After the Chung Yeung Festival, I was bored in my own courtyard every day, wondering how to go back, or daydreaming, fantasizing about a group of handsome princes fighting for me like in many novels.

I enjoy myself every day.

I first asked Qingge to take me to the place where Wang Yun wanted to touch the pillar and die, it was the pillar of the hall, coiled with a flying dragon, plated with gold, the dragon body was shining with gold, and the claws were sharp, I was ruthless a few times, and I didn't dare to hit it, hesitated, grinded, and still couldn't get down, I really don't know how those who committed suicide could do it to themselves, I couldn't help it, although I knew that only the soul was my own, and the body was tossed casually, but the pain also belonged to this soul, and I still couldn't do it.

I knew that I had no hope of going back by self-harm, so I had no choice but to go back in despair.

On the way back, there are all people, I heard that the princes came to the prince's mansion to enjoy the green chrysanthemum, this green chrysanthemum is given by the emperor, and it is earlier than the flowering in the palace, so after the Chongyang Festival, all the princes came to enjoy the flowers.

I was depressed at this moment, the freshness I had when I first came was gone, and I wouldn't have been invited to this kind of event, so I took the girl back to the other courtyard by myself.

As soon as I went back, I sat in front of the window and was stunned, there was nothing I knew here, there was nothing I had, nothing was mine, not even my life was my own, and I was crazy to go back now.

I can't do anything, I can't do anything, what changes history, what pride I am as a modern person......

I remember discussing with a few girls in the dormitory what I could do if I traveled back in my current major, one of the four of us studied history, one studied psychology, and one studied cultural relics and naturalism, I studied law, and now it seems that mine is the most useless, in this era, the monarch is law.

One day unconsciously when the twilight was dim, the glow on the horizon was bright and bright, and the clouds curled up to the warm sunset that was about to fall, and a few birds chased the sunset, and the hustle and bustle of the day became more and more noisy when the darkness was coming......

I don't know how long it took, the air began to be cool, I don't know when the moon rose quietly, the thick inky sky, the stars hidden in the dark fog, a wind or two blew, no life, dead wind......

I took a circle chair to the courtyard to admire the moon, the moon is light, plain white and quiet, through a thousand years, only this month is eternal, what else? And what is eternity?

Unconsciously remembered a song and sang it softly:

"Tonight, the boat is in the middle of the stream.

Today, I have to be in the same boat with the prince.

Shame is good, not shameful.

The heart was annoyed and unstoppable, and learned that the prince.

The mountains have trees and branches, and the heart is pleasing to the king. ”

Yes, and these are eternal, but what about me, I can't be eternal......

The shijie outside the hospital is still disturbed, but the shijie in the courtyard is miserable, I look at the moon quietly, I don't get tired of looking at each other, only the moon can understand me, right?

No one will understand my feelings, my situation, the uncertainty of my life and death in modern times, and my current self is ostracized, no relatives, no friends, no one even cries, no, no one cares about even death.

The night suddenly cool breeze, the moon shadow swaying, I reached out to tear off the hairpin ring holding my hair, the green silk flew, the chrysanthemum fragrance in the dark was faint, and one or two jackdaws flew to the sky by the little palace lanterns.

I looked at the jackdaw in the distance, and I was envious, I also had the idea of escaping, but after thinking about it again, I couldn't escape, the imperial city and the imperial capital could gather the world's strange things, and the world's capable people and strange people, and I could find a way to go back.

I nestled in the circle chair and finally couldn't help crying: "I'm not playing anymore, I've had enough, I'm going back, I'm going home, I don't want to be in this perverted place, I'm going home!" Dad, Mom, I'm going back, I'm going home! I want to go home! I want to go home! ”

I wailed and cried, the song and dance had already come out, and the two of them were so anxious that they surrounded me and kept asking, "Niangniang, what's wrong with you?" ”

I hugged my knees, buried my face, and continued to cry, and after a while someone picked me up and walked into the house, my face was still buried in my chest, and I cried to myself, surrounded by the cold fragrance of grass and trees, and I could still hear the low heartbeat.

I just heard Qingge Miaowu seem to say something, but he didn't make a sound, he gently hugged me and said, "Shut up!" "I ignored him.

When he put me on the bed, I pulled the quilt over my head, sobbing, and I didn't know when I went to sleep.

The next morning, I lifted the quilt vaguely and saw the prince Qi Min sitting on the edge of the bed looking at me, it was a very tangled expression, and the moment I woke up, it turned nervous, the tension was fleeting, and then it was that playful expression, I sat up, looked at his ever-changing face, and saw that I was wearing last night's clothes, and I was relieved.

I looked at him and didn't speak, so I asked politely, "Is there something wrong?" ”

He hurriedly replied, "I-" As soon as he said a word, he hurriedly changed his words, "Lone just asked if you wanted to go on a hunting trip." ”

I wondered, "Is there any objection to this?" I have already promised the queen mother. ”

His panic was only for a moment, as if something had fixed his mind again, and he became indifferent and alienated: "Then you prepare well, there is medicine on the dresser, and after grooming, you will enter the palace with Gu to say goodbye." ”

"Inexplicable!" I got up to get ready to wash, looking at the bottles and cans of anti-swelling ointment on the dresser, and then at the red and swollen eyes in the mirror, "Wait a minute, last night-" I suddenly remembered what happened last night, could it be Qi Min?