Chapter 199: Helpless thoughts
When Ye Ming went to Qingquan Hotel to look for Chen Yi, Chen Yi was sitting on the guest bed in room 812 of the "Qingyang Hotel", covered to his waist, his knees bent, his hands around his knees, his brows were locked, his eyes were looking straight ahead, and he was falling into a painful and helpless thought of Ye Ming......
Ever since she learned that someone had written a letter to the provincial bureau complaining that Ye Ming had an affair with her, she fell into a state of panic and despair, and at the same time, she always remembered a sentence in her mind: "If people don't know, they can't do it unless they do!" ”
That's right, that's definitely a wise saying!
Originally, she always thought that the matter between herself and Ye Ming should be unaware. Usually, when she saw Ye Ming in the unit, she never showed any affectionate or ambiguous expressions, always with that faint look, as if they were still the same as before, but just an ordinary colleague relationship.
However, she never expected that someone in the bureau would still doubt her relationship with Ye Ming, and she wrote a slander against Ye Ming with a nose and eyes, and also sued the Provincial Bureau Supervision Office......
Therefore, she felt that this was simply providence: God did not allow her to be with Ye Ming, and God did not allow herself to have a sincere and unforgettable love - because she was a person with a family and a husband. In the case of not divorcing Li Zhi, in order to taste the taste of ecstasy, he abandoned his sense of morality and shame, abandoned the concept of chastity that he had always believed in and adhered to, and cheated with Ye Ming many times, which is a shameless depravity, a debauchery that should be condemned and punished.
Therefore, God began to be angry, and began to warn himself: If you don't stop the precipice, one day, the matter between yourself and Ye Ming will be exposed, and they will be pointed at by thousands of people and scolded by thousands of people......
And that inexplicable letter of complaint is God's warning to himself and Ye Ming......
She loves Ye Ming, she loves like crazy, she loves her heart to the bone, and she loves so much that she almost loses her nature and loses herself.
And now, Ye Ming is just embarking on his career and is preparing to make a big move, if his ambiguous relationship with him is discovered at this time, then his bright future is likely to be ruined.
Therefore, even for the sake of Ye Ming's future, he should also break up with him as soon as possible. If you wait until someone finds out and then think about breaking up, it is "the horse is late on the cliff, and the boat is late to the center of the river to make up for the leak", which is useless......
What's more, now there is one more Chen Mengqi by Ye Ming's side.
It can be seen that this rich daughter's feelings for Ye Ming are definitely not shallower than her own - during that time, almost every afternoon after work, she would see Chen Mengqi driving her fiery red Porsche to pick up Ye Ming. After seeing Ye Ming, she didn't care that many cadres in the bureau were looking at them, and went over to hold Ye Ming's hand very affectionately and happily, pulled him into her car, and then honked the horn and left......
Every time she saw this scene, she felt that her heart was very blocked and sour: this girl is so happy! She can be generous and unscrupulous to make out with Ye Ming in public, and she can play with Ye Ming everywhere as a girlfriend, and show off to others everywhere: I am Ye Ming's girlfriend!
And what about yourself? Although they love Ye Ming with all their hearts, they can only engage in underground activities behind people's backs. In addition to being in bed, two people can make love without scruples, and on other occasions, even if they miss and are impulsive, they can only be polite, keep their distance, and even pretend to be indifferent......
Moreover, every time she sees Chen Mengqi, who is young and beautiful and full of youthful vitality, she will have a feeling of self-shame and even narcissism and self-pity in her heart: an excellent boy like Ye Ming should be matched with a young and beautiful girl like Chen Mengqi. And he, who is already old, is already a broken flower and a willow, he should no longer pester Ye Ming, but should bless him and Chen Mengqi......
Under the domination of such complex and painful contradictions, that night, she tearfully sent that long message to Ye Ming, asking him to break up......
She is a woman with a strong heart and endurance beyond ordinary people. After sending out the message of the breakup, although she was in pain like a thousand worms gnawing at her internal organs, and she couldn't sleep all night long. However, she insisted on not answering Ye Ming's call, not wanting to give herself any chance to regret - because she knew very well that in her current state, as long as Ye Ming said two emotional words on the phone, or begged her a few words to let her not break up, her inner belief would definitely collapse, and she would be eager to plunge into his warm and generous embrace again......
At the same time, in order to prevent Ye Ming from finding her again, she also moved out of Qingquan Hotel and lived in the "Qingyang Hotel" in the opposite direction from Qingquan Hotel......
She has always been confident in her inner strength and strong self-control. Therefore, she felt that as long as she made up her mind, she should be able to gradually overcome the pain of missing Ye Ming and slowly come out of this dangerous relationship like a time bomb.
However, after only two days, she felt that she was about to lose her support: every time she sat in the office, she couldn't help but look at the desk opposite where Ye Ming was sitting, and at the same time, Ye Ming's handsome posture and gentle and kind smile would appear in her mind, and Ye Ming's voice calling her "Sister Chen Yi" would often ring in her ears, as well as his happy and hearty smile......
Several times, in a trance, she seemed to feel that Ye Ming was really sitting opposite, and she actually shouted the word "little leaf" in her mouth......
What was especially terrifying was that she now had insomnia almost all night. Sometimes she finally closed her eyes and fell asleep, and in her dreams she would dream of Ye Ming again, the two of them were hugging each other tightly, kissing each other, and couldn't wait to undress each other, and then the two of them were entangled with each other......
Every time she woke up from such a dream, she would be extremely sad and lost, and tears would roll down her slightly pale and haggard face like beads of broken thread......
After enduring this for a day or two, she felt that she couldn't bear it anymore, and struggled to find an excuse for herself: within two days, as long as Ye Ming, who was in the provincial capital, sent a message to herself, saying that he was unwilling to break up, saying that he still loved him as before, then, even if he had to go to the eighteenth layer of hell in the future and undergo torture such as knife mountain fire altitude tongue cramps in the underworld, he would not hesitate to throw himself into his arms and be a moth who bravely put out the fire......