Chapter 44: Thoughts
The old lady's room was unusually spacious, but the swords, guns, swords, and halberds were placed in a room, and it seemed that there was nowhere to put her feet. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info
Zhang Lingxi was led into the house by the Qi family, and when she saw this, she hesitated a little, and the old lady turned around and asked, "How is it, I haven't seen anything like this in your house, right?" ”
The old man has never had the intention of teasing Sun, and these knives and guns seem to be closer to her. Xu didn't have the concept of getting along with children, and the tone in which she spoke to Zhang Lingxi was like asking Qi's.
Zhang Lingxi couldn't help but be envious, the old lady didn't treat her as a child, she liked it. It would be nice to be able to live with the old lady. Zhang Lingxi actually had such an extravagant hope, and then laughed at his greed.
People depend on fate, likes and dislikes are fate, and gathering and dispersing are also fate.
It is said that the sword has no eyes, and the weapons in the old lady's room are shining with a sharp cold light, and Zhang Lingxi is afraid in his heart. But seeing the old lady striding in without any scruples, she felt that these swords were not so terrible, so she took a few steps forward with courage.
The old lady couldn't stop being satisfied, and said to Qi, "The second girl is bolder than you when you were a child, and you were in my house all day long, but when you saw this, you were still trembling with fright, and asked me to throw it out." ”
Qi's expression darkened, and after she made a fuss in fear once or twice, the old lady sealed her treasures in the library. It is said that there is no more fighting, and it is time to seal them up. Qi knew in his heart that his mother couldn't bear to be dusted by these weapons, and everything was for her.
With the old lady's praise and courage, Zhang Lingxi is really no longer afraid of these weapons in his eyes.
The old lady sighed approvingly, "These things seem cold, but they are actually hotter than blood. In the eyes of some people, they are killing weapons, and in the eyes of our soldiers, they are sharp weapons to defend the homeland and the country. The longer you get along, the more you know their temperature. As he spoke, his eyes swept affectionately over each weapon.
Zhang Lingxi chewed the old lady's words instructively, although she couldn't wield a knife and a gun, but the old lady's words made her also feel emotional.
It was also at this time that Zhang Lingxi realized the loneliness in the old lady's heart, the people she had changed all her life were healthy, but the affairs of the old children made her have a deep sense of powerlessness and frustration.
How did a proud person like the old lady feel when she learned that the Qi family, whom she had carefully raised, had eloped with someone's family? I heard that in the family temple, it was the old lady's deafening words that saved Qi's life, what did she use to convince everyone, was it her mother's power, was it the talisman in her hand, or something else?
No wonder the Qi family didn't dare to come back, I'm afraid not only did her father and brother not accept it, but she herself couldn't face the old lady.
Two sea bowls were placed in the small hall separated by the screen, and a jar of wine was placed next to it.
The old lady took a bowl of it and drank it down.
As soon as Qi picked up another bowl, Zhang Lingxi glared at her and pulled her sleeve, and said unhappily, "Mother is not allowed to drink, it stinks." Unpleasant! ”
Such a look and such an action made the old lady and the Qi family stunned. Many years ago, when Qi was still a child, he also pulled the old lady's sleeve like this to prevent her from drinking.
Bloodlines are amazing things, and they can perpetuate what you thought you had lost.
The old lady knew that Qi's body was weak and she couldn't drink, so she took the bowl and drank it all again.
Qi Shi said with red eyes, "You watch your body, your legs are not good, how can you drink like this." ”
"I know my own body." The old lady poured another bowl and said, "It's you who don't care for your body." Isn't it just a man, is it worth it? ”
Although the old lady did not go out of the door and never interfered in Qi's affairs again, she was Qi's mother after all, and she knew what was going on with her at a glance when she saw Qi.
Qi said, "I also know it's not worth it." Aren't there still Ling Chen and Ling Xi? I'm a useless person after all, and I can't be free and easy on your side, old lady. ”
Zhang Lingxi listened with a frown, his heart was not good. She thought that her mother loved her father deeply and wanted her mother to have a better life, so she forcibly matched them regardless of her mother's feelings. Now it seems that for Qi's family, it is a burden.
The Qi family looks soft and weak, but in fact, with the old lady, her temperament is the strongest. Now that she is enduring it for the sake of her daughter, she is extremely tormented in her heart, as if she is roasting her on the fire.
When I saw my mother, I couldn't say what I couldn't say, and I couldn't vent my emotions, as if I had an outlet. Two more lines of tears hung on Qi's face.
"Mother, don't cry." Zhang Lingxi stood on tiptoe in distress to help Qi wipe his tears. She said with a solemn expression, "Mother is good, the eldest sister and Ling Xi are good." The mother doesn't cry, the eldest sister and Ling Xi don't cry. ”
"You see, children understand the truth, but you don't understand it." The old lady's anger vanished.
When her daughter first left home, she was angry and hateful, regretting giving birth to such a daughter. But her daughter was not around, and she was worried that her daughter would be wronged if she ate well, knowing that her daughter was having a hard time in the Zhang family, she asked several sons to clean up the Zhang family to support her daughter. But after all, Congzhen was kicked out of the family, and it was too much for her to protect her once in the eyes of others.
For the first time since she left, she felt lonely. In the past, when she was fighting with swords to kill the enemy, she was trapped in the vast desert, and when she looked up at the sky, she couldn't even see the stars, and she didn't feel lonely. Now that she has children and grandchildren around her knees, she feels lonely.
The daughter who has been raised for more than ten years followed others without any nostalgia, and the old lady felt more uncomfortable than stealing her room of weapons.
She took out the dusty weapons from the storeroom and wiped them one by one, remembering the crying and smiling face of her little daughter. When she picked up the wine and wanted to drink a pot, she would think of her little daughter's disgust and displeasure.
Over the years, the old lady has locked herself in this courtyard, not caring about the people of the society and the house. Her weapons were wiped brand new, but her heart was covered with dust.
"Mother." Qi Shi still couldn't help but call his mother, knelt beside the old lady and sobbed, "Mother, I regret it, I have been regretting it!" ”
But what's the use of regretting, everything that doesn't want to happen has happened.
"Since you regret it, you will leave." The old lady still took pity on her little daughter, and said, "When the time comes, if you are willing, you will come back." When the time comes, find a good family to marry. If you don't want to get married, I'll build you a Buddhist temple and Taoist temple, whether you want to worship the Buddha or want to cultivate the Tao and refine the pill like your second sister-in-law, it's up to you. If you really don't want to go home, I'll buy you an property outside, at least to keep you fed and clothed. ”
The old lady had already said this, and even Zhang Lingxi couldn't help but be moved. How did the Qi family get kicked out of the Prime Minister's Mansion in the first place, isn't that it, her grandmother deceived her for not having her mother's family to set rules for her, so that she suffered a lot of sins as soon as she entered the door. But now, the old lady said that she would support her!
Most of the women who divorced did not end well. But it is different to have a family like Qi that can be relied on, and it is not difficult to marry someone who is better than Zhang Yanyuan.
Qi Shi thought for a while before he said, "Maybe Heli is a good place for me, but if I am Heli, wouldn't it have to involve Ling Chen and Ling Xi." Sister Chen has already agreed to marry, so it may not have much impact. But Sister Xi is still young, won't it affect her future? ”
Zhang Lingxi only hated so much that he wanted to grab the ground with his head, thinking so much, wasn't it Qi himself who was suffering?
She clearly told the Qi family, her mother is doing well, and the eldest sister and her can live well, why doesn't her mother understand what she means?
Zhang Lingxi pinned her hopes on the old lady, hoping that the old lady could say something to wake up the Qi family, so that she could make a break with Zhang Yanyuan as soon as possible.
P.S: The notebook is too old, the response is slow, and the typing is too strenuous. If I don't set a scheduled release tomorrow, I'll be so fat that no one wants to make me grow twenty pounds of meat.