Not being able to find Liu Er made Qin Haiyang feel a little uneasy, and vaguely felt that something bad might happen. Thinking of Qin Zhuzi's words today, it made Qin Haiyang more and more uneasy.

Just as he was flustered, Zhang Siyu walked out of the back room, sat next to him, and pushed Qin Haiyang's arm, pulling Qin Haiyang back from his contemplation.

Zhang Siyu saw and heard everything that had just happened. Especially about usury. Although she is only 16 years old, it is said that the children of the poor are in charge of the family early, probably because they have experienced more things, and there are more things that need to be faced and solved independently, and their natural minds and psychology are more tenacious and mature than children of the same age.

It is said that usury drives people to death, and we often hear some tragic and painful cases. Although she has not personally experienced it, and she does not know how much money her grandfather borrowed this time, she is sure that this money must be related to herself. Although he never said it, she was well aware of the many differences she had from other children.

She was rescued by Qin Haiyang at the beginning, provided her with food, clothing, and schooling, and she was already very content.

There has never been a quiet time in this world, but in many places we don't know, there are people who are silently carrying the weight for us.

Many times she prayed in the land temple, hoping that she could grow up quickly, earn money as soon as possible, and help her grandfather share the pressure of life.

She gestured in sign language and asked Qin Haiyang how much money he had borrowed and how much he was still missing.

Qin Haiyang looked at Zhang Siyu, touched her head with his thick hand, and said with a smile: "Don't worry, girl, it's okay." I didn't borrow much, a total of 10,000 yuan. It's all ready now, and I'll pay it all back in two days. ”

Zhang Siyu gave Qin Haiyang a happy and satisfied smile when he heard this, gestured and told Qin Haiyang that she was going to cook, let him sit and rest for a while, and then went to a small tin shed in the yard to pick up vegetables.

Looking at Zhang Siyu's busy back, Qin Haiyang couldn't help but ripple in time and space in his heart for a while. The sweetness and bitterness of the years are like a glass of open wine, accompanied by many mixed emotions, surrounding Qin Haiyang's mind, like an auto-playing movie.

That look, face, sound, and appearance, as if it was right in front of you. You can't help but reach out to touch and hug. I can't wait to stuff everything they have into my heart and rub them into my body. Vent your flood of emotions just to pray that they will stay. Just to tell them how much they miss it.

But the naughty time is like an invisible flowing water, quietly passing between the five fingers stretched out, leaving only the vicissitudes of life after the erosion of the years and the sigh of life after traversing all things.

Loss and helplessness are like a biting cold night, unscrupulously surrounding themselves, constantly tearing the fire in their hearts.

A knowing scream woke Qin Haiyang from his thoughts.

Rubbing his eyes, he picked up his pipe and lit it tremblingly. With the rising green smoke, Qin Haiyang's thoughts were pulled back to the past.

On a biting cold winter 11 years ago, Qin Haiyang pulled out his fishing nets to dry as usual. Afterglow told him that there seemed to be something strange lying there on the beach. After focusing, his intuition told him that it could be a person, and it was probably a child.

He quickly threw away the work in his hand and ran to the beach in a 100-meter sprint. What caught in front of me was a little girl who was in a severe coma and soaked all over, and she looked like she was about 5 years old.

Qin Haiyang rushed to the hospital for treatment with the unconscious child in his arms, and after a round of examination, it was found that the little girl was severely frightened and soaked in the cold seawater, so the fever continued to be 40 degrees Celsius, and she was limited to a state of severe coma. After lying in the critical care ward for a week and continuing to hang the bottle for a week, the fever slowly subsided.

When he woke up, he found that the child also suffered from severe amnesia and could not remember anything. Not only that, but he also suffered from aphasia, unable to speak, and became mute now.

Because the girl has a silver bracelet on her hand, on which is engraved the character "Zhang" in seal font. Qin Haiyang felt that it might be related to the girl's life experience, maybe her surname was Zhang, so he named the child Zhang Siyu, hoping that she would be able to speak one day.

One can imagine how much sin this child suffered and how much suffering he suffered at that time. Since then, Qin Haiyang and Zhang Siyu's grandson have relied on each other. And Qin Haiyang never mentioned this matter again, the purpose was to eliminate the trauma that this incident brought to Zhang Siyu's soul and no longer remind her of the pain in the past.

Siyu is also very well-behaved, he has been very sensible since he was a child, he never asks Qin Haiyang for this or that, he eats whatever he wants, and wears whatever he wears. Although she calls Qin Haiyang grandpa, deep down in her heart, she has positioned Qin Haiyang as the closest person, just like her biological father.

As Zhang Siyu grew up day by day, he reached the age of going to school in a blink of an eye. Qin Haiyang found that Siyu's child was very smart and studious, except for not being able to speak, everything else was very good, and he even had a talent and IQ higher than ordinary people. According to Zhang Siyu's situation, he was supposed to go to a special school, but Qin Haiyang insisted that Zhang Siyu should receive full-time compulsory education like ordinary children, instead of going to a special school.

In fact, Qin Haiyang did this for the sake of Siyu, the purpose was to prevent her from having an inferiority complex, and not to let her feel that she had anything special with ordinary children of the same age. Bite the bullet, beg grandpa to sue grandma for trusting the relationship, find someone, and handle various certificates. Finally, Siyu went to the best full-time private school in the city. For this reason, it was also criticized and ridiculed by many long-tongued women in the village.

What to say: "Slapped with a swollen face and filled with fat, he panicked when he was full, he was obviously a money-losing goods, and he had to go to some aristocratic school." ”

Others said, "I don't measure myself, and I don't look at my own virtues." An ordinary man who relies entirely on coolies has to pretend to be a rich man, but I want to see how long he can last. ”

There are also some vicious claims that are even more unpleasant.

But there are also villagers who usually have a slightly better relationship with him to persuade him. I am also old and in poor health, so it is already very good to be able to provide food and clothing for my children. There is nothing wrong with going to a special school, so that children can learn things, and they can also reduce their own burden, so that they will not work so hard.

Every time Qin Haiyang faces these "good intentions", he usually looks like the "Star Master" in "Yangtze River No. 7", and says with a polite smile: "Thank you for your kindness, I can do it." "I don't talk much about anything else, but after a long time, everyone is used to it.

Zhang Siyu is also very competitive, in school, all disciplines are among the best, and he can get scholarships and outstanding three good students every semester. Although I am very satisfied with my school, I also know that the cost of each semester is not small, and this money is saved by my grandfather who gets up early and is greedy for night, fishing, growing vegetables, and saving money.

Once, Zhang Siyu took the initiative to talk to Qin Haiyang to see if he could transfer to a special school. Qin Haiyang was stunned for a moment, but then understood what she meant.

Stroking the head of the "girl", she said kindly: "Silly girl, although I don't know who your parents are, and I don't know if they will come to you, but you are grandpa's sweetheart, you are the best gift from God to grandpa." It doesn't matter what others say, and I don't care. As your grandfather, I will definitely give you the best of everything I have, and this is as it should be. Of course, apart from letting you go to a better school, grandpa has no other ability, and you have suffered a lot with me over the years. As he spoke, he took her into his arms and touched her head.

And Zhang Siyu had already cried into tears, and told Qin Haiyang by gesture: "Grandpa, you have done well enough, you are the best grandfather in the world." Although I don't know who my parents are, and I don't know why they abandoned me, but grandpa, you are my real grandfather, my only relative in this world, and I will definitely study hard and never let you down. ”

And Qin Haiyang strengthened his belief even more. Seeing that the child is obedient, sensible, has good academic performance, and is dignified and beautiful, he is full of happiness and happiness. I feel that God has not abandoned him after all. When he thought that most of his body had entered the loess, he could still give him such a big surprise.

But when I thought of my condition, I suddenly felt a sense of melancholy in my heart.

"Helplessly, the flowers fell, and the familiar Yan returned. For a while, my heart was full of miserable and miserable relatives. Silently sighed, feeling an inexplicable sadness.

Originally, he had taken life and death very lightly, but now, he suddenly felt that there were too many things that he couldn't let go.

It's not that I'm afraid of death, but I'm unwilling. Because he hasn't seen Siyu get married in a wedding dress, he hasn't seen her conceive and give birth in October, and he hasn't seen her.

"Hey..."

Life is like a wayward girl who plays with the fragile emotions of the "green boy" at will, always giving you an unexpected surprise when you think you have seen through it and are disheartened.

was proud to "let go", but suddenly found that "can't let go" at all.

To love or not to love is a question.

And Qin Haiyang knew that his time was short, so he could only silently pray to the heavens, hoping that the "treasure" he bet on was not wrong, and that Siyu would be happy in the future.