"Why not you?"

He spoke in a tone as if the deepest faith in his heart had been overturned at once, and he questioned angrily.

I shook my head and lamented, "How could it be me?" The way I look now, even I don't have the courage to look at myself, it's still good-looking, where will it be good-looking? As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and pulled a few strands of hair on his chest, and sighed a few times, now this strand of hair doesn't know what it looks like white, how can it be good-looking, it's good if it's not hard to look at the dead.

"That'...... Do you dare to see Xiaosheng? ”

After a moment of silence, he asked with a teasing smile.

"Of course, of course."

I smiled and nodded, affirming, "In the face of you, I don't seem to be nervous yet." ”

As soon as he finished saying this, the scholar in front of him stopped talking again, and after a while, he heard his sighing voice, and sighed: "That...... That's not good. ”

"Is it bad?"

I raised my head and looked at the people around me through the three-finger-wide white silk, puzzled: "Do you wish in your heart that I would hide from you?" ”

"Hmm."

After a while, he answered softly, and said: "If Miss Yuge is hiding from Xiaosheng because of her gray hair, and she doesn't dare to see Xiaosheng, Xiaosheng will be very happy in her heart, because that at least proves that in Yuge's heart, Xiaosheng still has a certain amount of weight, but if you don't dare to see anyone, and cry secretly alone, Xiaosheng will also be very sad in his heart, maybe, at that time, Xiaosheng doesn't want Yuge girl to hide from Xiaosheng." ”

As he spoke, he smiled sadly and asked, "Is it contradictory that Xiao Sheng thinks like this?" ”

"Hmm."

I nodded heavily and replied, "What you're saying is a bit complicated, I don't understand what you mean. ”

He smiled and said, "It's good if you don't understand, if you understand, Xiaosheng will be embarrassed." ”

Excuse me?

Again, this is an incomprehensible sentence.

In the past, when I didn't know that my hair was gray, I was more relieved, but yesterday I learned the truth, and then let the old woman and the little boy see their appearance as an old demon with a thousand mountains, I was not at ease, and I was always worried that a knight with a demon sword would rush in outside the courtyard at any time to come here to destroy me.

So, that's not good.

After thinking about it, for the sake of my life, I decided to hide obediently in the house and not go out to meet people, even for Botai, I think it is still rare. Therefore, after that day on, I closed the door of my room day after day, and did not go out to see anyone, nor did I give anyone a reason to see me. Of course, you can stop yourself from going out, but you can't stop others from coming in to see you. Botai, at first, he would treat me as a girl, before coming in, he would reach out and knock on the door to ask, and later, seeing that I ignored him, he simply didn't even knock on the door, and became in and out whenever he wanted, and put the food plate on the dresser, and turned his head and glared at me very displeased.

Stare at it, stare at it, no matter how he stares, through the three-finger-wide white silk, you can't stare at me.

The medicine on the eyes keeps changing day by day, but the things in front of me are still blurry and can't see clearly, and occasionally I take off the white silk on my eyes by myself, wanting to take a look at the house where I have lived for months, but unfortunately, except for being able to see a flame the size of a soybean jumping in front of my eyes, everything else is blurred.

It's a mistake, I take medicine and dressing every day, why is it still like this, and there is no improvement at all? Sometimes, I really have the urge to poke my eyes blind, and this half-blind state is really about to make me unbearable.

"Bear with me a little longer! It will be better in a while. ”

Whenever he saw me being restless, Botai would smile and say this to me.

"Bear with me, how long can I endure it?" After screaming a few loudly, I reached out to my face and said in pain: "Do you want to endure the day when my face is full of wrinkles, my skin is all sagging, and I really become a grandmother?" ”

"How could it be?"

He said with a smile, "Xiao Sheng promised Miss Yuge that with Xiao Sheng, Miss Yuge will definitely not become an old grandmother." ”

"Really?"

Hearing him say this, I stopped poking my eyes and asked him hopefully, "Botai, am I really not going to become a grandmother?" ”

"Of course."

He replied firmly, laughter rang out, and said: "Since Xiaosheng has the ability to save the Yuge girl from Lingyun Mountain intact, of course he also has the ability to protect the appearance of the Xiaoyu girl." ”

This firm tone is as if it were true.

"That'...... Thank you. ”

Whether it's true or not, I have to thank him, from leaving Lingyun Mountain to the present, he has always been by my side to take care of me, for the things he has done for me, I feel that no matter how much thanks I have done, it is in vain, but when the words come to my mouth, what can be said is still only this sentence 'thank you'.

I owe him a little more, and it seems to be too much.

The days are like a day, repetitive and monotonous, I seem to feel the footsteps of winter slowly moving away, and I also feel the footsteps of spring slowly approaching, with a hint of cool spring breeze blowing on my cheeks, I seem to smell a fragrant peach blossom fragrance.

"Fish Song Girl, Fish Song Girl."

Botai's voice full of excitement suddenly sounded, and then, a rush of footsteps sounded again, and he was walking this way.

"What's the matter?"

Early in the morning, hearing him shouting so excitedly, I turned my head and asked with a slight displeasure.

"Do you smell the scent of peach blossoms?"

He asked me delightfully, his voice filled with a hint of anticipation.

"Peach blossom scent?"

Hearing him say this, I frowned slightly, thinking that there was nothing wrong with my sense of smell, and I was not the only one who smelled the scent of peach blossoms in early spring. I stretched out my arm, felt the calmness of the breeze flowing through my fingertips, turned back to him and said, "It's only early spring, and it's still very early for the peach blossoms to bloom. If so, I won't spare you. ”

"Where, how dare Xiaosheng?"

After speaking, a warm hand gently grasped my hand, and the people around me pulled me forward a few steps, suddenly stopped, and whispered in my ear: "Listen carefully, do you hear the rustling of leaves?" ”

Is there the rustling of leaves? I shook my head, a little speechless for him, "It's early spring, how can there be leaves on the trees?" If there were, it would only be a few young leaves that had just sprouted, but they weren't leaves after all. ”

"What if there are no leaves, only a few trunks of new shoots, and they can also collide with the rustling sound in the breeze, don't believe it, listen to the fish song girl."

The people around me laughed in a low voice, and I heard the sound of the wind blowing the branches, but judging from the rhythm of the clapping between the branches, it was probably caused by a scholar's handshake.

I was so bored with his behavior that I pouted, not going to pay any more attention to him, and turned around to walk into the house, but after a few steps, a shadow of a green robe flashed in front of me, and he stopped in front of me.

"Anything else?"

The road was blocked, and I asked, a little displeased.

"It's March, and Miss Yuge has been staying in this courtyard for three months." He was very aggrieved and said, "There was a lot of snow last winter, Xiaosheng begged Miss Yuge to go with Xiaosheng to fight wild beasts in the nearby valley, Miss Yuge said that she was afraid of the cold and excused herself, so she asked Miss Yuge to go fishing with Xiaosheng by the moat with thick ice, but she was also excused by Miss Yuge. Xiao Sheng actually knew in his heart that Miss Yuge was too concerned about her current appearance, so she was reluctant to go out with Xiao Sheng to meet people. However, this can be avoided for a while, and you can't hide for a lifetime, people's lives are so long, you don't want to stay in this courtyard forever and not go out to meet people! ”

These words really hit the deepest sore spot in my heart, I reached out and touched my face, and smiled stupidly, fortunately, my eyes can't see anything clearly now, otherwise, I saw my own face, maybe, I don't even have the courage to face the person in front of me.

"If you could...... I'd rather stay in this yard forever than go out and meet people. ”

With that, I bypassed him and walked alone in the direction of the house.

I can't see the things in front of me clearly, I can't feel the traces of spring quietly flowing over them, I can smell the freshness of the new green grass, but I can't see the purple and red scattered on the thousands of hills, I can hear the joy of the murmuring of the flowing water, but I can't see the magnificent scene of the ice and snow melting and the revival of all things, the world seems to be cut off from me.

I...... I also want to see him, listen to his voice, and touch his face, and tell him that Xiaoyu is not dead, Xiaoyu is still alive and well, and he can't forget me, and he is not allowed to accept other disciples, let alone be like others, thinking that the moon strings were taken away by me.

However, now I don't seem qualified to do this, even thinking like this has become a luxury, my hair is gray, my eyes can't see, I can say that I am a wasted person, and now I am no longer qualified to like him.

The corners of my eyes were a little moist, tears flowed from my sockets, and I washed down the herbs that had just been applied in the morning, and I raised my arm and gently wiped it with the corner of my clothes, and sniffed softly, not wanting outsiders to hear the sound of myself crying in the room.

It's okay, he has already said that if I leave, he will go to the Six Realms to recruit many, many good-looking apprentices, and they are all beautiful female apprentices, he is so powerful and so good-looking, those female apprentices will definitely like him very much, in the future, there are so many people with him, he should not have time to think of me anymore, and soon, he will forget everything I have forgotten.

But what should I do? What should I do without him?