Lin Shen paused, raised his hand, wiped his tears, and after a while, continued: "Later, I learned that in fact, when I was a child, the earth-shattering things that made me cry were really not called things, and now that I think about it, I will feel that at that time, it was a kind of happiness to be able to cry like that." ”

"You know what? Beijing is so big, there are people everywhere, every day in this city, some people are born, some people die, some people are at the tip of wealth, living a life of envy of others, and some people are under the overpass, spending a severe cold and a summer summer, some people live under the overpass from a monopoly overnight to become a beggar, and some people overnight from a beggar under the overpass to a monopoly man looking down on all beings, this shijie, there is no city, can be like Beijing City, so dramatic and so legendary. ”

"Beijing is full of light, whether it is day or night, there are lights everywhere, even in the dark night, you stand on a high place, at a glance, it is so full of flowers, so everyone is eager to survive in this metropolis, thinking about how to live their own glory, but I am different...... For me, Beijing is my hometown, I only think, I only think about my hometown, I want a lamp, a lamp lit for me, I don't want all these lights of thousands of lights to be lit for me, I just want one...... That's what I want, but, you know? It's been a long, long time, and there hasn't been a single light that has been lit for me. ”

"My shijie is so black, but I can't help it, I can only do my best to fight against this black"

"I always thought that as long as I gritted my teeth, I was strong enough, I felt that I had survived for so many years, I still had nothing to survive I felt that I was not afraid of anything, I could become an invulnerable Lin Shen, even if my shijie was in the dark, it didn't matter, as long as I could be worthy of my dead parents, as long as my younger brother Lin Yuan loved to live well, whether I lived well or badly, it didn't matter at all, so, I kept telling me, I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid of anything......"

"But I'm still so scared...... I'm really afraid....... without light, the fear in my heart will come out and devour me, even if the light is not for me, it is for others, even if I just look at it from afar, I won't be so afraid......."

Lin Shen cried a little silently, her shoulders kept twitching, and after a long time, she choked up and continued: "I was raised by my parents as a princess since I was a child, but later, I have to take care of everything."

When Lin Shen said this, his tone became a little excited: "But, do you know, I was not born to take on everything, my dream is not to be a queen alone, but I have no choice......"

"Do you know how happy those willful and naïve women are in my eyes?"

"Because behind them, there are always people who protect their innocence and their willfulness."

"On this shijie, there is no woman who is born sophisticated and sensible, they are all forced by life." ――