When I look at Yin Li now, I just think that she is pitiful, and even think that her provocation with words like this is just self-deception. Ah Han saw me sitting on the ground in despair, so he motioned to the palace people to help me up.

I ignored the palace people and struggled to stand up, clutching the papers tightly in my hands. When Ah Han saw the papers, he was stunned at first, and before he could say anything, I threw the books and papers in front of him, and the books slammed into Ah Han's shoulders, and the papers flew to the ground.

I just smiled faintly, Ah Han's face became ugly, and he opened his mouth and said to the eunuch beside him: "Pull out all the guards at the door and cut them down." ”

My heart just shook, trembling and laughing, "Very good, who's next?" ”

Yin Li didn't dare to speak when she saw that the situation was wrong, I smiled faintly: "Okay, if you just kill me, all the sources will be gone, so you don't have to bother so much!" ”

Ah Han frowned and said softly: "Xi'er, what nonsense are you talking about!" What's your business! ”

Tears welled up in my eyes again, and I said word by word: "It's none of my business? I don't kill Boren," I looked at Ah Han, and then at Yin Li behind him, and cried, "Boren died because of me!" ”

Ah Han said to the people around: "All stand down," Yin Li didn't know that she was going down too, so she didn't move, Ah Han stared at her, and said in a gloomy voice, "Didn't you hear me speak?" Yin Li just glanced at me and hurriedly went down.

I looked at Ah Han, frowned and asked, "Next?" Who's next? ”

Ah Han just walked over to me gently and called me, "Xi'er." ”

I shouted, "Don't come here!" I cried, my face full of cold tears, and begged, "Ah Han, you kill me, if you kill me, no one will die because of me." ”

As if a century and a hundred years were so long, Ah Han said softly: "Fool, how can I be willing to let you die? ”

I smiled faintly and bitterly, let out a long sigh, knelt down and said, "Ah Han, I beg you for one thing." ”

Ah Han nodded, and I said expressionlessly: "The Queen Mother is bleak at night, if you ignore the things behind you, I am afraid that the world will laugh at her, and the Queen Mother is also a legitimate Queen Mother, please give her a decent funeral." ”

Ah Han said softly for a while: "I promise you, Xi'er, you get up." ”

I knelt on the ground, and he was ready to come and help me up, and I said softly, "One last thing, I beg you one last thing." ”

Ah Han withdrew his hand and asked softly, "What's the matter?" ”

I had no desire and no desire to say: "I beg you to let me out of the palace and let me fend for myself." As soon as I finished speaking, there was a long silence, as if something had been crushed into powder in this silence, and slowly dissolved into memories and rotted away with those long past times......

Ah Han also knelt lightly in front of me, frowned, and said bitterly: "Xi'er, many are not my original intentions, just Xi'er," he said softly with water vapor in his eyes, "Born in the emperor's family, how can it not be stained with blood and dust?" ”

I smiled lightly and said lightly: "I know, Ah Han, I don't blame you, it's just that I'm tired, I'm tired." ”

Ah Han's anxious heart was like ashes and said: "Xi'er, I can't be an independent son, so you won't be by my side anymore?" ”

I shook my head and said softly, "No matter what you look like, I love you deeply," I sighed, "It's just that Ahan, I'm really tired, this dream, I've dreamed for too long." ”

Ah Han didn't speak for a long time, and I said softly: "Ah Han, I don't know how to face all this, I'm tired, and it's time to leave." ”

Ah Han said word by word: "Impossible, don't you think about it!" ”

With tears on my face, I begged, "I beg you, let me go." ”

Ah Han was persistent in his eyes, word by word, gritted his teeth and said: "Unless I die or you die, it will be impossible for a lifetime, and I will never let you go!" ”

As soon as his words fell, I also loosened my body and fell unconsciously, but before he fainted, he shouted "Xi'er" in a panic and was still so clear......

In the coma, the memory pushed open the door that was buried by the layers of time, and the dust in the door flew, and the truth that did not see the light of day was finally understood, and I would rather not know anything at the moment, but I already knew everything. I want to sleep forever in my dreams, I can lie to myself that everything I have can be restarted, and all the people I love who have passed away are still smiling and smiling......

It's just that the overwhelming pages of paper with "kill" and "can't stay" are flying, word by word, word by word, word by word, everything is still so unbearable, it woke up my last trace of chaos.

I woke up suddenly, not sweating, just getting colder. Miao Wu sat on the edge of the bed, her eyes were red, and when she saw that I was awake, she hurriedly called the doctor. Ah Han just stood aside, although he was concerned, but he was afraid that I would reject him, so he just stood there.

The imperial doctor's face was like ashes, but he didn't know what to say, so he just quietly went down to prescribe and grab the medicine for a long time. Ah Han stood there for a long time, and sighed softly: "You...... Rest well, I'll come to see you right away after I've dealt with the government. ”

When Ah Han left, Miao Wu cried and asked me, "What's wrong with the girl?" ”

I smiled softly, shook my head, and said, "Miaowu, I'm tired." ”

Miao Wu didn't ask any more questions, just brought the medicine over, waited for me to drink it, and then told me to sleep for a while. I just slept for a while and woke up for a while, and the dreams were also messy, but I didn't know if it was a dream or reality.

In a daze, about Ah Han and Miao Wu have been there. I just felt that it wasn't long before I came to my senses again, but Ah Han was relieved. Miao Wu saw that I was awake and said in surprise: "The girl is awake?" I slept for two days and was scared to death! ”

I just looked at Miao Wu coldly and said softly to Ah Han, "Ah Han, I beg you for one thing." ”

Ah Han took the medicine bowl and tried to take a sip, just glanced at me, and said softly but resolutely: "I will not allow you to leave the palace." ”

I sighed and said, "I'm not talking about this," Ah Han heard this, so he turned his head to look at me, and I said lightly, "Miao Wu is old and frizzy, you can let her out of the palace, and I will be replaced by a palace maid in the future." ”

Ah Han just raised his head, glanced at Miao Wu lightly, and promised, "Okay, I know." ”

Miao Wu was just stunned on the spot, her eyes full of tears. I didn't look at her either, I just took Ah Han's medicine bowl, took a sip of the medicine, frowned and said, "It's so bitter." Seeing that I was willing to say a few more words, Ah Han smiled and instructed the palace people: "Go and get some candied fruit for the imperial concubine." ”

After a while, someone returned to Ahan's court, and Ahan instructed me a few words and left. Miao Wuda has been standing there and sobbing incessantly since the beginning, not daring to make a loud noise, but crying sadly. I was holding on in front of Ah Han, and as soon as he left, I fell on the soft pillow, and Miao Wu was busy crying and helping me.

I chuckled and said, "Silly boy, go out of the palace." ”

Miao Wu cried, laughed again, cried and laughed, "I knew that the girl didn't dislike me." She wiped her tears and said, "I'm not leaving, what should I do if I leave?" ”

I grabbed Miaowu's hand and smiled softly: "If you leave, I can rest assured, if you don't leave, I can't worry." ”

After dancing for a long time, he said with a rare steady: "I know, girl, I'm going out of the palace, I'll listen to you." ”

I grabbed Miao Wu hard and instructed: "When you go out, go to Ah Yue, he will take care of you, you are there with him, I can rest assured," Miao Wu nodded heavily, I also felt top-heavy, and reluctantly said, "You say sorry to Ah Yue for me." You tell him that the person who followed him back then was from the Ahan faction, and I also knew about Miss Fu's life story early on, and the death of A-Qing caused a catastrophe because I didn't arrive in time. I'm ashamed of Ah Yue, I'm sorry for him, he treats me like a confidant, but I hide it everywhere, I'm not worthy of being his friend and confidant. ”

Miao Wu stopped me and said, "Girl, don't say that. I smiled faintly, tears flowed out of the corners of my eyes, and said softly: "You tell Ah Yue, just say what I said, be sure to ask him to ask the emperor to reduce the fiefdom, don't be too ostentatious, and be cautious in words and deeds everywhere, so as not to cause disaster." ”

Miao Wu didn't know when she cried again, tears fell on my face, I looked at Miao Wu, she was holding me, her shoulders shrugged, but I smiled and comforted her: "Silly girl, what are you crying about?" I'll see you again, Ah Yue will return to Beijing to report on work in the future, and you can come and see me. ”

Miao Wu sobbed softly: "Why did that girl send me out of the palace? ”

I sighed and said, "Miao Wu, I have lost Qingge, you must be good so that I can have a little comfort." ”

When Ah Han came back, I didn't wait for a moment, and asked Miao Wu to pack her things and let someone take her out. Miao Wu took the burden, stood on the ground, knelt down and kowtowed to me three times, and said softly: "Please take care of the girl." So saying, he turned around and followed the eunuch away.

I just watched Miao Wu leave lightly, smiled bitterly in my heart, and left again. It's just that Miao Wu's departure this time is my comfort. Even though I'm leaving, I still know that Miaowu is fine.

Ah Han saw me leaning on the bed and just staring at the door curtain, so he asked me, "Xi'er, aren't you going to send it off?" ”

I shook my head and said, "Just go, why send each other?" ”

I looked at Ah Han for a long time, and wanted to ask Ah Han about my departure from the palace again, Ah Han just looked focused on blowing the cold decoction, I thought about it, he must not allow it, but I, I must not be able to stay.

Seeing that I was just stunned, Ah Han fed me the medicine and asked, "What's wrong?" What do you think? ”

I shook my head, just took the medicine bowl, and said to Ah Han, "Ah Han, can you push open the window?" I want to look outside. ”

Ah Han nodded, pushed open a gap, and said, "It's snowing outside again, don't freeze." I haven't looked outside for a long time, and sure enough, it's a heavy snowy day, and the snowflakes are blowing in, and a hint of cold is blowing in, and I smile softly: "It's another year." ”