Chapter 676: Life is Hard

The city is big, the world is big, and the hearts of people are bigger, so there are many children who are lost.

Zhao Izumi has always felt that no matter what he does, he is determined by his comprehensive strength, otherwise his strength is not enough, but he forcibly keeps moving forward and climbing, and the final consequence is to lose himself and fall into the abyss.

Zhao Izumi likes No. 16, No. 16 is also the woman who has the greatest influence on Zhao Izumi in Xi'an, this kind of liking has nothing to do with love, but that kind of very complicated thing, just ask how many people are worthy of Miss from the heart, Zhao Izumi must be one. So far, Zhao Izushi can't forget the day he met Jì on the 16th, that kind of tiredness, that kind of strength, and that kind of cleanliness. From the slums of a small county town to a big city to study in college, for a family like the Qin family, it is not more difficult than climbing to the sky, what the sixteenth has always wanted to do is to rely on his own efforts to change the family, so that his parents can live a better life, so that his younger brother can have a little interest, so when her parents are seriously ill and ask for money, her younger brother needs money to go to college, and the burden of the family is on her, she chose a path of no return.

It's just that no one understands her, and few people know how pure her heart is, because this is her original intention, and her original intention is to hope that this family can be better, people live for a lifetime, people's hearts are complex, the surrounding environment is strange, and a few people can stick to their original intentions, so no matter how far you go, no matter how fast you go, no matter how high you stand and how far you look, you can not forget your original intention in order to maintain the most authentic self.

As it is said in the "Huayan Sutra", if you don't forget your original intention, you must always ......

Whenever Zhao Izumi is confused and helpless, he will think about the stupid No. 16, so stubbornly invite himself to eat Pizza Hut, and say to him so distressingly, my name is Qin Ran, I like him so much but suppress it in my heart. To have today's achievements, Zhao Izumi doesn't feel that God owes him anything, he has endured hardships in the mountains for more than 20 years, so he is standing on the high ground of the crowd today, but she feels that God owes No. 16, owes her too much, owes her a dull and stable life.

The world is unjust after all.

The northwest wind is blowing, the sky is getting more and more gloomy, the weather at noon is more like evening, I don't know when the snowflakes start to fall, it seems that the weather forecast is still very accurate.

Zhao Izumi squatted on the ground, put the fruit tribute on the table and began to burn paper money, Qi Si'an next to him quietly accompanied Zhao Izusi, not to disturb her, everyone has their own secrets, everyone has the softest place in their hearts, Qi Si believes that this must also be the softest place in Zhao Izui's heart.

"In the blink of an eye for more than a year, time flies so fast, I came to see you early, but unfortunately it's too busy, there are too many things, sometimes I really want to go back to Qilian Mountain, carefree every day, just waiting for sunrise and sunset, but I know, I can't go back." So, don't be angry with me, hehe, I know you're definitely not angry, you're so good, how can you be angry. This year, there are a lot of things, I'm doing well, I don't know how you're doing over there, you don't know how to give me more dreams, let me know how you're doing over there" Zhao Izumi muttered while burning paper money, just like when I said goodbye to Cheng Zixin and Su Su, Zhao Izumi laughed from the bottom of his heart, and today's Zhao Izumi is the same, without any pressure, he let go of everything, just like after the year of the sixtieth year, he sat on the recliner at sunset and told his grandchildren about his life.

Qi Si also squatted down at this time, burning paper money with Zhao Izui, Zhao Izumi smiled faintly and said, "Isn't it a surprise that I also brought a beautiful woman this time, well, I know that you must be worried about my personal problems over there, so I brought her here." Her name is Qi Si, she is my fiancée, isn't she very beautiful, you have to praise me for my good luck and good vision, don't scold me, I can be poor in front of you, we are about to get married, but unfortunately you can't see it. Qi Si is very good to me, I feel sorry for me like you, I will say, I must find someone like you when I look for a daughter-in-law in the future, it seems that God is favored by me, and finally let me get my wish"

Zhao Izumi looked at Qi Si, and the two looked at each other and smiled.

"It's all good at home, and Qin Ying has also gone home after graduation, I think you must know. Don't worry, I will take care of them, and come back to see them every year, no matter what, I treat myself as half of the Qin family, so their business is my business, so you don't have to worry. Also, I didn't have time to tell you last time, this time I told you about my current life, I don't know if I didn't tell you last year that I was no longer in Xi'an, well, I'm in Chengdu now, a good place, you will definitely like Chengdu. I don't have to work three jobs a day so hard, and I need to see who is bullied by whom, and now I'm very good, see, that Land Rover is what I drove. As for me in Chengdu, it's even more powerful, whoever sees me has to shout Zhao Ye, don't worry, I'm not bragging, it's true, if you don't believe it, you can ask Qi Si, so ah, don't worry about me, I'm not like last time, I know how to go and what to do" Zhao Izumi continued, a bit like reporting a year's work.

Qi Si never knew how hard Zhao Izuxi's life was in Xi'an, but from Zhao Izusi's several conversations, she knew that it must be more bitter than she imagined, but what made her relieved was that when Zhao Izumi was in Xi'an, there were so many people who took care of him, there were two fat, Su Su and Cheng Zixin, and now he knew that there was Qin Ran, Qi Si couldn't help but say emotionally, "Qin Ran, I'm Qi Si, thank you for helping me take care of Izumi in Xi'an, I know you don't need me to say thank you, but I still have to say it." Don't worry, I will be by his side in the future, take good care of him, no matter what happens to him, I will never give up, because I am the same as you, it is the greatest luck to meet him in this life"

The paper money was quickly burned, and Zhao Izumi stopped talking, just squatting there.

After a long time, Zhao came out of breath and slowly said, "In Xi'an, it is the most fortunate thing for me to meet them. The sixteenth made me understand a lot of things, let me understand a lot of truths, you must not think, she is a young lady, we met in the landscape, I was there as a security guard, she was there as a young lady, I never felt that she was a young lady, because she is different from all young ladies, she is purer than them, her eyes are clearer than anyone else, she is also the best person for me there, because I understand her, I feel sorry for her, I feel sorry for her strength, I feel sorry for her stupidity. You have also seen the conditions of the Qin family, her father is paralyzed, her mother is suffering from various diseases, her younger brother is in college, and the pressure of life is on her, she has plunged herself into the abyss, just for this family to be better. Most of the children who come out of small places hope to change their family conditions by their own efforts, so they bear hardships and stand hard work, so they take risks, but unfortunately many people eventually lose their way and forget what they wanted in the first place. No. 16 is different from them, she has no dreams and no ambitions in her life, only such a small request, but unfortunately God couldn't let her get her wish. She has been persevering, she said many times she can't hold on, she is too tired and bitter, that kind of suffering is not ordinary suffering, few people can understand, but when she thinks of home, she can only continue to persevere, insist on persevering. She just wants to wait for Qin Ying to graduate, and then leave the city and return to Pingyao, find an honest man to marry and have children, she doesn't need her to be rich, she doesn't need to be handsome, she just needs to be nice to her and her family, this is her pursuit of life. Seeing that Qin Ying was about to leave her job, she didn't have to suffer anymore, but unfortunately, it was a pity, she committed suicide, she chose such a path to defend her dignity"

Zhao Izumi began to tell the story about the sixteenth, Qi Si listened quietly, her eyes couldn't help but redden, she didn't expect Qin Ran's story to be so sad, and Qi Si was shocked to hear that Qin Ran finally chose to commit suicide.

"I know that she likes me, and many people know about the landscape, but she never dared to say to me, she felt that she was not worthy of me, and she was afraid that she would not even dare to have this liking in the future, so she used the way she thought was right to me" Zhao Izumi sighed and sighed.

Qi Si wiped his tears and said, "Qin Ran is a good girl"

"Well, yes, she is better than anyone else, but she is more bitter than anyone else" Zhao Izumi shook his head and smiled bitterly.

Life is very hard, and the children of poor families are even more miserable, this simple word of bitterness cannot be said, it is not enough for outsiders, only I understand.

Everything that should be said has been said, and everything that should be talked about has been talked about, and if it continues, Zhao Izumi was afraid that No. 16 would feel that he would be verbose, so he said, "Don't say it, let's go." Again, see you next time"

Getting up, Zhao Izumi made a brilliant joke at Qin Ran's grave, then held Qi Si's hand and left without looking back.

At this time, the whole world was already covered in silver, so beautiful, so clean......

Outside the cemetery, Qin Ying leaned on the Land Rover in a daze, it has been almost two years since the incident, but he still can't face his sister, he can't forgive himself, he doesn't know how many nights he woke up crying, that is the thing he regrets the most in his life, if God can do it all over again, he will never say those words, he can think of how painful his sister is, otherwise she would not choose to commit suicide.

All the qiē was harmed by himself, so every time, he only dared to walk here, he didn't dare to go in again, he just wanted to spend his whole life to repent to pay off his debts.

Seeing Zhao Izumi and Qi Si coming out, Qin Yingqing secretly wiped away her tears, and smiled at Zhao Izumi and Qi Si, "Brother Zhao, Sister Qi Si, come out"

Zhao Izumi noticed Qin Ying's abnormality, and didn't rush to get into the car, but took out a cigarette and handed it to Qin Ying, "Do you smoke?" ”

Qin Ying was not polite, took the cigarette, took out a lighter and lit it for himself, and then lit it for Zhao Izu.

"How's the work?" After all, it is Qin Ran's younger brother, no matter how Zhao Izumi can't forgive him, he has to face it.

Qin Ying smiled and said, "Civil servant, that's it, it's okay"

"Do you want to do something else?" Zhao Izumi continued to ask.

Qin Ying replied, "Now that the economy is in a recession, it's not easy to do anything, not to mention that I don't have that capital."

"As long as you have an idea, try to do it, at least I can invest in you" Zhao Izumi said very directly, he is not short of money now, Qin Ying can support whatever he wants.

Qin Ying hurriedly said, "No need, Brother Zhao, I really don't need it."

"I'm not for you, I'm for your sister, for your parents. You understand that if I help directly, your parents will always be upset, but if you make their lives better and better, they will be very pleased" Zhao Izumi said truthfully, this is what he meant.

Qin Ying also came back to her senses, nodding awkwardly and not daring to speak.

"Think about what to do, call me, I will check it, if it's really good, I'll let someone help you, the phone Qin Bing and your parents have it" Zhao Izumi said very coldly.

The snow was getting heavier and heavier, Zhao Izumi didn't dare to stay, and after finishing speaking, he threw away the cigarette butt and got into the car, Qin Ying bit her lip and followed into the car......

Half an hour later, they returned to Chengnanbao Village, but after the Land Rover drove into the street, what happened in front of Qin's house made Zhao Izushi and Qin Ying angry......