Chapter 43: Feng Haoxuan clearly held his left hand
The clear crescent moon is very similar to that night.
I still remember that night when he danced on the moon, and he watched his dancing soul in the lush forest because of his agile air.
I still remember that night when he danced on the grass, hoping to exchange the dance for a night and never forget him, but he quietly measured to keep him for a lifetime and allow him to be alone!
However, that night, there was a gap between them, surrounded by the threat of taking their souls and asking for their lives, and all the beauty and possibilities were torn apart by Hua Tianguo.
"I'm a man, will you love?" To this day, he still doesn't get a definite answer.
"You are the greatest shame of my life!" He thought that after Feng Haoxuan said this, they would never have any intersection in this life, and they could only rely on the only memories Liao Du for the rest of his life.
However, he saw the secret words written by Feng Haoxuan himself: "Hua Tilting Country, I will allow you to be alone for the rest of my life, can you make me your husband." ”
However, the table of meals that Feng Haoxuan made in order to wait for him in his eyes grabbed his heart so deeply and directly!
Besides, because of his helplessness and deception, Feng Haoxuan left another sentence: "Maybe I should treat these three days as a game." As you wished, played, goodbye! ”
In the next two years, I couldn't let go, I couldn't forget, and I had nowhere to go. Love or hate, Hua is confused, and Feng Haoxuan is even more confused.
Feng Haoxuan, Feng Haoxuan, how passive and innocent! Even if he hates it, even if he hates it, Hua Tingguo only thinks that he should be like this.
From the beginning, it was Hua Tingguo himself who concealed the fact that he was a man, and from the beginning it was he who deceived his love and affection. In the end, it was he who cruelly stripped off the falsehood, and applied cruelty word by word!
But he's also for love, for his lover!
"Whoever enters the Miao Valley will die! Imbue, die! On the fifth day of the seventh month, the trespassers on the shore of Qianli Lake, the rescue of those who conceal it, the country, my intentions are good, and life and death are up to you. Elder Yu's words are still in my ears.
It's a Thousand Miles Lake, a forbidden place in Miao Valley! It's just that he didn't have time to find out how Elder Yu knew about this, he understood that Elder Yu's actions would be faster than him, and Feng Haoxuan would definitely be exposed before he found out.
At that time, not only Feng Haoxuan, but also his family, Grandma Hua, and even Ying'er will be implicated! He must not be so selfish and let the lord of a country, his lover Feng Haoxuan die, nor let his grandmother and Ying'er suffer innocently.
He also knew that his grandmother would not let him out of the valley, although he didn't know why, but he also guessed a few points from the dangerous memories he had when he first came twelve years ago.
So he said, "I'm a man just like you!" ”
So he said, "It's all men, it's enough to play!" ”
So he hurt him with his own hands and forced him away, so he broke their fate!
From the moment Feng Haoxuan turned around, he thought that he had no chance to be involved. Seeing the calligraphy, paintings and meals left by Feng Haoxuan in the bamboo pavilion, he secretly believed that there might be a turnaround!. On the day of the imperial concubine's trip, Feng Haoxuan's fingertips gently caressed the corners of Liu Piaopiao's eyes, he understood that he had really missed it. When Feng Haoxuan was poisoned, Feng Haoye said Yue'er, he once again doubted that there had ever been love! When he saw Liu Piaopiao's tear mole on the banquet, he became more and more confused!
Feng Haoxuan, have you ever loved the country?
Does Feng Haoxuan love Liu Piaopiao again?
If you don't love it, why do you indulge in joy with Liu Piaopiao in the imperial study? If you love, why are you so cold to her?
The similar tear mole and the corner of the eye are because she is like him, so Feng Haoxuan accepted Liu Piaopiao? Or is it only because Feng Haoxuan likes women with tear moles, and he happens to have them, so Feng Haoxuan has also moved his heart to him, or has he been moved by Hua Tianguo as a "woman"?
He's really confused!
For two years, more than 700 days and nights, he struggled and hesitated. I know how far away he is! Knowing that he said the word "shame" so decisively, he should have given up! I know that he has a Yue'er in his heart! I know that he really doesn't like men, otherwise why would he often go in and out of the concubine's bedroom! I knew that he had forgotten about it.
But he can't forget, can't let go, can't leave! Even if he was so humble as a woman and stayed by his side, he was happy that his Feng Haoxuan was protected by him! Even if he didn't know who he was, even if he didn't want him to be by his side, he was willing, willing! Use false identities to revolve around him, cultivate power in whatever aspect he needs, just wait for the day he needs it!
Wait! yes, what a long wait. Perhaps, it didn't work out. However, what to do, he is reluctant to let go, because he loves him deeply!
Therefore, even if Feng Haoxuan never knows, he will admit it!
"In this life, it's for you, I'm willing!" Standing under the green willow tree by the Chili Pond in the west corner of the Imperial Garden, he raised his head and whispered to the crescent moon in the sky all night.
The whole Imperial Garden, he liked it the most. The grass and trees here are so similar to the shore of Qianli Lake in Miao Valley, and even this pond is very similar to the shrunken Qianli Lake, as well as the weeping willow beside it. Even the name is like, Qianli Lake, Qianli Pond!
It's like him and him, close at hand, but it seems to be thousands of miles apart!
"Lord Wujun, do you want to give this life to this Qianli Pond?"
A low, magnetic voice came from behind itself, so familiar.
The rustling sound of stepping on the green grass is gradually approaching, and the heart is dancing faster and faster all night! Now that he is approaching, it is time for him to rest, he has worked all day, and he is still interested in visiting the garden in the middle of the night, I am afraid that he is about to go to the concubine or concubine Liu and happens to pass by here.
"Dance all night to see the emperor, long live long live long live!"
Dancing as the lord of this county all night and bowing down according to the palace etiquette, his eyes had already swept back, he came alone, so he didn't want to go to his concubine's bedroom. Thinking about it like this, my heart is really much more comfortable. It's really funny, it turns out that because of love, he really can't be so generous, even if Feng Haoxuan doesn't belong to him.
"Get up!" Feng Haoxuan said in a deep voice. "It's so late at night, why did the Lord of the Dance County come here?"
"Back to the emperor, I accidentally found such a beautiful scenery during the day, and I coveted the scenery here, so I took advantage of the moonlight to enjoy it!" It's been two years, and although I'm still excited to be alone with Feng Haoxuan again, I've already learned to control my gushing feelings, so his words and his tone have no waves!
"You think it's beautiful, too."
"It's beautiful!"
"Just now, you're borrowing the scenery to express your feelings."
"Yes! The scenery here evokes a lot of past events and memories, and I can't help but say it for a while. ”
"In this way, I still have someone to keep with me. The grass and trees here, the weeping willows, the pond water, and even the crescent moon in the sky, are the most lovesick. I really believe that you have a lover! ”
To whom is the lovesickness being sent? Maybe it's that Yue'er, maybe it's because there is a Qianli Pond here, there is a Qianli Lake in Miao Valley, and because he can save Yue'er, so he has the good memories of those three days.
That's it, that's it! Love or not, he doesn't want to guess anymore, he can't really feel like a daughter just because he pretends to be a woman. He loves it, it has nothing to do with whether Feng Haoxuan loves it or not, as long as he follows his heart.
But he didn't know that at this moment, he had already reversed the front and back and cause and effect, and he didn't want to guess, but he was just guessing indiscriminately, and he was getting farther and farther away!
"By the way, there's one thing I'm very curious about."
"Dare to ask the emperor what is the matter, I will do my best to solve the emperor's doubts after dancing all night."
He replied to Feng Haoxuan's words in a low voice, Feng Haoxuan was beside him, he didn't dare to look at him, but suddenly felt that it seemed that Feng Haoxuan's eyes had turned around. There was a rustling sound under his feet again, and Feng Haoxuan seemed to be approaching him!
Rao is that no matter how careful he practiced, no matter how stable he was, he couldn't stand Feng Haoxuan being so close to him, and the breath that belonged to Feng Haoxuan was very cool, the same as two years ago! Suddenly, he thought of Feng Haoxuan's caresses and kisses that night, which made his heart even more chaotic, his breathing more urgent, and at the same time more confused, what was Feng Haoxuan going to do so closely?
In an instant, the wind blew the water of the pond, and also drove the projection in the pool water under the moonlight!
He stood side by side with him, just like he and him on the shore of Qianli Lake two years ago. Sleeve hem entanglement!
I didn't dare to look at Feng Haoxuan all night, but my eyes fell on the blurry image in the rippling pool water, with a slight tremor!
Although he didn't know why, Feng Haoxuan clearly held his left hand!