The whole city fell silent, even the vibrating mobile phone in the passenger seat was silent, the car window was wide open, and Han Yu tried to calm himself down, because the wind was cold enough.

Yes, the wind was so cold, but he was hot and cold from his body to his heart, and even sticky sweat appeared on the back of his forehead.

There was a kind of fear, which came from the soul, and it was as if he had been thrown into a dark bottomless pit, so black and gloomy, as if it could drive him crazy in an instant.

He struggled to keep his eyes open, trying to see the road ahead in his teary eyes.

He couldn't see the road ahead, as if he had lost his memory in an instant, and he had come to the wrong time and space.

In his delusion, familiar faces appeared, circling wildly in his mind, and the sound was long.

"Ah Yu."

"Brother."

"Mr. Han. Da"

……

Those buried pasts are like cars with failed brakes, stumbling into the old days in a frenzied drive.

If someone asks Han Yu, where did he spend the happiest time of his life? He might say it was in the old house of the Han family.

At a very young age, his name was Lu Zichu: Zichu or younger brother; Lu Zichu called him: Brother.

They are people with very different personalities, but they all have an indifferent nature in their bones. In addition to Wen Shu, he likes to go to the pond in the backyard of the old house, pick up a few small pebbles, and change his posture to play in the water.

Grandma would always pinch his ears for this: "If you startle the fish, can't you learn from the beginning of school?" ”

Every time he heard this, he would subconsciously pout, and when his grandmother saw it, she raised her eyebrows: "Yo, are you still not convinced?" ”

"I'm just not convinced."

In his eyes, his younger brother is like a little fool, every time he comes to the old house, he likes to squat on the ground to study ants when he has nothing to do, sometimes he is very stupid, when it rains, he will hold an umbrella and stand in the courtyard to watch the ants move, this behavior has lasted from the third to the sixth year old of Lu Zichu.

He said to his aunt: "It's bad, it's bad, your son shouldn't be a demon, right?" ”

My aunt couldn't cry or laugh, and when Zichu walked into the house, she just heard this sentence and said with a smile: "If you have the patience to observe the ants, you will find that people and ants have something in common, for example, they are both aggressive, but if you want me to say, people are not as good as ants." ”

He was very disdainful of Lu Zichu's words at that time, and after many years, he realized that ants were far more shrewd than people. Ants know how to advance and retreat, and the division of labor is clear. The weaker the group, the more they understand the importance of teamwork; The stronger and more intelligent people are, the more they like to live alone.

The people in the reinforced concrete city, running around for a living, tossing and turning their fate in the endless injury and being hurt, in the end hurt others and themselves, how can they compare to ants?

Despite this, in his childhood, he still had a lot of good memories with Lu Zichu and Wu Nai, lying on the grass and talking about his studies and dreams, and when he didn't want to talk, he slept with a book over his face; I also naively wanted to count how many stars there were in the sky; There have also been pranks, such as when adults are walking in front, they step on the shadow of their parents one by one, and they are secretly happy behind them.

Later, when I grew up, my parents' relationship broke down. His mother took him to the United States, and then Lu Zichu also went to the United Kingdom, occasionally on the phone, occasionally on video, everyone was very busy, and the time to be together was really not too much.

With his mother's alcoholic addiction, he began self-exile in an endless disappointment.

The city is full of lights and bustle, and once it is night, it is a place of power. He has long been numb to feelings, he has had several girlfriends, acting on the spot, each taking what he needs, knowing each other, he does not promise any future, and they don't need to ask him for extravagant feelings, if they get tired of it one day, they just turn around and leave.

He was already familiar with such a desperate departure, and once a woman cried loudly behind him: "Han Yu, you will be punished." ”

Yes, he was punished. In the summer of 04, before returning to China, he had just kicked away a woman who had been with him for a few months, shameless feelings, and even more disdainful of the so-called love in everyone's eyes, but fate took a turn at this time.

When I saw Gu Sheng for the first time, she was just a girl, wearing suspenders, canvas shoes, walking into the gate of the Han family without makeup, and following Gu Qinghuan with a smooth expression.

Out of politeness, she smiled at him, and that smile did not make people feel hypocritical and perfunctory, as if the sun was shining warmly on her body, so it naturally warmed the curve of the corners of the girl's mouth.

He felt dazzling at the time, but later realized that in fact, at that time, he had already moved his heart.

There are many things that Han Yu can't remember clearly, but the summer of 04 seems to be engraved in his bones.

In the summer when he was most likely to fall in love with Gu Sheng, he wasted time, so he forged a lifetime of love.

He always thought that she was still young, and that there was time to wait for her to grow up, and it was indeed too young, he was seven years older than her, but ...... At her age, she already knew what love was.

The person who made her experience this feeling was not him, but Lu Zichu.

Wangjiangyuan, he has been there a few times, but each time he doesn't have the torment of coming that time, he is afraid that he will see her at the door of Lu Zichu's house.

While consuming the waiting time, he remembered that Gu Sheng's expression was calm when he spoke, and his tone was soft; I want her to sit on a wicker chair and read a book carefully; I want her to crouch next to the sheepdog and watch it eat intently......

So much, so much, made him suddenly realize what kind of person, what kind of thing,