The company has improved, and gradually the smile on Ouyang Ze's face has increased. Every morning is no longer a sad face, worried about the future of the company, but replaced by a smile full of hope.

"Rui Rui, when I come back, we will go to the hospital to see a doctor and make an appointment to have the operation done."

Ouyang Ze walked to the side of the bed and kissed me lightly on the forehead.

When it came to surgery, he still wouldn't tell me about my condition or that I was terminally ill. He still prevaricates me with "minor illnesses".

"It's okay to wait a few months, I'm fine."

As soon as I thought about my illness, and the fact that I might not have been able to get better after surgery, I began to feel sorry for the money that was about to fly into the doctors' pockets because of my illness.

In the prime of my youth, when everyone was the plant that struggled to grow in the middle of the afternoon, I was the most ruined one, that is, the most lifeless one...

I have been trampled on and abandoned in the first half of my life, and now I have a terminal illness, how can I have the courage to continue to live in the second half of my life...

"No! Today, when I get back, we'll go to the hospital. ”

After speaking, Ouyang Ze turned around and left, no longer giving me a chance to speak. Looking at his broad shoulders and looking at his muscular figure, I only felt that I was becoming less and less worthy of him.

So far, the only people who know about my condition are me, Ouyang Ze and Cristao. I thought that no one would know about it anymore, but my contact with the outside world, with that friend who was far away in China, revealed my illness again...

"Rui Rui? How's it going? You haven't called me in a long time, did you forget me? ”

When I heard Xu Shaohui's voice, I only felt so warm, as if I heard the voice of my family who cared about me the most. In front of him, I couldn't hold back my tears anymore, I couldn't suppress the grievances in my heart, and the gushing emotions were like a surging river, constantly stimulating his eardrums.

I didn't cry so heartbreaking in front of Christao, but faced the cold microphone, even if I couldn't see Xu Shaohui's face, I still showed it my almost distorted expression when I cried...

"Didn't he say to take you to the doctor today? It is estimated that you will be able to have surgery in a few days, and you will be able to recover from this disease. ”

Xu Shaohui comforted me quietly, but listening to his trembling tone, he must have been sobbing quietly at this time.

"He has no money in the company now! I can't let him steal the company's money to treat me! It's not worth it! ”

"What's worth it or not!"

Xu Shaohui raised his voice and shouted at me. Although the hands-free button was not turned on, the sound echoed through the room.

He couldn't pretend to be calm anymore, and even though he tried to comfort me, he cried. I could hear even the tears dripping on the microphone.

"You're still not the Chen Rui I know!"

I didn't know what to say, but listening to him scold me made me feel better.

"The Chen Rui I know won't give up like this! Even if he doesn't have enough to eat every day, he won't give up! Even in the face of those guests who were unreasonable and beat him, he never cried! ”

Listening to him talk about the past, I only felt more uncomfortable, and I always felt sick when I thought of the trampling and defilement my body had been undertaken.

"Now that you've finally come out, and you've finally found someone who really loves you, you want to give up?! Do you have a disease not only in your body, but also in your brain? ”

"How about it else! Let Ouyang Ze bear the crime of embezzlement of public funds! ”

Xu Shaohui didn't say anything more, and the other end of the phone suddenly fell silent.

"How much..."

"What?"

"How much do you need for surgery?"

Xu Shaohui's tone returned to calmness.

"What do you mean? Are you trying to pity us? ”

I hate hearing the word "money" from my friends' lips the most, because any feelings about money will spoil if mixed with it. It doesn't matter if it's friendship or love, so I don't want to hear about "money" from my only friend.

"If that's what you think, then you don't have to, I won't use a penny of yours!"

"Why are you so stubborn! Just let me borrow yours! ”

"No!"

I know that there will be no more nutritious topics in the future, but I still want to persuade me to accept his money or something, or just let me accept Ouyang Ze's embezzlement of public funds.

Instead of wasting time listening to Xu Shaohui's reasoning, it is better to hang up and leave me a few minutes of silence.

I wanted to take this opportunity to confide in Xu Shaohui about my inner grievances, but I didn't want to attract his scolding... Am I really wrong? Am I really doing this wrong?

Should I accept Hui Shaohui's alms? Or let Ouyang Ze bear the charge of "embezzlement of public funds" for the sake of surgery? Should I be a selfish person? Be a person who doesn't know how to give for love...

It's really not an exaggeration to describe life as a roller coaster, because you don't know if when you hit the top, the next one will be a low, and if you lose momentum and fall again when you start climbing. You can't predict that...

That morning, Ouyang Ze came back late. Normally, he would come back within an hour, even when the company was at a low point. But today... By noon, he was still nowhere to be seen...

"Why don't we eat first, you can't go hungry now."

As she spoke, Chris Tao added a spoonful of glutinous white rice to the white porcelain bowl, and picked up a pair of chopsticks to put vegetables into the bowl for me.

Although Chris Tao can cook Chinese food, she does not know how to use chopsticks, in her words, "chopsticks are used by circus clowns, and when they are finished, they can be stepped on as stilts".

Although the hand holding the chopsticks was trembling, and the two chopsticks were not obedient to knock on the plate, she still tried hard to pick up the vegetables, sandwiching the pieces of green leafy vegetables...

"Uh... I haven't learned how to use chopsticks yet, so I clip them slowly..."

Cristao still had an embarrassed smile on her face when she handed me the bowl, and I didn't want to change all the chopsticks in the house with knives and forks so that she wouldn't show such a reluctant smile again.

"Why don't you wait for a while, wait for Ouyang Ze to come back and eat together."

Since I got sick, except for the steak that night, I didn't stick to the meat, because my fragile stomach couldn't withstand the torture of meat, and I could only live on the vitamins in vegetables.

Faced with a bowl of green leafy vegetables, I couldn't raise my interest for a long time, and I would rather continue to wait for Ouyang Ze to come back hungry. At least I can eat by looking at his face.

looked at the door like this and waited for a long time, but Ouyang Ze never appeared. I was more and more worried about him, worried that something more terrible would happen...