One year, on July 11, the sky was blue.

Mr. Xia is right, many things, you can't just look at the surface.

If I hadn't run away from home, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to spend the night with Teacher Xia last night, let alone see my parents anxious.

Since I was a child, my parents have been very strict, sending me to practice calligraphy, sending me to learn foreign languages, learning mathematics, every step, it seems to be walking steadily according to their jihua, but I can't feel myself, so I am obsessed with words.

In the shijie of words, I can incarnate into tens of millions, I can become anyone I want to change, I can integrate any of my strange ideas into it, and there is no restraint at all, this feeling of self-righteousness is really good.

I didn't know that I, who was born in a financial family, would like words that were incompatible with them, and even because of this, sometimes my grandparents didn't like me very much, and they were strongly opposed by my parents.

Yes, since I was a child, I have listened to them for everything, and there are few disobedience, only this matter, I chose to insist.

I'm glad that I insisted on it back then, if it weren't for words, I wouldn't be so close to Mr. Xia, and today, I know that my parents also care about me very much, maybe as Mr. Xia said, all of what they do, including getting close to Xue Huang, is just for my good, but the way is a little too self-righteous.

Just now, my mother told me that they will not study Chinese to me, I am so happy, if there is something happier than having their own dreams, that is, the whole Yin family supports their dreams, is there anything happier than this? Of course there is, that is, Mr. Xia also supports it.

Hehe, Mr. Xia has always supported it.

I like Mr. Xia so much, but ......

One year, on July 17, the sky was gray.

Unexpectedly, I was notified so soon that the Department of Chinese at Thornton University admitted me.

Am I getting too good grades, hehe......

I immediately called Mr. Xia and told him, he was also very happy, originally to celebrate, but today Xiao Xiuyi is coming back, Mr. Xia said another day, but Dad said that tomorrow will take me back to my hometown, how to say that Thorn Tong is a well-known famous university in Shijie, it is still very face-saving to go to school, it is estimated that I want to go back to earn some face, of course, on the surface it is to go back to the ancestral grave to incense or something, for the sake of his support for me this time, then I will also support him, it's a pity, I can't go to play with Mr. Xia.

I heard that Teacher Xia's mother is here, Xiu Yi is also here, and Sister Xin is also here, so I envy them, they can have a lively time together, what kind of person is Mother Xia? It should be an amiable elder, kind, intellectual, and powerful, and can penetrate other people's hearts at a glance, just like Mr. Xia......

Actually, okay, I admit it, I'm a little afraid to see Teacher Xia's mother, I'm afraid that she won't like me, I'm afraid that she will see my little knot, in case she doesn't like me, then I don't know how to continue to be in this mood......

I like Mr. Xia so much.

July 18 of a certain year

Today back to my hometown, I feel that everything is so strange, all relatives are unfamiliar faces, even if they smile, the smile is also unfamiliar, but there is an inexplicable warmth, this liliang, I think it must be sincere, I found that Dad's smile is also sincere, so rare, I thought he came back, purely just a formality.

At night on the rooftop, you can count the stars, the vast starry sky feels more mysterious than in the big city, I don't understand that the same sky, in different positions and environments, it looks so different, and people under the same sky also have such a big difference.

If Mr. Xia looks up at this time, can he see the starry sky? Can I see Orion like me?

I don't know weishenme tonight, I thought about it a lot.

That day, I knew that Sister Xin was Teacher Xia's girlfriend, I didn't suddenly feel that the sky was falling, I always thought that one day I would collapse when I heard the news, but I didn't expect my reaction to be so flat, it's not that it doesn't hurt, but it hurts, there is a very strange feeling, I really don't know weishenme, is it because Sister Xin makes people jealous at all?

That night, I saw Sister Sha burrow into Teacher Xia's bed, and I heard their conversation......

I envy Sister Sha's daring, envy that she can do what she thinks is right very calmly, I even walked over to take a closer look at him, I was so nervous that I felt that my body did not belong to me.

But I'm glad that Zuihou himself still walked over that day, Teacher Xia actually mistook me for Sister Sha and hugged me into his arms, although I knew that the person he thought of at that time was not me, but I also felt happy to die, since that day I came back, I was reminiscing about the feeling of shrinking in Mr. Xia's arms every night, my diary didn't dare to mention this, and I never mentioned it, because I was afraid that the feeling of breaking the Yin would be like the whole body being immersed in honey water. ,

I hope that one day, I can be like Sister Sha and get the opportunity to sleep all night with Teacher Xia, then I will die happily.

I really like Mr. Xia......

July 21 of a certain year.

Today, I walked around all day, met a lot of people, I didn't know them, they all gave me a thumbs up, I can only smile at them, God knows how dry my smile is.

I heard that Sister Sha went back to her biological parents' house, but she didn't fit and fled back. In the past, I have always been envious of Sister Sha's self-righteousness, unrestrained and unrestrained, and then I heard what Mr. Xia said, only to know that fatherless and motherless orphans are actually very pitiful, we are like this, we don't cherish when we have, we lose and regret it, and we always envy others, but I don't know, while you envy others and complain about yourself, it is likely that there is another person who is envying you.

But I don't want Sister Sha to leave, I feel so safe with her, and I think she should stay by Teacher Xia's side, no matter how big her parents are, I don't think Sister Sha cares, she only cares about Teacher Xia's opinion of her.

It's good to be able to live like this, and I hope that one day I will be able to do this, simply happy.

On July 24, it rained heavily.

Nausea, want to vomit, and diarrhea.

My body is so bad, it's just that I don't adapt to the environment, and it turns out like this, if Mr. Xia sees it, he will definitely laugh at me again...... No, Mr. Xia will definitely be very distressed, and then help me heal, hehe......

My hands are so soft, I can't write anymore, I have never seen such ugly words of my own, like Mr. Xia's description of Leka's words -, haha......

I always hear many people say that when the body is weak, the mind is also very weak, and it will always become much weaker than usual, but I don't know that weishenme is the opposite, I have nothing to do these days, I have thought about a lot, I finally figured it out just now, I weishenme didn't grieve when I heard the news that Mr. Xia has a girlfriend?

That's because I never thought of possession. (To be continued)