Chapter 370: The Beginning and the End

"Why didn't you look surprised at all? I'm counting on your frightened face. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info" When Chenxing recovered a little bit of emotion and sat upright in front of himself, Qiu Suxin smiled and spoke.

Qiu Suxin first moved her chopsticks and reached into the vegetable bowl, took a piece of fish meat and put it in her mouth, her eyebrows and eyes were curved, and the spicy and hot taste made her immediately open her mouth and stick out her tongue after taking a bite, and kept waving her hand on the edge of her mouth, "Wow, it's really a little spicy, but it's delicious." You eat a little and see, knowing that you can't eat spicy food, I've asked the boss to put less chili peppers. She took a few pieces of fish and put them into Chenxing's bowl opposite, "This one tastes best when it's hot." ”

"Okay, okay, I'll clip it myself, you can eat it yourself." Chenxing picked up the chopsticks and responded to the other party, he took a piece of fish, carefully took a small bite, and immediately covered his mouth, as if he was spicy.

"Just a few more bites to get used to, don't spoil yourself too much. If you insist on not eating spicy food like this, you will miss out on a lot of delicious food. I didn't eat spicy food before, but after trying it a few times, I realized that I was too biased. Ups and downs, life is full of flavors, if you don't eat spicy, this person's life doesn't seem to be complete. Qiu Suxin looked at Chenxing with a warm smile.

"It's just that they have their own preferences, and if you don't like it in the first place, you force yourself to like it, so will you really be happy? I don't eat spicy food originally, and I won't try these in the future. Chenxing said this, but he didn't put down his chopsticks, and still ate the fish one bite at a time.

Qiu Suxin's face calmed down, and soon smiled extraordinarily cheerfully, "Look at you, if you don't eat, you won't eat, I know that no one can force you." Speaking of which, didn't you eat some spicy food at the earliest, but a long time ago, after you participated in a variety show, you were tricked by the host and ate a few noodles stirred with super spicy chili sauce, and then you were bitten by a snake and afraid of the well rope for ten years. I remember that you were so teary-eyed that you were jumping around all over the place, and you were pitiful......"

"Can't you forget all this troubled thing for so long? I didn't even know you at the time, why do you remember it so well? Chenxing pursed his lips in dissatisfaction.

"Because it's so unforgettable, how can you not remember? Otherwise, why do you think I can't help but laugh when I see you for the first time, and forgive you so easily? How long has that been, seven or eight years ago, and it seems that that episode was also the highest-rated show ever...... It's been so many years in a blink of an eye, and your psychological shadow of eating spicy food is still so heavy. Qiu Suxin talked while eating, a few pieces of fish went down, and as the floodgates of memory from the past opened, the atmosphere between the two sides was not as restrained as before.

"It's all said to make you forget!" Chenxing snatched her chopsticks and grabbed a piece of fish to gag her.

"I knew it was so pleasant to eat with you at a roadside stall, I should have gone to the night market with you back then, there are a lot of non-spicy snacks there, and it would be more enjoyable to eat with you." But I'm naïve to have rejected you so many times. Halfway through eating, Qiu Suxin suddenly said.

“…… That's not what I said, I don't blame you for this. And we often secretly send each other supper. Chenxing chewed the fish in his mouth, and wanted to change the subject, "Ah, after eating so much, it seems to be getting better and better." ”

"yes, why do you want to do it secretly. At that time, you were much braver than me, and at that time, if I nodded, would we be different now? Qiu Suxin stared at Chenxing and didn't eat anything.

Chenxing slowly put down his chopsticks. The wounds of the past should not be mentioned again, but now they are brought up, if not for revenge, then for healing—to be completely healed, so that a new life can begin.

That's why we have to say goodbye to the past.

Let's start, start and end.

Chenxing thought of Qiu Suxin's new single, and his heart swelled with more and more depressed bitterness.

"Sorry to upset you. I didn't plan to say this, but when I see you, I can't help but think about it. However, those things are in the past. ”

"Really...... Is it all in the past? Chenxing bit his pale lower lip and suddenly spoke, with a hint of determination in his eyes.

Qiu Suxin's expression was calm, but there was a hint of encouragement in his eyes when he looked at Chenxing, encouraging him to say his words.

"For you, I can only be the past, and never become, your future?" Chenxing's words were very slow, and in his restrained tone, there was unwillingness and grievances that had accumulated in his heart for so many years.

"Chenxing," Qiu Suxin still smiled, a little unbearable, but equally resolute, she softly called Chenxing's name, with an emotional sigh, like a tuft of feathers, plucked the heartstrings that Chenxing's heart was hidden deepest, "Since we met, you have written me 49 letters and sent 88 postcards......"

Chenxing had a glimmer of expectation because of Qiu Suxin's pause, and this faint expectation was wiped out in Qiu Suxin's next sentence.

"Not long ago, I burned all these things." Qiu Suxin didn't pay attention to the reaction that these words brought to Chenxing, and continued, "And all the small gifts you gave me, I gave them away. By the way, my little niece loves that big pink Kitty you bought......"

Chenxing's lips twitched, he sniffed, some water spilled from his eyes, he lowered his head and took another deep breath, smiling very reluctantly, and his words were a little incoherent, "Why?" ”

Qiu Suxin's eyes looked away, "He said that he loves me very much, he is willing to do everything for me, and he has the ability." He will do everything he can to give me all the freedom I want. He allowed me to keep any of my waywardness. If I'm not happy about the commercial performance, I can not go, and when there is no arrangement, I can go wherever I want, and he will not ask. Like now, when I was out alone, he only told me to be safe. If I don't want to move, just call him and say I need him, and he'll show up and pick me up......"

"I can do that! Even if it is difficult for me for the time being, I will try to do it whenever you need it. Chenxing's tears fell, and he said in a low voice.

"He was the one my mother assigned to take care of me before she died."

Chenxing closed his eyes, knowing that he had lost completely.

"Actually, none of this is the most important thing for me, and the most important thing is that he doesn't have the talent of you, Chenxing." Qiu Suxin looked at him so deeply through tears, "Chenxing, you are the most suitable star for the stage I have ever seen, you on the stage are as dazzling as the emperor of this world." Maybe others can't see it, but I know that I'm not mistaken. ”

"I don't have anything now, not even you......" Chenxing shook his head, unable to hide his sadness any longer.

"I can't bring these things of yours with him, that would be too unfair to him." Qiu Suxin was still smiling, tears slowly spilling out of his eyes, falling very slowly, "Chenxing, I'm sorry, I even have to shatter this little thought of yours." ”

"You're not sorry for me. It's me, thinking too much, in fact, I have never been the person who can protect you and make you feel at ease in your mind, so you have never chosen me. I'm sorry, but I still want to be friends with you, and I'm bothering you. Chenxing wiped his face with his hand, the back of his hand getting wet over and over again.

"No, you're not thinking too much. I liked you before, and I like you now, but I don't dare to love you too much. Qiu Suxin shook his head, "It's me who is timid, I'm afraid of myself, and I can't love you." You and I are two people who are too similar, and my mother always objected, saying that two people like us would destroy each other if they were together. When you say that you are willing to give up everything you have, only be with me, only support my own music, and my career will be your career in the future, do you know how happy and happy I am? But I was so scared. Chenxing, you shouldn't be like this, you shouldn't be my foil, you have your talent. I don't dare to nod my head, I'm afraid that after many years, you will regret it, and I am the culprit who ruined your life. ”

"No......" Chenxing wanted to say.

Qiu Suxin held his hand, "Mom died, when I sat next to her for three days and three nights, I regretted it so much that I wanted to die, why was I so disobedient before, why did I worry so much." As long as she can survive, I will do whatever she wants me to do, whether it is marrying or having children, or not touching music in the future. My life is my own, but it is also linked to hers, what right do I have to separate her life from mine? If I had listened to her earlier and didn't insist on making music, even if I regretted it later, even if I kept complaining about her in the future, it would be better than regretting that I wanted to kill myself like this. Every choice in life is followed by countless regrets, and there is no choice without regrets, it just depends on whether you can afford it. I didn't choose you today, I know I will regret it, I will be reluctant, but compared to the irreparable many years later, let me regret because I chose you to make you give up the dream of life, and now I think this regret is worth it. ”

"And, he's been so nice to me, so good, so good that I won't be sad for too long for giving up on you. I want to be as nice as I can with him. ”

"It's good if you're happy." Chenxing smoked a piece of tissue paper and began to sniff. The paper was pulled so hard by him that it broke in two, and he laughed twice with a pretended humor, and wiped it on his face twice casually. Tears mixed with the crumbs of the not-so-good tissue paper made his smiling and tearful face look a little funny.

"Chenxing, don't hate my mother. I'm thankful that she reminded me. If she hadn't locked me up, and I really didn't care about being with you at that time, would I never have seen you on the stage again? I am scared when I think about it. ”

"Who do I have to hate now?" Chenxing took the scraps of paper off his face bit by bit.

"Chenxing, don't forget your dreams. Go back to the stage and let me know that my choice was not wrong and my fear was correct. I'll feel more at ease that way. Qiu Suxin held one of Chenxing's hands and said, tightened, and then slowly let go.

Chen Xing's other hand suddenly covered Qiu Suxin's hand, and his eyes were a little rippling starlight, "Now, I'm willing, I don't have any talent!" ”

Fool. On the roadside stall of another house, through a curtain, Gu Lian smiled sarcastically but without any mocking strength, took another sip of beer, and commented softly. (To be continued.) If you like this work, you are welcome to come to the starting point (qidian.com) to vote for recommendation, monthly pass, your support, is my biggest motivation. )