Chapter 5 Nangong Yu's thoughts
A day later, an ordinary-looking carriage drove on the official road full of people, and among the northbound crowds, the only carriage going south, although ordinary, was extremely eye-catching.
It has been a day and a night since they left the royal city, and they met a lot of people along the way, most of these people rushed to the dynasty to watch the ceremony after a day, and heard a lot of discussions about the county lord of the dynasty from their mouths, and I don't know when the deeds of dancing a night to help Liancheng, Ercheng, and Heicheng disaster relief have spread throughout the country, and they seem to be going for the county lord of Wu, the future 'queen'.
However, the one-night dance is a thing of the past, the former one-night dance is gone, and the ceremony there is still going on, and their future 'queen' is not a night dance. He thought he was listening to another person's story......
"Master, don't you really regret it? If—"
"Brother can do whatever he wants, what do you say, talk a lot!" Ai Qi interrupted Xiao Qian impatiently, he didn't want anyone to mention Feng Haoxuan in front of Ai Zi.
"Ai Qi, don't be rude!" Although he couldn't bear to be too strict with Ai Qi because of his relationship with Wang Ma and the promise he made when he took Ai Qi in, he also knew that he was too indulgent to make him so paranoid, what should he do to him?
"Where are we going now, master?"
"L.A."
Los Angeles, the first big city he arrived in after leaving Miao Valley, where he took in Ai Qi, healed Wang Ma, saved Xiaoqian, and got acquainted with Lu Yan, and now he has nowhere to go, and the four seas can be his home. It was not far from the royal city, and even if there was anything, he could quickly rush back to help him.
In the final analysis, in fact, how can you let it go, I just don't want Feng Haoxuan to really fall into the situation of being attacked by all the people because of himself. Huang Fulin knows his identity, and it is difficult to guarantee that Nangong Siquan will not know it, so doesn't all this gradually coincide with the history of three hundred years ago?
That afternoon, he saw too much, too many things, so many things that scared him......
L.A.? It's been nearly three years...... Xiao Qian pondered.
Ai Zi looked at Xiao Qian with half-squinted eyes, what did she appear for?
The carriage heading south hurried farther and farther, and on the opposite side of them another galloping carriage staggered past them, and rushed with the crowd towards the royal city.
On this night, the night was as cool as water, with a few slightly gloomy clouds occasionally obscuring the pure light, a gentle breeze, and the fragrance of flowers. Feng Haoxuan stood outside the dormitory of Ningshou Palace, dancing all night, staring at the room without light, and frowned.
Just tonight, the "dance night" that went out for a walk came back, and after coming back, he entered his dormitory, and never came out again, saying that it was not appropriate to meet the day before the wedding.
And it was Nangong Yu who brought back the "Dance Night......
There is a command organ of the forbidden army in the north of the Xuanwu Gate, the Beiya, which bears the heavy responsibility of guarding the safety of the palace, since Nangong Yu was rescued, he has stayed in the Beiya, Nangong Xiangfu, he has never returned.
Before Nangong Yu entered his room, he already felt a familiar breath, pushed the door in, and sure enough, Feng Haoxuan was in his room, and he had vaguely guessed why Feng Haoxuan was here.
He thought that he could delay it for a while, at least until tomorrow, and then his goal would be achieved, but unfortunately, it seemed impossible.
Nangong Yu withdrew the heavy armor on his body as usual, changed into regular clothes, poured a cup of tea for Feng Haoxuan and himself, and then sat on the other side of the coffee table, during which the two of them did not say a word.
"Why?"
Feng Haoxuan broke the silence between the two people.
"I'm waiting for you to tell me in person, why don't you say anything, what are you going to do? Yu, what the hell is wrong with you? ”
"You ask me why I don't say anything, so do you know what you want to hear from me?" Sure enough, from the beginning he knew he was lying to him, was it because of the letter? He thought he had imitated a lot of it.
"When did you start thinking that you had become stranger..."Drinking the cup of tea that was starting to turn cold, Feng Haoxuan looked at Nangong Yu, waiting for his answer.
"Have you ever thought that maybe you never understood the real me, just as I didn't understand the real you." He thought that maybe if he didn't say what he thought now, he wouldn't have a chance again.
"The real me? Yu, you really know, then you want to do this to him because of this incident? He hoped so, he would rather Nangong Yu was worried that he would be pointed out by the people like Emperor Taixing three hundred years ago to dance like that all night, so that at least Nangong Yu was still the same Nangong Yu, and there was no change. However, "What is the real you?" Feng Haoxuan looked at Nangong Yu puzzled. Could it be..."
"Hehe, did you finally think of it? Xuan, I'm just like you, I like men, do you understand? He said lightly, as if this sentence had been told a thousand times in his heart.
"Yu, you ......"
"What, shocked? Surprised? Xuan, who also likes men, still thinks it's surprising that I like men? Would you be even more shocked if I told you who the man I liked? Nangong Yu's whole person had almost suppressed Feng Haoxuan, his hand was propped up on the coffee table, and it was the first time that he had crossed the line in front of Feng Haoxuan.
"Xuan, I like you, I love you, do you know? You know how much I hated me for being a man? You pampered and loved to dance all night, how much I hated it, do you know! He was very angry and unwilling, his face was close to the tip of Feng Haoxuan's tall nose, and he looked at Feng Haoxuan suppressively, taking in the shock and disbelief in his eyes.
"I used to be distressed because I fell in love with you, I was afraid that you would hate me, so I tried my best to suppress this feeling, I thought that even if I can't stay with you like a woman, at least I can be your closest friend, as long as I can accompany you for the rest of my life, then I will be satisfied."
His words, his expression, were so familiar. Not long ago, there was a person who said this to him, in order to stay by his side, he knitted and danced all night, Ai Zi, remnant, so many identities. Such a precious emotion, once in a lifetime is already a great gift, and it is already something that he needs to cherish for the rest of his life.
And now, Nangong Yu's words, how should he respond. In his heart, Nangong Yu is different from dancing for a night, and he has never had any friendship other than friendship in Nangong Yu. This affection, he can't repay. An apology appeared on his face, stinging Nangong Yu's heart.
"Originally, I thought I could live a safe life with such a mood and thoughts, but why? Why is there a night of dancing? Why is he a man and you love him? Why, am I inferior to him in your heart? Why did you give up me for him again and again! I hate him! I want to kill him! ”
"So you deliberately provoked him with Yue'er, concealed it, and didn't let me go to him, right? Is he still bringing back a fake one? Could it be that after tomorrow, the county lord of Dafeng, who is about to become the 'queen', will suddenly die overnight? Isn't it! ”
"Yes! That's my plan! I'm going to make him disappear, forever! He is a stupid person, I never said that you and Yue'er are the kind of relationship he thought, and he left on his own What does it have to do with me! He's leaving on his own, so how can I possibly let him come back? After tomorrow 'he' will die violently, and you will never know where the real him is. It's a pity that I was wrong, it turns out that I am no longer worthy of your trust, and you have never believed me from beginning to end! The play I played was about to end early, hehe, sure enough, I can't compare to him in your heart. ”
"Because I love him, do you hate him so much?"
"Yes! If it weren't for him, you wouldn't have left me for him that night, do you know how much humiliation and torture I endured after that night? Do you know how much I suffered and how much humiliation I endured in order to be free? You don't know! You're busy with him, you're busy fighting with him! You forgot me, you forgot my companionship for more than ten years! I, Nangong Yu, have been forgotten by you! Do you know! ”
A fist smashed into the coffee table, the ceramic shards fell apart, embedded in Nangong Yu's palm, and flowed out of Dao Yin, but his eyes were even more scarlet, like the devil, furious!
"Since then, I have decided that you have him or not by your side, and I have him or not! Haha, you don't know, I also went to Liancheng during the snow disaster, and I went to kill him. He knows it's me, but he doesn't tell you, hehe, it's because he doesn't want you to know my traces, so that you don't want you to save me, do you think I can not hate him! ”
At this time, Nangong Yu was like a madman, he didn't know what he was saying at this time, he only knew that he had too many things to say in his heart, too much anger that he hadn't vented, connected with the humiliating memories that came up, and those dirty experiences, he needed to vent, and now it was already out of control!
"Almost! I almost could have killed him! Do you know? At that time he couldn't see anything, he just crawled on the ground, like a puppy, and I could kill him with a sword! It's a pity that he was saved by the night! If I could go back in time, I wouldn't be merciful! ”
"Bastard!" After enduring it for so long, Feng Haoxuan finally broke out after hearing Nangong Yu say that he almost killed Wu Yiyi, he didn't know about this matter at all, he didn't know that Wu Yiyi had endured such a big grievance for the sake of him and Nangong Yu!
"Nangong Yu! Listen, it's me you want to hate, and it's me who is sorry for you! He doesn't owe you the slightest thing for dancing all night! ”
Feng Haoxuan lifted Nangong Yu up and fell to the ground heavily, the huge impact force made Nangong Yu lie on the ground, the pain made him sober up a little, and there was a heavy pain in his eyes.
"How's it going, are you sober?" Feng Haoxuan walked over, looked at Nangong Yu complicatedly, rubbed his eyebrows, leaned back against the table legs, and sat beside Nangong Yu.
"Yu, I'm sorry that I didn't know until today that you had been staying with me in such a mood all along. Sometimes I also think that if it weren't for me, then you wouldn't be caught in the middle, and if it weren't for me, at least you wouldn't be so disgusted by Nangong Siquan. I can't thank you enough for everything you've done. But because of your dedication, I have never treated you as my closest brother. But I didn't expect that I had invisibly owed such a huge debt, sorry, Yu, I can't respond to your feelings. I only love him. ”
The candle flame in the room had been turned over and extinguished by the impact just now, and it was dark at the moment. Nangong Yu was silent, curled up on the ground, so lonely.
"After the autumn season, you were imprisoned in the Prime Minister's Mansion by Nangong Siquan, and the night led the cold spirit to save you, and mistakenly hit the plum blossom array set up by Huang Fulin, and then danced overnight to save the night They were injured by Nangong Siquan. Yu, I didn't mean to leave you on purpose, sorry. Since then, I have sent people to infiltrate the Prime Minister's Mansion many times, and he even dispatched the earth demon protecting the Angel Garden to forcibly break into the Prime Minister's Mansion after dancing one night, but unfortunately I didn't find your trace in the Prime Minister's Mansion. It wasn't until later that Wu Yiyi told me that he was in a stone room in the annex of the Purple Bamboo Forest when he heard strange movements, and he could hear that it was your voice. Later, Huang Fulin took you as a threat to dance all night to accompany him for seven days, danced all night for me, agreed for you, and I was able to take advantage of Huang Fulin's distraction to dance all night to save you. Yu, you know what? He doesn't owe you! I owe you me. ”
"He doesn't owe me...... Hehe, yes, he doesn't owe me. You don't owe me. From the beginning, I was willing to do it, and I had my own love for you, so how can I ask you to love me too, haha......"
"Yu..."
"Don't say anything, I understand, I'm just unwilling, why not me, can you tell me, why not me?"
"There's no why, if I had to give a reason, I would just say it was fate. Yu, dancing for a night is actually not a night of dancing, I have already seen him more than two years ago, just a glance, my heart is given to him. Love, perhaps without a reason, only arises inexplicably at the moment of that encounter. ”
"I see......"
Nangong Yu took out a sealed letter of beeswax from his arms and handed it to Feng Haoxuan, "This is a letter written by him, let me pass it on to you." ”
Feng Haoxuan took it, carefully tore open the envelope, spread out the piece of stationery, and looked at it carefully in the dim moonlight, with only three words written on it: Don't blame him.
The letter paper slipped from Feng Haoxuan's hand, fluttering and falling in front of Nangong Yu's eyes, and the three small words on it made his chest stagnate.
It turns out that he knows everything......
"I'm sorry!" Holding the piece of letterhead, Nangong Yu muttered softly.
"Yu, in fact, he didn't leave because Yue'er ......"
Feng Haoxuan left Nangong Yu's room.
At this moment, he really hated this person, how could there be such a person who tortured himself like this!
Flowers and flowers, your oath is not credible at all! I'll never believe you again! When I get you back, I'll have to tie you up and see how you escape!"