Duran kept her head down, making it impossible to see the look on her face.

But at this moment, Duran's hands trembled slightly.

Xia Ruan's eyes moved slightly, as if Du Lan had already answered her question, and there was a bit of comfort in her tone: "I'm fine." ”

Her illness is a heart disease.

As long as you don't embarrass yourself, the disease will naturally be cured.

But what has been going on for a long time has overwhelmed her.

The current incident is equivalent to adding some more burdens to her, but she can't refuse this burden.

Xia Ruan rubbed his eyebrows and told himself to learn to trust people.

Once bitten by a snake, he was afraid of the well rope for ten years.

It's normal for her to be scared.

But the people around her don't know these things.

No one will believe in her bizarre past life, and no one will understand her fear of family affairs.

That kind of fear cannot be expressed clearly in a few words.

In their eyes, Xiao Jiu is her lover and a good man. Xia Ruan also understood this very clearly, and it was already an accident for her to be able to meet Xiao Jiu again in this life. Being able to become husband and wife with Xiao Jiu was something other than her accident.

The fact that she can marry Xiao Jiu is a blessing that she has cultivated.

And Xiao Jiu did it in advance, and he once again stood in the position of Chang'an Hou.

He did it just to make her feel at ease.

It's just that Xiao Jiu never knew that what she was afraid of was to experience her married life again.

Over the years, the bits and pieces of her and Tang Jingxuan have always made her creepy. The pain that went to her bone marrow is something she still remembers.

She has a good memory. In the past, she felt that she had a good memory and could remember it when she read the account books. But now she understands that she has a good memory, so she can't forget the things in her previous life.

Those things were imprinted on her heart like a brand.

Xia Ruan felt a headache, but she didn't dare to close her eyes to rest, she was afraid that she would close her eyes. went back to the day when she returned to Huangquan.

"Miss......" Duran put the medicine bowl aside. After a while, he sighed, "Is Miss worried about her relationship with Chang'anhou?" ”

Xia Ruan's eyes widened a little and looked at Duran thoughtfully.

The current Xiao Jiu is the Marquis of Chang'an.

Her relationship with Xiao Jiu. In the eyes of outsiders. It was she who took advantage of it. Even she thinks so herself.

Seeing that Xia Ruan didn't answer, Du Lan got closer: "The slave knows that by saying this, she is transgressing the rules...... But Miss. You can't keep everything in your heart. Chang'an Hou is different from the old man, he ......"

Duran hesitated, and his eyes suddenly turned red again.

Seeing Du Lan like this, Xia Ruan couldn't help but respond softly: "I know that he is different from my father, I have always known it. I'm sick, it's because I haven't rested, and it has nothing to do with him. You don't have to worry, I'll be fine in a few days. ”

When Du Lan saw Xia Ruan say this, his eyes showed some doubt.

Is that really the case?

"But my sister said that Miss, your condition is overly worried." Duran finally spoke, "What are you worried about, Miss?" ”

After Xia Ruan listened to Du Lan's words, he actually felt relieved.

She thought for a moment before she said to Duran: "Maybe, it's just a little tired." ”

Whether she is in front of Du Lan or in Xiao Jiu's eyes, she is not the real her.

The real her is not as good as they think.

She can also get angry, say sarcastic things, and even do terrible things.

She's not that good.

Xia Ruan didn't know why, but he felt a little sad.

The affection that Xiao Jiu gave her, she knew in her heart that it would be very good.

But it was as if she had seen what she wanted most, but she couldn't pay anything, and could only watch it slip away from her eyes.

She's not good, the real her actually ......

Seeing Xia Ruan close his eyes, Duran slowly retreated.

Chang'an Hou had already sent a dowry gift to the Xia family, and Du Lan had roughly calculated, to say the least, there were forty thousand taels of silver. When Madame saw these dowry, she was a little smacked...... After all, no one expected that Chang'anhou would send so many things over this time.

Madame was both happy and worried.

I am happy that Xia Ruan married well this time, but I am worried that the dowry does not seem to be rich enough.

Duran sighed and looked at Xia Ruan in the room, feeling slightly sour in his heart.

The young lady is afraid of getting married.

The arrival of relatives actually made Xia Ruan sick, and it was still a serious illness.

Duran didn't understand what Miss was worried about.

Du Lan didn't understand, but Du Ruo knew somewhat.

At the beginning, Xia Ruan's maternal grandfather Cheng Guogong also loved his wife very much, but later he still found the He family and killed his wife alive.

The Li family has been deeply in love with Xia Fucheng over the years, but no matter how much he pays, in the eyes of men, these loves and dedication seem to be taken for granted. Even the Zhao clan is the same......

The Zhao family is interested in Xia Fugui, but Xia Fugui has raised a lot of outer rooms outside.

In Du Ruo's eyes, everything is unbearable.

Sometimes, Du Ruo is also thinking, if Liu Changyuan wants to take a concubine, what should she do?

After thinking about it for a long time, Du Ruo actually found that he had no way at all.

She was reluctant to have children, so it was naturally impossible for her to leave Liu Changyuan.

How good Liu Changyuan is to her, Du Ruo knows it in his heart, but even she thinks like this, let alone Xia Ruan?

There are countless men in this world who take concubines, especially those with Xiao Jiu's status, concubines are a common thing for him. Indeed, it is very common, but if you compare your heart to your heart, Xia Ruan will definitely be uncomfortable because of these things in the future.

obviously likes a person so much, but he wants to send this person to another woman's side, and he has to pretend to understand the righteousness.

Du Ruo told Du Lan these words, and asked Du Lan to be careful.

It's just that Xia Ruan's heart is sick, but she has no other way.

Heart disease also needs to be treated with heart medicine.

After five days, Xiao Jiu came to visit.

When Du Ruo saw Xiao Jiu at that time. There was some displeasure on his face, but he still led Xiao Jiu the way.

Fiveth, why did you wait so long to come?

Du Ruo didn't know, but he didn't dare to ask.

At that time, Xia Ruan had just taken the medicine, and his eyes were wide and he didn't dare to sleep.

"Miss, the Marquis of Chang'an has come to see you." Du Ruo's voice came in from outside, and Xia Ruan couldn't help but widen his eyes.

Xiao Jiu is here at this time? What is he doing here......

Xia Ruan wished that time would stop at this moment, so that she could figure out how to talk to Xiao Jiu and time would start running again.

Do you want her to tell Xiao Jiu. She doesn't believe in feelings. She thinks she doesn't deserve Xiao Jiu?

In this case, how can you speak?

Before Xia Ruan could sober up, she heard someone push the door in, and soon the figure stood in front of her.

The boy in front of him. There was still sweat on his forehead. Qingjun's face seemed to have lost some weight again. Xia Ruan had never seen Xiao Jiu like this. On weekdays, he is always calm, and it seems that the matter of burning his eyebrows is in his eyes. You have to think about it slowly and in the long run.

Such a person has anxiety on his face at this time.

"Still uncomfortable?" Xiao Jiu sat on the small stool next to the bed and couldn't help but ask.

At this time, after he got closer, Xia Ruan could clearly smell the familiar scent of camellia on his body.

Xia Ruan had always been curious about why she liked camellias, obviously she had never taken care of those flowers and plants in her previous life.

Now, her heart has suddenly opened up.

She likes camellias, perhaps because the fragrance of camellia makes her feel familiar. However, this familiarity naturally came from Xiao Jiu's body.

In her previous life, she had been in contact with this person for the longest time, and even Tang Jingxuan couldn't compare to her. So subconsciously, she was used to the smell on Xiao Jiu's body, and gradually liked this smell.

This serious illness is actually her heart disease, and when she was in a dream, she also dreamed of Xiao Jiu.

She knew she was running away.

So in this life, she didn't want to meet Tang Jingxuan, nor did she want to meet Xiao Jiu, let alone get married. She was afraid that if she was not careful, she would embark on the path of her previous life, and she was even more afraid that that hellish life would appear in her life again.

She was depressed and aggrieved, but she was cautious, because she knew that if she took the wrong step, she would lose badly.

Moreover, she did not have anyone to believe in at all.

At this time, she didn't know who to tell her inferiority complex to. Because, who would believe that the third lady of the Xia family, who is so high, is so afraid and so inferior in her heart.

Xia Ruan has been thinking that if it was in her previous life, she would be fine, and she could tell Xiao Shaocheng about this in her previous life.

But soon, she understood that Xiao Shaocheng was Xiao Jiu.

This person will be her husband.

"I'm fine." Xia Ruan turned his head and stopped looking at Xiao Jiu, "Why are you here?" ”

Xiao Jiu looked at Xia Ruan's expression, a little worried: "I should have come earlier, I was late." ”

Xia Ruan turned his head to look at Xiao Jiu again, where did he start with this.

Xia Ruan's puzzled look made Xiao Jiu's face feel a little more guilty.

The girl was born white and tender, and she didn't like to apply rouge gouache on her face, and at this time, the spring sun shone into the house, and her skin was even fairer and almost transparent. Her dark hair was now scattered behind her, like a budding flower in March. The quietness in those eyes is not like the calmness that a twenty-eight girl should have, like a deep spring. It's just that the girl showed a tired look, but he looked at it cleanly.

Du Ruo said that Xia Ruan had a heart disease this time.

After listening to Du Ruo's words, Xiao Jiu seemed to understand why Xia Ruan was seriously ill.

Fate is a thing, if he doesn't hold on tightly, it will be fleeting.

Xiao Jiu admitted that he was a little hasty in this matter, but he knew better what he saw that day......

When Zhao Nanke was talking to Xia Ruan, he stood in the distance and saw it, and there was a nameless fire in his heart.

Later, he learned that she was so deep in his heart.

One thought is persistent, one thought is lovesick.

"What are you worried about?" Xiao Jiuyi's deep eyes looked at Xia Ruan quietly with a little tenderness, "Or, what are you afraid of?" Nguyen, can you tell me about it? (To be continued......)

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