Extra: Life is not the same as death (Xiao Jiu's previous life)

On the day Xia Ruan died, Xiao Jiu was in the house, painting a portrait of a woman.

Coincidentally, Wen Zhonghuai came to see him, so he had no intention of mentioning it: "At noon today, I passed by the Pingyang Hou Mansion, tsk, I saw someone crying outside the mansion, so I asked what was going on, and guess what?" ”

Xiao Jiu was still holding the pen, and his head was never raised: "What? ”

The tone, plain.

Wen Zhonghuai pursed his lips: "Mrs. Pingyang Hou, it seems to be ...... Dead. ”

The pen Xiao Jiu held paused slightly, the ink dripped on the rice paper, and the woman on the painting was a little blurry.

He's dead?

How did the person who always said he was happy die? obviously said that he was happy, but how could he be willing to die.

Xiao Jiu couldn't calm down, and his body trembled slightly.

After half a ring, he dropped the pen in his hand and walked towards the outside of the house.

Wen Zhonghuai froze in place.

He had never seen Xiao Jiu who was so calm and irrational.

When Xiao Jiu sat in the carriage, he felt that his eyes were dark and hazy.

Once upon a time, he felt that his life was hanging by a thread, and the situation was similar to the current situation.

He struggled unwillingly and never thought about closing his eyes, until he finally woke up, only to find that he was not lying in the grass. There was a faint scent of camellia in the room, and then he heard the door push.

First a pair of shoes, then a light-colored dress. Xiao Jiu struggled to open his eyes, and finally saw the person standing in front of him clearly.

It was, a woman's face, a face he couldn't have been more familiar with.

Miss Xia Jiasan...... The man who had walked into his life, but fled in a hurry. Xiao Jiu's calm heart seemed to have been hit hard by something, and an indescribable emotion melted in his body. That taste, that is the feeling that I have finally found the empty piece of my heart.

"Childe......" Xia Ruan's face was worried. Are you better? ”

She...... Call him son.

Xiao Jiu's heart was stabbed again.

It took him a long time to remember.

When his mother came to propose marriage, Xia Ruan never met him at all, and in the end, before the Xia family could cope with this family business, Xia Ruan's mother Li committed suicide by jumping into the river. Even the child in Li's belly is gone.

He stood at a distance. Watch as the woman pounces on her mother's corpse. Crying a lot.

Maybe that's when she became his demon.

Lee's death, his relationship with Xia Ruan. And it was gone.

That day, he thought about it for a long time, until his eyes pierced into his eyes and it hurt slightly.

He tried to forget. But. That name always appears around him......

Quite a few people say. Miss Xia is a broom star, who killed her father, her mother and her unborn younger brother. When he listens, he refutes it.

How can such a pure and kind woman be a broom star.

But his voice was too small. His strength is also too weak. So, no one will believe him.

Later, when he went to Xia's house to see Xia Ruan. Only then did I know that Xia Ruan actually ran away with Xia Wen.

Left......

He knew then that she had disappeared from his life. and he described strangeness.

In the long life that followed, there was no one who could make him so excited.

Xiao Jiu was decadent for a long time, and even learned to drink. He doesn't drink well and is usually very drunk.

Until his fourth sister was divorced by the Zhang family and became a madman-like existence. Only then did he suddenly realize that he had the right to be decadent?

He began to gain fame and fame, studying hard day and night. Trying to forget the person in his heart, he walked towards the capital. His grandfather wanted to stop him, so he would find someone to hunt him down on the way. At that time, he escaped, telling himself that he could not die.

It's just that the blood in his body is losing too quickly, and he feels cold around him.

At that time, he was slightly glad that Xia Ruan did not marry him at the beginning, and in this relationship, fortunately he was just hiding in the shadows, and she never found out. In those days in Dongyang County, even if she didn't say a word to him, he had no regrets.

He was lucky to know her.

But this thing is really mysterious.

Everything is fate, and nothing is up to anyone.

He did not believe in the past.

But when he opened his eyes, he believed.

He loved the bitterness, so God sent her to him.

But the next moment, the pain from the wound clearly told him that his situation was still dangerous.

Xiao Jiu didn't want to involve Xia Ruan by himself, so he drank the medicine and wanted to leave.

As a result, Xia Ruan stopped him, frowned and said, "Why did Gongzi leave, did I do it wrong?" ”

He was stunned and shook his head.

He wished he had been by her side like this, but now ...... I can't help him.

"Stay, at least...... I'm going to have to wait for my body to recover. Xia Ruan sighed helplessly, took out a paper bag from his cuffs, and coaxed him like a child, "This is a mulberry, you taste it, it's very sweet." It's just that these green ones are not well ripe and a little astringent. ”

In my memory, the immature voice and the person in front of me overlapped.

"Okay." It was an ancient water-like eye, but it set off a big wave in an instant.

All he had to do was to protect her and not run away from her.

In the following days, he followed his planned steps, won the champion and won the trust of Emperor Jianguang. On the way to Los Angeles, I met He Yue.

As Xiao Jiu thought, He Yue was the fourth prince who was rumored to be sick.

Qin Shuo, the word Qin goes to the head for He, and the word Shuo goes to one side for the moon.

Heyue is Qin Shuo.

Everyone minds that Qin Shuo is sick and weak, and he doesn't like to go out of the house. But who would have guessed that Qin Shuo not only went out of the mansion, but also traveled to various countries in the Western Regions, and even became a well-known existence in the Western Regions.

When he was in Los Angeles, Qin Shuo asked him: "The Xiao family is destined to rebel, hmm...... Are you scary? ”

"What the fourth prince said, I don't know." Xiao Jiu just said lightly, "The Xiao family has always assisted Mingjun. ”

After Qin Shuo heard this, he put the wine bottle in front of his eyes, "What an assistant to Mingjun, in your eyes, what is Mingjun?" ”

"Don't kill innocents indiscriminately, and don't listen to traitors." Xiao Jiu added another glass of wine to Qin Shuo. "It's Mingjun."

On that day, he stood behind Qin Shuo.

For power, Xiao Jiu never had much desire. Everything is a tool he uses to protect the people around him.

The younger brother and younger sister are no longer there, and the fourth sister is often delirious. His side was cloudy, and the only thing that could make him feel at peace was Xia Ruan's side.

There was a while. Xia Ruan became obsessed with playing chess.

Her chess skills and her cooking skills. It's the opposite. Those delicate hands can obviously make very delicious dishes, but they are in chess...... But the loss was extremely miserable.

Xia Ruan pouted every time: "You won't let me?" ”

"Huh? Let ......" he smiled and shook his head. "If you let it, you won't know how to improve."

Xia Ruan wailed: "If you don't let me, I don't know how to get down with you, I'm going to find someone else...... I ......"

"Wait." Xiao Jiu's heart was astringent. He coughed, "If you make me some pastries." Why don't I let you have some? ”

Xia Ruan jumped up happily, then dropped the chess pieces and ran to the kitchen, making many pastries for him personally.

All his principles, in front of her. None seem to exist.

Occasionally, Xia Ruan would also make wine for him to taste.

The amount of alcohol he drank gradually increased during that time. Practiced. On that day, the peach blossoms bloomed just right. She stood under the tree, hugged the wine jar quietly, then smiled at him and said, "Shaocheng, come here." ”

He walked up to her, straightened her messy hair, and said, "Shall I give you a camellia?" Just send the champion red and the eighteen bachelors. ”

"Camellias?" Xia Ruan was stunned, but he didn't know why, but he still nodded, "Okay." ”

At that moment, Xiao Jiu felt that this life was complete.

There is a very famous story in the previous dynasty. Emperor Qinglong fell in love with a woman, but the woman didn't know that the person in front of her was the emperor. Once, Emperor Qinglong unintentionally asked this young lady once, what kind of man does it take to make her tempted? The young lady thought for a long time before saying that the person who could grow the champion red and the eighteen bachelors for her was the one who was sincere to her.

The meaning of that young lady is that if someone is so sincere to her like caring for a camellia, then this person is the one she is worthy of marrying.

Later, Emperor Qinglong personally raised countless camellias, and only then did he raise the champion and the eighteen bachelors. This young lady naturally entered the harem and stayed by Emperor Qinglong's side.

He learned to raise camellia since he was a child, and it was also because of this story.

If the emperor can still pay for a woman like this, why can't he?

After Xiao Jiu's camellia was sent, something happened to Yecheng.

He hurriedly took people to Yecheng, but met Li Changfeng. Later, Xiao Jiu learned that Xia Ruan's mother was Li Changyue's only sister.

Cheng Guogong's niece...... Does he deserve it?

He is just the concubine of the Xiao family.

Xiao Jiu pursed his lips and decided to wait for the balance of the world before telling Xia Ruan all this. Now, he is not sure that he can let the fourth prince ascend the throne, and he is not sure that he will not die in battle. So, what he has to do is wait for everything to settle down.

Once settled, he could give her one, a complete one.

It's just that in the days to come, Xiao Jiu felt why he was so immature. In his life, he never regretted anything, even when he was powerless, and he never regretted it.

However, he regretted it, he regretted not telling Xia Ruan that he liked her before Tang Jingxuan appeared.

Tang Jingxuan's appearance made his world darker.

Xia Ruan no longer belongs to him alone, she will accompany Tang Jingxuan, make pastries for Tang Jingxuan, and buy a lot of things to make Tang Jingxuan happy.

He began to run away and wanted to deceive himself, none of which was true.

Gradually, he began to alienate Xia Ruan.

And Xia Ruan is an extremely sensitive woman, and when he does this, Xia Ruan immediately knows.

She seemed to be getting farther and farther away from him.

In the end, what she told him was, "I'm getting married." ”

Xiao Jiu clenched his fists tightly, suppressed the jealousy in his heart, and roared, "You deserve better." ”

Xia Ruan raised his head, slightly stunned.

The next moment, the corners of her eyes were slightly red, "I...... I'm my age, I'm ......."

Xia Ruan's body trembled slightly, then took a few steps back, and finally turned around and ran away.

Xiao Jiu's heart was empty, why did he lose his temper like this. What he should do is knock her out and take her away, and then lock her up in a world where only he is and treat her gently.

Xia Ruan is a person who is very serious about feelings, from her attitude towards Xia Wen. Xiao Jiu could guess clearly.

Xia Ruan is single-minded to Tang Jingxuan.

Xiao Jiu knew that Xia Ruan would get married in the coming day. If someone asks who Xiao Shaocheng is, she is afraid that she will ...... Will forget.

She is smiling happily and happily now.

This is what he has always expected.

Xiao Jiu drank all night of wine and finally lay on the chessboard. Closed his eyes.

He was terminally ill. There is no cure. He felt stupid, inexplicably fell in love with her, and then inexplicably followed her. Even in the end, he inexplicably never said the love in his heart.

He loved her, to the bone.

But for her, his appearance. It's nothing more than a small ripple in her heart. After getting married. In a few years, she was afraid that she would forget that there was such a person as him.

It's just that he is unwilling and all thoughts are lost.

Xia Ruan. It seems to be the only color in his life, but now...... The colors are gone, and so is Xia Ruan.

The day Xia Ruan got married. He didn't go.

He listened to the joyist outside and covered his eyes.

It was once difficult to turn the sea into water. But Wushan is not a cloud.

He couldn't forget it, because he forgot Xia Ruan, he was no longer Xiao Jiu.

He is obsessed with government politics, and the power in his hands is getting more and more fighting. Qin Shuo advised him to pay attention to his body and rest more.

He just smiled lightly, if he rested, his mind would want to find that person.

Xiao Jiu was afraid that she would not be able to control herself and would do things that would destroy her happiness.

Because, after getting married, he met Xia Ruan.

Xia Ruan smiled and said, "I'm very good and happy, what about you?" ”

His heart hurt so badly, but he still replied with a smile: "It's the same as you." ”

If she is good, he is good.

The people around him gave him a lot of women, and each one of them seemed to look like him, but he knew in his heart that these people were not her at all.

In the end, Qin Shuo said to him helplessly: "Hmm, there is still a fourth young lady in the Xia family?" Do you want to ......?"

"No need." Xiao Jiu declined.

One point more, one point less, no matter how similar it looks, it is not Xia Ruan.

He never bothered her life, he thought she was really doing as she said she was.

Until, later, the four princes ascended the throne, and the six princes were defeated. When she knelt outside the mansion and begged him to save Tang Jingxuan, his heart almost stopped.

He hates Tang Jingxuan, why do you want to save him?

Does she know how cruel it is to treat him like this?

Xiao Jiu didn't pay attention to her, thinking that she would kneel for a while and leave.

However, this kneeling is a long time......

Someone outside the house was reading, "Did you see that?" That thing is the pond heron...... Well, it's also called Xiahou bird. ”

Xiahou ......

He was distraught when he listened, and the woman he was painting turned into a pond heron for some reason.

In the end, he threw in the towel.

Xiao Jiu took the drawn picture of the heron in the pond, walked outside the house, and was taken aback when he looked at the woman.

In the past, the delicate woman has gray hair in her temples.

She was still so young, how could she be so old.

He was distressed, but also complained that she didn't protect herself, and the words of concern came to his lips, but they became: "I hate being coerced the most, and you are the first." That's it, go back with this picture of Chi Lu, you don't have to come here again, you will regret what you did for Pingyang Hou today. ”

Xia Ruan took the picture of Chi Lu, kowtowed to him, and turned to leave.

Xiao Jiu looked at the disappearing back in front of him, and couldn't speak.

He stood outside the house for a long time, and it wasn't until Wen Zhonghuai came to look for him that he grabbed him into the room in a hurry: "She is already married, what are you still thinking...... She is Mrs. Pingyang Hou, you ...... Don't think about it anymore. Your Majesty, you will be angry. ”

His eyes were blood-red, he grabbed Wen Zhonghuai, and his voice was hoarse: "Let Tang Jingxuan go, tell him that if he fails Ah Ruan again, I will kill his entire clan, and I will not let anyone go." ”

Wen Zhonghuai stopped talking in fright.

He stumbled and walked towards the house.

In the yard, the mulberry trees planted have not yet borne fruit.

He thought he was standing tall, but he never thought that one day, he would stand tall, but he would use this right to protect his rival.

Wen Zhonghuai was right.

She is already Mrs. Pingyang Hou, and nothing can be recovered.

He's still there, waiting for what?

Everything, just when he thought he was going to forget her, realized that it was too late. No matter what the woman around him looks like, in his heart. There is only one person.

Perhaps, since she was young, when she saw her weeping self and then took out the mulberry in her arms, he had sunk.

The so-called bad fate...... It's never fruitless.

Can't forget...... He painted countless portraits of women, each of which was Xia Ruan's face.

He was lost in a dream, unwilling to wake up.

Until Wen Zhonghuai told him. Mrs. Pingyang Hou. Dead.

She died like that.

The carriage staggered and stopped outside the Pingyang Marquis' Mansion.

Pingyang Hou Mansion. It's very deserted, and there are basically no people around. Xiao Jiu couldn't believe that the dignified Mrs. Pingyang Hou had died, and there was not much movement in the mansion.

He used all his strength. to maintain their own pace, not messy.

Wen Zhonghuai didn't know when he came on horseback. When he was about to fall, he held him up.

"Brother Jiu." Wen Zhonghuai was apologetic like a child who had done something wrong, "I'm sorry." ”

Xiao Jiu shook his head: "You have nothing to be sorry for me." Let's go. Come with me and see her. ”

When the Tang family saw him and Wen Zhonghuai coming, they all knelt on the ground in fright. And in the distance, there was a woman who looked extremely similar to Xia Ruan.

Xiao Jiu thought he had lost his eyes.

He shook off Wen Zhonghuai's hand. Walking quickly to the woman's side, I found out. This is not Xia Ruan.

This is Xia Wen.

Wen Zhonghuai chased after him and asked the woman, "Where is the corpse of Mrs. Pingyang Hou?" ”

"What?" Xia Wen took a step back in shock, "What corpse." ”

Before Wen Zhonghuai could ask again, Xiao Jiu shouted, "Ah Ruan, where is she." ”

What corpse? He didn't believe it, how could she leave him and just leave.

Xia Wen was frightened by the yelling, and then pointed to the courtyard not far away and said, "That...... Over there. ”

Xiao Jiu turned around and ran towards the courtyard.

That courtyard is called Pinmingyuan.

He went out into the courtyard and found it extremely remote, and the courtyard was empty and there was nothing. Here, it's not as good as a maidservant girl in his house...... But this is where Xia Ruan lives.

Xiao Jiu couldn't believe her eyes, didn't she say that she was very happy? No......

How much did she have to suffer to live in such a place? Xiao Jiu's footsteps seemed to be floating in the air, and he slowly moved towards the courtyard.

The maid in the house was still playing, and when she saw him, she asked, "Who are you?" Madame hasn't changed into her shroud yet, so you can't ......"

Xiao Jiu didn't pay attention to Yahuan and pushed her away directly.

On the bed, there was a man lying with red blood stains on his underwear.

Her eyes seemed to be looking somewhere.

When Xiao Jiu saw it, he almost collapsed.

Wen Zhonghuai also seemed to have discovered something, he pointed to the painting on the wall and said, "Brother Jiu, this is what you painted, Chi Lu Diagram?" ”

Xiao Jiu walked to the edge of the bed, and Xia Ruan closed his eyes at this time. In just a few months, she seems to have lost more than half of her weight. On a haggard face, there is no half of the beauty of the past.

He held the hand of the person on the bed and called softly, "Ah Ruan? Ah Nguyen ......"

The man was just asleep, still not speaking.

Still in disbelief, he softly called her name: "Ah Ruan...... Ah Nguyen ......"

Everyone scolded him for being unintentional, but who knew that his heart had already been placed on her.

But such a person is gone.

Not a word was left for him.

"Ah Ruan, I was wrong, I shouldn't have talked to you like that, I was wrong......" Xiao Jiu put her cold hand on his cheek, "Please, talk to me, even if it's ...... It's okay to scold me. ”

Wen Zhonghuai looked at it for a long time before he stepped forward and said, "Ninth brother, she is dead." ”

When Xiao Jiu heard this, he roared angrily: "She's not dead, she's just asleep." ”

Wen Zhonghuai took a step back in surprise and did not speak again.

When Tang Jingxuan came, he had already looked at the things in Xia Ruan's house.

Finally, he found a few dried camellia flowers in the small box not far from the pond heron map.

Even though the flower was withered, he still recognized it.

This once upon a time he took from her camellia.

Champion Red and Eighteen Bachelors.

He turned around and asked Tang Jingxuan, "What about the camellia?" ”

Tang Jingxuan stepped back, not daring to speak.

Xiao Jiu roared: "What about the camellia? ”

"Uh......h Back to the adult's words, the camellia has been taken out and sold by Hou Ye. Xiao Yahuan trembled with fright, "Mrs. also refused, but Mrs. Nahui was sick and was beaten by Master Hou, so she didn't have the strength to resist." She...... She asked the slave to pick these camellias. The slave and maid knew that it was wrong, it was the fault of the lady, not the lady, the slave and the maid did not dare to pick this flower. ”

Xiao Jiu clenched the camellia tightly, and after a long time, he turned around and hugged Xia Ruan's corpse, preparing to leave.

"The title deed of her parents' cemetery, bring it to me." Xiao Jiu said to Tang Jingxuan, "Got it? ”

Tang Jingxuan was so frightened that he had already lost his soul, and quickly nodded: "Got it." ”

Xiao Jiu remembered that Xia Ruan was always worried that after her death, her parents' graves would be taken away.

Xiao Jiu knew that it wouldn't.

He's still there.

After burying Xia Ruan, Xiao Jiu looked at the camellia in his hand.

I finally couldn't help crying.

What he had forgotten at the beginning slowly revived in his memory.

At that time he forgot......

Xia Ruan didn't know the story of the camellia.

Moreover, Emperor Qinglong was the last emperor of the previous dynasty, and in order to protect the woman in his heart from the palace, he was finally burned alive in the main hall.

Life and death are boundless, never to see each other again.

In the sixty-seventh year of the Great Qin, the wife of the Marquis of Pingyang, Xia, served in the army.

In the sixty-eighth year of the Great Qin, the Marquis of Pingyang's early years of following the six princes was exposed, and he was robbed of the title of the marquis, demoted to a commoner, and was never allowed to enter Beijing.

In the sixty-ninth year of the Great Qin, the Tang clan died outside the capital, and the death was extremely tragic.

In the seventy-second year of the Great Qin, the Marquis of Chang'an Xiao Jiu died. Later, in Dongyang County, he was buried with an unknown lonely grave. (To be continued)

ps: Xiaowu's, the new book has been overhauled, and everyone can come to chase the text.

Title: Jin Mou

ISBN: 3393372

Introduction: Introduction: The ancients said: The great task of heaven must first be painstaking.

Yan Jin lamented, in this intriguing deep house, she just wants to protect her parents.

Painstaking ...... Let's sleep.

As a result, she became a passive and slacking reborn daughter.

As for the big job......

He said, "You can do it, but if you can't, I'll come again."