring out of her heart with deep powerlessness and pain, "I don't love you, how can I drag you down?" ”

"It's not a drag! It's my own willingness! Bai Yucheng immediately stepped forward and tried to grab her hand, but she threw her away. But as she shook off his hand, a string of tears poured out of her eyes.

"It is! That's it! How can I harm you? I thank you for taking care of me, I thank you for being kind to me, but I really don't know how to repay you. You are the best person to me other than my parents. I also hope that I can be shameless, shameless enough to take advantage of your kindness to me, shameless enough to enjoy your love without giving anything. But I can't do it, I really can't do it......"

"Passing years......" Bai Yucheng saw her crying, and his heart also hurt a piece, "I am willing, I am willing to take care of you." ”

"But I'm not worth it." She shook her head and stepped back, "I'm sorry, I really don't deserve your effort, I ...... I don't love you, I have a bad reputation, I've been entangled with Ling Yichuan for so long, I even have his children, what do you like about me? ”

"I ......" Bai Yucheng wanted to say! He wanted to say, he didn't know what's wrong, but he just liked her! From his high school days to now, ten years ago, his feelings for her may have faded a little because of going abroad, but after he returned to China, he rekindled his love!

"Yucheng." It was rare for her to only call his name, this time, just as he thought, there were too many feelings in her voice, gratitude, shame, regret, and more, an unacceptable helplessness.

She loves Ling Yichuan. Even though she was now, maybe give her a knife, she would not hesitate to stab Ling Yichuan's heart! But after really stabbing him in the heart, she wouldn't let him leave alone, she would end herself and follow him.

She can't bear any heavy feelings anymore, and she can't afford Bai Yucheng's love for her. Maybe after her pain is over, she will choose to find someone who is pleasing to the eye to marry and live a peaceful life, but it is not now, and it will not be Bai Yucheng.

"You deserve better. It's me, not worthy of you. ”

"Passing years!" Bai Yucheng watched her standing in the center of the square, behind her, the brilliantly lit Ferris wheel, and the beautiful lighthouse in the distance.

One last time, however, she nodded to him.