To be honest, after being with Ouyang Ze, I have changed a lot, become more hesitant, and become more soft-hearted.

In the past, I only had red money in my eyes, and there were stout ones... After experiencing Wu Yao, love was like a trick to deceive a child, and there was no temptation for me, so that I was never bound by love.

But Ouyang Ze was an outlier in my life, and his appearance completely changed my life and thoughts at that time. The unwarranted love, the unrequited care, made me have to be moved by his sincerity, and I had to let the heart that had been sleeping for many years be given the right to love again.

Once upon a time, I always thought that Ouyang Ze was the person who could accompany me on my journey, the person I was waiting for, the angel who gave me that day, everything he did was the best gift for me, and I vowed to cherish it.

But after coming to the United States with him, life did not develop as he thought at the time. One thing after another made my life road bumpy, stomach cancer, betrayal, everything tortured me to the end, but afterwards, Ouyang Ze has always been by my side and gave me a warm embrace.

Things are always manipulated by God in the dark, when I know what Ouyang Ze has done and how unbearable he was at that time, my heart is full of pain, like being constantly stabbed by a needle.

I loved him, so I can't be a true avenger; I hated him, so I couldn't be a real partner. Our relationship has become so complicated that my approach to him and my attitude towards this matter have to become tangled, I want to have a good ending, I want to have a good explanation, but every time we meet, we break up unhappily.

He said he wanted to make it up to me, he said he wanted to be good to me, but I couldn't trust him, I couldn't give him this chance, because I was afraid that I would be hurt more deeply by him, and maybe I wouldn't know why I would die one day.

Xu Shaohui said that they wanted me to hate him and want me to leave him, but when I really left, all I thought about was him, even if it was a mixture of love and hate, there was no other man in my heart besides him.

In the face of our complicated relationship, outsiders have no say, they all let me make my own decisions, but even if I am decisive at first, when faced with him, I will become hesitant and the decision will change.

Li Man said: This is because you have not been tortured enough, you still have hope in him, and you are still thinking about your marriage that has already existed in name only. You, you are too deeply confused by Ouyang Ze, so your heart must hurt so hard before you can give up, in order to really get rid of him...

Yes, my heart lacks such a fierce blow, and I lack the needle that pierces the ventricles and flows red blood, and then I can become resolute and get rid of his love words.

persecution, endangerment, calculation; Care, marriage, love... Both sides are the most extreme cases, one is hateful, the other is lingering in love, they are like ice and fire in my heart, they are evenly matched, neither of them has won the other, so that I have no choice.

The long-term tug-of-war will eventually have a result, only those who can persevere can win, the one who really belongs to justice can persevere to the end and stand at the height of victory, while the false people will show their feet, so that I can see the truth of the matter as soon as possible and make the right choice