Chapter 499: Could it be that she is not willing to give up on herself?
Parsons School of Design in New York, USA, is a dream place for designers from all over the world. Ford, Jacob, who made a name for himself for Chanel and LV, Krakauf, the chief designer of Kouchi, and Yohji Yamamoto, the leader of Fuso's fashion clothing, have all come from here.
Of course, Zhang Qingyuan knows Parsons's situation, but in contrast, he is more fond of Chinese painting and calligraphy, and he does not have such a strong mind about design, otherwise with his understanding of design and works, it is not difficult to be admitted to Parsons College.
Although he was reluctant, Zhang Qingyuan also knew that it was definitely a dream to pass the exam of this college, and he naturally wanted to be happy for Ji Ruolin.
Zhang Qingyuan could see that Ji Ruolin was depressed, and he didn't know if he was reluctant to leave his family or what the reason, and even Zhang Qingyuan thought for a moment, she wouldn't be because of me, right?
However, Zhang Qingyuan immediately dispelled this idea, his relationship with Ji Ruolin developed too fast, in fact, it didn't go through too much precipitation, everything happened so suddenly, he always thought that the two didn't have too deep understanding, so Ji Ruolin's good impression of himself may be more because of that night.
In this case, how can she become a fetter in her heart?
After thinking about it, Zhang Qingyuan pretended to be relaxed and said:
"Then I will congratulate the future fashion designer of Huaxia in advance on the upcoming birth, and when he becomes famous, he will give me an autograph."
Hearing Zhang Qingyuan's words, Ji Ruolin gave him a blank look, and she was annoyed by this guy's incomprehensible style. The bitterness in the heart is like fermented wine, and the bitterness anesthetizes the heart.
Since Friday night, Ji Ruolin has fallen into chaos, returning home and locking herself up all night, not even eating dinner.
The guilt and uneasiness in her heart made her feel sorry for Zhang Qingyuan and help her family, but she was treated like that by her family, which made her very painful, although she wanted to call Zhang Qingyuan daoqian, but she was not embarrassed at all.
Until noon the next day. Ji Ruolin walked out of the door. Seeing her anxious parents, brother and sister-in-law, even if Ji Ruolin had a big temper, she couldn't do anything to them, so she could only leave home disappointed. Go back to where you live.
From Saturday to today. Ji Ruolin didn't go out for more than two days. All the while falling into deep self-blame and guilt.
The notice was received last week, but because she cared about Zhang Qingyuan, Ji Ruolin didn't think about going at all. But as soon as she thought of facing Zhang Qingyuan again on Monday, she was very scared in her heart, afraid of seeing Zhang Qingyuan snubbed, and afraid of the changes after Zhang Qingyuan revealed his identity.
Ji Ruolin didn't dare to face Zhang Qingyuan.
As soon as Zhang Qingyuan's phone rang this morning, she saw it, but she still didn't dare to answer, but her heart was like a knife.
At night, Ji Ruolin finally figured out that instead of falling into such an embarrassing situation, it was better to daoqian to Zhang Qingyuan, and then leave, hide like an ostrich in a foreign country, and then heal silently.
"Perhaps, after leaving here, I will be able to recognize my heart and see if it is not the feeling of aiqing because of the mistake of that night, as he said at the beginning."
This is the excuse that Ji Ruolin made for herself, but when she really saw Zhang Qingyuan, she couldn't help but want to stay, wanted to stay by his side, from home to here, and now to now, Ji Ruolin's heart was full of torment, and she spit out the words "I'm leaving tomorrow", she has said it countless times in her heart.
Before saying this, Ji Ruolin could still pretend that nothing happened, but as soon as she opened her mouth, she couldn't pretend anymore, the bitterness in her heart turned over and over, when she heard that Zhang Qingyuan was not retaining, but congratulating, and even joking so easily, Ji Ruolin was extremely sad.
At this time, Ji Ruolin was still confused about her shijie, and she couldn't understand the meaning behind Zhang Qingyuan's words, and her heart felt cold.
Seeing Ji Ruolin's delicate body trembling slightly and her face pale, Zhang Qingyuan couldn't help grabbing Ji Ruolin's arm and said with concern: "What's wrong with you?" ”
Ji Ruolin raised her somewhat blank eyes and looked at Zhang Qingyuan fixedly, as if she wanted to engrave this look deeply in her heart, and after a while, she slowly shook her head, squeezed out a look that was more ugly than crying, and said, "I'm fine." ”
The loss made Ji Ruolin unable to distinguish her heart, but she stubbornly thought that Zhang Qingyuan said that, and thought so.
Seeing Ji Ruolin's eyes confused, Zhang Qingyuan's heart suddenly hurt for no reason, and he wanted to say something, but when the words came to his mouth, he found that there was no suitable sentence, his mouth moved, but he didn't say anything.
"Send me home."
Ji Ruolin sighed in her heart, and withdrew her hand from Zhang Qingyuan's hand, although she liked the warmth of his hand and the feeling of security, but Ji Ruolin felt so strange, and the strangeness made her can't wait to escape.
When Zhang Qingyuan was trembling slightly, he used his divine sense to probe and found that there was no problem with Ji Ruolin's body, and now these are probably the biggest thing about her psychology.
But Ji Ruolin didn't say it, Zhang Qingyuan could only think about the reluctance to part, although he guessed the beginning, but he didn't guess the result.
Nodding, the two got up.
When Zhang Qingyuan checked out, Li Ying looked at the two of them in amazement, and wondered: "Why do you have to leave after such a while?" ”
Ji Ruolin shook her head and said, "I'm a little tired and want to go back to rest." ”
Li Ying saw that Ji Ruolin's expression was a little wrong, she looked at Zhang Qingyuan suspiciously, and then looked at Ji Ruolin, thinking that there was something wrong with the two, so she didn't want to ask too much, so she pushed Zhang Qingyuan's money back, looked at Ji Ruolin and said with a smile:
"Take it, this guy doesn't pay every time he comes, you can just introduce me to some guests later."
Zhang Qingyuan hesitated, nodded, took back the money, and said with a smile: "Definitely." ”
Just as the two were about to leave, Ji Ruolin suddenly said, "Yingying, I'm leaving tomorrow." ”
"Huh? Where to? Li Ying was also confused.
"Parsons College, the notice I received last week." Ji Ruolin said in a low voice, facing her most haode friend, Ji Ruolin naturally couldn't leave so quietly, she still had to say something.
"Wow!" Li Ying was pleasantly surprised, both are design majors, of course Li Ying knows Parsons College, hearing this good news, Li Ying suddenly took Ji Ruolin's hand with her eyes shining, as if she was even more excited than she was admitted, "Linlin, you are amazing!" ”
Ji Ruolin smiled bitterly, thinking in her heart that if Zhang Qingyuan made a statement to save him, let alone Parsons School, even if all the top design schools in the world gave him an admission letter, he would not take a second look.
But Zhang Qingyuan didn't, and Ji Ruolin's heart was gloomy.
Looking at Ji Ruolin's unhappy look, Li Ying suddenly glanced at Zhang Qingyuan, suddenly understood, gave Ji Ruolin a look that I understand, and said with a smile: "Isn't it the United States, it's not an alien planet, and it's only ten hours by plane." ”
Saying that, Li Ying looked at Zhang Qingyuan and said with a smile: "Did you say yes, handsome guy?" ”
Hearing Li Ying's words, Zhang Qingyuan was stunned, thinking that he was talking about Ji Ruolin herself, and nodded: "Yes, it's only ten hours by plane." ”
Seeing Zhang Qingyuan say this, Ji Ruolin was suddenly overjoyed, thinking that he understood, but found that Zhang Qingyuan had misunderstood at all, and couldn't help but be even more annoyed, and said to Li Ying: "Okay, don't say it, I have to pack up my things when I go back, and I have to get up early tomorrow." ”
Li Ying gave Ji Ruolin a playful expression, thinking that the two of them were going back to linger, how could they stop it, so she said angrily: "Go, go, guy who is heavy on color and light on friends." ”
Hearing that Li Ying wanted to deviate, Ji Ruolin was suddenly embarrassed, but she didn't bother to explain anymore, waved her hand and left.
Zhang Qingyuan smiled awkwardly at Li Ying, said zaijian, and then left behind Ji Ruolin.
There was still silence on the way back.
When she returned to Ji Ruolin downstairs, Ji Ruolin got out of the car, and Zhang Qingyuan also walked down.
After hesitating for a while, Ji Ruolin said quietly: "I'm leaving, will you remember me?" ”
Zhang Qingyuan was stunned when he heard this, and then nodded without hesitation.
Seeing Zhang Qingyuan nodding without thinking, Ji Ruolin finally felt a little better in her heart, glanced at Zhang Qingyuan with complicated eyes, her lips opened slightly, and after a while, she said, "You...... Can you hug me one more time? ”
The sound is like squeezing out word by word, and it is almost inaudible when it comes to zuihou.
Zhang Qingyuan stiffened, as if he suddenly remembered something, but he couldn't believe it at all, so he looked at Ji Ruolin blankly, his mind was blank.
Seeing Zhang Qingyuan stunned there, without answering, without moving, Ji Ruolin sighed in her heart, and secretly said that she was amorous, and a wry smile gradually appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she was disappointed again.
But at this moment, Zhang Qingyuan suddenly stepped forward.
Seeing Zhang Qingyuan's movements, Ji Ruolin's breath stagnated, and saw Zhang Qingyuan slowly stretch out his arm, and then stretched out behind his back, and then, Ji Ruolin felt tight, and he had entered Zhang Qingyuan's arms.
At this moment, Ji Ruolin's heartbeat accelerated instantly, almost to her throat, and the scene that she had been looking forward to for many days flashed countless times in her mind, reappearing, and she was hugged by him again.
The last time I was holding her from the back, but this time, I was holding her from the front.
Feeling the heat emitted by Zhang Qingyuan's not wide chest, as well as the intoxicating breath, Ji Ruolin subconsciously stretched out her hand and hugged Zhang Qingyuan's waist.
A steady, warm, and comfortable feeling enveloped Ji Ruolin, and an unprecedented feeling of happiness swept through her body, and every cell trembled.
Ji Ruolin closed her eyes, and two lines of tears slipped from her eyes.
She didn't want to think about anything, she just wanted to go on like this for the rest of her life.
Feeling that Ji Ruolin was hugging so tightly and so hard, Zhang Qingyuan's heart sank, and he suddenly realized that he was afraid that he was wrong before, Ji Ruolin was not reluctant to let go of her family, and now she feels about herself as obviously as she did at the beginning.
Could it be that she is not willing to give up herself?
Zhang Qingyuan suddenly had this unbelievable thought. (To be continued......)
PS: Tomorrow the first chapter is still at twelve o'clock at noon