Chapter 4: How Shall I Draw Closer to You?
"What's wrong with you?" Feng Haoxuan walked up and looked at Hua Tianguo with concern, the last one that made him so concerned was Yue, 'she' and her smiles were so bright, 'her' and her hands were so warm, stretching his brows for him.
Sensing Feng Haoxuan's approach, Hua Tingguo glanced at him and looked in the direction of his grandmother's departure again.
"Feng Haoxuan, do you know what it's like to be so close to your loved ones but not be able to see each other often?" Hua Tianguo said in a distracted manner, she finally had someone to talk to in the past three years, even if that person he only knew the name.
Feng Haoxuan wanted to say that he knew, he understood...... But there are some hurts in his heart.
"Dumping the country, if you feel uncomfortable, can you tell me about it?" People who have the same pain in their hearts are easy to get close to, just like them, and they are unconsciously close to each other.
"I was separated from my parents when I was six years old, and their fate is still uncertain, and then my grandmother brought them back to this seedling valley and depended on each other. Under the pressure of the five elders in the clan, my grandmother kept forbearance and retreated, worked hard to raise me, and passed on all her knowledge to me. There can be no man here, and if he is found, he will surely die. The elders were suspicious of me who suddenly appeared, and they were bent on verifying whether I had the mark of the patriarch's heir, the Red Lotus. I have, but I can't show them because it's a special location, and I don't understand why I have ......."
Hua Tingguo understood what he said, but Feng Haoxuan was confused. However, there can be no man in this Miao Valley, but this is the first time he has heard of it, and it seems that Hua Tingguo is having a very bad time in this Miao Valley, and he is worried about whether he will cause more trouble to Hua Tingguo.
"Because of some special reasons, I can't let them have a medical examination, so the elders have made up many reasons to slander Grandma, intending to get Grandma to give up her position as patriarch so that she can practice the ancient secret method. In this way, seven years have passed since the battle, and it has been three years ago...... Three years ago, there was a sudden torrential rainstorm that caused flooding in the valley. Grandma went to the cave in the mountain alone to rescue the trapped child, on the way back, the elders insidiously pushed down the mountain stones, grandma in order to save a child, her own left leg was pressed by the boulder, and finally was rescued, that was the first time I saw grandma lying on the bed so weakly......"
Speaking of this, Hua Tingguo choked up for a while, and his heart was filled with the sad night three years ago. Feng Haoxuan gently patted Hua Tingguo's back, and his heart resonated bizarrely. Three years ago, also three years ago, there was a person who was desperate to save him......
"Feng Haoxuan, do you know, that night, the elders took advantage of my grandmother's bedridden position and forcibly took me away in front of my grandmother, I was only thirteen years old at the time, which was the opponent of the five of them, not to mention their despicable drugging. They were tearing my clothes for a medical check-up, and I was scared, scared, and I was afraid that my grandmother would be implicated because of me...... However, at that last moment, Grandma came, and she crawled little by little with her broken leg. That night, I remember every expression of the five elders very clearly, and what I remember most clearly is the bloodstain behind my grandmother, which is so long...... Later, my grandmother brought me here, and I was not allowed to trespass without the order of the patriarch. She protected me well, but her leg was lame, and now every step she took seemed to be on the tip of my heart. She is my only relative, but I can't protect her a bit, I have no power, but I can only live under the old back of my grandmother, and I often wonder if it is right or wrong to stay here......"
Sadly, Hua Qingguo didn't notice Feng Haoxuan's trembling hands, but he was suddenly hugged tightly in his arms, and he didn't see Feng Haoxuan's eyes that were also full of hatred. Three years ago, three years ago, the moment she fell to save him, he didn't forget it...... The sadness of the flower pouring the country, he understands!
"Allure, don't worry, you will protect grandma...... If I can, I can accompany you and give you strength......" is also to give him his own strength, Yue, but he wants to protect but has no chance and ability.
"Feng Haoxuan ......"
"Call me Haoxuan. I understand your sadness and sadness, at this moment I only feel that you seem to be a missing part of my life, and at this moment I am holding you, I will feel at ease as if I am finally complete, as long as you are willing, Feng Haoxuan will be your dependence. ”
"Feng Haoxuan, thank you for listening to me say so much, I am fortunate to meet you and listen to me say so much. However, grandma, she was always the only one standing in front of me. ”
"Silly girl, with you, you have grown up, grandma will be a blessed person in the future, don't think too much."
A sentence of girls brought Hua Tingguo back to reality, Feng Haoxuan's gentleness, care, and comfort to him were to Hua Tingguo as a woman...... The tenderness of coveting that moment should be satisfied, and it is not until the love is deeply planted that you can't extricate yourself. After three days he would leave, leaving him with nothing and not letting him take anything with him.
But love has sprouted, and in the heart, what in the world can enter people's hearts and cut it off. The love in the world is not the coexistence of pain and sweetness, but only the deep and shallow.
Moving their bodies out of Feng Haoxuan's arms, both of them inexplicably felt empty.
Although Hua Tingguo's body is not as soft as the women who threw themselves into their arms before, it is inexplicably comfortable to hug. Feng Haoxuan's beating heart was a little out of rhythm for the first time.
A window looking at the bright moon in the sky forced himself to sigh helplessly. One looked at the lonely back, with pity, but lost the courage to step forward again. There was silence for a while.
"By the way, Feng Haoxuan, when I threw you under the bed just now, my strength seemed to be a little bigger, did your wound crack open?"
"You still say, look!" Feng Haoxuan then remembered that he was looking for Hua Tianguo to vent his anger, and angrily lifted the cuffs, only to see that the gauze on his arm had been soaked in fresh blood, although the blood had coagulated when he was talking, but the wound had really been cracked.
Hua Tianguo blamed himself and stepped forward to untie Feng Haoxuan's clothes and check the wounds on his waist and abdomen, he forgot that he was a woman in Feng Haoxuan's eyes at this moment.
Feng Haoxuan grabbed Hua Tingguo's hand and said to the wound: "You've seen my body twice, you have to be responsible for me!" ”
These words undoubtedly made Hua Qianguo startled, and hurriedly withdrew his hand, realizing his actions, he couldn't help but secretly blame his own impulsiveness, how could a woman take the initiative to untie a man's clothes. For ten years, he has perfectly hidden himself as a woman, but he has forgotten the words and deeds of a woman so quickly today.
"I'll go get some clean gauze and re-bandage it." Leaving this sentence, Hua Qianguo fled in a hurry, not seeing Feng Haoxuan's look that turned from expectation to loneliness. He didn't understand why he clearly felt Hua Tingguo's heart for him, but he forced himself to run away from him, and the reason he could think of might be that he took care of 'her' grandmother.
The fleeing Hua Tingguo entered the next room, his palm caressing his chest, and the beating in it was very rapid. Why is it that he is like a demon for just one day? In the thirty-two years he has lived, he has never been able to hold his heart firmly in just one day like Feng Haoxuan.
Hua Tingguo was very afraid, he was afraid that he would be in a deep position and unable to extricate himself. He was afraid that when the truth was revealed after the two hearts made a promise, how Feng Haoxuan would dislike him as a man. He was afraid that if he fell in love with a man, he would become unbearable in Feng Haoxuan's heart.
Can't escape, can't love.
"Feng Haoxuan, how should I get close to you."