Chapter 9: Suicide note
Some things, some people, you want to forget, they are like a cancer rooted in your heart, tormenting you every day, making you cry every day...
In the blink of an eye, Krista had been gone for nearly a week, but there was still her temperature at home, as if she had never left, and her old laughter was still wafting in the air, and those happy scenes we spent together would appear in front of my eyes from time to time.
Kristholm is gone, William has never been seen in front of us again, he quit his job and went to another city, seemingly atoning for his sins because of Crispa, but in fact the truth is even uglier than that.
"Rui Rui, let's clean up these things in Cristao, they've been dusted for so long." If it weren't for Xu Shaohui's reminder, I wouldn't have noticed the strangeness in Cristao's room, although the furnishings still look like someone is living there, but under the sunlight, the bed and the dust on the ground are faintly visible.
In the past, Chris Tao used to clean the house, but now that I don't have her, I really don't know what to do.
Looking at the things she once used, I just felt very kind, those are the evidence that she has lived in this world, and it is the only memorial to me.
Caressing the dust stained by the head of the bed, my heart is also indescribably uncomfortable. "You have to keep these things, you can help me clean them up." Xu Shaohui didn't speak, and silently packed up all those small things.
Looking at the old things in the drawer, the memories of the past have also been hooked out from the depths of memory. "This is the hairpin I bought for her the last time we went to the mall, and she looks great with it, and it goes well with her long hair." "This is the pendant I bought on my last trip and she loved it too..."
The things that Christao had used were so magical that every time I touched them, my heart would be tugged at and tears would gather in the corners of my eyes again.
"It's... It'sā" I wanted to utter a complete sentence, to put into words the gratitude I had been embarrassed to tell her, but now my throat was like something was clogged, and I couldn't say it completely.
Xu Shaohui walked up to me, took those things from my hands, and gently rubbed them with his fingers, feeling the good memories of me and Cristao.
"Don't cry, she must be fine in the other world now, and no one will hurt her." He patted me lightly on the shoulder, although he was comforting me, his tone was also trembling, "I thought that Cristao was Ouyang Ze's eyeliner arranged by your side... Now it seems that I was wrong..."
Xu Shaohui laughed at himself, he was also repenting for his ignorance, but these were useless, and she wouldn't hear them in the "other world".
Although his eyes were hazy with tears, and everything he could see was blurry, he could vaguely see that the small objects in the drawer had a white envelope. All you can see is a small corner, but the new look doesn't match the memories of the past at all.
When I took the letter out of the drawer, when I read the words written on the envelope, my heart tingled...
"Legacy... Suicide note..."The envelope is crookedly written with the two big characters "Suicide Note", although the pen color is jet black, but it looks very mad.
At such an instant, the confusion that had been in my mind was solved at once, "It turns out that Cristao read the Chinese-English dictionary just to write this letter..."
Although Chris Tao's Chinese is very good, and some Chinese characters are also written neatly, but after all, she is also a foreigner, so she will also say that many words will not be written, if you want to write such a thick suicide note, there must be a lot of new words in it.
The surface of the envelope still exudes a faint smell of ink, and it seems that it has not been left here for a long time. Accompanied by Xu Shaohui, I opened the letter, saw the last words left by Cristao in this world, and saw those ugly truths...
Chen Rui:
By the time you read this letter, I was already out of this world. I have never dared to tell you some things, just for fear that you will be hurt, but in the end, when I also knew about those things, I realized that I, like you, were all victims of this matter, and they were all puppets in Ouyang Ze's hands.
Ouyang Ze doesn't really love you, I thought he was a good person who is hard to find in this world, and that pure heart is also hard to find in the world, where would I think of such an ugly thing he would do... Your marriage is fake, it is the connection he established in order to take revenge on Wu Yao, and his dedication to you is also fake, it is just because of gaining your trust, now when you leave him, don't think that he will let go so easily, your family is still in his hands, and they are all tools for him to continue to hurt you and Wu Yao.
Forgive me for not having the courage to tell you directly, because when I know that I am also a pawn of his, my child is just a tool for him to control you. My marriage, my happiness, are all arranged by him, William is what he arranged to me, and he is a tool to spy on you and me.
Chen Rui, listen to my last sentence, with Wu Yao, he is really good for you, for your future, even if you don't marry him, please don't hurt him again, after all, he may be the best person in the world for you.
For you, he can give up the opportunity to put Ouyang Ze to death, for your happiness, he can bear the harm that Ouyang Ze brought him many times, everything he does is for you, please be kind to his care for you.
Also, please don't resent William, he is just a tool in Ouyang Ze's hands like us, let him go...
The world is really not as simple as we think, and many things cannot be considered in terms of normal human nature. Ouyang Ze is an outlier in this world, his viciousness, his methods, really not something you can bear, if you are tired, hide in the arms of your friends and rest...
Chen Rui, I'm tired, I'm really tired, I don't want to continue to be Ouyang Ze's tool to hurt you in the future, I don't want to be a burden to you. Please forgive me for my selfishness, forgive me for abandoning you, our friendship will end like this, and I will bless you in another world with my children.
I'm sorry...
Chris Tao looked at the words she left for me, looked at the last handwriting she left in this world, the tears in her eyes were once again wanton on her face, and the heart-rending screams came out of her mouth again...