One year, on October 28, there were no clouds.

I'm back in Ninghai.

It's only been two months, but I feel that two years have passed, of course, there is no feeling of being like a person, everything is so familiar, nothing has changed, maybe only my own state of mind has changed.

Sitting in the car in the morning, my heart was sour, I knew that I was a little nervous, a little excited, and a little worried, but fortunately, Quiet has been talking to me next to me, helping me to distract myself, but most of her topics are also on Teacher Xia's body.

In fact, I was on the phone with Mr. Xia on the weekend, but I didn't say that I would come over, I wanted to surprise him, but for him, it was difficult to say whether there would be only surprise or joy, so I was still nervous at that time, even if I was almost 99% sure that Mr. Xia would be very happy to see me, even if it was quiet and chirping like a cheerful bird, I was still nervous.

I don't remember which book I saw that negative emotions are dominated by one person, and now that I think about it, it seems that there is really a certain amount of truth, even if there is only one percent of the negative impact, but the ninety-nine percent still can't suppress my nervous mood, just like when I write a book, although 10,000 people say that I write well, but only 10 people say that I write badly, I will be very uncomfortable, even if the ratio is a small 1,000 to 1.

So when I stood at the door of the classroom in the first and second classes of high school, Mr. Xia almost pounced in front of me and asked me if I could kiss him, my joy and shyness accounted for the same proportion, of course I nodded without hesitation, but I didn't expect that this was just for the task, and the kiss was just on the cheek, I thought that my first kiss would be sent out in this way.

But I wasn't discouraged by that, and when he hugged me in a circle, jumping like a child, I already felt that this was the best way I could imagine meeting me.

In the evening, Mr. Xia wanted to invite the students to dinner, and by the way, he called me and Quiet, but according to him, he invited me to eat with Quiet, and called his students by the way, he~ Actually, I don't care about this at all, as long as I can stay with Mr. Xia, I am satisfied.

Teacher Xia is Teacher Xia, for more than two months, I have been drilling all kinds of bull horns, but as soon as I saw Teacher Xia, everything suddenly became clear, looking back at my previous diary, those thoughts and words, no matter how I look at them, I feel how naïve and ridiculous.

He is still loved by many students, he is still calm in the face of quiet confessions, his story is still the most talked about topic by everyone, he is still the most loved by little girls, and he is still so bad in the face of the provocation of students in other classes.

Mr. Xia is still Mr. Xia, even if I leave for a long time, he will not change in the slightest, and with him by his side, no matter what I do, I am just as happy and happy.

It's just that when he announced that Sister Shi was his real girlfriend, I couldn't accept it for a moment.

I know very well that after that, my performance was very unsatisfactory, but it was not because I ate Sister Shi's vinegar, I like Sister Shi, she can be happy, which is also one of my wishes, but the question is, Teacher Xia chose Sister Shi, what about Sister Xin?

I also had a meal with Jing Jing and Sister Xin in Nan'an, and I also like Sister Xin very much, but I don't know what happened between her and Teacher Xia, did Teacher Xia resolutely give up Sister Xin for the sake of Sister Shi? At that time, this was indeed a thought that had occupied my mind for a long time, and I was still thinking about what attitude I should use towards Sister Shi if this was the case.

But the truth of the facts is much stronger than my imagination, it turns out that Mr. Xia has not given up, but has created a realistic version of Empress Nuying.

When I knew about this and said it by Sister Xin herself, my brain stopped thinking for a while, and I didn't know what kind of reaction I should make to be correct. …,

I know that many rich people, or successful people, will have a lot of women, but I know that this is different from the situation of Mr. Xia, the most essential difference is that those women are born because they are dependent on that man, and they can't live without him, but Sister Shi and Sister Xin are two real independent women, their strength and independence are what they have always admired the most, and they can bear the heart of their lover split in half?

But in fact, this is not my main concern, I distinctly remember that the thought was just fleeting, and then the phrase was swirling in my head: If they could, I couldn't?

I like Mr. Xia, more than anyone else, but I still don't dare to let this hypothetical proposition stand directly in my heart, it involves too many things and requires too much courage.

When I left, I had the urge to show my resolve with a kiss, but I gave up cowardly.

I don't dare.

One year, on October 29th, the sun was warm

Today, I made an appointment with Mr. Xia to buy glasses.

I fell asleep in the middle of the night last night, but fortunately, it was about noon, otherwise I would have been laughed at by Mr. Xia with a panda eye.

My parents took a few days off to accompany me, adding vegetables and asking for warmth, feeling as if I hadn't come back for two years, but looking at Teacher Xia, hehe, but I felt that I had never left at all.

I got up at half past nine in the morning, I have been choosing clothes and combing my hair, taking pictures repeatedly in front of the mirror, my parents thought I had a boyfriend, I said it was Teacher Xia, they were obviously a little unhappy, and said that there was no need to dress up so beautiful to see a teacher, he~ They didn't know, their daughter only dressed up when she saw Teacher Xia.

I haven't worn this skirt out of the house today, just to wear it for Mr. Xia. In the university dormitory, I saw a classmate who dyed his toenails very beautifully, so I also dyed his toenails, which looked quite haode, but I was a little worried that I didn't know if Mr. Xia would like it.

When I saw Mr. Xia outside the school gate, he must have seen my deliberately dyed nails immediately, and I felt my heart beat a little fast, so I didn't dare to look into his eyes when I walked over.

He said to me, "Beautiful lady, can I have this honor to help you with your umbrella?"

All at once I was completely relaxed.

Teacher Xia has this kind of magical power, a look can make people nervous, and a word can make people relax. At that time, I didn't know that weishenme was so bold, it seemed to be a matter of course, so I naturally took his arm, and dared to ask him if we were like a couple, this bad guy actually said that we were more like brothers and sisters, hum, coaxing people can't, fortunately, when two passers-by walked by, they said that we were golden boys and girls, and it is estimated that Mr. Xia's face must have been dry at that time, really relieved, hee......

Before buying glasses, Mr. Xia took me to eat a bowl of delicious noodles, but I can't remember the taste of that bowl of noodles at all, I only remember that Mr. Xia ate the pig's trotters I ate, and the kiss with the taste of green onions.

I must have gone crazy at the time, I even suspected that I was possessed by something, and even now I think about it, I still feel dizzy.

It was my first kiss, I once had a dream that was not worth a hundred times, I dreamed that my first kiss was given to Mr. Xia, but I never imagined that it would happen so suddenly, and in such a situation.

I remember that I wanted to find a crack in the ground and get in, my heart beat so fast that I almost jumped out of my mouth, and I don't remember how to go downstairs and get out of that noodle shop, the hateful Mr. Xia, chased him out and said that I took advantage of him, but it was also strange to say, give him a few bad teases, I was suddenly not embarrassed and shy, as if the kiss just happened between us is a normal thing. …,

I don't know what Mr. Xia thinks, I just know that I will never forget the faint taste of green onions in my life......

That's right, I like the glasses that Sister Xin helped me choose, the store is also very powerful, and I helped me change the lenses in half an hour, but the price is a little scary, more than 2,000, I don't know what material it is made of, the clerk said that the money has been paid, I thought it was Sister Xin's money, and refused to accept such a valuable gift, and then Mr. Xia said that he paid for it, this is the gift he bought for me, I reluctantly accepted it, he~ reluctantly embarrassed, Mr. Xia's expression at that time was very funny, and he said stinky:" You accept it so calmly when I come out, I'm so like Kaizi? also patronized and thanked her, isn't it just a little unique. "Like a child, you're jealous.

I am very satisfied with my performance today, and I also feel that I seem to have touched some inner things of Mr. Xia, come on, I will definitely be able to sleep well tonight, and I hope that a beautiful dream will be perfect

October 30 of a certain year is sunny

Today, I went to a quiet meeting with Mr. Xia and his students, the scene was very lively, many people did not have tickets, they piled up outside the venue, holding some quiet large posters, shouting slogans neatly, although there were many people, in good order.

It can be seen that there are many people in the venue who are very organized, such as the quiet support group and the like, and most of them are young students.

Quiet is undoubtedly the most dazzling person tonight, standing on the stage in full costume, a smile can cause the fans in the audience to scream wildly, I heard that she signed a new play, can achieve today's results, I am really happy for her, but I don't envy, I feel so tired to be in the spotlight like this, this is not the way I yearn for life.

In the interactive session, Quiet made the bad Teacher Xia up, played a game with the Quiet Group, and after winning, he got the reward of grinding his nose with Quiet, and I was a little jealous to see the pride of grinding Quiet's nose with Teacher Xia.

I'm going back to school early tomorrow morning, and after the show, I want to say goodbye to Mr. Xia, but I haven't had the opportunity to be alone.

I said I'll go back tomorrow, and Mr. Xia just smiled and said, okay.

I'm a little aggrieved, didn't he see me for two months, he didn't care at all, even if I came back a year later, he still had such an indifferent expression?

As a result, when I said zaijian, he said, "If you come back only once in two months, then I will go to your school to scold you." ”

Tears flowed down my eyes.

It turns out that I am just a slack parasitism with a head and can think, and Mr. Xia is my only host, and I will slowly dry up in the days when I leave him, whether it is thinking power or vitality.

I think that if I don't see Teacher Xia again, I may really die, even if the body is still there, it is just a soulless body, just ......,