Chapter 52 When I want to talk about my heart, I cry bitterly when I learn the truth
The sun is setting far away, and the mountains are shining at night. The pen "Fun" pavilion www.biquge.info the sky is misty, surrounded by crows. The city is full of flying flotsam, and it is dyed to leave overnight. The bird pierces the remnant sun and cuts through the sky. It was a drunken afternoon, but now it has become a bloody battlefield, and the corpses are all over the wilderness, which makes people's hearts tremble.
The Zhengyang Palace, which was magnificent in the past, is now a ruined wall. From time to time, there is a spark, still devouring the last hope. Wan Ning slowly stepped forward and gently stroked the familiar table. I don't think of the old days, and I always wait quietly aside.
Vaguely, Jun Hao's figure slowly appeared in front of Wan Ning's eyes. His indifferent expression, under the reflection of the candle flame, looked more and more tall and lonely. In fact, as long as Jun Hao is still there, there is hope for everything. A petal of gardenia fell in front of him, like a sigh of fate.
The gardenia on the windowsill narrowly escaped the fire. It's just barely left behind the stumps and dead leaves, and it's still dying in the wind. After all these years of not being in the palace, the memories gradually dissipated. There is only this gardenia, which is still quietly guarding this quiet.
"Yan Wanning, this is the price you paid!" A deep voice sounded behind him, but it was mixed with a fierce meaning. Wan Ning turned around, but saw the man named Mu Chenxuan. It turned out that he had always been unable to forget the hatred.
His eyes revealed contempt and pride, making Wan Ning seem to understand something. There must be a cause and an effect, if it wasn't for Wanning's drug test, how could there be this fire? Either way, it's the best revenge.
The deserted palace is allowed to swim back and forth with drifting soot. Stained on the graceful green silk, a sad atmosphere faintly emerged. What should have been a gratifying encounter is now an enemy meeting. This was not Wan Ning's intention, she didn't expect things to be like this.
In her mind, she thought about the situation when she first met Mu Chenxuan in Yuchi's family. When he was still desperate, Mu Chenxuan received him warmly. At that time, there was naturally no distraction, just simple help. The world is unpredictable, and people's hearts are unpredictable.
"I'm sorry," Wanning said in a trembling voice, "I don't want to do this either, if I know that the hospital will test the medicine." Even if you lose these eyes, you won't let them do this - I'm sorry, I'm sorry......"
I'm sorry for these three simple words, and I felt a little guilty when I said it from Wan Ning's mouth. But for Mu Chenxuan, it is the pain of eternal life. "I only hate the beginning, why didn't you die in the desert!" Mu Chenxuan gritted his teeth and hated her to the core.
"Don't do this," Wanning said slightly apologetically after calming down, "I don't want such a thing to happen...... It's my fault, you don't have to, setting fire to the palace, it's not good for anyone......" This is Wanning's sincere words, from the bottom of my heart.
It has already happened, and it is useless to resent anyone. When Mu Chenxuan heard this, he sneered: "I just let you know the pain of losing your loved ones!" After saying that, he brushed his sleeves away, leaving the collapsed Zhengyang Hall and the plaque burned to ashes.
The development of the story is counted as a small finale so far. But Wanning filled it in personally, and the pen was full of blood and tears. I remember when I planned it, it wasn't like this. The pain of losing a loved one? These words made Wan Ning suddenly wake up.
There was no time to shed tears to be sad, Wanning thought about finding Jun Hao as soon as possible. Turn around and walk quickly towards the Dongyin Palace, dodging the remnants of the rubble on the eaves of the corridor. Wan Ning shouted Jun Hao's name, but a small blood hosta was lying quietly on the ground, shocking.
The wind swept the dust, and it was a season of lightness. The afterglow of summer is sprinkled on this silent palace. Where the wind passes through the water, it is a circle of ripples. Layer by layer, circle the traces of the years. When the sun sets, it's a little cool. This year's summer seems to have been particularly short.
I still remember when I left the palace with resentment. It was still Jun Hao who chased himself back, without a single superfluous word, just warm eyes. is enough to make Wanning pay his life to him. "Jun Hao, you say, we will be like this for the rest of our lives, okay?"
The gardenia under the corner of the wall is quiet and sweet. There was a faint scent of gardenia wafting in the wind, which was the smell of memories. When gardenias are in full bloom, it is the season of spring. "Okay," Jun Hao gently hugged her and promised softly, "for the rest of my life, I will never be separated again......"
The familiar words are still in my ears, and the oath in the wind is still wandering. But how do you know that fate is so cruel. It was the story of Wanning and Jun Hao, there was no flower before the moon, no sweet words. Some just help each other, but it is difficult to resist the tricks of fate.
In the deep palace, I can't help myself. Xiao Yihan's sudden intervention gradually widened the distance between the two. From that moment on, suspicion and suspicion spread. So simple feelings began to be mixed with interests and trade-offs. I can't find it anymore, the warmth of the year.
"Chu Junhao is dead!" Mu Chenxuan's vicious words broke Wanning's heart. Otherwise, how could this broken blood hosta shatter to the ground. Wan Ning wouldn't believe his words, he must have just wanted to be sad for himself. The blood hosta will have a time to be reunited.
She slowly bent down and held the blood hosta in her palm. The wisps of crystal in the blood jade slowly slid slowly. Like a blood-red gardenia in full bloom, it blooms on the branches and never withers. The cold blood jade gradually warmed up in Wanning's palm.
Seeing her like this, Mu Chenxuan unconsciously raised the corners of his mouth and said, "Hmph! I set this fire! This is your retribution! Yan Wanning, I won't let you get your wish! I don't know why, listening to Mu Chenxuan's words. On the contrary, it was more self-deprecation, which made Wan Ning laugh unconsciously.
That's right, it's her retribution. If she hadn't entered the palace rashly, how could she have caused these things behind her. Maybe everyone is safe, and the people of Yuchi will be quietly in the desert. Now that things have happened like this, what can she do?
A tear reflects the afterglow of the setting sun. Smashed in the windy lake. This was supposed to be a perfect story, but after Wanning left the palace. Continuing the development of the story, whether it is sad or happy is still not so important. As long as you live, there will be hope.
The mist slowly rose at this moment. Mu Chenxuan's voice was still echoing behind him. Wan Ning put away the blood hosta and walked back in a daze. There were fireworks all around, and hoarse screams everywhere. Where to go, Wanning was a little confused.
Even if you find Jun Hao, what can you do? As far as the eyes can see, this huge palace has been ransacked by the Xirong army. Only the mournful gardenia remained, still swaying in the wind. "Jun Hao, where will you be?" Wanning's mind was full of Jun Hao's eyes.
At that moment, she even thought that she would just leave. But the crying from the cloister pulled her back to reality. This is the Donglu Imperial Palace, where Jun Hao once lived. If he knew, he would be very sad.
"Three years," Wan Ning looked back at the plaque of "Han Won Qiankun" and said confidently, "I will definitely come back!" This promise seems to give him great comfort. The birds fluttered their wings from the old forest and flew to the mountains.
Gradually, the mountains revealed the whiteness of the fish's belly. A little twilight was revealed, and a few rays of morning stars were also looming in the sky. The half-bent waning moon still hangs in the air. The surroundings were so quiet that they could be vaguely heard. The surface of the lake was blown by the wind, and the sound of ripples was rippling.
I don't know how long it took, and I don't know if the Xijon army withdrew. In short, the palace is very clean at the moment, perhaps because of the early morning. But no matter what, you can still faintly hear the sound of the flames burning the objects, crackling, as if it had burned all night.
Wanning, who had been hiding all night, poked her head out from behind the stone pillar. I looked around, but I didn't see half a figure. Only the fog at dawn was still wafting on the surface of the lake. Probably because of the tiredness of last night, Wan Ning fell asleep under the ruins.
She didn't even hear the sound of the remnants fighting last night. I slept deeply, and when I woke up in the morning, the sky was completely bright. Wan Ning sat up suddenly, only to find that she was in a daze. She subconsciously touched the blood hosta, which was still in her arms.
Not seeing a living person did make Wanning a little scared. On the empty cloister, burned drapery fluttered from time to time. Negligence floated over, so that it was quite frightening. She pinched the blood hosta in her arms, plucked up the courage to continue walking.
"Jun Yan?" When Wan Ning walked to a step, she suddenly saw Jun Yan in a navy blue robe. Wan Ning wasn't sure, so she walked closer to take a look. Sure enough, it's him, Chu Junyan! It's just that he was heavily pressed down by a stone pillar.
Looking at him, it looks like he was pressed here last night. But yesterday, I saw him and Yan Lier fleeing together. Didn't you run away? All kinds of worries lingered in her heart, and Wanning couldn't care much. He pushed him and called his name.
There was no response, "Jun Yan, wake up!" Wan Ning shouted loudly, her voice full of worry, "I'm Wan Ning, look at me...... Jun Yan, Jun Yan! Don't scare me! There was no response to even a sound, and Wan Ning shook her hands, testing his snort.
Luckily, he still had a breath left. It's just too weak, and I think I passed out last night, and I'm relieved. But no matter how Wan Ning shouted, she didn't see Jun Yan wake up, if Yuan Yibin was there at this time. Wanning's heart is a little messy.
Although it was Jun Yan who harmed himself, he also affected Donglu. After all, I helped myself at first. If it weren't for Jun Yan, he wouldn't have survived in the Huanyi Bureau at the beginning. "Xiao Ning," his voice was so soft, so small. But he tried his best to say it.
"Jun Yan, are you okay?" Wan Ning heard the sound of Xiao Ning, and squatted down unconsciously. Gently stroked Jun Yan's cheek, his heart was sour, "Didn't you run away with the queen mother?" What, how did it come back again? What about the Queen? ”
A gardenia, accidentally floating in the air. In a trance, he fell in front of Wanning's eyes. It was originally the season when the flowers fell and bloomed, but it turned into a big dream. Let Wan Ning want to cry without tears: "Jun Yan, you wait, I'll go find someone to save you-"
When he heard her say this, his heart warmed. Unconsciously grabbed her fingers gently, shook her head slightly, and smiled reluctantly: "Stay with me for a while, okay?" I want to talk to you, ......" "Okay," Wan Ning held back tears and nodded slightly.
Heartbreaking, it has been spreading as before. Like smoke, the past echoes in my mind one by one. I really want to go back to the past, to the time when gardenias bloomed. As soon as the gardenias bloom, spring comes. So the traces of the years are slowly moving at this time.
The sun came out, spewing out a golden glow that pierced through the twilight between the clouds. In an instant, the clouds were dyed. The fragments of light and shadow swayed, like a smart life. During the jump, give this sky a touch of joyful vitality.
The thin mist cleared and the lake became clearer. All the flowers and trees that were burned by the fire were broken in the water. There were also broken arrowheads and weapons. Even, there are several unknown corpses floating, which makes people feel frightened when they look at it.
"Will you forgive me?" Jun Yan asked this question vigorously, he wanted to know the answer. After all, it was he who was at fault in the first place. Originally, seizing the throne was a very dangerous thing. But he wants to go off the rails with his sword and reach an agreement with the Xijon army.
Now that he has led the wolf into the house, he regrets it. Holding Wanning's hand tightly, he also became trembling. As he spoke, he couldn't breathe. "I'll keep it, this, the last breath, that is, yes, I want to ask you," Jun Yan said this sentence intermittently, making people unbearable to listen.
At this time, Wanning's eyes were already slightly red. But he was afraid that Jun Yan would be upset, so he forced a smile and said, "Why do you think so?" You just did it, what you should do......" This is probably a word of comfort, Jun Yan's heart is very clear.
He laughed dryly twice, and laughed at himself: "My only regret Chu Junyan is that I can't get your understanding!" He gritted his teeth and said it with all his might. But he slowly exhaled his last breath and closed his eyes slightly.
Sunlight fills every corner, shining in this small open space. The cold breath lingered around, and Wanning hugged Jun Yan and cried bitterly: "Jun Yan? Jun Yan - "There are no more words to confide in a person."
The grievances and grievances of the past have also turned to dust and drifted down with the wind. Many years later, who will remember the past. Who will remember this year today? It was only in the following days, when I flipped through the court deeds, that I saw a line of small print.
"His Royal Highness King Liang Chu Junyan, the only son of the Queen Mother, is brave and good at fighting. Defeated the throne and died in the third year of Tianyuan. In a few short sentences, Jun Yan's life is almost summed up, and no trace can be found. It's also in such an early morning, and also in such a place.
Many years later, in the early morning, the quiet Zhengyang Palace. Wanning hugged Xiao Hong'er and taught him to read poetry and literacy. Hong'er recited poetry at the age of three and read the Analects at the age of five. immediately pointed out this passage: "Uncle Huang has made outstanding achievements, and he should be posthumously crowned, and the historian should be ordered to write about Uncle Huang's achievements!" ”
However, six-year-old Hong'er had such a vision, which made Wanning nod and smile unconsciously. This is not in vain Jun Yan before his death, he handed over Jun Hao's only son Hong'er to her. At first, Wanning was sad and sad, hating why Junhao didn't say anything about Hong'er. Keep her in the dark.
"Chu Junhao! Shame on you! At that time, Wan Ning didn't understand why Jun Hao wanted to hide the truth. When she found Jun Hao, she shook her mouth at him. Even in the face of it, Hong'er, who was only two years old at the time, also hated it to the bone.
A song of song, telling the pain of parting. "Ning'er," Jun Hao was quite helpless, "I don't want Hong'er to get involved in the battle, you should understand......" "You just bear to watch me suffer?" Wanning cried wantonly, as if she wanted to cry out all her grievances.
"Ning'er, I'm sorry," Jun Hao hugged Hong'er, like a child who had made a mistake. "Hong'er is right, don't be angry with children." At that time, Jun Hao's heart for Wanning was constantly accumulating in misunderstandings, and he couldn't explain it later.
The days that followed passed as calm as water, and the cycle continued. Tears wet once recalled, this lonely palace. After all, it is a gorgeous tomb, and what keeps Wanning awake at night is the pain that cannot be erased from the past. The bell rang far away, swaying and parting overnight.