My life may have taken a turn for the worse since that summer two years ago.

I knew I was gay when I was very young.,I like boys.,With a beautiful face.,I've been the object of many girls' confessions since I was a child.,But there's no man...

When I grow up, I attract more people of the opposite sex, basically starting from college, I can receive several love letters every day. In the eyes of girls, I am the type of beautiful man they like, so I am not surprised that I am very popular.

I met my first boyfriend in high school, when he was still young and looked very young about everything. Holding hands, hugging, and even kissing made me feel beautiful, and maybe innocence was the most beautiful at that time...

The reason why I broke up was because of the persecution of the school, I thought that my relationship with him was well hidden, and it would not be discovered by parents and teachers, but there were always some people who liked to make small reports and would expose our relationship to the teacher, so we broke up under the pressure of parents and teachers...

Since then, my parents have never cared much about me, because they think that my sexual orientation has lost their people, so they are very cold to me.

However, at that time, I didn't give up on myself, I still studied very hard, so I could be admitted to a university, and I paid the tuition for the university myself, and my parents didn't care about my studies, yes... Who cares about a "monster" ...

My second boyfriend: Wu Yao, nominally the last one I met so far when I was a freshman, and he brought me into the circle, and he also "sold" me...

He belongs to the kind of boy who is particularly sunny and cheerful, and he is the object of a young girl's nymphomaniac.

At first, I didn't expect him to be gay, but later, I found out that he was so familiar in the circle, and he could talk to everyone very well.

He also mentioned our relationship first, I accepted it without much thought, and he took me to try a lot of new things, including my first time...

The first time I gave it to him, he seems to be a "master in bed", which fully proves the fact that he must be a playboy.

That night seemed to be the beginning of my fall...

Wu Yao and I drank a lot, and when he came out of the bar, he took me to the hotel to open a room, but he didn't touch me, but went into the bathroom and made a phone call, and it didn't take long for another man to come, I have never seen that man, and he looks like he is twenty-five or sixteen, so he shouldn't be Wu Yao's friend.

He came up to me with a wicked smile on his face, and I woke up from his start.

"Yao? Who is he? I took Wu Yao's arm and questioned him.

With a look of disdain, he pushed my hand away, "Oh, it's okay, Rui Rui, I'll stay with him for the night." ”

"What do you mean? You made me... Accompany him? "I was so frightened by him that I was cold, and I didn't know what expression to show on my face...

I thought that a person like me, who didn't care about my aunt and uncle, would meet the right person, a true love, and I thought that my true love was Wu Yao, but he treated me like this and made my heart completely die...

"Why—" I said in a cold tone, and I didn't touch him.

"Heck, everyone is going to be short of money sometimes, so... You know, but it's okay, I'll share your order~" Wu Yao smiled flirtatiously like that man.

"Have you ever loved me?" I looked him in the eye and waited for his answer.

"Of course, of course I love you." Wu Yao was still smiling with a spring breeze on his face.

I didn't want to say anything to Wu Yao anymore, so I turned around and walked out of the bathroom. The man really didn't think of himself as an outsider, and was already lying naked on the bed covered with a quilt.

"How much is it at a time? Have you negotiated? I looked contemptuously at the man's ugly face.

“500”

"Give me 500 directly, after all, I'm here. He? Hmph, if he takes the money, I'll leave. "I sat on the edge of the bed and stroked the man's chest muscles, I don't know where I had the courage to do that.

"Whatever, you can give the money to any of you anyway." The man had that disgusting smile on his face again.

"Okay, you can go, I don't want to see you again in the future." I got up and pointed to Wu Yao at the door to signal him to leave, this time I still had a cold face, because I didn't think he was worth it I could give him any expression.

Wu Yao was surprised at first, but after a while, seeing my coldness, he didn't say anything more, just turned around and opened the door and left.

The strength of the wine has not passed, I still feel dizzy, with the strength of the wine, I dizzy backwards, and then fell on the bed, it didn't take long to feel the clothes on my body being faded one by one, and I also felt a hot pain in the back, this is the first man I was allowed to enter my body except for Wu Yao, and it was also the first "customer" that I began to fall...

Since then, although Wu Yao still comes to me every day to ask for my forgiveness, I am completely dead to this man, so I give him a face every time. He was the one who pushed me into the abyss! So, I will never forgive him! Never!